sometimes-i-really-don't-know

  • you are allowed to have feelings
  • you are allowed to feel intensely
  • you are allowed to be emotional
  • you are allowed to be sad
  • you are allowed to be angry
  • you are allowed to be hurt
  • you are allowed to be frustrated
  • you are allowed to be happy
  • you are allowed to be excited
  • you are allowed to be enthusiastic
  • you are allowed to feel your feelings
  • your feelings are not bad or shameful
  • your feelings are not too much
  • you are not too much

just wanted to say that if our thread is heading towards smut but you don’t feel like or don’t want to roleplay smut, it’s okay. Just tell me and we can fade to black and move on to another scene. Pls don’t feel like you must rp smut with me, what matters to me the most is for my partners to be comfortable with our threads.

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Let him be everything because he is everything.

insp

IN MY DREAM LAST NIGHT MY ABUSER WAS WATCHING STAR WARS WITH MY NEW BOYFRIEND

who has been my new boyfriend
through two birthdays and the funeral,
but I like to call him that,
know too well the way men steel-plate
themselves inside my joints
until my body has to relearn running.

& he knows
a few parts of this story,
but I didn’t want that man’s name
back in my bed.

just told him,
picture yourself in a theater with your eyes closed,
your own palms pressed tightly to your ears.
on the drive home, 
he’ll describe each scene frame for frame,
talk about the previews, which one
the two of you should not-see-together next,
and you will feel lucky enough in that moment
you won’t notice the entire city of Portland starting to melt.

months later,
when he says it is your favorite movie,
you will nod and know it is
not worth arguing over.

(“are you trying
to tell me
you
weren’t
even
there?”)

you’ll tell yourself it’s true.
tell yourself
it’s the best movie
you’ve ever seen.

You know what, Booth and Brennan will always be my #1 otp because they gave me so much as a couple. I mean, I’m not talking about sex or smut because that’s fanfiction material (like you go girl, want to see your fave ship bang on a piano? go and read that !!!! that’s what that website is for) but everything else. The ‘platonic’ aspect of their relationship has always been the best part of their dynamic to me, but they were still able to overcome that phase and be a family. This being said, that original dynamic has never been compromized, not to me at least, because when it comes to the important stuff, Booth and Brennan are still partners first, they are still the people they would give up their life for, they would fight for each other. While the majority of other ships kinda change once they get together. Booth and Brennan never completely changed, so much that people complain because they’d rather have them being romantic the 100% of the time. I don’t. Also, it’s the little things that matter to me, like it might sound stupid, but I find it extremely adorable and precious that Brennan knows Booth by knowing his injuries. Every time something happens, she’s able to compare factures and other stuff to Booth’s. And that’s so IC, that’s something I really want to see because it’s them. And it’s been this way since she first found out about his past in 1x15 and it never changed. She imagined him on that autopsy table in 11x01 by looking at the bones, just like it happened on 12x04 with Aldo and in other many occasions. Brennan saying like I know that because of your brain tumor. She knows his brain scans. YAAAS. Give me this stuff. Give me Booth and Brennan that can’t sleep without each other at night when one of them is struggling with something, give me them talking about taking someone’s life and carrying the weight of the world on their shoulders. Give me them hurting each other to save each other. They would never cheat on each other or hurt each other because they want to. They only do it because it’s the only way. Yaas. Screw sex, just give me this stuff.

OK but i can’t get over the transition from pre-chorus to chorus in the Sonic Forces theme song???? right before the chorus, there’s this really funky, half-time section which feels very SA2 and upbeat, then suddenly everything stops except the guitar and the chorus just BOOMS IN and suddenly it’s an action-packed war of the worlds where i will fight to my last dying breath??!!!?!!! holy shit

2

//starts grossly sobbing into my pillow pet anyways

Ok but,, the reason I brought this up with Michael was because an “ex friend” (said ex-friend, told me I was delusional and living a fantasy for identifying as a transgender. They compared me to an alcoholic who refused help, but it was “their job” as a friend to stay and help them anyways. They told me I was ruining my life, and taking them down with me) of mine started talking to me again.

I told them about Michael, and how he’s very accepting of me, which OF COURSE, they hadddd to tell me that “Michael would be disgusted by me if I ever “actually “transitioned” to be a real man. Michael only stays with me because I look like a girl.“

And because I have no self control, and I was ticked off/sad, I had to ask Michael myself. His only comment, other then what’s above, was that he ‘isn’t ready for me to have a beard you’re like 3 babe I can’t see my 3 year old baby with a beard.’
Which I assured him.
I wasn’t ready for a beard either.

I know we joke about hating it but tbh I kind of love how D&P lowkey stalk all of us and like random tweets and posts that we don’t tag them in. It shows that they actually pay attention to everything we say or think and that’s pretty cool.

in which fictional sex is... too kinky or not kinky enough?

Because I have way too many thoughts about the kind of sex fictional characters would have… I’m sort-of curious about something.

Does it ever bother anyone to see fics where the characters are having a certain type of sex and you just… don’t see them doing it that way? Like… this is probably more about kink than anything, but… (ok and tbh this fandom is not that kinky…) I also just wonder if sometimes we write things that are more about our own need to see/imagine The Thing and the characters are just convenient for that.

Which… is fine I guess. I mean you all just do what makes you happy. Read what makes you happy. I guess I’m not even sure where I’m going with this, just that sometimes I want to push things in a fic and then I get… not sure about how far it should go. Maybe this is all me, I don’t know.

LIKE, for example. Weeks ago I started a fic where Mor picks up a stranger for her and Az to fuck. Is anyone interested in that? Is that what they would do? And Az is also about to be VERY dominating in bed with both Mor and Lucien, once I start thing other thing in earnest.

Maybe I’m thinking way too hard about this and y’all are just like LESLIE WRITE THE THING WE WANT TO SEE THE THING. I dunno.

“But you know as well as I, patriotism is a word; and one that generally comes to mean either my country, right or wrong, which is infamous, or my country is always right, which is imbecile.”

- Master and Commander by Patrick O’Brian

Relevant to the current state of the world.

Kageyama actually being cool

Title: Take Cover, Baby
Author: beyourgoodnight
Rating: NR
Fandom: One Direction
Ship: Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson
Words: 2227
Summary: A hand on his shoulder startles him out of his thoughts, which were dangerously close to spiraling toward full on anxiety. The man connected to the hand snorts at Harry’s reaction and Harry shoots him a look.

“Never met someone so nervous to be returning from war,” Thomas intones sarcastically.

Or, Harry Styles returns from the war and he thinks he might be more nervous to step on the train platform in his hometown than he was to step on the battlefield.

Read it here.

I was so confused by how they positioned Trish’s relationship with Jessica in the pilot like?? 

We’re first introduced to Jessica as a badass PI and cynical misanthrope who states that she has no faith in humanity/relationships and thus generally avoids getting “involved” with people?? 

But then we are shown the huge bus ads and posters with Trish’s face plastered all over them as the literal representation of ~the only exception~?? And we see that Jessica just can’t stop thinking about her??? She sees Trish everywhere, not only in her thoughts but everywhere she turns???

Then Jessica climbs onto Trish’s balcony to ask for help when she finds out that Kilgrave is back, which, correct me if I’m wrong, but aren’t balconies often coded in distinctly romantic ways (also Jessica is almost romantically framed with pretty city lights in the background and both of them have their hair gently blowing in the wind like are you kidding me)????

And their conversation is basically just two former lovers being emotional and talking about their past and their feelings what with “you shut me out” and “you were keeping tabs on me?” and “I was never the hero you wanted me to be”????? 

Like, what the fuck were you trying to do show?????? AM I READING TOO MUCH INTO THINGS

if my followers who don’t have alters would like to help out when it comes to questions from other people who also don’t have alters about friendships/relationships with someone that has alters, feel free too! what i mean by that, is that i usually take care of the alter side/point of view, but i’ve never been on the other “side” of it, so i don’t always have an answer. like you can share how you guys work things out or how you communicate, if that makes sense.

kinda like seeing the alters’s side and the no alters side of the situation.