sometimes its not worth it

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― E.A. Bucchianeri

reasons why you should read “of fire and stars”
  • gay princesses!!!! that should say it all tbh this list doesn’t even need to continue but i will anyways because of how much i love this book
  • one of the princesses (Denna) is conventional, proper, has been betrothed to a prince since she was a child
  • the other princess (Mare) is unconventional- loves horses and spends her days in the stables instead of attending to royal duties. super sarcastic and always mouths off, especially to her brother (who is marrying Denna). i love her tbh 
  • denna falls in love with mare instead of the prince, who she is engaged to!! honestly it’s. classic
  • slow burn wlw romance that we Deserve
  • hate to love relationship (or more accurately, hate to friendship to love)
  • it’s actually written by a woman who is married to another woman!!! (not sure what her sexual orientation is but!)
  • there’s a scene where denna sees mare in a gown for the first time and it was the cutest shit ever
  • just a lot of cute fluffy stuff in general scattered through the whole thing
  • denna’s fire affinity and using fire as a metaphor for how denna feels for mare !!!
  • the whole “my dress is stuck can you help me unlace it” trope
  • the scenes where the finally kiss/sleep together are so pure and well written and i felt some type of way, bye
  • the whole forbidden romance aspect….. having said romance discovered and them being kept away from each other…… meeting in secret……. how could u not want that angsty shit
  • princesses saving each other!!!
  • they don’t die at the end
  • happily ever after. gay princesses together forever
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anonymous asked:

I think one of my favorite things about this fandom is how we've all unanimously come to the conclusion that Victor never does the dishes

ROFL I don’t think it’s so much that he never does the dishes so much as he never wants to. And Yuuri doesn’t want to either. They’ll lay in bed together and poke each other until one of them gets up to do it. Same thing happens with vacuuming and laundry. They’ll sit on the floor equidistant from Makkachin and whoever Makkachin goes to first is saved™ for the day.

In the end, though, they almost always end up doing the chores together. Partially because it’s an excuse to be around each other, and partially because they always end up leaning on one another or getting totally distracted. Victor likes to crumble up paper towels and throw them at Yuuri and Yuuri likes to throw Victor’s clothes at him.

Tentatively re-activating Aki here.  I want to thank those who have reached out to me and encouraged me to stick around.  The FF8 fandom in general has some great and supportive people, whom I very much appreciate.  Y’all have been wonderful and I really am grateful for the encouragement and friendship from those of you whom I chat with on a regular basis.

Unfortunately, there’s also a fair bit of insularity and drama that’s been going on for as long as I’ve been RPing Aki here (for at least the past year or so), that seems to come and go in waves.  It’s like that rhyme of the ‘little girl with the little cur’l - when it’s good, [the rp community] is very, very good, but when it is bad, it is horrid.  When I come on here to roleplay, I want to do just that, and not get swept up in drama.  External work/life stresses of late have literally made me want to run and hide anytime I log in here and see drama on my dash.  RL provides enough stress as it is that I’d rather not see any in my online activities.

Sure, anyone can unfollow/blacklist offending blogs, but that only does so much.  And of course drama isn’t confined to one fandom only - every fandom I’ve been in has it to some degree.  Perhaps it’s because the FF8 fandom is smaller than some others, that it’s more noticeable.  Generally, I am the type to stick their head in the sand at any sign of online strife.  Sometimes it works, but sometimes it doesn’t.

The other thing that made me want to chuck it all is the general insularity/exclusivity I see in this RP community. Part of this is tied to the very nature of the beast - it’s easy to feel isolated and alone on the internet.   And, of course, people will RP first with those muns/muses they are familiar with, and it is everyone’s prerogative to do as they wish on their blog, and interact (or not) with whomever they want. Nobody ‘owes’ anyone RP.

However, the downside of refusing to RP with newcomers or someone who isn’t ‘popular’, is that people feel left out, afraid to approach others because they feel like one particular group has a corner on RP for the entire community.

And I just want to say that this is complete bullshit.  Nobody owns a fandom.   

I’m glad - but also sad - to have heard from many others that they are feeling much the same as I do.  Rejected or ignored by the community, a wallflower who is just trying to have a good time, but is virtually invisible to everyone else.

It’s not a good feeling, reaching out and trying to do that thing, just trying to have fun, and then feeling like you really are invisible.  It’s what drives a lot of people away, honestly.  And I have no idea how to fix it, or if it can be fixed, really, but clearly there’s a problem when I have a dozen people in my inbox going ‘me too!’, echoing that they feel shut out or rejected in the community.

If you’ve read this far, thank you.  If you disagree or think I’m full of shit, well, that’s your right.  I just wanted to do my part, futile as it may be, to try and make people feel a little more welcome in this fandom - because I never really have.

Peace out.

It took me some time to see that not everyone will stay. But not everyone is supposed to.. And it’s not always because of you. it’s more than often - because of them. But that’s okay because.. not everyone is meant for you. When we involve ourselves with people, its inevitable to risk our heart - knowing theres a possibility that it may get broken or misused.. but the beauty in life is.. sometimes we take that chance and everything works out the way we hoped it would.. or we learn that it worked out the way that it should. It’s okay to involve yourself in a relationship and have absolutely no expectations - because regardless of where it may go… you’ll still grow. Not everyone you lose is technically a loss.. more than often it’s a blessing in disguise. It’s up to us to change our attitudes and perception of things in order to see the situation for what its really worth. Sometimes we have to step outside of our heart.. and focus on the true meaning of it all. Sometimes we rush people into things and sometimes we, ourself, put ourselves in situations we aren’t a thousand percent sure of or ready for. Give people time. Give people space. Don’t beg anyone to stay. Let them roam. What’s meant for you will ALWAYS be yours. In the mean time.. Work on yourself. Learn yourself. Figure out what you do and do not want from a partner and/or relationship.. so if ever - they do come back.. you know that you’re not the kind of person who deserves to be put on layaway.. you’re not the kind of person who deserves to wait.. you’re not the kind of person who deserves to commit just to be left abandoned.. and if you aren’t ready or aren’t sure.. they deserve to wait on you to make sure that this is what you want.. and if you decide this isn’t what you want after all.. close the door behind you. Someone better will come knocking sooner than later. Be patient.
—  Reyna Biddy

Ok look check this shit out..

Don’t be getting mad if your dealer won’t front to you, idc if that fool has 10 pounds….those 10 pounds will eventually sale with or without your help bro, jus saying im there is absolutely no reason that I NEED to front you shit, by doing that im taking a bigger risk then its worth sometimes

DON’T EXPECT IT TO BE 100% PURE CRYSTAL METH EVERYTIME
Fuck you act like im a mother fuckin chemist in my back yard cooking a batch up.I don’t no if this is hard to believe or what but no not ever dealer cuts there shit. Just bc the sack you get may not be BIG ASS SHARDS or it may be wet or “crumbs” don’t EVER automatically assume I did that shit on purpose like im out to get you or some shit. First of all no, your paranoid skitzin ass probably needs to go to bed cause ain’t no one out to get you for the tenth time.
And second if I tell you (which I would) “hey bro this shit ain’t as good as it usually is” but you say you don’t care and you still buy it and then your ass wants to complain….SORRY NOT SORRY, BITCH BYE

Just BC the shit may not be good one time THAT DON’T MEAN THAT ITS BAD EVERYTIME NOW. Fuck. You get some bad shit one time and now everytime you buy some you wanna be like hey I think that had cut in it can I get my money back (after your ass done did the whole sack)….one question….
ARE YOU STUPID?

If I don’t text you back after 199909 text there’s probably a reason I mean do you text your mom or anyone else a million times when they don’t respond….
Like :
2:59pm:hey mom what’s for dinner
3:00pm:Hello you there
3:00pm:Are you ignoring me
3:02pm:What’s up
3:03pm:Hey
3:03pm:Really mom what’s your deal
3:05pm:That’s fuck up can’t even text a nigga back
3:06pm:Yoooo can you just let me no what’s up
3:08pm:YO MOM ANSWER IVE CALLED 10 TIMES
3:08pm:Hey you ok?
3:08pm:You want me to just swing by?
3:08pm:Mom come on text me back
3:08pm:Wtf hello
3:09pm: Im about to come by
3:10pm:here
If you pulled that shit on your mom you’d probably get bitch slapped..jus saying. ..

I could write all day long on the stupid shit people do, but imma stop there for now.

We started talking online and kinda fell in love for each other. It can be hard sometimes to deal with long distance but its worth it in the end because I get to be in paradise for a little. 💚

Sometimes i feel like if i go through with fully socially & physically transitioning ill never be able to find someone who lives by me that loves me & wants to be with me. I feel like ill be alone forever because who wants to date a guy who doesnt have a dick.
No matter how much i go through transition wise ill never have an actual male body and ill always have dysphoria.
Sometimes im not sure its worth it because of that.

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Chapter 9: Visitors; but way more dramatic XD

Please tell me that Green actually sees through her pain, and it hurts to see her smile because he knows, but despite all that she’s still selfless, putting others before herself; showing concern to those around her, even when they don’t

The words “It’s just been so long since I’ve actually been treated like a person.” echoes in his head; how long has it been since she was last shown respect? He had to, he just had to. 


6S1M belongs to @/raccoonsinqueen / @raccoonsinqueen-taxes , check out their fic here~ X3

“Falling in love’s a strange thing,” she whispers to you as she tucks that piece of hair behind your ear and brushes her lips against your forehead. “It’s kind of like you’re swimming and somewhere along the way a tidal wave drags you into the deep end.”

“And at some point you wake up,” a drop of water lands on your forehead, and you look up to see tears pooling in her hazel gaze, “and you realise you’re not swimming anymore, you’re sinking. Sometimes you’ll get your head above water just long enough to see that they’re not sinking with you, they’re standing on shore watching you drown.”

“Sounds scary,” you say as you grab her hand between your small, soft fingers.

“Oh darling, it is,” she smiles through her tears. “Falling in love is one of the most dangerous things a human ever lets themselves do.”

You wonder aloud, “Then why do people do it?”

“Because sometimes you’ll find the one worth sinking for and just before your head’s been under water for a moment too long, just before you give up, just before you stop fighting the current, they’ll drag you to shore and you’ll gasp for fresh air and it’ll be the most beautiful thing you’ve ever felt because they are your fresh air.”

—  Sometimes it’s worth the danger//things you need your mum to tell you, 28/07/2015