sometimes i make things when im sad

I can’t belive this omg thank you thank you thank you

Hey ok im to lazy to make a picture for this but 
My parents actually allowed me to post another selfie

Thank you all so so so so so much for following me and dealing with my complaints and whatever else has happened.
So in return im gonna do a Follow Forever (which ive been wanting to do for a while!!)

Favorite Blogs (and people):
captain-study for being an amazing friend whos given me advice lots of times idk what I would do without her ♡
internet-homo-howell okay ive said this many many times but ilysm your so nice and beautiful and your just a 10/10 person
pizzarobbery for being a great person and introducing me to this great thing called tumblr
tired-internet-addict bc hes so nice and always makes me laugh even when im sad. He also lets me fangirl about things he sometimes has no idea about!!
whoistroyeanyway for being so nice and letting me anonymously vent in her inbox when I was sad and confused.

Okay so here is everyone that I also love v v v much (alphabetical bc dedication) (favs are bolded):
A-D: a-boy-like-trxye abutterflycollector adorablehowell agentcarolinainthemorning alfalfadeyes allaboutthatbaessist amazingphil-danisnotonfire andmyfriendtherose another-phandom-member anoyinginternetkid ashl-l-leigh athletichowell austroyelian average-canadian-fangirl averageobsessedfangirl awk0troyler ayeesivan ayetroyler ayyee-tyleroakley ayytilly baileebyrns bandgeek2002 bemydan beware-phangirl beyonce blahtroyler bottlesofnerdfightingelephants brendonurie brennenbeckwith bromeo-666 bubbletealester burnt-french-toast caitycat1313 captain-study captainwelikeshortshorts carry-on-my-wayward-pants casparleetho casparsjoe cattutude chefyk cleverlester cocainedollarbillsandmyhlp coffeeandsleeparemylovers colour-me-creative conconsivan connofranta coolaliendad coomphan crazytronnor daanhowell dailyphan dailytroye dailyxyoutube damndanhowell dan-the-danisaur danalingphil danandphilarenotonyoutube danhowcll danhowelll danhowells danielhowelljpeg danielshobbithair danisnotonifre danisnotonnfire danisnotonphil danisontnonfire danizntonfire danllama danlsnotonfire dans-dick dansbody dansdong dansfluffybutt dansnads dansprout danthetrashcan danzillion dear-bunni dearestsivan destroyaband did-i-mention-troyler dil–howlter dil-howlter dils-poltergeist dilsparents disneyphancats donut-call-me-tilly dopeprincess-69 doragirl13 drowninginaesthetic drunktroye

E-H: earthlester editroyler elliemarshall1996 emilyvivian03 everything-troyler excitedsivan fabuliciousfangirl failedscenekidfrom2005 falloutphan fall-out-phil famoustroye fan-boys-are-real fanaticfangirls fathoming-the-stars flannelhowell fluffytroyler food-wifi-and-youtubers forever-troyler foxylester franta-fan frantastictilly frentus-wants-to-frickle-frack frentusisnotonfire fricksivan fringedickhowell fuckyeah-troyesivan fuckyeahtroyler fuckyeszoella fxckinglester fxckinoakley galactic-mikey galaxyphan geektroye gothicphil greyfarrell handcuffedhowell happy-little-quiff happy-little-tilly happylittleblogger happylittleconnor happylittletroye happylittletwink happytroyesivan hashtagtroye hashtagtrxye hcwell hella-tronler hellamellet hellatronnor hobbithairdan hollarbones holy-fricken-helbig holysmokesphan holytroyler homoeyeshowell hopelesshowell hovvells howell-has-heart-eyes howellestersquad howellftlester howellgames howellr howellxlester howellxo howimetyourphan http-tronnor hugsivan

I-L: i-tryxyed iadoretroyler idekoakley ihavetroylertouch imtronnorslovechild infinitetyler internet-homo-howell introyevert itmeslayvan its-a-youtuber-fandom its-just-a-phantasy izzy21fanxx japhancaravan jellytotphan jointheyoutubefamily josh-hutchercousin keeptryxying knok-knok-i-like-cock kristyfergus leahhhhh123 lestermyhowell letsnoth8 likeasweetsweet linxtte literallyhowlter literallymylife lonely–passion lucyoakley22 luigi-delrey

M-P: magic-envelope mamamelletandmamaoakleyslay mangothatismelancholy marcelahoran5 marcybuttbuttsivan marialovestronler marvelester mastroyebation maybe-troyler-will-be-our-zalfie memedetta mermaidphil midnight–disposition minajftoakley minityleroakley mitchgrassismyaesthetic moocphan more-troyler moreorlester much-phangirl musicaltroye myboytroye mydrunkb1og myhappylittlephil mylifeistroyler mysassylittletroye mythatcher nachosivan novocainehowell nursetroye nutella-plus-ranchdressing nutellatroye nxtellatrxye o2lcorner oakley-trash oakleysheart oakleyspickle oaklxy oakslayy obnoxiously-phan obsessed-not-possessed obvious-fangirl ohtrxyler okaytroyler old-jeep onceuponaharry otpwars over-analysing-troyler p-h-a-n-a-f papasivan papercutsivan partyboysdan pastelfranta pastelphanatic peace-out-little-munchkins pepephan perks-of-being-a-fangirl-221 phan-and-dil-forever phan-kid phanadol phanaticloser phanbubble phandom-troyler phandombigbang phandompotato phanfranta phangirlingforphan phanickingatthedisco phanidk phanisnotonfire2 phanlsonfire phannoying phanout phanphanphan phanphanphanphan phans-pointless-troyler phanscuddles phantastic-dan phantasticalities phantasticlester phantasticpotterhead philhowellforme philscatwhiskers philsmom philspenis photoboothphan phreaking-out pineappletroye pixeltroye placentaandllamas platinumphan poetichowell pointlesssugg pointlesszoella pop-punk-phan prettylittlesivan princessivann psychicphan punkrock1ester punksivan pure-phantasy

Q-S: queentroyler queentroyleraf queentrxyler queenzoella queenzoesugg rachel-sivan radsadphanshipper randomlyfangirl ranisnotonfire reach-out-and-troyler right-eye-wink sarcastichowell sarcasticphan sassyfrentus sasukepunk scenedan schmalf sellingmysoultotroyesivan shesafangirl shipitforcenturies shippingyoutube shoeyandtroyler sillychillyphilly simplyjoeygraceffa siphan sisterphan sittingoutdancesonthewall sivan-oakley sivanftstyles sivandoms slay-me-lil-daddy slay-what-you-wanna-slay slaying-troyler slaysomethingimgivinguponyou slaythehummus sleighsivan sluttytroye smilingoakley sofarsofab softsivan somanyfeelstonight sooakley sorryaboutmyhair soundofsivan sparklingsivan sprinkleofgraceffaa sprinkleofphandom spudandtilly spudsivan squishyandiknowit staff starbucks-sivan starlighthowell starlightsivan suckmy-troyler sugarlipslester suggletlife sunshinehowelll sunshinelester sushisivan sweaterlester swift-phannec swiggetyswaniamdan

T-W:  t-r-o-y-l-e-r t-r-o-y-l-e-r-e-l-l-a t-r-x-y-e takeadipintotheunknown tanhowell tastetherainbowxiv temptation-in-wonderland thatboytroye thatgirlwhosobssesedwithyoutube thatsacutedesk thatsotilly thatsthat24 thatyoutubelover the-most-phan-i-ever-had the-troyler-blog the-troyler-phan theblackstar1326 thegirlfromtheinternet themightyphan theoakleyphan theperksofbeingatroylershipper thesecretlifeoftroyler theslaycademy thesugglets thetroyesivanworshiphour thewhiskersarefromwithin theyoutubefangirl theyoutubephantom thirstyfortroyler thiswillbringuscloser thnksfrthimmortals thnksfrthphandom thornswithmyrose tilly-and-trxye tilly-slays-troye tillyismyqueen tillyoakley tillysranchdressing tired-internet-addict toastedhowell tokyohowell toomanyfandomsforsanity topnotchtroyler tr-oyesivan tr0ye-0ak13y tragicallytroye trondabon tronlerfivever tronlerphandom tronnella tronnorfravan tronnorhart tronnorissocoollike tronnors-phangirl tronnorsbeanie tronnorxx trosivan trovesivan troye-almighty troye-and-tyler-slay troye-is-my-saviour troye-oakslay troye-sivan-be-trippin troye-the-boy troye-wearing-spectacles troye4tyler1975 troyeainttouchnogirl troyeble troyeboyforever troyeboyish troyeboyxtilly troyegang troyeismyspiritanimal troyelicious troyemyeverything troyeoakdizzle troyeroye troyes-fan-girl troyes-happy-little-tyler troyes-hazel-eyes troyes-lip-ring troyes-pinky-finger troyes-world troyesbeanie troyesbendyfingers troyesbirthmark troyesbooty troyesdan troyesfire troyesfranta troyesharmony troyesivan-oakley troyesivan18 troyesivanakaperfection troyesivangel troyesivangifs troyesivanknowles troyeslittlenuggett troyeslittletwink troyestakingover troyestwinkbooty troyeswink troyetheaussieboy troyethesexynugget troyetopia troyetrxye troyetyler troyevocado troyey troylah-edits troylah-pls troyler-4-eva troyler-ing troyler-oakley-sivan troyler-oakleyfeels troyler-phan-tronnor troyler-slaying-the-world troyler18 troyler5lyf troyleralert troylerbox troylerchangedmylife troylerhugs troylerhugsss troylerina troylerings troyleristic troylerkink troylerloverfan troylermelletoakley troylermunchkins troylermydelrey troyleroakley troyleroaktree troylerphangirl troylersawesomeworld troylersbae troylerseyes troylersheart troylershippingismylifetimejob troylersivoakley18 troylerslaysbaes troylerslayvan5ever troylerslittledanosaur troylersmellet troylersphanboy troylersquiffs troylerstwinkbottoms troylerthoughts troylerturtle troylerwishes troylerxbabe troyleryoutube trxwhyme trxye-and-txlly trxye-slayler trxyenutella trxyes trxyesquiff trxyesweater trxyler trxyler5ever trxylerseclipse twinkbottomtyler twinkoakleys twinkytroyler twirlingtroye twistedrealitylove tyler-chokeme tyler-mellet-oakley tyler-oakley-perfection tyler-oakleys-pickle tyler-oakleys-sparkle tylerandtroye tylereakley tylerisforeverqueen tyleroakely tyleroakleyiseverything tyleroakleyismyqueen tyleroakleyisthebae tyleroakleyordie tyleroakliy tylers-queen tylersivan-troyeoakley tylersivanslayoakley tylerslittleblogger tylerslittleshit tylerspastelqueen tylersranchdressing ughhowell ughoakley ultraassilem um-troyler-please unftroye unhealthyobsessionwithyoutube  urbanhowell vangoghtroye vanillanigga-troye vulpixlester wanyushka watchfr0my0urwind0w waves-of-sivan wearetylerspeople welovetroyler whatevertroye whatsronwithyou whatstroyler whoevenistyleroakley whoistroyeanyway whoistroyesivanlol winksandtwinks wishingfortroyler wtfoakley

X-Z: xsillytilly xslayx xxoakley xxtroylerxx y0utube-is-life yaaassstroyler yaass-ur-one-n-oakley yeah-youtubers yeezydan yoursinglecinderella youtube-ever-after youtubeheart youtuber-be-kidding-me youtuber-club youtubers-though youtubershumour zalphie

Last but not least: troyesivan tyleroakley zoella amazingphil danisnotonfire pointlessblogtv connorfranta joeygraceffa casparlee 

OMG HANDS DOWN THIS IS THE LONGEST AND HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE

I am so genuinely happy how this turned out

I am actually truly Sorry if I forgot you there were some problems and yeah

 I love you all so much <3

hey guys

im a person.
it can really hurt my feelings when you say really horrible things to me.
im not going to stop being me. im not going to change.
but sending mean messages to me isnt a solution to any of your problems.
im a person.
sometimes you ruin my day or put me in a bad mood or make me sad.
and it can make me act certain ways and get annoyed or irritated or have little patience or feel really down.
im a person.
and when i can see over 1000 hateful messages in my inbox it sucks sometimes.
ask yourself why you have to send me a hateful message anonymously. like seriously? deliberately trying to make a girl sad?
im a person. i have feelings too. even if it seems like im not real im fucking real

ok i actually get so sad when i see ppl being mean about ppl liking shit they deem weeby or whatever like when ppl drag ppl for being into ouran or spn or fuckign hannibal idk like??? i get it i understand i make fun of those things too but they make people happy really happy and im so tired of seeing tumblr kids have this fucked up superiority complex it just makes me rly fucking sad you guys are so mean spirited sometimes 

anonymous asked:

who's the sweetest person you know and how sweet are they?? like go into detail

okay so like its a tie between two ppl.

See theres my best bud k0ushis who i talk to almost everyday and she’s super sweet. like she’s really great to talk to and i laugh a lot when i talk to her and we made plans to send each other an infinite supply of paydays or something. like idk i just know that whenever im sad i can text Vin and she’ll cheer me up. 

And then there’s one of the loves of my life jadecosplay who’s my favourite cowboy ever. idk ive known her for maybe a year and some change and she’s just really great and we have great conversations and she ALWAYS makes me laugh and just the way that she talks sometimes is super cute and she always says great things in the tags when she reblogs my selfies i love her

anonymous asked:

i cant make a post about it cause i dont need billions of ppl talking about it in my inbox so im just gonna say it here cause u want ppl to talk about things, i think maybe d&p are gonna react to the pinofs together? like later sometime idk i think they'll do it but a bunch of ppl dont like that idea and it makes me sad

i’d love it if they did tbh but i don’t think it’ll happen so soon considering phil just did a reacting video and dan did his fairly recently (?? when did he do his idk) but i think they’d both be v. mature about it lmao and they’d obviously edit out anything particularly awkward or non-humourous

ashleywillians asked:

33: sometimes when im sad i take it out on a coloring book (coloring books for grown ups r a thing ok) or just cry it out

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

I mope mostly. I sit around and be sad, maybe make some angsty tumblr posts. Or I just cry. That always works too.

themeanest replied to your post: can you guys reply with your favorite …

i have other movie recommendations to feel empty inside afterwards if u need any. i love films and stuff but idk im so sorry this is irrelevant.

it’s not irrelevant at all!! sometimes i watch sad movies when i want to cry a lot, but otherwise i try to avoid movies that make you feel empty cause i haaaate the feeling it gives me, and sticks around for days so i feel you :(

iamdragonitemaster said:

Manga Oyasumi punpun, horimiya, koe no katachi, girls of the wild(romantic but also not), koi to uso, orange(takano ichigo), fuuka(more of a band thing), silver spoon, taiyou no ie. Anime chuunibyou Movie Submarine, Scott pilgram

abadduoche said: 

Heroine Shikaku 

ooo i’ve read some of these but not oyasumi pun pun, girls of the wild, koi to uso, silver spoon or fuuka! thank you! 

 
go7-made said:

frUITS BASKET… (the manga’s so good)

y’know i tried reading it once and stopped for some reason?? idk why i liked it!


ferroseed said: 

kimi ni todoke !!

YAS IVE ALREADY BEEN THROUGH THAT PAIN A+ THO


yoshikohearts said: 

I’m currently into Akatsuki no Yona and Horimiya, but one of my all-time favorites is Kaichou wa Maid-sama.

i’ve read/am reading all of those! i love all of them too :)

winchesterchola said: 

honey and clover! it is perfect <3

ive heard of this one so much so i might finally check it out!

thank you guys!!!

it makes me wanna cry sometimes how much people dont have the patience for introverted people…it makes me sad to see how mad people get when i dont write them back or hang out with them….im sorry but fuck i cant help it i literally cant! and its super selfish of someone to even dare to make me feel like a piece of shit because of who i am. trust me when i say that i havent forgotten about you (im not ignoring you). i just need time and your patience. please thats all im asking.

sweetbot asked:

black, fennel, matcha, & mint

black: usually i like plenty of personal space! but its weird because sometimes i really crave intimacy i guess. but for the most part space is good i think esp. when it comes to like strangers?? ive had panic attacks nd crying spells on trains that were too crowded because i couldnt get into a position where no one was touching me… not fun ): 

fennel: i am in that weird situation where my neck and eyes and head kind of hurt from being online for too long… but i have no plans to do anything else lmfao also its 2 hot in my room. i am ok but a little sad 

matcha: i think i prefer sunrises because even though im not in the best mood in the morning everything gets lighter and lighter which is a positive thing for me. when its sundown i am alert nd less cranky but the sky getting darker can make me very anxious sometimes 

mint: today i listened to begin again by purity ring like six thousand times and it gave me energy for sure. also big tv by white lies will give me energy, as well as a thousand other emotions and feelings, every single time

anonymous asked:

im really sad and I feel so alone, I need a reason to keep trying when no one cares about me

Because you’re wrong! People do care! Your mom cares! Your dad cares! Your friend care!! (They just might not know how to show it yet) just know that there are beautiful things in life that you probably have yet to experience. You’re young and gonna fall down sometimes! You’re gonna make mistakes but you’re only human. I know everyone feels empty and alone at times but I just hope you find the strength to know that THINGS WILL GET BETTER MY FRIEND! The sun will always rise and set and your mom will always love you. Some things don’t change and will always be amazing. Just take comfort in that. But you’ll get through it bud! Just relish in the little things that are good. Do something for yourself everyday like make a big cup of coffee, watch your favorite movie, take a bath, read your favorite book, enjoy the sunset (or sunrise if your feeling ambitious!) And whenever you’re feeling alone or lonely talk to someone! The people around you care!! They care about you so so much and they love you to bits and pieces!! They’re proud of the person you are and can’t wait to see who you will become! They know you will do great things in your life!! They believe in you!! And when you wake up tomorrow morning just know you are made to do great things and you are invincible in your life!!!!! 🌟

c0ups asked:

i luv everything about u u r so pretty and funny and sometimes when u feel sad im like stOP I CANT MAKE U FEEL BETTER UR LIVING MILES AWAY WHAT SHOULD I DO?? ONLY THING I CAN DO IS SEND U MEMES AND I WOULD LIKE TO DO MORE TBH so ily v much and u should know that my meme lord

we r getting married scoop can forget it and comfort himself w a pack of cheetos xxxxxxxxxxxxx ilysm

anonymous asked:

5 7 9

5. weird things i do when im alone

talk 2 my cat…read smut….sing to myself in the car 

7. something i regret

theres this v specific thing i said to my friend one time that was so awful & it totally just slipped out but i have no excuse for it and idk why i said it and i think about it sometimes and just feel like a terrible person but i never wanna bring it up to them bc its so cringey and idk i just wanna forget about it fukc

9. something that makes me sad when i think about it

a lot of things make me sad…idk…my old pets who died…..my own mortality…luke hemmings…..

send me #s if u want :-)

sometimes i get really sad because i try so hard to be loving and nice and people start to take advantage of that, so when i get upset they call me selfish and say im “good at pretending”. but that doesn’t make sense to me. if i genuinely didn’t want to be nice then i wouldn’t be? if i didn’t want to do things for you then i wouldn’t? it’s so easy to be selfish and mean so if i had no desire to treat you with love then i would be an asshole to everyone and live in a way where i only cater to my own selfish desires.

Behind the smile

Behind the smile, im a pretty depressed person.. If you know me personally you would think im lying but im serious. Im the type of person to bottle up emotions when im sad angry depressed or frustrated. About 90% of the time i have a smile on my face but most of the time its just to hide how im really feeling or whats really troubling me on my mind. If you knew me you would know i like joke around and make people laugh.. I really dont know why i do it.. Sometimes it makes me happy when i make others happy.. Maybe i do it to get my mind off of things.. Or because its how i deal with depression, im not to sure. Im not the suicidal type, but its times where i feel my life sucks so bad like whats the point, get me? (probably not) but anyway, ive never really told anyone this nor do i have anyone to vent to about this because i have more trust issues than drake, so i kinda decided to just write about it on my blog kinda hoping no one would really see it but then kinda hoping someone does, and it kinda makes me feel less depressed writing about it. Welp, thats it for now.

geraldo 12:26am 5/23

hey bud well i dont know what youre up to rn or whats going on but i hope youll talk to me soon
i know that you get like this sometimes but i just wish that you would talk to me about it cause thats better than just holding it in im always gonna be here to listen to anything you say anything that you wanna tell me it makes me sad when i see that youre upset cause i always want you happy but the thing that really kills me is that you dont wanna talk to me about it and im not talking about just now but like even when your mad or something you dont tell me everything im not gonna jugde you or think its “dumb” like you said im gonna wanna help i always wanna help and in fact id adore you even more since you trust me enough to tell me those things but i cant make you its all up to you im not just saying this cause were dating i feel this way towards all my close friends like i just want them to trust me as much as i trust them but especially with you because youre also like my bestfriend idk im kimda tired so i hope i dont fall asleep waiting on you but just know id love to talk to you about anything whatever time of day it is

if anyone can notice my seriousness when i say i’m sad to leave marijuana land in two days, and also sad to leave my friends ): but i’m also bout to make this trip turnt as fuh, although it scares me because im so fckin hooked on dabs… sometimes i can’t tell if things are actually happening in real life or i’m just tripping, like hallucinating, i also cant gather my thoughts as fast as before, so i lowkey need help but aka why i look forward to traveling.

anonymous asked:

I've dealt with bi-polar for a year and a bit but I've fully recovered. Sometimes nowadays it's become more easy for me to feel a bit sad and lonely or angry sometimes. I'm mostly happy but im scared I'll go back to my old habits where I'd constantly blame & hate myself. My mum and older sibling would say things that genuinely hurt me and it makes me feel so shit, and when I try to speak up for myself they laugh and still continue to do so. Should I wait till the end of this year and move out?

Can you ever fully recover from bi-polar though? Do things that make you feel better about yourself or that get things off your mind when youre feeling shitty or pissed off about something. In regards to your mum and sister, you should talk to them about it and if it doesnt work then honestly just go for a run or exercise!! You should do stuff that make you happy when you feel down xx :) I dont think you should move out btw, because you might regret it after, its not as easy as people think it is in my opinion x

It has taken me a long time to like what i see when i look in the mirror

Sometimes when i feel shitty i think im unattractive
That my legs are too fat
That my hair is boring
That i have no physically redeeming qualities

But there are things i like
I have pretty green eyes
And cute feet
And booty fer days

But i have come to the conclusion that i photograph horribly

I like mirror me
But photo me is horrendous
And gross
I look like ive had 7 kids
And the photos i do like of myself are few and far between

And that makes me sad
Because photos are what people use to remember and that means everyones gonna remember me as a massive toad