sometimes i make things when im sad

hey guys

im a person.
it can really hurt my feelings when you say really horrible things to me.
im not going to stop being me. im not going to change.
but sending mean messages to me isnt a solution to any of your problems.
im a person.
sometimes you ruin my day or put me in a bad mood or make me sad.
and it can make me act certain ways and get annoyed or irritated or have little patience or feel really down.
im a person.
and when i can see over 1000 hateful messages in my inbox it sucks sometimes.
ask yourself why you have to send me a hateful message anonymously. like seriously? deliberately trying to make a girl sad?
im a person. i have feelings too. even if it seems like im not real im fucking real

because im tired of having people criticize me 
because apparently everyone hates me
because maybe i wasnt designed like everyone else
because maybe i give too much and really only hurt myself
because sometimes im mad more than sad
and maybe i dont know why im mad
i like covering up my emotions because when i dont im called sensitive 
but when im mean im strong
maybe i need to be told that im good for once
that im doing okay
that im not as fucked up as they all make me seem
maybe if they spent one day saying only good things instead of five days only saying bad
sometimes i too need someone who will gloat me with complements and make me feel good for once 
im tired of being rejected and called out for all my flaws
i feel like people are ashamed of me
or because maybe ill just end this poem here.
—  because maybe

man it makes me really sad when people diss the hetalia fandom

i literally never see that many bad things happen here. yeah there are bad eggs like any fandom and weebs like any other anime fandom but

what’s the worst we do?? enjoy ourselves?? woah, so terrible!!! sometimes have shipping wars?? no other fandom does that!! fucking hetalians!

im overly defensive about this fandom i will defend it until i die


people probably think that im weird for obsessing over two guys with british accents and fringes who play video games and talk random things (sometimes. Most of the time they talk about interesting stuff and are very intelligent and give good advice. Like not to trust chairs because they will hurt you). People think that it is stupid and that I am wasting my time. but these two british guys with fringes who play video games and talk about random things (sometimes. Not all the time) make me happy when I feel sad and like the world is against me. I know that if I search up their names on YouTube, I will be laughing and smiling for the rest of the day and that is why I obsess over them. they put me in be best moods and I will never forget that.

P.s. I sometimes wrote in lower case when I was supposed to capitalize because it felt like if I wrote in lower case I sounded calmer. I do know how to capitalize though so don’t worry!

anonymous asked:

When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy. Then send to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously 🌼

sry this is late

1. @soosjungs,,, good roommate, good friend, good content

2. @leeshongbins surprises me with beautiful biases, makes my day tbh
also makes me a ton of icons if i ask??? such talent

3. the sun… not kidding it keeps me from being sad sometimes

4. yixing’s dimple….yixing in general

5. yoongi & dk’s awesome smiling angelic cherub faces from heaven ok
if they’re happy, im happy