sometimes it looks shit

hey guys :)

just fyi i’m not good about tagging things like shows and actors, so if my blog is about stuff you’re not into, you’re totally free to unfollow me.

i always always try to tag major triggers

but other than that i’ve never once been a blog that tagged all my posts 

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The visual version of my post that said, “Klavier Gavin actually has bad eyesight and needs glasses, but he wears contacts because he doesn’t want to be mistaken for his brother: especially after what happened in AA4. Sometimes he squints to see shit and it sort of looks like he’s giving bedroom eyes because the man is just so flawlessly sexy and Apollo’s like, ‘Why is he looking at me like that?’ But really Klavier is trying to read what’s on the document Apollo just held up as evidence. ”

Sometimes i go and look at the drawings i made around the time vld season 2 trailer first came out, theorizing about season 2 and stuff, and i’m just….shocked by how accurate some of that shit was

Musing about being a POC and queer individual in the TMNT fandom:

I think the hardest part of being in the TMNT fandom for me is the fact that I am not white, am not straight, am not cis, or even neurotypical, and… I identify fairly hard with the turtles because of those things. 

But then… they’re drawn or written as all of those things probably 90% of the time when people are humanizing them, and its just. so hard. to let that go, even though those people have no idea they’re affecting some random person across the internet. Compared to the hundreds of others who don’t feel this way, my personal opinion doesn’t really matter.

I don’t hold it against anyone for their headcanons, and I have never a day in my life sent hate to a person for having those headcanons, since I know those depend almost entirely on the personal life and experiences of those individuals.

They still bother me though, since I feel like it erases a large part of what the turtles’ identities are, which is being a minority among minorities.

They’re the only four of their kind, and pretty much utterly isolated from the rest of the world. They’ve never fit in, and never will, because they are inherently different from the rest of society. They are, in a phrase, freaks of nature.

My circumstances aren’t as extreme, not even close, but I know that feeling on a personal level regardless. Having them portrayed as the socially acceptable norm, it erases a large part of what makes them so interesting; which would be their sheer alien-ness from the rest of us. By making them ordinary cis white straight etc etc in humanized headcanons, I feel it takes away from their original characterization as a minority.

And it just really bothers me, as a single individual in the fandom, to have characters I identify with so strongly become pretty much the complete opposite of who and what I am, and thusly become no longer relatable. It’s just a difficult thing to deal with sometimes, especially since I have no power to change it other than ignoring the content I don’t like.

I hope no one takes this as an insult to their personal headcanons about the series; its just the words from someone who’s never fit correctly to any box, and found a strong connection to four characters who I felt were similar to me in that sense.

Some sketches I did X3

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST MY BROTHER FIGURED ONION OUT!!!!!!

You know how everyone thought Onion was a gem because he has no ears?

THAT’S HALF THE REASON FOR THE CRUD HE DOES!!!!

Onion was born without ears.

So he can’t speak properly.

He can’t hear when people tell him to stop.

He has to be looking someone in the face to figure out what they’re saying.

MAYBE IT’S GENETIC LOOK AT HIS DAD!

HOLY SHIT!

Sometimes when my brother gets an idea, I have to stare at him and tell him it’s been thought of so many times he’s practically the only one who hasn’t heard it yet, other times, I have to stare at him gaping because what he just said was fucking brilliant. There’s no in between.

me: i don’t really feel much about my race/ethnicity or have much of a sense of identity in relation to that

also me: *sees another mixed person who looks like me/what i looked like as a kid* hOOOLY SHIT AAAAAAAHHH

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