I really wanna have someone who kisses me and squishes my butt and shares their thoughts with me and loves me etc but at the same time I really don’t wanna leave the house or attempt to make contact with other lonely humans online so basically life is hard
Sometimes, when it feels like missing you will kill me, I have to look back at how many days have gone by that I’ve survived without you. Ive learned to expand my mind, laugh again, have fun, get out of bed, seek adventure with other people, and to begin to focus on my major. I did all of this without you. I would’ve rather had you there with me, but you weren’t and I'm still breathing. Every time I wish you were experiencing something with me, or I think about what you would say if you were here, or I feel the loneliness creeping up and consuming me, I remind myself that I’ve survived that feeling many times and that it won’t kill me. It will hurt like hell, but it can’t defeat me.
I’m having trouble with writing Cullen, despite the great resources found on tumblr about writing him that I’ve read and saved (and used). Even with life issues and personal ones getting in the way, I’m still writing Dawn Will Come, it’s just taking, oh, 3 months plus to get to chapter 2…grr
Anyway, I put together all of Cullen’s written notes and reports from the War Table Operations to help with his voice and personality. I figured I’d share it with the world. Hope it helps!