sometimes it's like tv knows me

avengers as john mulaney quotes
  • steve rogers: All my money is in a savings account. Tony has explained the stock market to me maybe 75 times. I still don't understand it.
  • tony stark: I was once on the phone with blockbuster video, which is a very old-fashioned sentence. That's like when Steve would be like, "We'd all go play jacks by the soda fountain," and you're like, "Nobody knows what you're talking about , you idiot."
  • clint barton: It's fun to be married. I've never been supervised before. I'm supervised! My wife studies what I do, like an anthropologist. She'll be like: "Sometimes, he will watch a movie on TV even though he already owns that movie on DVD. Pointing this out confuses and upsets him."
  • bruce banner: In terms of instant relief, cancelling plans is like heroin.
  • natasha romanoff: I'll keep my emotions right here, and then one day, I'll die.
  • thor: Ah...numbers. The letters of math.
  • sam wilson: Sometimes babies will point at me, and I don't care for that shit at all.
  • bucky barnes: Here's how easy it was to get away with bank robbery back in the '30s: As long as you weren't there when the police arrived, you had a 99% chance of getting away with it.
  • scott lang: it's 100% easier not to do things than to do them.
  • peter parker: I have had a very long day. I am very small and I have no money. So you can imagine the kind of stress I am under.
  • t'challa: You have the moral backbone of a chocolate eclair.

AU where instead of going to Samwell, Jack starts a widely successful Publicly Broadcast show for children.

Jack learns that he is great with kids after coaching them for a little over two years. Moreover, kids are good with Jack. There is no pressure to be anything other than who he is.


It all starts with a local news program doing a fluff piece on Jack Zimmermann’s coaching ability. But then it turned into something completely different when Jack skated onto camera and started to introduce every single one of his kids and what was special about them. He was…really enchanting actually. He didn’t ever really talk down to them. Jack just treated them as a tiny friend. 

They ARE his tiny friends, but that’s not the point. 

The footage they got of “snack time” was really the best. Imagine a good 16 kids piled around this massive man teaching them the best way to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. 

 It should have been obvious that a local channel would contact him. It still surprises Jack. They want him to host a show? Why? Everyone always teased him about how impersonable he was during interviews. Is it because he’s Jack Zimmermann’s son? Or Alicia’s? 

Jack asks all of these questions to his mother and she just laughs. “You made a PB&J interesting to 16 kids just by being you”

Jack figures it wouldn’t hurt to give it a shot. 

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bojack horseman spoilers

I can’t even begin to list all the things I love about Todd Chavez as ace representation (only touching on season 4 here, because I already made a list of things I love about the stuff in season 3):

  • He’s struggled with his sexual orientation since puberty, and it’s not until he’s in his mid-twenties that he addresses it head on. And even then it takes him a full year to land on a label he’s comfortable with.
  • In episode 1, his best friend calls him asexual and he’s extremely uncomfortable. He’s uncomfortable both with someone else labeling him, and with the term itself. Then his friend backs off and agrees that while she shouldn’t have stuck him with a label, there are advantages to identifying as something specific.
  • This is a lot of what the arc was about, actually. It’s like a reproach to all the people who say that since asexuality is the absence of something, it’s not really anyone’s business and doesn’t need its own terms/groups/representation/etc. Todd ultimately benefits from both the use of a label and the support/community that come with it. 
  • Episode 3, the ep where Todd comes to terms with being ace, is also about his character in a broader sense. Not only does this show that his arc this season is about more than just his sexuality, it ties his asexuality in to his struggle with self-identification and personhood in general.
  • “I don’t think I’m allowed to be in love.”
  • Bojack is exactly the sort of asshole who puts his foot in his mouth and makes comments like, “Sometimes I wish I was asexual. Maybe then I wouldn’t have a strand of herpes!” Don’t be like Bojack. 
  • When Bojack makes a joke about it, Todd quickly shuts him down and says, “Yeah, I’m not really at a place yet where I wanna joke about it.” This is really striking to me, because I’ve had a lot of people make jokes at my expense, and there seems to be a general lack of awareness of how serious the subject actually is. This is a serious part of a person’s identity, it can take years to come to terms with. Decades. It’s not a  personality quirk, it’s their life. And just because you start to become more comfortable with something doesn’t mean that the people in your life can treat it so carelessly.
  • About the ace meet-up: “Talking’s good. You know, there was a meeting I was supposed to go to tonight, but I don’t think I’m gonna go. I don’t know if I’m ready. I mean, what if it’s not everything I want it to be? Sometimes the idea of something is better than the truth.”
  • But then he goes! And it helps him a lot. The group introduces him to new friends (which he desperately needed), it helped him feel more normal, teaches him new terms, etc. Through people he meets in it, he learns that he can still be in a relationship, can even get married if he wants to, that love doesn’t hinge on sex. Which, you know, can be a pretty radical discovery for an ace person.
  • Also introduces him to my new favorite human being axolotl, Yolanda Buenaventura.
  • Todd talks about his sexuality with his friends. He uses the words “asexual” and “ace,” he drops it into conversation as he becomes more comfortable with the concept. It’s not a private matter.

There’s more, but this post is really long. I think the biggest thing for me right now is that anyone who watches this show, anyone who worked on this show, is being given a grade-A education. The fact that people like Aaron Paul and Will Arnett now know about and presumably understand asexuality has blown my mind. The fact that this popular show is introducing hundreds of thousands (or millions? Netflix doesn’t realize its viewing stats) of people to asexuality makes my life easier. If I find out someone’s seen this season, it’s going to change how I interact with them.

I want to be able to talk about being ace in day-to-day conversation. I want my grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, etc., to know that I’m ace and not voice their doubts behind my back. I want to be able to point to TV shows like this and say, “You know that character? That’s me.” So, uh, that’s why I sobbed hysterically for fifteen minutes after watching Bojack Horseman.

Staying Inspired with Your Work

Anonymous asked: “Hi Lizard! I haven’t been writing for a few months. I got really burnt out because of this fandom I wrote for. I took a break, but now I want to start writing again, this time original fiction, but I’m struggling. I don’t really know why, but maybe I just had things that motivated me when writing fan fics, like I’d know where I could post my stories and that they’d get at least some readers.” 

So I don’t have any personal experience writing fan fiction, but from what I’ve gathered, inspiration for fan fiction is kind of an engine of its own.

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stevenuniversequartz  asked:

(for psychosis anon) It may seem like a simple trick, but taking a photo/video of what you are seeing/hearing and if it doesn't show up on camera, then you can tell it's not real. It helps me a lot sometimes. Also, know you are not alone. There are lots of people who have psychosis, and we have your back :)

@thalassa-gnosi said to shit-abled-people-say:
hi, I have bipolar w/ psychotic features. one thing that helps me when i start to get paranoid or hallucinate is keeping noise on any time i can. whether it be music, a netflix show, or tv in the background it makes me feel safer and more secure. if anon can avoid being alone as much as possible that does a world of good (i’ve had incidents where i’ve been home alone and completely and utterly panicked). if i am alone i try to have a friend or family member on facetime if they’re available. [½]

[2/2]if nights are as bad for anon as they are for me, i suggest sleeping in a common area or having someone in the room with you. it may just be me but an open living room with the door cracked feels a lot safer than my closed off bedroom. best of luck, i hope you get your diagnosis soon!

Anonymous said to shit-abled-people-say:
For the anon with consistent hallucinations, my friend does too. What I’ve found helps him is this one specific song, I dunno if it’ll be any use to you. It’s Maybe IDK by Jon Bellion, he says it makes his visible hallucinations change to cool patterns instead of scary things. And he’ll often FaceTime me and ask me if I can see/hear a specific thing so he knows if it’s a hallucination or not. For paranoia we’ll FaceTime so I can look behind him n let him know there’s nothing there n he’s safe.

Thank you!!

To add a little to what stevenuniversequartz said, I’ve also heard that if you wear glasses you can take them off and if it’s still clear, it’s a hallucination!!

-Rhys

svt reaction to you wanting to take care of them, when they’re injured

I think that they will react similiar, so im doing it this way. Hope you enjoy!


He will often tell you that its not necessary, he can take care of himself. Sometimes gets annoyed bc youre too caring, but he know that youre just worried. Little bit grateful, but dont really want to show it. - Jihoon, The8

He will enjoy it too much, sometimes being like “babe, i cant reach tv pilot” or “babe, feed me please, im injured and stuff”. Want SOOOOO MUCH attention. Thanking you everytime he can, and giving you a lot of kisses. - Jun, Mingyu, S.Coups, DK, Jeonghan, Hoshi

Become really soft. Not wanting you to being beside him all the time, bc you have youre things to do. Really thankful for every little thing. Sometimes even when he needs something, he will first try to do smth by himself, but if he fails, then will ask you for help - Joshua, Wonwoo, Vernon, Dino, Seungkwan


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My problems with bughead

DISCLAIMER: I hate bughead, not bughead shippers. I acknowledge that you can ship what ever you like, so acknowledge that i can disagree

anyway on track

1. It erases a key aspect of Jugheads character. I know asexuals can have romantic interests but Jughead does not. Look at any of the comics and see how often its clearly expressed that he is not interested in woman, whether that  means he’s homoromantic or aromantic is up to interpretation (the more likely being the latter) Putting him in a relationship with a woman is unnecessary and just all together OOC. I get riverdale is all for DFP Jughead but like thats just not who he is.

2. It steps on Betty’s story as well. One of the key aspects of Betty’s story is her insistent fawning on Archie. Im all for her being an independent women and  getting over Archie but to throw her immediately into a relationship with her next closest male friend (minus our mandatory GBF Kevin but dont even get me started on that) is a step in the wrong direction.

3. I love a good romance as much as anyone, but why can’t we have one m/f close friendship with out it turning romantic for once? Im unbelievably sick of television ruining great friend ships by giving them ~straight sexual tension~ (you know like they hang out sometimes and one time they even looked each other in the eye they must be fucking) Jughead and Betty’s friendship was so good, why do you gotta fuck with that? 

I get it, if riverdale is your first introduction to these characters you wouldn’t get it, but trust that bughead is so OOC and unnecessary. Is this due to the CW’s tendency to fuck up everything they touch? maybe, but either way its painful to watch. (dont get me wrong i love the show but its a bit trashy)

anyway yeah im done ranting, ive got more salt for this hetero-normative bull, but im tired  so yknow

Its 1am and I’m sad so heres a short list of women I adore:

**THERES NO SPECIFIC ORDER TO THIS LIST**


1. AMY LEE - EVANESCENCE

Originally posted by talvisyreni

  • Talented AF
  • The songs and music she writes have so much emotion to them that I can feel it when i listen to them!
  • Her voice give me goosebumps - ITS SO PERFECT!
  • I think she needs more recognition for her music…
  • SHES SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL!


2. JAC NAYLOR (ROSIE MARCEL) - HOLBY CITY

Originally posted by quantumshades

  • Super smart!
  • Dosent let anyone or anything get in her way! (Tries not to anyway…GROUP ANIMAL DESTROYED ME!)
  • Rosie is a bloody amazing actress and deserves all the awards for last weeks 2 part holby episodes! (Infact all the episodes of holby shes been in )
  • CHEEKBONES
  • Kinda sometimes reminds me of Sherlock… in the way that she tries to be ice cold (we all know she cares deep down) and is full of knowledge…also have I mentioned cheekbones :P


3. DODIE

Originally posted by shinydodie

  • Inspirational
  • Has an amazing book (y'all should read it, its called secrets for the mad)
  • Honest
  • Great role-model for teens like myself
  • Writes amazing songs 😍


4. LOUISE BREALEY

Originally posted by eastwindiscomming

  • Loves doggos (has an insta dedicated to them!)
  • Brilliant actress - should be in more tv shows.
  • Very opinionated and isn’t afraid to share said opinions.
  • Suprisingly good at photography - have you seen her insta!?
  • Caring

my biggest pet peeve ever is when you express a casual disliking towards something benign like a band, celebrity, or TV show, and a bunch of people hop in and hound on you as if you’ve besmirched the name of god himself

This is gonna be emotionally charged but free to reblog because its all good. I just feel I have to get it out.

So first off shout out to @leppardbowie for posting such a wonderful tribute video in honour of the Heroes 40th anniversary. I feel really touched by it.

It never ends. Never. And nor do I want it to. Every time, be it watching a DVD, listening to a CD or record or simply reading a book. Catching a video on the TVC15 (as I call it), I always feel excitement when watching/listening to/reading anything related to David Bowie. His presence is still being felt even though he, himself, is no longer here. Its like you can just feel it! If something mischievous happens, you can bet its something to do with him.

When watching his movies, I know whats to happen next and yet I still get chills. Be it the tweezer scene in The Man Who Fell To Earth or the death scene in Just A Gigolo (spoiler alert) and yet I still tense up. “GIVE HIM THE DAMN TWEEZERS! DON’T YOU DARE TOUCH HIS EYES!” I sometimes shout. (Yes I, like Tommy, shout at the TV set) I scream when watching the gun sex scene, I nearly cry and sometimes do cry when watching some of his movie scenes.

Listening to his music makes me feel many things. From joy to deep sadness and fear depending on the song in question. Its hard to really pick a favourite album or song. So I stick by default to Station To Station (album) and Starman (song) Many things can move me but Only few things can actually make me weep and those things are him singing Imagine, Just A Gigolo sometimes and some of the things I have read about David as a person.

I won’t go into the day of when he checked out of this hotel of life but I can tell you that that was a day I blocked out as best I could and only occasionally remember.
What makes it more painful is the wonders that continue to be unlocked for me thanks to him and not being able to thank him for such treasures. I graduated college with a degree in acting. My final performance was part of a class effort in which we picked a scene to act out from our most treasured movie. I picked The Man Who Fell To Earth. The scene where he watches multiple sets. On them in my case, were scenes from the film and his performance of Stay on Dinah! and his interview with Russell Harty. I also snuck in a cheating tribute to the Thin White Duke, dancing to a medley made up of all 6 songs off Station To Station.
Needless to say, it went down a storm.

Loving this man has lead to me learning how to cope with heartache better. Lead to finding love and friendship. I’ve made many wonderful friends both on here and in real life through my adoration for DB. I don’t talk to every one of them much but a few. I owe this man so much because without him, things could have taken an entirely different path. One that could have lead to me not even being here anymore. I admire many, many other performers some actors, some singers and some who, like David, do both. But he’s the biggest influence.

Like anyone, he was not without his faults. He has done things that aren’t really things anyone should do but there are people who have done so much worse. He’s overcome drug addiction, he’s overcome the same problems as myself. (I’m always gonna fight the problems I have just like he did) Even when dying, he used his humour to cope with it (another thing I use a lot more). People wonder why I defend this man. People still try to take him down and accuse him of things he hasn’t done or things he has, they have maliciously been twisted by people. Well I stand by him for all the joy, excitement, love he brings me. I stand by him for the inspiration he’s given me and he, along with family and friends have helped me continue to live.

I’m never gonna stop loving, defending and listening to this man. Bowie is one of the soundtracks to life. I hope somewhere up there he sees us all on his multiple television sets. Hopefully he’d laugh at some of the antics we all get up to on here and outside.

^^^ I’ve probably rambled long enough so I’ll close this with the fact that I love him. I love his smile. I love his sass. I love the many styles he adopted. I love what he’s helped do for not just me, but many people and I love what, despite no longer being here, he continues to do. I love his many quotes…

I love you David…and I miss you sooo much. Thank you for everything <3

anonymous asked:

since you know a lot about this, you see the writters strike thing? i'm so worried for my tv shows, they can cancell shows already been renew? i'm so worried

Well the good news is it might not happen. The bad news is it might and if it does, it will all go into effect on May 1st. And I’ll give you a wild guess whose fault it would be if it happens:

Disney. Shocked, y'all.

The basis of this strike is 2 fold: The writers want better health care and they want better pay. There is a long history of networks neglecting their writing staffs, and that’s why there have been so many strikes over the years. As a writer, I completely support this, especially for TV writers who work consistently over full time jobs and barely have a health care plan that covers even their most basic of needs and are still struggling financially, even with being a major contributor to even some of TVs most popular programming.

On top of that, I don’t know if you have noticed but there has been a decline in episodes per season on MANY of today’s major shows (besides reality TV because those don’t require writers). Since writers get paid per episode, their drop in wage has been significant. We used to have 22-30 episodes per season and now sometimes we are seeing as little as 10-14. That’s a HUGE cut for a writer, trust me.

It’s very likely that streaming systems like Netflix, Amazon and Hulu would be quick to work out new contracts for writers, but Disney, with its major gravitas in both the film and TV world (Not just Disney Channel but ABC, Marvel, etc are all things they own) could showboat and refuse to budge on terms. Surprise, surprise.

We will see what moves are made. Films will probably not see any sort of damage until like the summer of 2018 since most movies coming out this summer/fall are already in post productions, and any shows this summer have pretty must completely finished production so those will go as scheduled. That’s the good news. Bad news is late night TV will shut down almost immediately and Fall programming would probably take a huge hit.

It’s not that networks could not find people to write if they needed someone to write. But almost always, those replacements produce extremely low quality work that doesn’t ebb and flow with the nature of normal programming (think what happened to Gilmore Girls S7) and because of that, successful shows can easily be swiped or cancelled.

Still, I’m iffy if this will actually happen. Last time it did, networks were buying tons of new reality TV programs and picking up pilot scripts left and right and they just aren’t this time. So let’s just keep our fingers crossed.

Seduce Me Otome: Close Your Eyes With Me

I really couldn’t resist doing this one after listening to this song.

It seemed really perfect for Erik, so, to all you Erik fans, it seems that yep, you’ll have TWO fics to read..the other one (which the teaser is about!) will be coming out later seeing as my muse is having a ball (it’s getting longer than the first one featuring James.). Enjoy! :)

Rating: T. (Don’t worry, the M-rated one will be the next one haha.)

Disclaimer: I don’t own this game; it belongs to Michaela Laws and Seraphim Entertainment.

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You know, those post that are like “life was bad then, but look how good it is now. Just hold on.” are great and all, but sometimes, as a 31 year old, they fuck me up a little because that’s not my life.

So instead, here’s to the moments that are still really good, even if LIFE is still a totally mystery.

Here’s to good TV, and a great book, and good food, and my dog eating peanut butter, and making steps forward, no matter how small. 

Here’s to getting up each day, but sometimes taking naps, and doing the thing even when it feels shitty.

Here’s to being older and still figuring out life, but being okay with that too.

Just a little something no one asked for: Human!SugarPie...

Ok ok, before you shoot me for how stupid this may sound let me explain my though process for this…

I absolutely love how sometimes in movies and tv shows they show inventor/creation relationships depicted as parent child relationships, I just think its so cute! So I thought to myself, ‘You know, Robbie would totally have that kind of relationships with one of his inventions…’  And that reminded me of how in the episode, “LazyTown’s New Superhero” Robbie just loved his little Robo-pupper so much, and so I was thinking, ‘Robbie could have a relationship like that with SugarPie,  but it wouldn’t really work because he’s a dog…’ Then it hit me!

‘What if SugarPie was a human?!?!’ …Well..robot human…?

Let me explain….

What if after that episode Robbie discarded SugarPie then like, one or two years later found him in an old broom closet or something and thought to himself, ‘I bet I could make him better…’ and after drawing up blue print upon blueprint of different (dog) designs for him and finding he didn’t like any of them, then thinking, ‘What if I make him bigger, stronger, smarter! That’s it! I’ll make him Human!!’ Then using both SugarPie’s old parts and some new ones builds a 6 foot tall human robot-dog man!!<3

This is kinda how i imagined him to look like:

Full body.

From the waist up.

(Art done by me. Sorry the colors are a little off and the designs are slightly different but the top drawing is the official design. I also just realized that the paw patch is missing from the top drawing and I’m too lazy to go back and fix it Haha sorry I don’t draw so good. Just remember its supposed to be there.)

So yeah I liked this idea so much I just had to draw it! I would keep writing more about this idea but that would be too long so here have this:

HEADCANONS:

  • Robbie is Half elf and his magic is linked to his emotions
  • Somehow, wheather accidental or intentional, some of Robbie’s magic (for lack of a better word) “gets into” SugarPie making him capable of human thought and emotion. 
  • He is just as, if not stronger than Sportacus
  • He looks like he’s about 20 years old.
  • Since he used to be a dog not he’s a dog catcher! Only his job is to catch the kids not stray dogs. (Robbie’s just clever that way.)
  • SugarPie loved his creator and calls him “Dad”, “Father”, “Pops”, and “Sir”
  • Robbie also loves his robotic son very much and thinks rebuilding him is one of the best decisions he’s ever made! 
  • Robbie calls him “Sugar” for short and you can too! :D
  • “Good boy~” 
  • “Look at this net that I just found!” (He always carries around a giant child-sized butterfly net for catching children)
  • Robbie reprogrammed him so instead of attacking when he hears the word “trouble”, he protects Robbie when ever he says “I’m in trouble!”
  • Because of this he’s less dangerous and is a happy smiley puppo. 
  • He likes the kids now and calls them “the pups” or “the puppies” 
  • He LOVES Sportacus!! 

AND FOR ALL YOU SPORTAROBBIE SHIPPERS OUT THERE!:

  • Robbie designed him to have some of Sportacus’ features. (His nose, jaw shape, eyebrows, and body type.)
  • Sugar’s body type is a combination of both Robbie’s lean (and slightly feminine) physique and Sportacus’ muscular upper body.
  • “If I’m designed in his image, doesn’t that make him like my dad too?…”
  • “Hmm………….I guess it does….”
  • YES SPORT IS HIS OTHER DAD!! (He just doesn’t know that…)
  • Sugar doesn’t understand Robbie and sportacus’ hero/villain relationship.
  • “Pop?…Aren’t parents supposed to live together?…Why does Pabi live all alone in that airship?”
  • “Because we aren’t married.”
  • “why not?… You love him don’t you?”
  • “But he doesn’t love me back…”
  • SugarPie “accidentally” calling Sportacus “Dad” or “Pabi” to his face and Sportacus slowly catching on to what’s going on.
  • “Hello honey! How are my husband and my son doing today?~ ;}3”
  • “!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!??”
  • Sportacus and Robbie ending up together and raising their robotic son together.
  • The End  
Man From UNCLE Sentence Starters
  • It's a handicap isn't it? Being so obviously American?
  • I'll be a study in caution.
  • Exactly three days; that's a relief. I thought it was going to be a rush job.
  • People who straddle both sides of the street end up sitting in the middle.
  • No man is free who works for a living. But, I'm available.
  • I'll have his teeth for cuff links.
  • Like Sherlock Holmes, I like patterns.
  • I see you've come to save me.
  • And... May we live to tell the tale.
  • We do work well together, don't we?
  • It's almost my only weakness.
  • I should have known who it was when I saw you trip over your own feet.
  • Gee, I wish I had a dress like that...
  • Everything I want, I have.
  • Well, I won't sleep thinking about you.
  • I have failed to congratulate you on the brilliance of your scheme.
  • But instead of being at our own dead ends, we are now at the same dead end together.
  • I uh hate to trouble you with trivia. But, I think I'm about to get killed and it struck me that perhaps you might want to say goodbye.
  • Why do scientists always insist on keeping their notes in code?
  • You know, sometimes I get the feeling I'm terribly expendable.
  • I suppose I'll have to find myself a new tailor.
  • It's amazing how quickly a girl can take her clothes off. And how long it takes to put them on again.
  • I'll catch you. Take a deep breath, close your eyes, and jump.
  • I thought you had a little more style than to try an old trick like that.
  • You may like to know that it cost me ten dollars American for him to leave my hair alone.
Hypnosis progress

Been doing hypno a lot the last couple days. Seems to be starting to have an effect now, and ive been more ditzy. Like the other day my bf asked me where I put the tv remote, I just giggled and said I didn’t know when it was right in my hand:)

I got my nails and brows done the other day, think its really helped me to get in the bimbo mindset, and I’m gonna go to the tanning salon sometime this week.

Cant wait to get my boobs done:)

annrchy  asked:

Is it possible to be autistic and have little to no sensory processing problems?

(ok this wound up being a rly long answer but) yeah. sensory processing disorder is comorbid with autism spectrum disorder and is extremely common, but not all autistic people have sensory processing problems.

BUT. if you suspect you may be autistic, and you’re an adult diagnosing yourself, you could have it and not realize. i mean, i can only speak for myself, but i do know its possible to have sensory processing problems and not exactly “know” you have it. if you had asked me a few years ago, i would definitely have said i didn’t have any sensory issues, just because of the autism stereotype that it’s not “real” or diagnostically relevant if you can control or suppress your reaction to offensive sensory stimuli- like if you’re not screaming and crying and visibly suffering, it’s “normal” and “everybody feels like that sometimes”. 

for me, my thing is sounds (mostly). i’m extremely sensitive to sound (i can hear when the tv is turned on in the living room, even if it’s on mute, from my bedroom upstairs.) i never recognized it as a problem, because i was able to keep all my reactions completely internal: unspecified but powerful anxiety when too many people are talking around me; feeling my heart racing in my chest for no reason when there’s really loud, continuous sounds; feeling extremely stressed in certain circumstances and not even understanding why i feel so bad suddenly myself; getting frustrated really really easily when someone speaks over me or multiple people try to speak to me at once, and having to stop myself from snapping at them.

but it never occurred to me that any of this wasn’t “normal”. in fact, i realized i was autistic long before i started looking back on my life and identifying my own sensory issues. i always rationalized it as me being “sensitive” or “shy” or chalk it up to a depressive episode or w/e. i thought because it wasn’t causing a problem for anyone else/i could “control” it, it didn’t matter.

so like, if you suspect you may be autistic, then you might need to re-examine a lot of your own experiences through that lens. because that’s how most undiagnosed and/or “high-functioning” autistic people are unconsciously trained to function: by learning to ignore our own senses and internal reactions to things, to the point where we sometimes aren’t even sure what we really feel without having to look for it. so, there’s that.

and also: the sensory processing differences that are often a part of being autistic are not always characterized by discomfort/suffering. that’s also very important to understand; it can look like just having really strong preferences for certain tastes/textures/smells/etc. i really enjoy running my fingers across certain fabrics, for example. i would argue all kinds of stimming (or happy stimming, anyway) are about really experiencing pleasure from different kinds of sensory input. 

i hope this answers your question. 

anonymous asked:

you came into the riverdale fandom and just like i knew it, started doing meta, and eventually i left because i knew i couldnt ever get as many positive notes as you do. sometimes i resent you for switching fandoms even though i know its rude as fiddlesticks.

don’t really know what to say to this. i dislike being projected onto, but i also can tell this isn’t actually about me. 

look, i’ve been on this hellsite for a long time and have spent such time slowly building a large amount of followers, for which i’m very grateful to still have most of even after transitioning into a new fandom. so the notes thing is just probably about that. 

i just like analyzing tv and storytelling, that’s the way i engage with the shows i watch, and i’m doing it because i want to; not to get all preachy but you shouldn’t ever do something for the recognition. sure, it’s great and validating and we all want it, but if you’re not doing something in your free time because you feel passionate about it, what’s the point? 

honestly you shouldn’t let any person or especially an idea of a person dictate what you should or shouldn’t do, and it seems that this must be an issue more than just about me. let me know if i can help you unpack any of this, i run a blog that’s specifically for discussing personal issues at dear–sarah

otherwise/regardless, i hope you don’t resent me forever and can work through whatever it is that’s really bothering you.