sometimes it's hard to look at him

I fell in love with my best friend.


Well, he is not my best friend anymore.


When people point at someone in a crowd of people, a blurry image of strangers, a blizzard of nostalgia and say: “that is my ex-best friend”, is much more hurtful than saying “that is my ex-boyfriend”. I sometimes sit down and wonder how did everything go downhill, how I never saw it coming, and how I never actually thought of the possibility of such a tragedy that I am still paying for its consequences. I miss him; it is hard to say goodbye to the only thing that was right in my life. Our friendship was one of a kind—in my mind it still is.


I saw him the other day, walking by the liquor aisle. I knew I shouldn’t have been there while he was looking at bottles of wine, or how he likes to drink red wine at night just because it used to be his mom’s favorite. I stood there watching him—never in a second did I think of his reaction to why I was there in the first place—I just stood there and studied him. I took in every single detail about him, from his tired eyes to the veins bulging on his knuckles upwards his strong arms, flexing every time he held up a bottle of wine and read it. It was like he was not sure about which wine to get, or even his life choices. Call me a psychological freak that studies body language of her first love but this used to be one of my favourite pastimes.

sleepy!keith!!!! x, x

  • that bed hair tho
    • lance tries smoothing it down but it just floofs back up
      • keith: lance?? are you crying??
      • lance, looking at his bf’s hair sticking up in every direction possible: you’re just…so cUTE….
  • keith likes sleeping in blanket cocoons 
    • lance often needs to check to make sure he’s still breathing in there
  • either he’s curled up in a little ball or splayed out across the entire bed…there is no in between
  • he snores
    • lance loves him so much but sometimes its so hard to sleep by him
    • keith denies it
      • keith: there’s NO WAY i snore…i’d hear it
      • lance: keith…babe…bear
  • the kid is a human radiator 
    • lance likes being the big spoon when they sleep because he’s so naturally cold himself
      • one time he was the little spoon and keith had such a death grip on him and he was so warm he thought he was going to die
  • keith used to think he was better off sleeping alone but now he can’t sleep without someone near him
    • after they first started dating, keith would often slip into lance’s room at night just to sleep next to him and know someone was there
    • lance doesn’t mind at all
  • keith kicks lance a lot when he’s sleeping
    • keith: why do you have so many bruises on your legs
    • lance: why do your dreams always involve kicking something
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Updated my YOI shrine! With additional shot of bedside posters + pillows ^v^)b

While the overall number has grown (and I’ve completed the sets that had a few guys missing last time), you can see acrylic standee details in my older post HERE.

Best quotes from the new dnp craft video

“Friends are important. then you have more knives”

*laughing* “Lying makes you go to hell!”

“This one’s long with a big head. Like him!”

“Throw the smallest over your shoulder! No one wants that.” 

“I’ve selected as many knives as i have friends. Two!”

*heavy breathing*

“Next, grab your potato! Grip it with all your strength.”

“Slice it like it will remember it.”

“Chopping things fills me with good memories.”

“Sometimes its nice to look up at the stars and remember that theyre all already dead.” 

“The universe is so big….and cold.”

“If you make a mistake while cutting, just think about it for the rest of the day!”

“Phil. Too hard. You hurt it.”

“Space is violent.”

“I only trust my potato with my true friend”

“Im going to place mine [potato] in the trapdoor under my bed.”

*satanic shit*

I don’t miss you as much anymore. Sometimes you cross my mind but not like you use to. I remember when I thought that I couldn’t live without you and looking back on it, you were the best and worst thing that happened to me. Its been hard, its been so hard to get over you but looking back on it time passes, and the more you live your life and create new habits, you get used to not having a text message every morning saying, ‘Hello, beautiful. Good morning.’ You get used to not calling someone at night to tell him how your day was. You replace these old habits with new habits. As time goes on, you get better, but only with time. You still see them and a spark is there, your mind still races when you see them, its going to, you use to love that person with every inch of your soul, with every emotion you could possibly have. Its just not the same anymore.
— 

@livingpreppywearingpearls

Kaitlyne Smith

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I want Shiro and Lance to go on a mission together. I don’t care what kind.

One where Shiro is unsure amd uneasy, is worried about Lance slipping up and telling a bad joke at the wrong time. Where he thinks Lance’s attempts at flirting will get them into hot water. But instead he’s seeing Lance with a whole different set of manners. Making alliance’s and gathering aliens for their cause. Where Lance’s diplomatic strategies work and the aliens of this planet are so charmed by the blue paladin Shiro gets kind brushed off to the side, even with his title of being champion. Shiro finds himself not minding one bit. Where after he pulls Allura and Coran aside and tells them. He’s momentarily shocked at their beaming smiles that, yes, they knew it would work Lance IS best for these types of missions. And Shiro is just stunned and so happy about it at the same time.

Or give me a mission where everything seems to go wrong and Shiro starts seeing things that aren’t there. His chest feels tight and hears the chantting he had to walk away from every night. And Shiro tries SO hard to stay strong to be the typical leader he’s supposed to be. But he’s just breaking and its freaking him out even more. But Lance won’t allow that. He tells Shiro to focus on his eyes. Tell Shiro its not real. Tell Shiro he’ll be there no matter what. Takes everything step by step until Shiro is comfortable again to the point where Lance is simply doing everything. And Shiro wants to be mad - why does Lance have to do everything for him? Why does he have to act like a big baby? But whenever he voices those thoughts Lance gives him this look, eyes as bright and some how cold looking as a winter sky. If Lance says it’s not problem then its not. And sometimes when things seems to hard and Shiro is gasping for breath and his vision blurry from tears he fe2ela Lance pulling him gently. Letting him know that he is here to HELP Shiro. And as embarssed he is when his tears are gone Shito admits that its not to bad to sit in Lance’s lap.

OR just a mission where the two of them goof off and the sunlight hits Lance just right and when Shiro looks he’s left breathless.

  • Me: *sigh*
  • Cashier: What's wrong?
  • Me: It's the scent of this place. It's nostalgic. Reminds me of lavender scent of my grandmother's house. Even color of the walls remind me of the bygone era of my childhood; the dim sunsets of a fuzzy summer evenings, and faint memory of fading dreams.
  • Cashier: Ah, you want to start all over do you? I know the feeling. It's enough to drive me to the brink.
  • Me: Verily. At some point, I began to live my life in retrospect. The now doesn't matter anymore because everything has become so bland. What am I to do in this monotonous life when my happy times passed so long ago. It's as if-
  • Cashier: *turns into a 9 foot tall vibrating metal cube that deconstructs me at a molecular level and turns me into pure radium powder*
  • Guy, with that as fetish who actually wrote this post: *doesn't even jack it just looks at the screen all sweaty and breathing heavily*
  • Girlfriend: *walks into the room unannounced* Everything okay? You've been acting kind of strange recently.
  • Guy: *quickly closes all tabs* Oh, nothing. I'm just like. I'm... you know. I've been tired.
  • Girlfriend: *suspiciously* ...sure. Pizza's here by the way.
  • Guy: Okay, cool. I'll be right out. *wipes sweat from head*
  • Girlfriend: *texts best friend* He's definitely cheating. He just closed like twenty tabs on his computer!!!!!!!
  • Best Friend: Did you look through his browsing history?
  • Girlfriend: Yeah, it's all wikipedia pages about radioactive stuff. It's so fucking weird. He's either cheating or a terrorist.
  • Best Friend: That's creepy. I'd break up with him.
  • Girlfriend: I've been considering it, but it's complicated. I still feel so strongly about him. I don't want to ruin our relationship.
  • Best Friend: Sometimes you have to break things off with the people you care about the most. For a little bit anyway.
  • Girlfriend: Yeah, I get that. It's so hard though. I can't imagine life without him.
  • Best Friend: You have to do what you have to do. It's the only way to move forward. Getting stuck in a stagnant relationship can ruin you.
  • Girlfriend: I guess you're right...
  • Best Friend: *is wearing a full hazmat suit.*
  • Doctor: *walks up behind her* Jennifer, stop texting. We need you in the bottom.
  • Best Friend: Sorry, got it.
  • Best Friend: *descends in elevator, sees 9 foot tall humanoid ant corpse on the ground* Fucking gross! Do you know where it came from.
  • Doctor: No clue. It's why we called you here.
  • Best Friend: This isn't like any cryptid I've ever seen. It must be extraterrestrial in origin. Wait... is its body full of gummy worms? *hears the sound of the elevator going up behind her*
  • Best Friend: Doctor! Where are you going!? What the fuck!?
  • Doctor: Waves to her from the elevator.
  • Ant Humanoids: *appear from the shadows in the hundreds*
  • Best Friend: No, no, no, no! This can't be happening.
  • Ant Humanoids: *surround her*
  • Best Friend: Don't fucking come near me! I'm highly radioactive! You'll all die if you eat me.
  • Ant Humanoid in the back: *listening to comic book podcast*
  • Podcast Guy 1: So when it comes to Superman, I feel like there are actually two characters. Clark Kent, the man. Then there's Superman, the ideal. They're the same person but represent very different aspects of him.
  • Podcast Guy 2: Comic books are fucking stupid, my dude. *cellphone buzzes* Hold up, I gotta take this.
  • Podcast Guy 2: *gets an alert that his favorite fetish forum has updated, licks lips fuckingly*
  • Podcast Guy 2: *under breath* Oh yeah. A new radium dust sexual fanfic. Can't wait to tweak my noodle to this! Zoo wee mama!
  • Podcast Guy 1: What did you just say.
  • Podcast Guy 2: Nothing, man. We were talking about Superman. Let's continue with that.
  • Podcast Guy 1: Yeah, as I was saying. Superman would definitely be a power bottom and

considering how hard it is (and sometimes impossible) to trigger a sneeze in your sleep it just fuels the suspicion that this sly motherfucker

isn’t sleeping at all

he was probably posing all along i mean look at him who sleeps like this in front of their crush 

goddammit viktor 

anonymous asked:

okay but now im crying because im imagining that patton is the only one who understands that anxiety is so insecure and so just at like evey possible moment he gives words of encouragement. "and anxiety, you're-" "no whatever you asked me to do i didnt!" "-standing there and sulking in the corner!! good job!"

He wants to make sure Anxiety knows that people care for him, and is just overly optimistic and supportive of everything he does.

“Good job, Sport! You got out ta bed today!”

“Wonderful, that’s your second snack today! That’s more than yesterday!”

“Ah, look at you standing there glaring, I bet you worked hard on that glare!”

“Its okay, if you need to cry, there’s nothing to be ashamed of. You did your best today, and you were wonderful, sometimes things just don’t go to plan.”

i got this really nice photo of my favorite idiot today and i wanna cry because i don’t know what to do with it but it’s also so hard to find a good photo of him because he’s ALWAYS TALKING and mucking up my shot 

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Ben Platt on Kelly & Ryan!

cold-hearted-rage  asked:

Hanzo/Genji/McCree (separately) receive a shy kiss from their crush. How would they react?

Hanzo:

  • Honestly, Hanzo is infatuated with you
  • Was bold enough to ask to court you
  • It stunned him when you accepted
  • Except Hanzo…is not experienced in this field
  • How do relationships grow?
  • At some point, Hanzo knows he wants to do more then just hold hands
  • But his biggest fear is you won’t be ready for kissing
  • And then you’ll feel awkward around him
  • Or he’ll have magically offended you
  • So… at some point despite your obvious shyness
  • You decide to be the bold one
  • It takes three hours of convincing yourself to get even three minutes of courage
  • But you walk up…and you kiss him on the lips
  • Both of you are stunned
  • Its so cute because immediately your face goes red and you apologize repeatedly
  • At first, you can’t tell what he’s thinking as he stares at you
  • Then he pulls your hands down and gently presses another kiss to your lips
  • Your so flustered the rest of the day, and Hanzo just can’t stop smiling…. (it kind of scares everyone else)

Genji

  • Now, Genji was a bit shy at first
  • Except you were extremely difficult to resist
  • Of course, that doesn’t mean he wasn’t worried most of the time
  • What if the idea of dating a cyborg was too unappealing?
  • What if he couldn’t make you happy?
  • The good news is, he still had to try
  • You were worth it
  • He LOVES how shy you are
  • Your almost always flustered
  • Whether it be walking out in public holding hands
  • Or when he comes up behind you to hug you
  • Ohhhh and he loves your kisses
  • He’s come up with a trick to get you to kiss him ;)
  • He’ll go all day without kissing you, and slowly you’ll grow more pouty as the day passes
  • Until your literally so frustrated, you puff out your cheeks and glare at him
  • And then sulk as you walk up and give him little kisses, wanting more
  • Genji will always give you a real sweet kiss after, but he loves how you’ll remain adorably sulky in one of his sweaters, the hood up as you hug his arm

McCree:

  • The man pursued you non-stop
  • Honestly, his boldness scared you at first
  • So the first two times you said no
  • Now that you two are dating, you aren’t sure why you ever did that
  • Its rather cute
  • The two of you are complete opposites
  • He’s very social, very loud and very opinionated
  • You are very quiet, keep to yourself and seriously shy
  • You kind of hide behind him sometimes when meeting people
  • Or you’ll hold his hand while avoiding peoples gazes
  • Sometimes though, you’ll just stare at him while its the two of you
  • Its like, you try hinting you want a kiss
  • But he just doesn’t
  • He knows you want it…but he’s trying to help you learn to take what you want?
  • So finally you just kiss him
  • And the most adorable squeak comes from your lips
  • You have a hard time looking at him now whenever he asks for kisses, a grin on his face as he hopes for the same little squeak
Pietro Maximoff supporting his children at sporting events would include...

Requested by anon
“Pietro supporting his children at sporting events fluffiness”

If I’m being honest, I had no idea how to put this into a full one shot, and thought a headcanon would have been easier and sometimes they’re just as good :)

Headcanon / Full Masterlists

small authors note: i gave you and pietro three kids. gender/names are not specified so that is all how your mind picks it up; for the kids i used their ages to specify which one i was talking about and use “they/them” pronouns 

  • Pietro would be so happy his kids like sports
  • It’s even better if they like to run track/cross country
  • let’s say you and pietro have three kids 
  • And, obviously, he is all about the running and making sure to work out because running!is!fun!!!!
  • even if you don’t like it, somehow it get’s passed down to your kids
  • but you don’t argue
  • at least they’re outside being active
  • and not staying inside watching tv shows excessively and on the computer for hours at a time
  • (HAHA who am i kidding my kids will have a tumblr from day one)
  • but they’re making friends from it
  • and they enjoy it
  • and they’re very hyperactive i mean look at pietro he’s hyper in itself of course your kids are like him, too.
  • so it’s getting all that energy out
  • FORGET “SOCCER MOM” he is the ultimate soccer dad
  • because nearly every kid starts out playing soccer (even i did…and now look at me)
  • he will volunteer to bring all the snacks and water for the kids
  • then after the season ends he will throw a huge party 
    • sometimes he gets to have it at stark tower if tony is out of town
    • dont tell tony
    • he cant know
    • BUT THE KIDS LOVE HIM EVEN IF PIET IS A LIL CRAZY
  • he wishes he were the coach but with this superspeed thing it would be hard for the children to understand and he kinda has this whole “saving the world” thing on his shoulders so its probably not the best idea for him to do that
  • but damn
  • he is standing on the sidelines at every game
  • he is screaming for your kids team to get the ball
  • “RUN JUST A LITTLE FASTER, SON, YOU GOT THIS, DO IT LIKE I TAUGHT YOU! YES! YES! KICK IT IN THE GOAL! YOU ARE THE MAN! HELL YEAH!”
  • “pietro please don’t swear in front of the kids.”
  • pietro has gotten so into he’s sworn so much that he’s been asked to leave
  • pietro would be so hype to go to every. single. game.
  • Stark needed him for something? It can wait until after the game.
  • Cap needs him on a mission? He’ll be there once the game is over.
    • “Pietro, your kids will have a million games. You can miss this one.”
    • “They aren’t going to be this small ever again, I’m not missing the game. You are not my top priority, my kids are.’
  • fast forward a few years so we can talk about other sports than soccer
  • all throughout elementary school the eldest kid decides to stick with soccer and is really good at it
  • the middle kid ends up deciding soccer is not for them and picks up a bat ready to frickin hit that ball out of the park even if they are super small they still get home runs, and the youngest decides they like basketball.
  • and just because pietro is getting older does not mean he is getting any less hype. he will be hype all his life. he is pietro maximoff.
  • more years pass because there are more sports options as you get older so:
  • lets say now you and pietro have a sophomore (15-16 y/o), a eighth grader (13/14 y/o), and a seventh grader (like 12?)
  • in highschool the eldest is still sticking with soccer because they’re a fast runner and are really good, plus a bunch of their friends are still on the team and its really fun
  • BUT THEY ALSO DECIDE THEY WANT TO RUN CROSS COUNTRY
  • pietro almost cries when they come home saying they want to join the team
    • “I’ve been waiting for this day to come”
    • “dad, are you crying?”
    • “He’s just happy, dear, you know he loves to run.”
    • “but it’s…it’s just cross country…I’m not even on the team yet.”
    • “Let him have this…it’s better that way”
  • AND YOU THOUGHT PIETRO WAS INSANE WITH SOCCER? YOU HAVEN’T EVEN SEEN HIM AT A CROSS COUNTRY MEET. HE IS THE ONE YELLING THE LOUDEST FOR HIS KID, CHEERING THEM ON, SCREAMING WHEN HE CROSSES THE LINE
    • “yn i am so fucking happy they like running wE CAN ENTER MARATHONS TOGETHER BABE”
    • “im happy for you pietro”
  • and when the middle child is in 8th grade (13/14 y/o) they make the baseball/softball team 
  • so now they’re not in a random team outside of school this one is with the school
  • pietro loves to help throw the ball for them to hit back and run around the backyard
  • yes, the child and pietro have broken so many windows you have found non shattering glass
  • they still break it
  • but hey thats how the kid hits the home runs
  • the amount of balls on your roof though
  • there are so many
  • one day it gets to window out and everyone is at the table eating dinner and all the sudden like fifteen balls go past the window
    • “DAD THEY’RE BACK! WE CAN HIT EVEN MORE NOW!”
    • “please stop hitting them on the roof”
    • “THATS HOW WE KNOW THEY’RE GONNA ROCK AT THE GAME, YN, LET US HAVE THIS!”
  • there is no stopping pietro
  • okay and your youngest child is not as into sports as the other two, but really likes basketball
  • they don’t want to be on the school team, they like the community team better and have more friends there
  • the youngest is more introverted and quiet and at school, very shy, so they like to do a lot of reading and writing and you best bet they have a wattpad and a tumblr and an ao3
  • so when people from school hear that the youngest maximoff will literally scream on the court, no one believes it because no one from the school is on the community team and doesn’t think young maximoff is capable of screaming
  • one day they’re invited to play at recess 
  • and damn, young maximoff makes everyone’s eyes go wide when they get on the court
  • because they have skills
  • young maximoff knows what they’re doing
  • young maximoff will call someone out if something is wrong
  • young maximoff is not afraid to yell
  • young maximoff is a really good shot
  • but dang when recess is over and they go back to being their shy selves, people still want to talk to them and get to know them
  • and before they know it, young maximoff is asked to play basketball everyday
  • PIETRO IS SO EXCITED
  • BECAUSE HIS BABY IS FINALLY GETTING OUT THERE AT SCHOOL
  • EVEN IF THEY AREN’T ON THE SCHOOL TEAM, WHO CARES
  • THEYRE STILL PLAYING AT LUNCH
  • AND PIETRO IS SO EXCITED TO HEAR ALL THE STORIES FROM YOUNG MAXIMOFF AND THE SPORT
  • to wrap this up pietro loves his kids and is so so so so so so supportive and loves to watch them run around the field (or on a track) and is very pleased.
  • now he’s just waiting for the day one of them comes home saying “uh, mom, dad, i can run…really fast…like dad…”
  • because bruce told them since the power is in pietro’s dna it’s a possibility that the kids could have the power, too
  • but until then, you and pietro will watch from the sidelines with big smiles on your faces
  • pietro is soccer mom™
EXO (ot12) reacting to their crush being the MC of a tv show

Luhan: He would try to keep his calm but everytime you asked him something he would smile and his eyes would get brighter…he just contemplates your beauty while everyone else sweats nervously because he is not answering the questions.

Originally posted by meiren-menglu

Kris: His cool appearance would be on all the time. He tries to act like he is not interested but in reality he is the most engaged member in the conversation.

Originally posted by lil-unicorn-yixing

Xiumin: He’d smile at you, taking the situation calmly and answering all the questions you are making. He thinks you look beautiful than ever that day so sometimes he gets lost in his thoughts but comes back to earth quickly.

Originally posted by ethereal-baek

Suho: Given the fact that he is the leader he needs to appear the most calm and content from the group. He asks what the question was because he focuses too much on how pretty you look.

Originally posted by whenxoxosmilesunshines

Lay: He doesn’t hesitate on saying how pretty you look, and it becomes an innocent and smooth flirting game while the interview goes on. He would smile shyly while looking down, and sometimes he holds his breath because…you are stunning.

Originally posted by angel-in-slow-motion

Baekhyun: He is cracking jokes all the time because he loves to hear your laughter. Its the most amazing sound he could have ever heard in the universe. Surprisingly he gets a little shy whenever you look at him to ask him something.

Originally posted by the-a-team-baekhyun

Chanyeol: the guy is all smiles and whenever you ask him something he has a hard time explaining stuff, something that never happens to him because he is really good at talking…he just becomes vulnerable with you.

Originally posted by loey-daddy

Chen: He has no problem at all while you ask him stuff, he looks at you straight in the eyes and he keeps it professional but at the same time he manages to steal glances from you every now and then while you ask stuff to other members.

Originally posted by sehnunie

D.O: He is usually very quiet and reserved for interviews and other shows unless they ask him things directly. Surprisingly since you are the MC and he really likes you he makes a big effort to engage in the show. We get to see more of his squishy smile, and not gonna lie the boy was not afraid to tell you how pretty you are.

Originally posted by daenso

Tao: He would be a combination of what Xiumin and Lay do, adding the fact that he wouldn’t take his eyes off of you and he will also smile at you all the time.

Originally posted by karina617tor

Kai: He would probably be shy in the beginning but as you keep talking to the other members and asking them stuff he would feel kind of jealous because he wants to talk to you as well. You ask him to show part of a choreography and he goes all out trying to impress you.

Originally posted by kai-tastrophe

Sehun: He is a mess. He has a hard time answering your questions and he is so shy he won’t dare to look at you in the eye. He would make fun of the older members though, which you find really funny and cute…he realizes you like it so he does it every now and then to make you smile or laugh.

Originally posted by kai-tastrophe

Zen’s is his bad habits. He hates smoking & drinking but he cant bring himself to stop. He feels so alone and they’re the only things there for him when he feels like so. He gets nervous if he steps outside for a cigarette during something or when he has a “lucky beer” before doing anything important since its something he doesn’t want to do, yet he does anyways.

Jumin hates his “robot personality” the most. He envies 707’s sense of humor and ability to make MC and everyone laugh– He wishes he could too; but it normally backfires on him. He doesn’t understand why he’s like that, he just is. And it bothers him a lot.

Yoosung is insecure about his looks. He thinks he has a baby face, is too short and skinny etc. He really doesn’t like how childlike he looks– He feels like he cant come off serious or masculine to anyone around him despite wanting to so much.

Jaehee surprisingly doesn’t really like her hands. They’re riddled of scars from years of paper-cuts and calloused from carrying heavy document boxes and holding onto binders all day. She doesn’t like to shake hands much because of that fact, opting instead for a soft bow or curtsey.

Seven doesn’t like anything about himself. His looks; since he thinks he’s too chubby, his personality– since he thinks he’s annoying. Its why he likes going undercover so much; Its like putting on a mask and swiping all his insecurities under the rug for the day.

V doesn’t like the scar he has on his ankle from a bicycle accident that happened when he was a kid. Its fairly large, going a little ways up his leg and it still gets sore sometimes since it was directly on his bone. He usually wears long socks to cover it up most of the time since he doesn’t think it looks very appealing.

Saeran obviously hates everything about himself? But I think he hates his tattoo the most after being adapted into the RFA. It reminds him that no matter how hard he tries his past is always there, always imprinted on his body. It makes him feel like he’ll always be that person no matter the effort he tries to give into bettering himself.

bonus!

Elizabeth the 3rd doesn’t like that she snores when she sleeps. While her master seems to love it, ( she always wakes up with a camera in her face, ) she finds this rather un-ladylike.

Headcanon that Viktor tried to tell Siri to call him Vitya but Siri can’t figure out how to say that so it just calls him VEET YEAH.

And Viktor has the technological literacy of a hedgehog so he can’t figure out how to make it stop.

And sometimes Viktor will look up and say, “Hey Yuuri?” and Yuuri will reply, “Yes, VEET-YEAH?”

Yuuri and Yuri refuse to change it for him.

How I draw Sebastian: Toboso Style

This is my tutorial on how I personally go about drawing Sebastian Michaelis, from Kuroshitsuji! (It isn’t the only way, I just find this works best for me. Many others will do it differently, its just about finding what works best for you) It is quite long, so i’m sorry if it drags on… This is especially for @bannu219 <3 I hope you find this helpful! I apologise for taking such a long time to finish it ^^ 

  • I first start with a circle for the top of the head, and roughly outline the chin. You will probably change this later and modify it, so don’t focus too much on making it ‘perfect’. Its simply a foundation for you to work detail into later. Make sure you are always light with your pencil, as you will be rubbing this out. You certainly don’t want dark lines remaining there. 
  • Yana herself stated that when she always draws Sebastian, she starts with his bangs. I find this give me a rough idea where the place the eyes and proportion his features correctly. The top of his head will always be a little higher than your sketched out circle, as you can see. In this particular sketch of mine, the wind is picking up Sebastian’s hair, that is why I have drawn it in this particular way. Also, have a rubber handy, so you can erase your foundation layer of pencil work. 


  • Next is the sketch of features. If you do a rough ‘prototype’ of his features, you can use your judgement on whether the proportion is correct and if it looks like him. Instead of working a lot of detail into an eye for example then realising it is out of proportion, too wide or small and having to erase it. This rough basis is perfect for testing out facial expressions and how to size everything correctly. 


  • Remember when I said that it was likely that you would rub out the outline of his face? Well I had to. I saw that the features I had drawn were too big and his facial shape too small; I needed it to be longer and more defined, to match his masculine jawline. 


  • When you are fairly happy with your outline of facial features and proportion, next is when it starts to come together; the finer detailing. You need to make sure you have erased all out of place lines and anything messy-looking. You want lines to look fine and concise. Bring together lines and shapes to form a more rounded and fluid finish. Make your ‘rough outline’ look more like a ‘sketch’. Basically, join lines together and tidy it up.  
  • Work into his eyes. Remember Seb has very distinctive, streamlined eyes. They usually look calm and strong, fringed with dark lashes. They are not cutesy and wide (Like our Ciel’s…) more fierce and intimidating. Work in finer detail, and tidy it up. 


  • Yay!


  • Now, I want to make a point here. This was my first finished Sebastian. It looks okay, however, to me something is a bit off about him. ಠ_ಠ I worked hard to get this result and I found that it wasn’t quite what I had imagined. (I’m not saying it’s bad, but because I drew it, I can point out flaws. You are naturally more critical of your own artwork. I am a bit of a perfectionist too, which is frustrating for me because sometimes you think something is wrong when its fine.) BUT I changed it. If your drawing frustrates you, go have a break and eat some chips or something then come back to it. A clear mind set really helps (Or maybe I just love chips  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )  What I’m trying to say is: Don’t be disheartened if your drawing did not turn out as you wanted it to. This happened to me, but I kept working into it and I changed it to what I wanted. After eating chips.

Now ladies and gentlemen, we are finished. As you can see, I changed the size of the eyes, and played around with their location. I also changed his jaw line once again. Everything needs shifting and changing when it comes to art. Proportion is everything - if you feel there is something not quite right about your Sebby, it is likely you need to change the size or position of your features. Sometimes a too long nose or chin will result in a too long face and vise versa. Sometimes this small difference is hard to spot, but once you do it can turn your picture around. If you cant spot it, just send me a picture and I can give some advice (to the best of my ability anyway) Even i’m still learning. But of course, the only master of drawing Sebastian will always be his creator!              If you have anything to say or questions, please feel free to message me!                   (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ     Thanks for reading, have a sinfully sweet night everyone <3