sometimes i make things and are really proud of them

Recently I realised that my need to make “good” art was boxing me in, and I was losing my imaginative flair.

When we were kids we drew and scribbled whatever came to mind, and we coloured it however we wanted, and we went outside the lines, and it didn’t matter if the things we drew were totally two dimensional, because they had character. I used to draw these silly little cartoon crocodiles with one line and they were very very not what crocodiles look like but my dad loved them and I showed him every single one, with no embarrassment. I was proud of them. 

So I’ve started scribbling again. I mean really scribbling. A lot doesn’t make “sense” and sometimes turns out “ugly” but I’m letting my imagination control my hand and not worry about the “quality” of it. And it’s So. Much. Fun. I’ve drawn aliens and landscapes and spaceships and old men and viking helmets and crystal earrings.

So if you’re an artist and you’re getting frustrated about not being “good enough” (because I know I was), then try to clear your mind and let your hand go wild, who cares if it ends up wonky, it’s your special brand of wonky.



I cope ship, okay? I’ve been through abuse in my life, so I have my unhealthy coping ships

In my head, it goes something like “if my favorite characters are going through the same situation and they are okay, then I can be okay too”

It doesn’t really make sense, but it helps me, so there it goes

Sometimes its also some sort of self harm. As in, triggering myself on porpouse because I believe i deserve it

But I don’t do it publicly. How I cope with my trauma is my own personal business, between me and those close to me

I have no right to expose other survivors to something that is most likely a trigger to then, nor show it to other people and let them thing it’s an okay thing to do

So really

Stop using the whole “cope shipping” as an excuse for people being open and proud about it. If you are cope shipping, I understand where you are coming from, but you need to understand that you are exposing other survivors and may be compromising their own healing process

Be more compassionate

If you aren’t a survivor and aren’t using them to cope, and keep using other survivors as a piggyback ride for you to keep producing your nasty content, i hope you stub your toes on the corners of your house every morning

Lotor+His generals sibling head canon

IREQUEST:I’m the answer to your prayers lol, do you think you could do a HC for Lotors general + Lotor having a younger 14-16 year old human galra hybrid girl join who’s like a little sister to them and is just such a cinnamon roll until she fights? Thanks.

I think I’ll make her 14

Originally posted by go-lapom

-I posted a thing with the whole Protect Pidge where she is almost always surrounded by the other paladins and standing next to either Shiro or Hunk.

-Yeah same thing here. But with Zethrid and Lotor. Like fight me on this. She is their Pidge in a way where they all have a soft spot for her and won’t let anything happen to her.

-And remember the amazing reveal at the gladiator fight. She was sitting next to Xathrid. And all the Galra were confused.

-”Like, ok we get the others, but that is a child. I have seen nine years old bigger than her”(I have a headcanon that Galra children are kinda big)

-And we all know people would give judgmental looks to the others. But one wrong look at you and the person is dead. Like, don’t even try it.


Originally posted by alteanrose

-At first he doesn’t really expect her to fight because she’s so sweet. The main reason he took her in was because she herself is half galra and is most likely shunned.

-And then she fights and he’s impressed considering how pure she is. He sees a possible new apprentice. But at the same time he’s low-key protective but won’t admit it.

-I feel like he’d take it upon himself to train her and take care of her. He really sees potential in her.

-Sort of hesitant to allow her to battle but she has to set her place in battle and he knows this. He makes sure his generals watch over her during battle.

-Once she was hurt during a battle with the paladins (Literally just a small scratch) and he was ready for blood.

-He always has her at his side. Not like as a right hand man, but more as a don’t fight this one or I’ll hurt you. You know?


Originally posted by auxias

-I’d like to think she’d jokingly call her their mascot.

-Like after a battle they won, she’d grab the girl and hold her up cheerleader style and just be so proud of you.

-She loves you. Like no doubt about it, like Space Tye Lee is the best with younger people. That’s my headcanon. But at the same time she isn’t.

-She really connects with kids but doesn’t know the right age to let them begin to learn to fight or do other things like that.

-Would try to make her laugh all the time.

-Sometimes forgets she’s talking to such a young person. She’d handle situations in ways she shouldn’t. Furthering the headcannon about her and younger people

-While she’s not as protective as the others, she still is. Like, protective. Sometimes she follows(not in a creepy stalker way) y/n whenever she’s not near everyone.


-I feel like she’d help with fighting the most.

-She’d also be so proud of her little sister. Like they go from this innocent child. To the second closest thing to a killing machine a 14 year old can be.

-Expect lots of “advice” from her.

-Did I say advice I meant guidelines on how to make sure you ALWAYS win a battle. Listen, but only half the time. Most of her advice involves going straight for the kill.

-Unless given an order to go away, Zethrid will always be at your side.

-Sometimes she’ll carry you on her shoulders just because. Like, I’m sorry but i can lowkey imagine it though.

-Sometimes even give her a piggy back ride if her sister is hurt or tired. And if Zethrid is around that won’t happen.


Originally posted by auxias

-She was probably the one who recruited her she saw the potential and thought they could be an amazing addition to the team

-I know the request said they’d all see her as a little sister, but I refuse to believe Acxa wouldn’t see her as more of a daughter. Like y’all can fight me on this.

-Takes care of her the most out of anyone. I consider her the mom friend. So of course she’s going to be the literal mom to the small person.

-If y/n ever has things that she needs to talk about, weather is be about battle, sparring, girl things. Auxia is the go to girl.

-Subconsciously is protective and she won’t admit it, but it’s true.


-She was kind of standoffish at first. But soon she becomes attatched

-Her cat cuddles up to the girl all the time. And I read a head canon somewhere that if her cat cuddles up to you, she loves you.

-If anyone ever needed to know what you were thinking, she’s the go to Galra.

-I feel like she’d allow you to hold her cat even though she hates when people does it. Mainly because she can’t see without it.

-And if anyone even thinks anything bad about her little sister she will know.

-And just hope she’s held back, which she probably isn’t.

A/N: I really hope you all enjoy this.

anonymous asked:

Fandom ask-- pick a favorite Tamora Pierce book/series? (Also curious to hear what that might be tbh)

Protector of the Small

  • funniest moment: the whole group battering Neal with bread until he shuts up
  • heartbreakingest moment: the return to Haven to find it raided. Particularly finding that scribe, who’s name I forget, fallen in his very feeble attempt at wielding a sword.
  • most badass moment: I bought the whole series recently, actually, and promptly sat down in the bookstore and started reading, specifically the scene in Page where they fend of the bandits, and you know what? Holy shit that badass. Kel was twelve. Even Faleron was, what, 14 at best? Holy shit, even if Kel was the only one who really kept her head enough to make tactical calls, I am so proud of ALL of those kids.
  • most…okay, you know how I sometimes scream excitedly about things like narrative parallels or intricately constructed plot arcs? top moment for that: Pure characterization: what I truly love and admire about Kel is that not that she stubbornly and unflinchingly stands up for what is right and for people who cannot fight back, and then trains them to stand up for themselves…though dear god I adore that…no, what’s most truly impressive is the things like when she wears a dress to dinner every night just to remind people that she’s a girl. When she gets all the extra weights added and is tempted to just walk up the hill, this once with nobody watching, but grits her teeth and jogs because if she starts walking now, when will it stop? When she goes back to the Chamber OVER and OVER to test herself. When, in short, she looks trouble and fear in the face and then TRAINS and beats it EXTRA, just to PROVE THAT SHE CAN and so she can be READY TO FIGHT AND BEAT IT AGAIN. I truly admire and aspire to that.

I am so excited!!! This little book (well, 264 pages) has been about 9 months in the making, and it’s finally done. Good grief.

Basically, many of my friends at my undergrad university did Creative Writing with me, and for our final project we had to write a 6k word short story and 2k critical commentary - which, by the way, as someone who has done a Master’s since and written a 20k thesis, was just as hard as writing a standard dissertation. As a surprise to everyone, I sneakily got copies of everyone’s short stories by pretending I just wanted to read them and compare them to mine, and I made them all into an anthology, which I gave to everyone at graduation. It was a really fun project to work on, even though it took ages to proof read the entire thing and design the cover and cry over Word formatting. We called ourselves the Come Along Collective because ‘come along’ was kind of a catchphrase of ours and ‘collective’ sounded professional and artistic. Sue us, we had degrees in this shit.

In June last year, about 3 years after we graduated, we met up (a pretty big deal, seeing as one of us now lives in the US!) and decided to do another anthology. Without the immediate option of including our conveniently timed university dissertation equivalents, we agreed that it would be really fun if we all wrote a short story of between 4-15k words - this is actually why I wrote Here, the World Entire, which appears in this anthology in a slightly shorter form! Since I made that first anthology back in 2013 our friendship group has changed a little, and so one contributor to the first anthology isn’t in this one and we have a new contributor, but that’s OK; it kind of charts the progression of everyone’s experiences since university.

So, over the past 9 months or so, we all wrote a story each, and everyone put their all into their stories, despite being 23-25 now and not having the luxury of time that we used to have, and honestly, the stories are amazing. There’s not a single one in there that I wouldn’t read in a literary magazine. One person didn’t do Creative Writing and was really worried about their story not matching up to the others, but it absolutely does. I did a little cry when I read it because it was so good and the writer didn’t think it was (I think they are now aware that they are actually super talented and should definitely write more). That was one of the reasons I’m so happy to have this physical copy as proof that it’s done, and people who thought they couldn’t do it did do it, and they did it fabulously, because every single person wrote something phenomenal.

There was one person in the group who wasn’t able to write anything because they had a lot going on in their life, and so the rest of us prepared a SUPER SECRET SURPRISE, complete with a secret Facebook group chat (which was literally titled THE ONE THAT YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO KEEP SECRET) in which we collaborated and wrote a story for her instead so that she would still have a story in the anthology. One person wrote a section, then handed it to the next person, and so on. It turned out to be an absolutely hilarious story involving Emily Blunt as an evil sorceress, Jez and Mark from Peep Show as couriers, and our old landlord as an arch villain. It’s pretty rad, not going to lie. That person still gets their name on the cover because the story wouldn’t have been written without them; we basically tried our best to put that person’s personality into a narrative, and that’s why it’s so weird. They are weird, is what I’m saying.

This whole thing was a massive labour of love for all of us. I was literally proof reading it on lunch breaks, and taking graphic design assignments at work so that I could practice for when I made the cover (which I think looks snazzy, if endearingly off-kilter). Everyone was hugely supportive of one another, giving each other prompts and feedback whenever anyone got stuck, and it was such a fantastic experience to make it from start to finish. I’m so, so proud of the end product, and I’m excited to see what our next one will look like!

I have also prepared a super secret special surprise of my own for everyone within this anthology, which I won’t disclose here just in case any of them happen upon this post. It’s rad, though. I’m excited for everyone to see it.

This isn’t available for commercial purchase or anything like that, but it’s a personal project that’s been taking up a lot of my time lately (in a good way!) and it’ll be kind of sad not to have this to work towards. Still, onto the next thing!


im having a particularly hard time sleeping tonight despite my entire body being crushed by the weight of my own fatigue, but that’s typical.

 i think one of the things that’s keeping me awake is the fact that im genuinely proud of myself. i dont say that often because it’s hard for me to admit and accept the better parts of myself but i am so happy with who i have become over the last year or more. i think finding the strength to finally push off the sources of toxicity from my life attributed to my ability to grow and mature as a person. you cant grow a healthy flower in toxic waste, right? 

finding it within myself to admit that it’s not always relationships that are emotionally destructive but friendships as well was the first step to this. realizing that someone is taking away pieces of you bit by bit, they chip away at your will and true being both with their words….and with their sculpt you into someone who would stoop down to their level. i wasnt strong then. i was vulnerable and easily manipulated….until i realized that i was in someone else’s skin. i was someone i never wanted to become. 

but now i live on my own accord. back then, they taught me to think of myself first even if i knew better. that’s not me. that was never me. time reveals the truth of most situations and right now, after seeing the reality of the present situation, that’s especially true. i found myself. she was in the dark for a little while, lost and following a very dark voice but she didnt look for a light because eventually, she made her own, and now she’s me.

 i am so proud of her because we really did that. we did that shit. please never forget that there is such thing as emotionally and physically abusive friendships as well. make your light, become your own light because it’s in you no matter what they’re trying to make you believe or make you into.

anonymous asked:

hey babe! can i please have one where you're very independent and niall is so proud of you for that but he spoils you and you hate it but he's all cute about it aw

~648 words

(Sorry its really short, and hope this is at least close to what you had in mind)


“Niall. I’ve told you this a thousand times; you don’t have to buy me things.” You huffed as you came into the den holding the gift bag, you found on the bed, that was filled with bras and panties that you had wanted from Victoria’s Secret. He turned his head away from the football match he was watching.

“I know i don’t have to, petal. I wanted to. Besides, i knew you wanted those.” He answered simply before looking back at the large television just in time to see his team score a goal.

“That’s not the point.” Without another word you walked back to the bedroom sitting down at your vanity. “I have my own money. I could have bought it myself.”  You said to yourself before settling your head in your hands.

It wasn’t that you were angry at Niall for buying you the stuff, honestly it was sweet, but you were frustrated. Ever since you were little you had always been independent. Always wanted to do things for yourself. You worked hard for what you had and to be at this point in your life. It was obvious that Niall makes more money with you, but that didn’t mean you wanted to use his money and become reliant on him . You went to work every day, paid your own bills, bought the things you wanted, and sometimes when you went on dates with Niall you paid for dinner, even though it would take a good twenty minutes of arguing before Niall finally let you pay.

Niall spoiled you all the time. He brought you countless gifts, given you the opportunity to fly to foreign places, and even let you move into his beautiful home. The gifts he would buy you were completely unnecessary and expensive. They would range from handbags, clothes, shoes, jewelry, makeup, literally anything. If you were shopping with him and just said that you liked something, more times than not you’d find it on the bed in gift bag the next day.

“Are you mad at me?” Niall spoke from the doorway making you jump.

You sighed and looked at your cute boyfriend. He stood in the doorway in his sweats, his now brunette hair was a mess because he was too lazy to style it, and his pure blue eyes looked worried at you. “No. I’m not mad.” You answered, giving him a poor excuse for a smile.

“I thought you’d like them, love. When we were shopping the other day you said you liked those. I’m just confused why you’re upset.” He answered, genuinely confused.

You held your arm out for him as you moved to sit on the bed. He entered the threshold of the bedroom and flopped down on the duvet next to you, his larger hands grabbing yours and holding it tightly. “I’m not mad Ni. I’m frustrated. I’ve told you so many times that i can buy my own stuff. You don’t have to go out and buy me things just because I said i liked them. I make my own money.”

“I know that. And i’m beyond proud of you, but i like buying ya stuff. Just want ya to stay happy.”

“You don’t have to buy me stuff for me to be happy. I’m here for you Niall. Not your money.”

He nodded, “You just work so hard and sometimes i just want to spoil ya.”

“I work so hard so that I can spoil myself.” You said, giving him a smirk before kissing his stubbly cheek. “Thank you for remembering which ones i wanted. It was really sweet. But can you chill out on the gifts? Like lets try to keep it to birthdays and christmas.”

“No promises, beautiful.” He responded.

Rolling your eyes, you leaned in to kiss his thin lips. “Watch yourself, Horan.” You giggled, “Maybe I’ll start spoiling you.”


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he-hey more Human Morro AU stuff because my heart hurts and this makes me feel better
  • Has so many piercings, but not in weird places
    ○ Ex. Spider bites, lip ring, eyebrow piercing, tongue piercing
  • Has the SUPER COOL ANIME BOY smirk that everyone low-key aspires to have and he doesnt even know it
  • has trouble using the sink because he’s worried it’s going to kill him, but he refuses to admit it
  • Kinda like w/ other Lloyd headcanons, when Morro gets angry or just has one major emotion other than happiness running, his eyes glow 
    ○ Once he was on a mission with the ninja, and he got so into it that his eyes glowed and his wind ability had like a boost and everyone was like “holy shit how”
  • Uses old memes from before he died all the time
  • ABSOLUTELY joins the ninja when it comes to pulling pranks sometimes
  • Once did finger guns while using his power and it blew someone across the room and he just looked so shocked because holy shit that’s the coolest thing he’s done
  • Actually lets his hair dye fade a bit before re-dying it because it actually looks pretty cool and it fits his edgy aesthetic
  • low-key tries to make up for what he did to Lloyd and the ninja, but it’s not really as low-key as he thinks it is and Lloyd is quietly proud of him
  • Morro treats Lloyd like the cousin he is and they’re just such dorks sometimes i love them aaagh
  • Morro probably has teefs (kinda like garmadad if u get what im saying) and Lloyd loves it because it makes him not the only one who has it
  • Definitely the hide-and-seek GOD because his wind ability gives him the hardcore advantage and everyone hates it
  • does the hood thing that Movie!Lloyd does bc it makes him feel safer
    ○ People treat him preeetty badly after what he did, so he just settles with flipping his hood up and ignoring it
    ○ Of course Lloyd is like “no it’s okay they’ll like you they just need to get to know you!” but even he knows that’s not gonna work after the whole possession thing
  • let his hair grow out once and hOO boy it’s pretty when he ties it into a ponytail
    ○He legit just looked,,, wowza best boy and everyone was like “hey what the hell”
    ○ He eventually cut it short again tho bc Cole and Kai wouldn’t stop pulling on it or making comments about it
  • def has a few scars but no one knows what they’re from
    ○ They look like burn marks, but they’re coloured like normal cut scars and everyone’s super confused
    ○ Has one burn-like scar on his left cheek and it took the ninja ages to actually notice it bc the whole ghost mist thing covered it
  • the type of friend to walk around the house and get a soda at 3AM and act like it’s perfectly normal
    Lloyd: Morro… it’s 3AM why are you awake…

    Morro: I couldn’t sleep and I wanted soda

    Lloyd: aaaat 3 in the morning..?

    Morro: Yes.
  • as soon as he steps out of range of Wu and the ninja, or into school, his voice switches to monotone and it’s still freaky to most people

look, i’m lowkey excited about the whole BTS X AMA performance and that they’re debuting in the states but at the same time, i’m not? as someone from the states, of course i’m happy that these boys are accomplishing a lot and being recognized for their talents in other countries. OF COURSE. these boys deserve everything good that is coming for them. all groups do. BUT i’m also not excited because people are cruel as fuck. people don’t understand, or take their time to understand other cultures sometimes, and they make assumptions or think certain things are “weird” b/c they’re “not accustomed” to it. I just don’t want to see BTS get a bunch of shit because they are performing in america in a different language, or that they don’t all speak english fluently, or they do certain things that musicians/idols in english speaking countries do not do (like all the aegyo, ect). I’m happy for them, ofc, so fucking proud of them, but at the same time, i’m really nervous and cautious.

i just remember during the BBMA’s, some people were like “why does that one guy only speak, why doesn’t he let the rest of his members speak??” like, Namjoon is the only one that speaks fluent english (that we know of lol), and the rest of the members may be able to answer certain questions but they probably feel more comfortable having Joon do the talking when he knows what he is trying to say. another thing I saw was some ladies making fun of Taehyung because he always poses with a peace sign (usually by his face), and its annoying bc that is so normal in korea, but you don’t really see that here in the states. I just don’t want to see them get made fun of or have a bunch of shit talk about them b/c people are too fucking ignorant to understand that these boys are talented human beings who are trying their fucking hardest to make a good impression in the states while also making south korea proud. 

i hope this all made sense, and you all understand what i’m trying to say. again, i am so proud of these boys and i want to see them shine (which they fucking are, they killin it), but i’m apprehensive. love these boys. that’s all.

EDIT: I also don’t want there to be a bunch of people that only like them because they are handsome boys. I know that this kind of thing happens with anyone, but that kind of shit annoys me. they aren’t just handsome men, they are fucking talented and kind and hardworking, ect. i want their talents to be recognized. but on the other hand, i don’t want to see any kind of shit about their looks either?? people are so cruel sometimes, i’m such a worry wart wow.

Children have always loved colimits. Whether it be sorting their blocks according to color or gluing a pair of googly eyes and a pipe-cleaner onto a piece of yellow construction paper, colimits play a huge role in their lives. But happens when their category doesn’t have enough colimits? What usually happens is that the parents upgrade their child’s category to a Presheaf Category.

Sometimes, a kid comes up to you with an FM radio they built out of tinkertoys, and says “look what I made! I call it 182 transistors, 11 diodes, 6 plastic walls, 3 knobs, … ”

They seem to go on about the damn thing forever.

Luckily, Grothendieck put a stop to this madness. He used to say to them, ever so gently, “I am sorry, kid. I am really proud of you for making this 182 transistors thing, but I’m afraid it already has a name. It’s called a radio.” And thus Grothendieck apologies were born. Two years later, Grothendieck topologies were born of the same concept. In this talk, I will teach you to build a radio (that really works!) using only a category of presheaves, and then I will tell you about the patent-police, known as Grothendieck topologies. God willing, I will get through SGA 4 and Lurie’s Higher Topos Theory.
—  David Spivak, Presheaf The Cobbler

anonymous asked:

I got teary eyed to be honest when I saw his V live. He looks so genuinely happy. Seeing him that happy, seeing his adorable sunhine-y smile makes my heart flutter and full. It's overwhelming how matured he got and I just felt like Sunshine is such a wonderful person and it makes my heart ache from so much love. Hahaha he makes me so emotional sometimes. I'm so proud. We are so proud of him..I can't wait to see and hear more from his projects same goes with the other members. Ugh I love them. ❤

Hi dear, 

I feel you, dear. I felt the same thing too when I watched his vlive. To me, his happiness is really important so seeing him smiling, laughing & just do things that he loves to do even in a foreign country enough for me to know that he really is having a good time. He even jokingly said, he didn’t want to go back to Korea…kekeke I’m really happy that they allow him to do his own thing, to pursue his dreams because that’s what I want, him to achieve his dreams as an artist and as a person. Yes, our Youngjae has grown up so much and I’m really proud of him because he is willing to go far and try new possibilities as he said he will do many things that he wanted to try and I think one of it is this moment where he traveled to another country without the members to try new things & meet other people who also have the same passion as he is. My heart swells with happiness seeing him being shy when he said he was so shy to tell the real reason why he was there in New York when we already knew one of the reasons he was there was actually for the collaboration song. Even from his expression, we know how happy he is being there to do things that he wanted to do. Choi Youngjae is always making emotional. There’s something about Youngjae that makes me really wanted to protect him, give him the world if I could so seeing him really happy makes me happy as well. I said this many times that I really am proud of Choi Youngjae. 

Originally posted by choiyoungjae

Originally posted by choiyoungjae

i don’t post a lot of personal stuff, mostly for privacy reasons (that and i never thought i would end up with this many followers!), but lately i have had mental health on my mind.

i have suffered from depression for years. i just kind of learned to live with it. But sometimes it still gets really bad. Add in the breathtaking anxiety i have had ever since i lost a child. Mix it all up with a shitty self esteem and very damaging former relationships and you get a giant fucking mess.

But never once has my Master blamed me for that. He has sat and listened to my insane thought processes and never has He said a negative thing about it. Sometimes He may get a laugh from my latest theory as to how i am going to end up ruining this and sometimes He may get a little frustrated because i’m crying for the 18th time today. But He is the first person i have been with that hasn’t torn me down or taken advantage of my feelings.

Every night when W/we go to sleep, He tells me how proud He is of me for getting through another day.
When i am having a particularly rough time, He doesn’t push me to talk about it. He reminds me that its okay to need some space sometimes, but that He is there and ready to listen when i am ready.
He lets me be really clingy when i need to just have contact with Him.
He notices when i am being harsh and punishing myself, and makes sure to remind me who gets to do the only punishing.
He takes the things i have shared with Him and uses them when i need a pep talk- “you are a good girl.” “…..” “No, I’m not just saying that so you’ll smile.” “……” “Yes, I do actually like you.” “……” “Yes, tacos for dinner is fine.”
When i do need to be punished, He makes it clear that this does not change His feelings and gives me as much time as i need during after care.

i still have no idea what i did to be lucky enough to be His pet, but i will serve Him proudly for the rest of my life.

Okay I know this is going to make me sound unsupportive and like a total bitch but… I don’t like BTS coming to the states sometimes because I love them so much and I worry about what people say to them and how they get treated. America is so horrible and rude and hurtful to people and things they don’t understand. I love BTS through thick and thin and im so proud of them for making it to where they are and I will be with them until the end but… I really wish a lot of America didn’t know they existed bc honestly they don’t deserve these sweet boys and their amazing personalities and huge hearts.

I really hope I’m not alone on this. It just makes me so nervous for them to be here. Also to anyone I see or hear throw shade or talk during the awards, will personally get to catch my fucking hands :)

not a oncer anymore

not for a couple of weeks already actually. a little bit sorry i ever was at all, but mostly happy about it. it gave me lots of great actors to follow in every sense of the word, an OTP that turned my life upside down and, if you think about it, a really great story, nothing like i’ve ever watched before in my life.

i loved ouat. i haven’t been in the fandom for a very long time, only for about two years, but it took all over my life. i gave my heart, my mind and my soul to this fandom. and it was probably the most destructive fandoms i’ve ever been a part of. like you know those relationships, when everything goes like shit, you’re in pain, you hate your partner, you hate yourself, but you’re just not able to end it. because on the other hand you love your partner and this relationship gives you something you don’t want to give up, and there are always moments that you cherish like nothing else in your life. and this constant battle between love and hate, affection and disgust destroys you. that basically was me and ouat.

the point always was that as long as i love it a tiny little bit more than i hate it, i’m in. and i suffered through every shitty plot-twist A&E gave us, through every time someone called capswan relationship healthy and through all the times the creators acted like other ships and their fans don’t matter.

one day i decided i’m done. my moment of enlightenment happened when i’ve seen what they did to Emma and Regina’s first hug. they basically spitted all the swanqueen fans in the faces with that gesture and well i thought that was unacceptable.

i was completely devastated, heartbroken even. and i changed my mind a billion times that day, told myself that i overreacted and just one hug wasn’t such a big deal to actually stop watching the show. but i didn’t and it was. and i knew that giving up on ouat was actually the best idea i’ve had since i’ve started watching it.

what i love most about not watching the show is that i can see actors apart from it now. like i don’t have to look at everything they say and do through the prism of their characters. more specifically, i don’t have to worry anymore about starting to hate Colin, because i hate Hook, stuff like that. i also don’t have to justify every shitty thing A&E do in each episode, therefore i’m more or less calm about my mental health now, because i’ve been honestly worried lately about losing it.

i miss it, though. i mean i gave my soul to this show, of course i’d miss it. i really love the cast, every single actress and actor, i adore them. Lana and Jennifer, i mean, i literally pray on these women. so it’s a bit sad to know that there’s something they are making and proud of, that i won’t watch. but it’s sometimes a part of a fan’s life, i guess.

so yeah. i’m not a oncer anymore, i’m free and trying to build myself again from the ruins ouat made of me and fill the void it left in my life.

(and yes i totally had to write all this)

p.s. if in the last episode of season 6 there will be a HUGE plot-twist and we’ll find out capswan and everything else that happened in the last two seasons was a lie, i have no idea what would i be more: happy, annoyed or amused.

hey so I’ve been thinking a lot about my sexuality lately because ever since I found a label that works for me, I have been nothing but proud about that. however, sometimes I’m still afraid that the world won’t take me seriously unless I’m with a girl and that’s really not okay. I’m just here to say to never make an assumption about how someone’s sexuality works for them, and to only base off what you know to be fact. and by fact, I mean came directly from their mouth. I don’t care how things appear, I don’t care about how likely it is. if you didn’t hear it from the person, then it’s not up to you. this applies on a very wide scale, but I believe it was last year or so where I got that message assuming that I was into girls more than guys before trying to insist that what they were saying was true once I said that I have never specified a gender preference (I don’t have one. kind of the fuckin point), and it still bothers me. it still rings in my head. it can be pretty damaging. once again, just don’t tell them how their sexuality should work for them. it’s not about you, it’s not for you. just don’t.

anonymous asked:

Hello there! I hope you don't mind us stealing your first asks ^_^ but how about a headcanon for Makoto and Nagito with a very, very lucky kid, like, even more than them, if that makes sense???? Thanks for your time and good luck for the blog ^_^

Thank you for the ask! I had a lot of fun writing this. I hope you like it! 

Makoto Naegi

  • Makoto’s kid likes to give their dad advice on things, as much as Makoto dislikes it. His kid is way more lucky than him, so situations work out better for them. Situations work well with Makoto too, since he’s also lucky, but they just work better for his kid. 
  • Makoto is extremely proud of his child but sometimes the extreme luck his kid has can really mess with his mind. Whenever his kid causes some kind of trouble, they would always say, “it wasn’t me” and they would somehow get away with it. That’s just how lucky his kid is. Makoto on the other hand now has to clean up his kid’s mess. So… not so lucky for him.
  • Makoto’s kid is always super lucky in school. They always win the science fair without even really trying, they would always manage to get student-of-the-year awards every single year, and they always get straight A’s.
  • Since his kid is extremely lucky and quite smart, they would most likely graduate from middle school fairly early and move onto high school.

Nagito Komaeda 

  • Whenever Nagito and his kid get into an argument, his kid tends to win every. Single. Time. Nagito’s kind of glad that their luckiness doesn’t equal though because then the arguments would literally last forever and nobody would win.
  • Nagito’s kid tends to get into tons of trouble. His kid likes to steal stuff from the store sometimes and he never gets caught. He’s not even suspected in doing such an act. Nagito on the other hand is usually always suspected, but never gets in trouble, luckily. Since neither of them get in trouble, it’s always the neighbor who gets in trouble. Poor neighbor.
  • When his kid is bragging about his luck, Nagito always reminds his child of all the lucky stuff that happens to him but around him everything is super unlucky. He likes to remind his kid that no matter how lucky you may be, not everything is really “good” luck. His kid kind of goes quiet and stops chewing his ear off. His kid stops their bragging for a while, but then get back at it. It’s a continuous cycle.
  • Nagito has a difficult time keeping up with his child, since they’re quite the prankster. His child sets off a bunch of traps around the house because they find it hilarious whenever Nagito sets one off. They always manage to get Nagito to set one off and since their luckiness is more extreme, Nagito can never get pass the traps. Nagito kind of laughs it off though.

anonymous asked:

If this is the ROYAL sketchbook, shouldn't there be more guest-starring of King Thorax?

So, funny story. After I posted that one, single Thorax image, I got a few people getting SUPER upset about it. That included a long time follower who, based on previous interactions, I had thought was relatively chill sending me this paragraph all upset about it, disappointed with me and he HAD to unfollow me. Similar thing went down on derpibooru (as one would expect) about how they had to voice their discontent NOW so that I would know and not make him a regular.

I had blissfully forgotten that the changedlings were nearly a Twilicorn 2.0 in the drama scale. Whoops.

I had only planned to use Thorax in that image and hanging out somewhere in the background of the wedding, chilling with Spike, maybe congratulating the couple. 2-4 total appearances. But after the fuss of these few, I REALLY wanted to make more Thorax because I am petty sometimes (not a thing I’m proud of but yeah) and wanted to poke at them some more, grab some popcorn and watch the drama unfold.

But, I’ve gotten better over the years at controlling that. So after stepping away long enough to take a more rational look at things, I’m not changing any plans. The ferociously anit-changedling folks are already gone, the moderate anti-changedling folks only have to put up with a couple more appearances and the pro-changedling folks get the same amount of appearances I had planned anyway.

a lot of fics and headcanons have tony stark making or purchasing things for his friends and sometimes its fluffy because he cares about them and sometimes it’s sad because he thinks he has to buy friendship but its almost always really useful or thoughtful gifts and I’m just like ??? because tony is canonically a horrible gift giver even - especially - when he cares and when he is trying really hard. watch iron man 3 and look at how proud he is of that damn rabbit I mean just look at him

and you know what’s even more entertaining than someone getting someone else the perfect present? hilariously bad attempts at presents

-tony seeing someone do something really often and trying to streamline the process but he just interrupts their routine and now the kitchen is taken over by a mutated AI and natasha and bruce just want to make tea, tony, the electric kettle was fine

-someone mentions liking something once and tony goes totally overboard and the reaction is just confusion because they barely remember mentioning the thing and now we have a whole room of the thing it’s a little creepy honestly

-an art studio was a really nice idea but I grew up poor in the 1930s I don’t think I’ve ever even seen an airbrush much less know how to use one where did my pencils go also the light in this room sucks you’re obviously not an artist yourself good try though

-tony goes to steve and bruce and clint for help but all of them are also terrible at gifts because of a combination of not having money and not having people to buy for

-natasha is so good at presents it actually scares people, she has to be using her spy skills, how did she know to get this?

-pepper and sam are decent at presents because they are decently observant human beings with a decent idea of how people work

-thor is wonderful at presents, everyone loves anything he brings them even if they had no idea they needed it

anonymous asked:

How would Canada, America, France, and England treat a younger sister?

2p America: He’d tease her to all hell, but not necessarily in a mean way. More like a ‘hey you’re a fucking dork and you annoy the hell out of me sometimes but I still love you’ type of way.

2p England: He would constantly be expressing how proud he was to call her his sister, showering her with brotherly love and affection and constantly going on about how adorable she is, making sure that she feels loved at all times.

2p France: He wouldn’t be much of a brother really. However if something along the lines of a breakup that left his sister heartbroken at the end, he would be there for her as he knows a thing or two about breakups.

2p Canada: Much like Francois, he wouldn’t be much of a brother really. He’d tease them occasionally but would otherwise leave them alone unless they really, really wanted to spend time with him. It’s not that he’s a bad brother, he just likes to keep to himself most of the time.