song of the day for this lovely weather

tag thing

i was tagged by @rapmonphile !! Hmm Mags i haven’t said this in a while but i love you!!! ✨💗 and you are a wonderful and beautiful person, and we haven’t talked in a while but I’m still so grateful for you and you are and will always be Sugamon’s gf in my book!! 🌟

If I were a…

month: may

day: saturday

planet: pluto 

god or goddess: either apollo or aphrodite

sea animal: sea turtle or panda

piece of furniture: bed

gemstone: rose quartz

flower: daisy 

weather: when it’s cold but still sunny and you can feel the sunlight warming up your skin

color: yellow

emotion: that happy feeling you get when you listen to a song/band you absolutely love and it makes you so happy that you can feel your eyes watering and your smile getting bigger, you’re full of emotion (does that make sense?? that’s how i felt when i watched monsta x’s live performances the other day :’) i was crying)

fruit: orange

element: air

place: a flower field! Like those flower fields full of tulips!

taste:  sweet

scent: the smell after it rains or the smell after you came from the beach (salt water, sunscreen, etc)

body part: eyes

im tagging: @blushao @kpop-loving-noona @hixtae @honeyjihoons @chim-jiminie-cricket (btw you are all lovely 💖💐✨🌸 don’t forget that!!)

170619 Naver Today’s Music - Summer Songs Recommended By BTS

Jungkook’s recommendation: Steve Aoki, Louis Tomlinson - Just Hold On

“Exciting songs are a must when it comes to summer right? The more you listen to this song, the better your mood will be, it’s great for summer.”

Jungkook’s recommendation: One Ok Rock - We Are

“When you sweat and are tired because of the hot weather, you can find your inner peace by listening to this song. If you turn it on so loud as if your earphones are going to burst, it’ll give you strength no matter how hot and frustrated you feel.”

Jimin’s recommendation: YUI - Good-Bye Days

“It’s a song I have been listening to a lot since I was young. I don’t know since when but I have come to listen to this song whenever I feel good, tired or sad, regardless of the season. I think it’s a good song to enjoy when summer comes too.

Jimin’s recommendation: Sara Bareilles - Love Song

“This song makes your mood better just from listening to it. I want to listen to this song in the summer too.”

V’s recommendation: Chet Baker - Blue Room

“This is a song by my favorite trumpeter Chet Baker. It suits summer nights too. I want to make a song with this kind of mood.”

V’s recommendation: Sigur Ros - All Alright

“I like songs that can be listened to at dawn the most. It’s a good song to listen to when walking on the bridge at dawn in the summer. This is also one of the songs with styles that I want to try composing among my favorite songs.”

J-hope’s recommendation: Jazzyfact - Waste Of Time

“A song that expresses well the feeling of wasting time staying at home in the beautiful summer. Whenever I listen to this song, I want to go out and play.”

J-hope’s recommendation: Justin Bieber - Beauty And A Beat

“The first song that comes to my mind when talking about summer. Every piece of melody makes me think of the sea. It gives the summer vibe even when listening in other seasons.”

Rap Monster’s recommendation: Frank Ocean - Super Rich Kids

“The first song that comes to my mind when talking about summer. It has just the right amount of excitement and relaxation. I want to listening to this song and lie down on the tube, floating on the water. It makes me feel like a ‘super rich kids’ like the title.”

Rap Monster’s recommendation: Peppertones - Ready, Get Set, Go!

“If Frank Ocean’s song is the sea or swimming pool, this song makes me think of the mountain or park. When it’s hot, speeding down on a bike while turning on bluetooth speaker loudly and let the wind embrace my face is just perfect. Such a simple thing like that makes me more excited and enjoy the summer more.”

Suga’s recommendation: DJ DOC - Summer Story

“When I was young, I used to go to the manga store to escape the heat and this song was always turned on there. I think the store owner really liked this song. I always think of this song whenever summer comes.”

Suga’s recommendation: Clon - Kung Dari Shabara

“I once went to Cheongsong Valley with my cousin in the hot summer when I was young. We sang ‘Kung Dari Shabara’ together there. I still remember that time clearly whenever talking about summer now.”

Jin’s recommendation: Julia Michaels - Issues

“I listened to this song for the first time when I went to Billboard Music Awards not long ago. Seeing her welled up with emotions and cried after the performance ended made me feel ‘So that’s emotions’. Her voice’s really beautiful, I hope many people will listen to this when summer comes.”

Jin’s recommendation: Luis Fonsi, Justin Bieber, Daddy Yankee - Despacito

“This song makes you feel like you’re at a festival in South America. A perfect song to dance to alone when you wake up in the morning and take a shower. I get excited for no reason from listening to this song.”

💗30 Days of Self Love 💗

This is a 30 day challenge meant to help people improve their self-esteem and learn to love and appreciate themselves a little bit more! You can start this challenge whenever you want, completing each day in the order listed or in whatever order you prefer. If any day is too uncomfortable to complete you can feel free to skip it and come back to it later or just skip it entirely.

If you choose to do this challenge please tag your posts with #30DaySelfLoveChallenge or #30 Day Self Love Challenge so everyone else who is doing it can view all the responses!

💗 Day 01: On a scale from 1-10 (with 1 being “horrible, can’t possibly be any worse” and 10 being “wonderful, can’t possibly be any better”), how would you rate your self-esteem right now? Why would you rate it that way?

💗 Day 02: List out at least 5 accomplishments or achievements you’ve made that you are proud of. These can be small or large, recent or made further back.

💗 Day 03: List out at least 5 non-physical things you like about yourself. These can be personality traits, talents, things you’ve done for other people, etc.

💗 Day 04: List out at least 5 physical things you like about yourself.

💗 Day 05: People are often kinder to others than they are to themselves, so imagine yourself from the perspective of a loved one. If you were your own best friend, what would your outside impression of yourself be?

💗 Day 06: Think of how old you were when you first started struggling with your self-esteem and write a letter of encouragement to your younger self.

💗 Day 07: List out at least 5 compliments people have given you. These can be compliments from people IRL or online and they can be about anything.

💗 Day 08: List out at least 5 good things that have happened recently. These can be things that have happened to you or to someone else or even just good stories you’ve heard in the news.

💗 Day 09: When your emotions get to be too much, what are some healthy things you can do to ground you and help you calm down? List out as many as you can think of.

💗 Day 10: Imagine you have a loved one who is on a long voyage (to sea, outer space, wherever) and misses you desperately. What would they write in a letter to you? What would they miss about you? Write a love letter to yourself.

💗 Day 11: List out at least 5 quotes that inspire you or make you feel happy.

💗 Day 12: List out at least 5 songs that make you happy when you listen to them.

💗 Day 13: Imagine the perfect day. What does it look like for you? Describe the weather, where you’re at, what you’re doing, who (if anyone) you’re with, and how it all makes you feel.

💗 Day 14: Many people have a problem with comparing themselves negatively to others. Take a moment to truly acknowledge the progress you have made in life without comparing that progress to anyone else. How have you become a better person? What hobbies do you have that you’ve improved at? What other areas of your life (no matter how small) have you gotten better in? List out as many examples as you can think of.

💗 Day 15: Being positive towards others can often help people be positive about themselves, so take some time and send anonymous positive messages to at least 10 people. These can be compliments or just a “hope you have a good day!”, to people you follow or just random people in tags you track. Look at how these people react to your messages and describe how it makes you feel.

💗 Day 16: List out at least 5 fictional characters you admire or connect with and describe what it is you admire about them.

💗 Day 17: What is your favorite positive interest or hobby? Describe how you first got into it and what you like about it.

💗 Day 18: List out at least 5 “I will ___” statements that you can apply to your day-to-day life in order to be more positive (example: I will believe people when they compliment me, I will ignore the voice in my head that tells me to doubt myself, etc.).

💗 Day 19: List out at least 5 coping statements. Coping statements are statements you use in order to feel better about yourself/your current state (example: I’m going to be okay, My feelings are difficult but I can handle them, I will survive this situation, etc).

💗 Day 20: Go outside. Use all your senses to observe your environment and identify things around you that you like, that make you feel calm or happy. Describe what those things are, what you see/hear/feel/smell that makes you feel calm or happy.

💗 Day 21: Everyone makes mistakes. What defines people is not that they have made mistakes but that they have learned from them and made an effort to do better in the future. List out at least 1 mistake you have made (using however much or little detail as you feel comfortable with) and describe how you have learned from it and grown as a person after making it.

💗 Day 22: List out at least 5 good deeds you have done for other people. These can be small things or large ones and can be as simple as something nice you’ve done for/said to someone rather than an actual favor.

💗 Day 23: List out at least 5 things that make you laugh. These can be jokes, movies, youtube videos or anything else.

💗 Day 24: What are you insecure about? Divide these things into two lists: things you can change and things you can’t. Now imagine that someone else has made this list. What advice or words of support would you give them about their insecurities?

💗 Day 25: What bad habits do you have? Make a list of them sorted by the ones you think will be easiest to break to the hardest. Beside of each bad habit write out things you can do in order to improve on them or ideas for more positive things you can do as alternatives to whatever the bad habit is.

💗 Day 26: What good habits do you have? What things do you already do that are positive and healthy and how did you come to start doing them? What advice would you give to people who struggle with those things?

💗 Day 27: Imagine your ideal self, focusing mostly on non-physical traits. How would this person feel about themself? What kind of person are they? What kind of friend are they to the people they care about? How is this ideal self different from you as you are now? List out things you can do in order to be more like them.

💗 Day 28: List out at least 5 short-term goals (things you want to do this week/this month/this year) and at least 5 long-term goals (things you want to do in the next 5+ years).

💗 Day 29: List out at least 5 reasons to stay alive.

💗 Day 30: Now that the challenge is over, rate your self-esteem again. On a scale from 1 to 10 (with 1 being “horrible, can’t possibly be any worse” and 10 being “wonderful, can’t possibly be any better”), where is your self-esteem at now? Why would you rate it that way? List out the things you have learned about yourself from doing this challenge and how you can continue to improve your self-esteem from here on out.

Let me learn about you,
about all the little things you do,
about your favourite flower
and the songs you sing in the shower

Let me look at you up close
from the back of your hand
to the tip of your nose,
your prominent cheekbones
and your little toes

Let me know of your dearest story
which filled days with endless glory,
so we can lay in bed when there’s shitty weather,
to read it out loud and escape together.

—  // let me love you
j.d.m.
31 Day Journal Challenge
  • Welcome to my journal challenge, you can interpret these is any way you like. Feel free to submit your journal challenge pages to my blog and I'll post them, I'd love to see how creative you guys get with these!
  • OR tag them with #liljournalchallenge
  • Have fun!!
  • 1: The last song you listened to
  • 2: Doodle your happy place, real or fantasy
  • 3: Today's weather
  • 4: The things you ate and drank today
  • 5: Dear ____, I love you because...
  • 6: Colours
  • 7: What kept you awake last night
  • 8: Write down a secret that no one else knows, then do something to the page to make it unreadable
  • 9: Doodle and write down the contents of your wallet/purse/handbag/backpack
  • 10: Quote of the day
  • 11: Your sexuality
  • 12: A collage
  • 13: What are you worried/stressed about
  • 14: The great outdoors
  • 15: Your favourite poem
  • 16: Ink/black & white
  • 17: Reasons to smile
  • 18: Sketch some tattoo ideas for yourself
  • 19: Write a letter to someone you used to love
  • 20: Space
  • 21: The song stuck in your head
  • 22: Books to read
  • 23: Flowers
  • 24: Your mood-board
  • 25: Doodle your favourite animals
  • 26: Bucket list
  • 27: a e s t h e t i c
  • 28: Your Hogwarts house
  • 29: Survival guide
  • 30: Current season
  • 31: Favourite phrases in other languages
  • Please don't make any edits or changes to this post. Thanks.
Hallelujah

Summary: Through Bucky’s eyes, he falls in and out of love with you.

Pairing: Fem!Reader x Bucky Barnes

Word Count: 1,545 (incl. lyrics)

Warnings: Angst. 

A/N: Heard this song today and well, this came out. Hope you all enjoy.

Originally posted by gliceria


Well I heard there was a secret chord
That David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don’t really care for music, do you?
Well it goes like this: the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah 

I remember the day I met her. I recall everything, the clothes she was wearing, the weather, the name of the waitress that was taking my order, how stale the soda became because I was so entranced with her, with the way she moved. I remember everything. And every now and again, my brain goes over this occasion, because it does not want to forget, does not want these details of such a monumental moment in my life to fade away.

Keep reading

anonymous asked:

What do you think bangtan would be like if they were born in The states or UK???Like fuckboy, nerd etc etc 🙈

JHOPE:

DAY: Well … he will be Jay

Originally posted by bangtannoonas

NIGHT: he will still be Jay but naked

Originally posted by mimibtsghost

RAP MONSTER:

DAY: A model university student at Harvard

Originally posted by namjoonsgurl

NIGHT: Working on a website that will make him drop out from it later and be called Namjoon Gates

Originally posted by taetaehyungs

JIN: 

DAY: He will be a reality show personnality as he is both handsome and entertaining

Originally posted by ksjknj

NIGHT: Not letting any girl in the world sleep or get married because Mr Woldwide Handsome is still single and free

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

SUGA: 

DAY: Yoongi loves music so much no matter the weather, the country or the planet. he will be a producer at first

Originally posted by jkookisdaddy

NIGHT: Turning up at sold out concerts. He will be one of the best selling artists of our times. Eminem would want him to marry his daughter Hailie, but yoongi only loves music. Too bad! Too bad! 

Originally posted by parkejimins

JIMIN: 

DAY: A prodigee dancer that mastered every dance style

Originally posted by cute-pale

NIGHT: Turns off his phone because Beyonce is still trying to join him so he can choregraph her next song. He likes keeping his work and personal life seperate. He is secretly dating an athlete But the paparazzi still can’t find who.

TAEHYUNG

DAY: Handsome innocent english professor

Originally posted by yoongichii

NIGHT: Drag queen to leach his sass

Originally posted by jinips

JUNGKOOK

DAY: worked so hard as a bunny at disney land

Originally posted by just-sad-fandom-trash

NIGHT : trained hard to become later an athlete with numorous golden medals making him the golden pride of his generation

Originally posted by scaredful

Well that’s all in my head hahaha. I hope you enjoyed reading it ^^
By @mimibtsghost

Reasons why “Last Kiss” is a lyrical masterpiece:

- “The words that you whispered / For just us to know“

- “The beat of your heart / It jumps through your shirt / I can still feel your arms”

- “I don’t know how to be something you miss / I never thought we’d have a last kiss”

- “So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep / And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe”

- “And something reminds you / You wish you had stayed / You can plan for a change in weather and time / But I never planned on you changing your mind“

- “Never imagined we’d end like this / Your name, forever the name on my lips”

And the most important line : “Writer: Taylor Swift”

carlos loves to listen to really loud music, especially when he’s working, and one day cecil freaks out cause he thinks carlos is somehow controlling the weather

“CARLOS NO THAT’S ILLEGAL YOU’VE KILLED US ALL!” “cecil no im playing this from spotify, look, see?” “whats…. spot tif fie? is this some sort of science thing you made?“ "you… ok you know what never mind i’ll show you later”

cecil ends up liking being able to just play music, but he’s really bad at using the app, so he has one song per playlist. just one song, and he keeps switching between 200 playlists

carlos eventually helps him out and he gets everything organized into a normal ish playlist

one day carlos decides to play cecil’s playlist – it’s just different frequencies of fish screaming underwater

cecil calls it “new age heavy metal”

fall playlist 2016

it’s finally october, which means the beginning of fall, aka the best time of the year 🍂 i put together a playlist of songs to listen to while the leaves change and the weather cools off ✨🍁🌙

1. all is now harmed - ben howard
2. all too well - taylor swift
3. always - panama
4. angela - the lumineers 
5. antichrist - the 1975
6. atlas - coldplay
7. autumn leaves - ed sheeran
8. better love - hozier
9. big bad world - kodaline
10. bloom - the paper kites
11. bones - ben howard
12. call me in the afternoon - half moon run
13. canyon moon - andrew mcmahon in the wilderness
14. change of heart - the 1975
15. cherry wine (mahogany sessions) - hozier
16. clocks go forward - james bay
17. coming down - halsey
18. conrad - ben howard
19. days go on - greg laswell
20. dive deep - andrew belle
21. down in the valley - the head and the heart
22. the emotion - børns 
23. everlong (acoustic) - foo fighters
24. fade away (acoustic) - rebelution
25. faded (odesza remix) - zhu
26. fire and the flood - vance joy
27. the ghost on the shore - lord huron
28. gold - imagine dragons
29. grand optimist - city and colour
30. habits of my heart - jaymes young
31. half moon - blind pilot
32. haunting - halsey
33. heartbreak warfare - john mayer
34. heartless - the fray
35. hometown - twenty one pilots
36. i found - amber run
37. i know places (taylor swift cover) - vance joy
38. i’ll be good - jaymes young 
39. if you ever want to be in love - james bay
40. jerome - zella day
41. the last time (feat. gary lightbody) - taylor swift 
42. meet me in the woods - lord huron
43. mess is mine - vance joy
44. northern wind - city and colour
45. one day - kodaline
46. peaches - in the valley below
47. rebellion (lies) - arcade fire
48. red - taylor swift
49. red eye - vance joy
50. shadow preachers - zella day
51. silver and gold - city and colour
52. sleeping sickness - city and colour
53. somebody else - the 1975
54. sparks - coldplay
55. stop this train - john mayer
56. the stranger - lord huron
57. sweet disposition - temper trap
58. to zion - trevor hall 
59. trojans - atlas genius
60. trouble (stripped audio) - halsey
61. way down we go - kaleo
62. the wolf - mumford & sons
63. the wolves (act i and ii) - bon iver
64. yellow - coldplay
65. 90210 (feat. g-eazy) - blackbear

V-DAY:  love songs / cute songs / feeling good songs

  1. Arctic Monkeys - “Baby, I’m Yours”
  2. Childish Gambino - “pink toes (feat. Jhene Aiko)”
  3. Motion City Soundtrack - “It Had to Be You”
  4. Bad Suns - “Cardiac Arrest”
  5. Beach Weather - “Goddess”
  6. The Black Keys - “The Only One”
  7. Paramore - “The Only Exception” 
  8. alt-J - “Every Other Freckle”
  9. Death Cab for Cutie - “I Will Follow You into the Dark”
  10. Saint Motel - “Cold Cold Man”
  11. Arctic Monkeys - “I Wanna Be Yours”
  12. The Wombats - “Give Me a Try”
  13. Ariana Grande - “Into You”
  14. PUBLIC - “Pretty Face”
  15. Albert Hammond Jr. - “Bright Young Thing”
  16. Alex Turner - “Piledriver Waltz”
  17. The Drums - “Kiss Me Again”
  18. New Politics - “Stuck on You”
  19. All Time Low - “Daydream Away”
  20. The Maine - “Thinking of You”
  21. Say Anything - “I Want to Know Your Plans”
  22. New Politics - “Fall Into These Arms”
  23. Fall Out Boy - “I’m Like a Lawyer With the Way I’m Always Trying to Get You Off (Me & You)”

[spotify link] [playmoss link]

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7-26-17 | 96/100 Days of Productivity

hi everybody, sorry for having not posted in a like over a week. even though my summer school’s over, things have still been pretty hectic for me, oops. but i’m back, and i only have four days left for this challenge? wowza. anyways, california weather is trippy af, one minute it’s pretty nice with some cool winds, the next minute … it’s hot. very hot.

i hope you all have been alright! again, drink lots of water and be sure to treat yourself every now and then :’))

🎶 currently listening to : If You - NU’EST W (it’s such a lovely song alskjf;alskdf i hope they get all the support they truly deserve)

Ryden Theory

This is a compilation of evidence confirming the very popular sun and moon theory (and overall ryden). Basically, the theory is that Panic! At The Disco’s Brendon Urie and Ryan Ross have a romantic relationship, which they hint at in songs through the titles ‘sun’ (Brendon) and ‘moon’ (Ryan). I will prove this theory to be true using lyrics from Ryan’s solo music, Panic! Lyrics, lyrics from songs released by Ryan’s band ‘The Young Veins,’ and general background knowledge of the bands. I do not mean to offend anyone, and I am not saying this is fact. I just know us fangirls need some hope, so I’m gathering it all into one (soft and) neat pile. I understand that Brendon is happily married, and this is only for fun.
Let’s begin:
 
A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out:
This was the band’s first album, meaning Ryan and Brendon had not known each other as long, and may not have been together yet. So, understandably, there are no sun and moon references in this album.
Pretty. Odd.:
1- Nine In The Afternoon- “And your eyes are the size of the moon.” This is a simple reference to the moon, but considering it is mentioned in a song that refers to the people in the song as lovers (“feeling as good as lovers can”), it can be seen as evidence.
2- Do You Know What I’m Seeing?- “Clouds are marching along,” “I never gave a damn about the weather and it never gave a damn about me,” and “birds are just hollow words.” All of these lyrics are describing things that can be found in the sky, as if the song is from the point of view of something in the sky, like a sun or a moon. Also, if you really wanna stretch it, you could take the lyric “if I go to hell, will you come with me” as evidence. Going to hell is going down, and something that lives in the sky might see earth as hell.
3- I Have Friends In Holy Spaces- “I’d like it a lot more than you think, if the sun would come out and sing with me.” Ryan sings very rarely, but after this song, Ryan has some important vocal parts. Sure, Ryan is the moon, so that doesn’t make too much sense, but it seems too perfect to be a coincidence.
4- Northern Downpour- “Hey moon, please forget to fall down.” It says moon, and I’m not gonna try to look any farther into the lyrics because I don’t understand what sugarcane and weather vanes have to do with anything.
5- When The Day Met The Night- “When the moon fell in love with the sun,” “When the sun found the moon,”and “All was golden when the day met the night.” This song is the best piece of evidence for this theory. The entire song is just telling the love story of the sun and the moon. Also, in a live version of the song, Brendon accidentally used male pronouns for both the sun and the moon.
6- She Had The World- “Spun the stars on her fingernails,” “When I look in her eyes, well I, just see the sky,” and “the sun was always in her eyes.” The entire song makes many references to the sky, which is a clue in itself, but the song also specifically says that they see the sun in the person’s eyes.
7- Mad As Rabbits- (Evidence of ryden, not sun and moon) “Paul Cates” and “Reinvent love.” Paul Cates is an lgbt activist, and reinvent love is referring to lgbt relationships, like ryden.
 
Vices And Virtues:
This is the album after Ryan left, so almost none of this evidence is sun and moon, and instead just Brendon being salty af.
1- The Ballad Of Mona Lisa- “Say what you mean, tell me I’m right, and let the sun rain down on me.” I take this as Brendon being angry that Ryan left, and saying ‘Well forget our sun and moon thing’ by using it in spite of him.
2- Let’s Kill Tonight- Let me begin this by saying, I thought this song was talking about having a hell of a night, but he might be saying ‘let’s murder Ryan tonight.’ I’ll take it piece by piece. “Make room! We’re taking over here.” Everyone says Ryan left because of musical differences, so Brendon might be saying that he is finally taking control of the band and doing what he wants with it. “Cold and alone, it suits you well.” This is probably Brendon teasing Ryan by saying that he will be alone because he no longer has Brendon. “May your feet serve you well, and the rest be sent to hell.” His feet serving him well is referring to him walking out on the band, and the other part is just him telling him to go to hell. “Where they have always belonged.” He is telling Ryan he belongs in hell. “Cold hearts brew colder songs.” This honestly might be a crack at Ryan’s songwriting skills. “Let’s kill tonight.” Basically, he wants to murder Ryan.
3- Hurricane- “You’re behind my eyelids when I’m all alone.” He still thinks about Ryan, but he is ashamed of that. “I want you to catch me like a cold.” He wants to be held in Ryan’s arms. “Give me peace, Oh, kiss me.” He wants Ryan to kiss him. Pretty obvious.
4- Memories- “She was the youngest of the family, and the last to be let go.” Brendon is the youngest band member and will be the last original member to be let go because everyone else left poor bden. “When they decided they would try to make it on their own.” Jon and Ryan decided to try and make music on their own. “When July became December, their affection fought the cold.” Ryan left in July, so maybe Ryan and Brendon tried to stay together after he left, but it slowly became harder because of touring and being in different bands. “They were young and independent, And they thought they had it planned, Should have known right from the start, you can’t predict the end.” Ryan and Brendon thought they would be together forever, but they did not.
5- Trade Mistakes- I feel like Brendon wrote this song from Ryan’s POV after he left Panic! Keep that in mind when reading the lyrics. “If I ever leave, I could learn to miss you, but ‘sentimental boy’ is my nom de plume.” A nom de plume is a pseudonym. So, he may be saying, Ryan seems emotionally cold, but he really does miss Brendon after leaving. “If I trade mistakes for sheep.” This is saying that leaving panic! Was a mistake on Ryan’s part.
6- Always- “I’m a fly that’s trapped in a web, but I’m thinking that, my spider’s dead.” He is saying that he is in love (caught in a web), but the spider is never going to come end his suffering (Ryan will never come back.) The song overall is a hopeless song of unrequited love that seems to perfectly fit the emotions Brendon would be feeling after his boyfriend left him.
7- Sarah Smiles- “I was fine just a guy living on my own, waiting for the sky to fall.” This is saying that he was all alone, waiting for the moon to come back. (I died when I figured that one out.)
8- Nearly Witches- “Marching clocks.” This is a lyric from Behind The Sea, so Brendon is referencing Ryan’s lyrics. (This lyric was one added by Brendon, so it was not from the demo.) “As a girl.” He was trying so hard to make it sound like he wasn’t talking about Ryan that it has the opposite effect. “Trembling hands play my heart like a drum but the beats gotten lost in the show.” This is saying that Ryan (a musician) used to love Brendon, but now Brendon wasn’t so sure if he did.
9- Stall Me- “Why would you bring me in if you knew what you’d become?” Brendon is asking why Ryan would ever start their relationship if he knew he was going to leave the band. “So curse everyone and everything, even the sun.” I think Brendon is saying that he hates everything, even himself.
10- Kaleidoscope Eyes- “I’ll still be here, wishing and waiting for you to come home.” Does that even need explaining?
 
Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die:
At this point, Brendon is in a very serious relationship (which became marriage in April of the year this album was released), so he had no references to Ryan. If you look really far into it (which I have done), you will find evidence, but it makes me sound like a crazy conspiracist.
Death Of A Bachelor:
1- House of Memories- “Memories turn into daydreams.” He is referencing the song Memories, saying that the pain that comes with remembering Ryan has faded. “When your fantasies. Become your legacies, promise me a place, in your house of memories.” He is saying that whenever Ryan becomes big in the music industry (hopefully), Brendon wants Ryan to remember him. “I think of you from time to time, more than I thought I would.” Brendon continues to think about Ryan, even six years after Ryan left. “Thoughts of past lovers, they’ll always haunt me.” Brendon continues on the idea of Ryan ‘haunting’ him, which originates in the song Nearly Witches.
 
And that is the end of Panic! They have not released music since that album, and I’m sure if they did, it has been so long that they would provide no new evidence. So, now we shall move on to the most depressing segment, but the section that contains really convincing evidence. Ryan Ross’ solo music!
Ryro’s Solos:
1- Lonely Moonlight- “The sun went down.” He lost Brendon. “Another day I lost, filled with regret.” He regrets leaving Panic! “I wandered through the sunshine, remembering when you were mine.” He is remembering whenever the sun was his. “Lonely moonlight.” A lonely moon lets off lonely moonlight, and he is very lonely without Brendon. “When I had a younger heart, you told me not to fear the dark.” When he was younger, Brendon(the sun)’s light lit his way. Also known as Brendon helped him through tough times. “Someone I love, loves someone else.” Brendon married Sarah four months before this song was released. That makes this song even more heartbreaking.
2- At Your Window- “Then it’s been dark since the sun came up, and now that your window’s shut.” By saying that his window is shut, Ryan is trying to say that Brendon is shutting out the moon, or cutting all ties with Ryan, and ignoring him. “And I find myself outside, at your window in the night.” The moon is outside everyone’s window at night, so I think Ryan is saying that he still finds himself wanting to be Brendon’s moon. “Through the sun, I see where I come from.” He mentions the sun again. (like, Ryan, isn’t this a little much. Why don’t you just scream an admission of your love for Brendon?) “Throw a stone at your home do you really even live here.” Once again, he is being ignored by Brendon Urie.
3- I’m down- “We got down.” This might be saying that they are no longer the sun and the moon because they left the sky. Also the title of the song is evidence because Ryan might be referring to the lyric ‘hey moon, don’t you you go down’ from Northern Downpour. That title might be a way of saying that things are really over because the moon has gone down.
4- Where I Belong- “If you wanna see the sun, you’re gonna have to dig your way out.” If he wants Brendon back, he is gonna have to work hard to get back into Panic!. “I’m done with the dark.” He wants his sun back. “I know I should’ve never left.” He wishes he hadn’t left Panic! (I know that isn’t ryden proof but whatever)
 
And now for The Young Veins Section.
 
The beautiful music The Young Veins created before their tragic death (the band not the members Ryro and Jon are alive):
1- Maybe I Will, Maybe I Won’t- “At least will you come visit me.” Ryan wants Brendon to at least try and make their relationship work.
2- Everyone, But You- “She comes to me when I dream, I’m tired of counting sheep to see her, I sleep because I need her, And everybody knows it but you, But you.” He is basically saying that he dreams about Brendon and misses him, but Brendon is the only one who doesn’t know that.
3- Take A Vacation- “If this is settling down, then why aren’t you here?” It is hitting Ryan that he and Brendon will not be together forever. “We’ll leave the waves at the ocean,” and “and leave the sand in a suitcase, so we don’t forget the fun,” both connect to the fact that Brendon left his virginity on a beach in North Carolina. A beach, might I add, that him and Ryan were both swimming at least half naked in. Plus, Ryan posted a romantic poem that night about kissing at the beach. I need to post a separate theory all about the ocean.
4- The Young Veins (Die Tonight)- Ryan said this song was written before he and Jon had left Panic! He also said he was having girl (Brendon) problems at the time. “Is ‘young’ a word for ‘dumb,’ a word for ‘fun’?” He and Brendon were young, and he feels stupid that they ever thought things would work out between them. “But if I were to die tonight, Would you cry or deny, My place in your life?” Brendon may have been ashamed of being with Ryan, so Ryan wondered if Brendon even cared. “I’m aware that you’re scared, Of my heart, but it’s here.” They were both young when romantic lyrics began appearing in their songs, so Brendon may have been overwhelmed by being in love that soon. He might have been scared of being in a serious relationship. “The shame is enough to separate us.” We all know that Brendon is very accepting of every sexuality, but he may have been more hesitant back then. “It really hurts when it’s wrong.” Once again, they may have been ashamed of being in a relationship with another man.
5- Dangerous Blues- “All I do is lie by the ocean side.” Once again, this may be referring to the fact that Ryan and Brendon most likely had sex for the first time the same night that they visited a beach. “Step outside your door, and go to the shore.” This is also probably about Brendon and him having sex at the ocean.
6- Lie To The Truth- “I know I broke your heart, Mine is broken too, Now if we’re even, Then why are we both blue?” He may be saying that he broke Brendon’s heart by leaving, and he broke his own heart as well, so why don’t they just stop hurting each other and try to make things work.
7- Heart of Mine- “If I could ask for anything, I’d only want my girl… I had to leave her all alone.” Dude. He left Brendon when he left Panic!… Dude.
 
I will post a separate theory for the Myrtle Beach theory if anyone wants me to. Leave a comment if you want me to post any other Panic! theories or if you have anything to say about this theory.

When the Moon Fell in Love With the Sun (Connor Murphy x reader)

((Based off of the P!ATD song “When the day Met the Night”. Also, I know that the sun is the more masculine symbol, but I kept it the same because of their personalities…..but like seriously listen to the song while reading it, it makes it like 10x better))

*When the moon fell in love with the sun
All was was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night*

You had just moved to the town around two weeks ago. Your family moved here when your dad had been promoted to a higher ranking position in the company. You moved into a large house in a rich person neighborhood to put it simply.

Now you were sitting in the hammock in your backyard, sipping tea and reading a book, enjoying the mid summer weather.

*When the sun found the moon
She was drinking tea in a garden
Under the green umbrella trees
In the middle of summer*

Connor had just gotten in another fight with his parents and decided to leave. He was going on his normal route: go to his backyard, go into the empty houses backyard and take that back way into the forest. There was a bigger opening in that yard, so it just made more sense.

He jumps the fence, his eyes widening as he sees a girl. She was wearing a bright yellow sundress and had a necklace with the sun on it. She looks up, her eyes widening as she sees him, dropping her mug. You almost fall out of your hammock as you get up. You smile softly, trying to ask what he was doing there.

*When the moon found the sun
He looked like he was barely hanging on
But her eyes saved his life
In the middle of summer*

You look into his eyes, noticing the mixture of emotions. Your face immediately softens as you walk towards him. You know what it felt like to be barely hanging on, and that’s how he looked. Now you just felt compelled to help the mystery boy.
“Sorry…. I didn’t know that anyone had moved in.” He mumbles.
“Oh, uh, it’s okay! I was just reading and it was kinda boring. If anything, you just made my summer better. Are you okay though?” You ask, then mentally face palm. That was such an awkward thing to say.

It took a little bit of convincing, but you got him to sit with you. You had now learned his name and that you were neighbors, but you hadn’t brought up why he jumped the fence. You cracked a few jokes ever so often, causing him to smile. “You should smile more.” You said softly, going back to reading. Then he spoke up,

*So he said, “Would it be all right
If we just sat and talked for a little while
If in exchange for your time
I give you this smile?”

You laugh, nodding your head.

*So she said, “That’s okay
As long as you can make a promise
Not to break my little heart
Or leave me all alone in the summer”*,

you joke. You sit and listen to his problems, knowing this won’t be the only time this meeting will happen.

Like you predicted, Connor came around quite frequently. You started making two mugs of tea instead of one, and always had a book for him to borrow.

You two became closer over time. From you two curling up in your hammock, to there being multiple meetings per day.

*Well he was just hanging around
Then he fell in love
And he didn’t know how
But he couldn’t get out
Just hanging around
Then he fell in love*

He was lying awake in bed, unable to get you out of his head. From your (very different and bubbly) personality, your bright eyes, how you’d listen to him and cheer him up. He felt his heart flutter as he thought about you, knowing that it wasn’t a stupid crush anymore. You genuinely cared about him….and he cared about you.You were the reason he was still alive honestly. Clutching on to the moon necklace that you had given him (matching your sun necklace), he grabs his guitar, brushing up on the cords to “When the Day Met the Night”.

He decided to sneak out , jumping the fence and used the ladder from the shed to climb up to your window. He opens the window, setting his guitar inside first. He climbs in, shutting your window. You sit up, jumping as you see his figure.
“Jesus fucking Christ, Con….you scared me.” You mumble, letting out a soft laugh. “What are you doing here anyways?” You say as you put your hair up, fiddling with you sun necklace as he sits on the edge of your bed.
“I came here to tell you that……just listen.” He says shakily, beginning to play his guitar. You smile as you recognize a song that he had sang under his breath the other day. He smiles as the fairy lights above your bed illuminate your face. He begins to sing, the heat rising to your cheeks as you listen to the lyrics, thanking every deity out there that your parents still weren’t back from thir date night out.

*In the middle of summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer, summer, summer, summer
When the moon fell in love with the sun
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer, summer, summer, summer
In the middle of summer, summer, summer, summer
The middle of summer, summer, summer, summer
The middle of summer, summer, summer, summer
In the middle of….*

He fades out, looking at you with a nervous smile. You smile widely, scooting closer to him. You set his guitar to the side, wrapping your arms around his shoulders. “Can….can I kiss you Connor?”

He nods his head, leaning in. Your lips meet, feeling fireworks as you touch. His arms snake around your waist as you pull away slowly. “I think I love you.” You both say at the same time. You giggle as he presses his forehead against yours. You take this opportunity to grab his necklace “I never told you this, but” you grab your necklace, fitting the sun and moon charms together, “our necklaces do this.” You blush. He smiles, laying down with you. “Well, our lips do this.” He hums then kisses you again. You laugh as you break the kiss. You curl up with him, the both of you falling asleep, the moon and sun necklace charms still connected. “I love you (Y/N)”
“I love you too, Connor.”

*When the moon fell in love with the sun
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night*

  • Where that melancholy come from?:
  • DAMON: Where it come from? Well, you’ll have to spend a few weeks around here and you’ll see! It comes from desolation, the murkiness of this country, this sequence mixed with some days of bright blue sky, but most of the time the weather is fucking sad.
  • But at the same time there’s something very romantic in your songs:
  • DAMON: Yes! Well, that’s what saved me from being fucking miserable. I love the music from the XIX century, for example, I love Chopin. I’m a romantic soul, and that push me to do things.
  • Rolling Stone Argentina – October 2015

HOW LIFE WORKS (Bellamy Blake x Reader)

Request: omg u should do a bellamy x reader where the reader is pregnant but bellamy doesn’t know and they broke up (u can decide the reason) and after years they come across each other and he sees her w a kid and a guy (her bff but he doesn’t know) and gets super jealous bc he still loves her, they fight, and then she finally tells him that the kid is his as happily ever after (PLEASE DONT DO AU) thankyou so much!! 

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 It’s funny how life works. Everything has an odd way of connecting itself together, almost as if it’s meant to be. Sometimes it’s too uncanny to be a coincidence. You walk through the forest, your mind travelling to Bellamy - your past love. The last time you had seen him, a massive fight had broken out between the two of you. 

It was no one’s fault, really. The two of you were just under too much stress after Mount Weather and it had all been piling up until one day, two years ago, you both exploded. It was about nothing and it was about everything. 

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if you’re reading this and i’m not here to explain everything to you, i would like for you to know a few things about why things don’t work out as planned. i don’t want you to think that you’re not worth every inch of your beating heart, you want to be loved and to feel wanted, in truth, i want the exact same thing, but it’s much less about someone else wanting me and more of wanting myself before anyone gets a try at trying to love someone that’s like me and i’ve been told a lot lately from a few different people that i should be careful about you and how you’ll hurt me if it comes down to it. i’m not worried about getting hurt because i’ve been too numb to even notice and that’s alright. i’ve hurt someone that’s very important to me and i can’t fix it, they say that i have to let things go and get over it– it’s been, fuck i don’t keep track of the days anymore. it’s just been a really long time and she still has bits of my heart and it’s really not your fault. maybe we met at the wrong time, maybe i shouldn’t have bought so many flowers. maybe i shouldn’t have kissed you, i promise i’m not trying to lead you on. i realized a week ago that when you looked me in the eyes and saw a whole future with me, it scared me. i don’t have much to offer, but poetry, books and my piano. i’m living in a modern day renaissance and i don’t know if i’m ready to fall in love anymore, i guess you’re right, i don’t know how to open up anymore. being happy comes up short most days, if i keep listening to these sad songs and see her face but not yours, these flaws are mine and mine only. acceptance is like a season that doesn’t fade, we ask the weather to be more than tempting and ask the wind to take us away. i am missing a few screws in my head and there’s moondust where hands used to pull me under, there’s sunlight where i’ve fallen for light love, how can i love myself if i keep trying to destroy my progress? my cousin says that you must love the struggle because if you’re at the top one day and you can’t see the grind to get to where you want to be, if you don’t respect the hustle and bustle of busy hearts trying to beat, if you can’t love yourself enough to let her go, if you’re wondering while you’re wandering– then dreams will stay as dreams and never will they enter your reality. you’ve heard this before, it’s not you, it’s me. another silly excuse for me to be distant. another reason the ocean drowns with the distance between islands of fire and seas of ice, sometimes i think it’d be nice to hold you just to have someone to hold, but what kind of person would i be if i didn’t show something genuine to you? these are the letters that you won’t read, these are the pieces of my tattered heart that you can see, and i’m so sorry about not visiting as much or talking as much or smiling as much or loving as much or anything related to telling you that we’re doing okay. i’m kinda lost right now and i can’t shake the feeling that a close friend of mine has died. i find more comfort with shadows than i do with your hugs and your smiling. i guess i really am messed up. i just don’t know how to love people like that anymore. do you love the idea of me or do you love me? a question that’ll haunt me until my last days. which parts of us do we truly understand? the universe is far too vast, we are but tiny specks of stardust inside a grain of sand trying to feel large. my life is an hourglass and i’ve been slowly falling for the reason as to why i shouldn’t stay, i don’t feel like i’m worth your time and that’s a big problem to me. i can’t love you if i’m in love with someone else. i can’t love you if i don’t love myself. you said that it’s not true. you can love people without being in love with yourself. it’s true. i’ve done it. i became a writer that way, but before i start using the word love carelessly– i want to treat my own body like it’s a sapling that’s not quite the tree that i’d sit under to read my favorite book. i want to make music with my veins pressed down into journals, so that even if i leave this place some day, at least i left my blood with my words and my lips with the meaning. i want to scratch my name into the stars and ask the sun to glow under my skin, which way is towards freedom of pain? or are we destined to be hurt? i want to love each parts of myself enough to carry my own name in silence because when you love people and you have nothing left for yourself and they leave– that’s where all the heartbroken artists live and still live even after they’ve healed. i’ve seen your response, i am living proof that you can love people even if you don’t love yourself. it has both made me a better person, but it has also broke a part of me that i can’t fix. they say that men shouldn’t cry because it’s weak. i used to be quite different. now, i think it’s okay to cry. sometimes when a good song comes on, i feel things that i can’t explain, i am a certain way that’s left to the unknown. i’ve been asking people a question. how do you know when you’re in love with someone? when you hear their name, your face lights up. when you’re having a bad day and all they have to do is be there for you to feel better. when you’re just absolutely sure that it is love and not an illusion. i don’t feel any of those things for anyone, but i’d like to have enough confidence to tell you that you are beautiful, i just can’t fix yet another broken person with my smile. my sister tells me that i attract broken people through my insane methods of empathy, i can be lethal if not taken in small doses. i think it’s like that for anyone who just needs to forget. are you trying to forget about someone too? i wanted you to feel pretty, so i bought my favorite flowers for you. i wanted to give attention, so i write to you. i wanted you to know that you’re too angry, i understand anger, so maybe that’s why we’re close. they say that passion is destructive by nature because if you want it bad enough, you’d do anything to make it happen. they say that if you want someone badly enough, there isn’t an excuse big enough out there that you’ll be able to say to not do it. i don’t have any excuses. no more promises. i don’t have a lie up my sleeve. i don’t have a smile for your bad days. i can’t be in your future if i’m uncertain about mine. i can’t be your lover if i am broken too. cracked hearts need clarity not romance. a pair of sad eyes need self-reflection not sex. a smile that’s fake enough to trick the sun into believing that it has shined there once upon a time, it needs someone that’s able to help you grow. i don’t think i’m that person. everyone has got problems and who doesn’t hate themselves on a really bad day? i guess i’m just a little tired of giving myself up for something that isn’t promised tomorrow. because when you’re alone and it’s just you, only you can fix your problems. no one else. just me, myself and i. maybe i’m selfish. maybe i’m full of shit. but if that’s what it takes to fix this heart of mine, i’ll give it all away just to feel another day. so if you find this some day and i’m no longer around–
it’s not your fault, i’m just trying to figure it all out.
—  read this when i’m not around
{fearless}

word count: 2,185 words
story peek: “you take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless” based off of the song fearless by taylor swift


The rain had always been her favorite kind of weather. The smell always brought a smile to her face and she loved the way raindrops felt on her cheekbones. There was also something, she had noticed, about the way the pavement looked right after a rainstorm. The light from outside made it glow, and if anything she felt like the scent of it only increased. On this particular day, her and Peter had gone out to the nearby café for hot chocolate. The hot beverage warmed her hands in contrast to the cooler weather outside. She insisted on getting a table by the window and Peter didn’t argue because it made her happy.

When she heard the first raindrop hit the glass window, her head snapped towards it to see the downpour of rain begin. A wide smile made its way onto her face and Peter stared at her. He was completely infatuated with her. The twinkle in her eyes when it rained. The way her nose got this slight crinkle in the bridge when she smiled that wide. When it really began to downpour, Peter stood up, insisting that they should get back soon before Aunt May started to worry. Peter hurried and tried to run to his car while she lagged behind. The rain had soaked them both to the bone the minute they stepped outside, but she didn’t care. She stood in the middle of the sidewalk, giggles falling past her lips as she clumsily twirled, letting the rain run down her cheeks and the slope of her nose.

Peter turned around and smiled widely at the sight in front of him. He grabbed his camera from the comfort of his car and focused it on his best friend. The sound of the shutter snapped her out of her daze and she turned her attention to Peter.

“Did you just take my picture?” she nearly had to yell to be heard over the rain. Peter only flashed her a cheeky smile and winked. The action sent her heart into overdrive and her already wet palms went clammy. Her cheeks already flushed from the cold outside, grew darker as she smiled back at him. He placed the camera back in his car before walking over to her and grabbing her hand. He nearly had to force her out of the rain and into the car, knowing fully well that she just wanted to dance in the middle of the small parking lot, the raindrops dancing with her.

The heater was on full blast on the car ride back to Peter’s apartment. She could only hope Peter didn’t notice the pink flush still on her cheeks, despite her face returning back to its normal temperature. Peter had held her hand and even though he had done it many times before, it made her heart flutter. She bit her lip, trying her hardest not to get caught up in her emotions in that moment. Her head turned to look at him as he drove. One of his hands released its grip on the wheel and he ran it through his wet hair, stray curls falling onto his forehead. Despite her best efforts she couldn’t help her heartbeat increase, as he unknowingly made her fall deeper in love with him.

As she turned to look back out the window she bit her lip again, cursing herself for how far deep she had fallen in.



The next week at school all (Y/N) saw left and right where homecoming proposals. Her heart yearned for Peter to ask her to the dance, her cheeks flaring just at the thought. She fidgeted with the lock on her locker before pulling it open. A small slip of paper fluttered down and she bent over to pick it up.

Meet me on the roof in 10 minutes. It’s urgent.
-Peter

Her eyebrows scrunched in confusion as she read the note a few more times. She had Algebra next and she wasn’t exactly sure how her parents would react if they ever found out she ditched class to hang out with Peter on the roof of the school. She squeezed her eyes shut and breathed out deeply before shutting her locker and hurrying down the hall. Algebra could wait.

She peeked down the halls making sure no one noticed her before she slipped through the door leading to the roof. Her feet urgently ran up the stairs and she came up to the roof, the forewarning scent of rain in the air. She smiled yet was still confused when she saw Peter looking perfectly fine.

“Peter?” she called and he turned to face her, a daisy held in his right hand and a crooked smile on his face. She looked at the flower and back to him, before quirking an eyebrow up. He handed the flower to her and she took it, her eyes holding a small twinkle as she looked down at her favorite flower.

“I thought you said this was urgent, Pete,” she sighed, twirling the stem of the flower in her hands. His smile faltered slightly.

“Well, it is..sort of. I just I had something I wanted to ask you. You know, in private,” he rushed out his words and he noticed her face relax.

“Okay well, what is it?” she questioned. The tardy bell rang suddenly and she swallowed, realizing she was actually ditching Algebra. Peter also swallowed, except he was trying to swallow down his nerves so he could fearlessly ask her to homecoming.

“Well, I wanted to ask if you,” he trailed off, his nerves getting the best of him. Her anxiety was slowly burning through her veins as she stood there looking at him, still twirling the flower in her hands. The distant sound of thunder was heard and rain slowly started to sprinkle down. She laughed in her head, realizing this was just like High School Musical.

“I uh, do you, do you wanna dance?” Peter asked, cursing under his breath for not asking his actually question. Her face lit up and her cheeks flushed pink, but she smiled widely at him.

“But there’s no music,” she pointed out, and Peter inwardly groaned before pulling his phone out and putting one of her favorite Ed Sheeran songs on. Peter stole the daisy from her hands and placed it in her hair, before placing his right hand on her waist and grabbing her right hand in his left. Her own came to rest on his shoulder as he slowly danced her across the school rooftop. The rain fell down slowly, only dusting their clothes with small drops of water. A loud laugh suddenly fell past her lips and Peter smiled at the sound, even though he had been startled out of their comfortable silence.

“Sorry it’s just, this is almost exactly like that scene from High School Musical,” she giggled through the sentence and Peter laughed with her.

“Yeah, I guess it is,” he responded, releasing her waist and spinning her in a circle. She continued to laugh the sound more symphonic than the music playing in the background. Both of their hearts were beating in time with the music, the close proximity between them making their heads spin.

“So, I actually wanted to ask you something different,” Peter tentatively said. Her eyes poured into his, the twinkle only him and the rain made possible apparent.

“Oh yeah?” she asked, a small smile on her face.

“Yeah, I um,” he cleared his throat before continuing, “Will you go to homecoming with me?”

She nearly stepped on Peter’s foot as she looked at him in surprise.

“I mean you don’t have to, I just thought maybe you wanted to but-” she cut him off, pressing her lips against his heated cheek.

“I’d love to go to homecoming with you, Peter,” she flashed him an award winning smile and he found himself falling deeper in love with her. They stood there in the middle of the roof, before Peter slowly started to lean in. The end of class bell suddenly rang and she shyly looked down.

“We should probably get to class,” Peter said, grabbing his things and she nodded, grabbing her own. He grabbed her hand and led her down the stairs, before he walked her to her English class. She entered the class and took a seat next to the window. Her chin rested in her palm as she stared at the calming rain now pouring from the sky, suddenly wishing for nothing more than to know what it felt like to kiss her best friend.



On the day of homecoming, she felt like she was going to pass out from the combination of excitement and anxiety corroding her bloodstream. Her dress fell off her shoulders and loosely fit her frame down to a few inches above her knee. The midnight blue clothing was the best dress she had owned and she loved the way it looked on her. Her hair was curled in loose waves, and she kept her makeup simple. When Peter arrived, her mother insisted on taking as many pictures as possible and she was all too happy when they finally left.

“You look absolutely stunning tonight,” Peter said as he walked her to his car. She gave him a wide smile, as he helped her into the passenger seat. As he drove the both of them to the dance, his hand held hers and she couldn’t help herself from smiling like a lunatic.

When they got to the dance (Y/N) laughed at the fact that it had started to rain, and it didn’t look like it was stopping any time in the future. Peter tried to pull her into the dance, his fingers intertwined with hers but she stopped him.

“Wait, Peter,” she said and he turned to look at her. The rain slowly began to deflate the curls in her hair and her mascara proved to not be as waterproof as it claimed as it smudged under her eyes. He raised his eyebrows in response.

“Can we, can we dance out here for a second?” she hesitantly asked. Peter only smiled at her and nodded. She could only roll her eyes and smile when Peter insisted on turning music on for the both of them, even though they could hear the music from inside the school. She wasn’t sure how it could get better than this. She was at homecoming with the boy of her dreams and it was nearly pouring down rain. Peter fearlessly grasped her hand and nearly dragged her headfirst into the middle of the parking lot. Her mind reeled and she was almost surprised that she would dance in the middle of a rainstorm in the best dress she owned.

The silver heels she wore made her the same height as Peter and it felt nice to finally be as tall as him for once. They danced around the parking lot, and only went inside when the rain had suddenly stopped altogether. They looked like a mess to everyone inside the gymnasium. Peter’s hair was dripping water, stray curls resting on his forehead. Her hair was soaking wet, and curling at the ends. Her makeup had smudged but she was still the most beautiful one there in Peter’s eyes.

When the dance was over, Peter drove her home and held her hand like before. She absentmindedly rubbed her thumb over his knuckles and simultaneously wished for the night to never end. Peter pulled up in front of her house and walked her to her door. They smiled at each other for a bit before she spoke up.

“I had fun tonight. Thanks for dancing in the rain with me,” she laughed and Peter grinned.

“Anything for you, darling,” Peter responded, confidence suddenly streaming through his blood. Her cheeks flushed a deep pink as she smiled at him. Her hands were shaking slightly and she was confused, her hands never shook before. As she stared into Peter’s eyes, she noticed his hands slowly grabbing onto her waist as he pulled her closer to him. Her hands found their way around his neck as her eyes flickered down to his mouth and back to his eyes.

A sudden surge of confidence overcomes her as she grabs the collar of Peter’s white button up and pulls his face to hers. Their lips brushed against each other’s before Peter pressed them fully against each other. Her hands still gripped his shirt collar, and his remained on her waist as he pulled her flush against him. Her first kiss was more than she imagined it would be with Peter. Sweet, flawless, charming, and absolutely fearless.

She entered her house and immediately went to her bedroom. When she shut the door she slid against it and smiled, her fingers ghosting over her lips where Peter’s had just been. She wasn’t sure how it could ever get any better than that moment. Peter definitely had his hold on her heart and was dragging her headfirst through love, both of them completely fearless.

Best of Wives & Best of Women

Lin-Manuel x Reader

in which the workaholic writer seemingly neglects his love despite their pleadings; their relationship is put on the rocks and Lin is too oblivious to see.

words: 1,345

warnings: loneliness and sadness

Finally! here’s the lin fic I’ve been promising for weeks. Sorry for the wait and if its awful bahaha!

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