sometimes i do other things

sometimes you need to accept that yes i may have been a little bit manipulative. yes i worded something in a specific way that would make my friend/fp/SO feel a bit guilty. yes i could have handled that situation in a much better way. yes i am wrong.


“Gee, Mister. You must know Wedge Antilles really well. What’s your name?” “Luke Skywalker, at your service!” — Star Wars: X-Wing Rogue Squadron Special


Mass Effect Garrus Vakarian & Commander Shepard

meetings & reunions

it makes me sad to see people dismissing jumin’s affection in the valentine’s day dlc just because he buys so many gifts. 

not everyone expresses their love solely through words or cuddles. sometimes people enjoy picking out items that they think others might like, and enjoy giving gifts as it’s their way of showing how much they care. gifts are not inherently bad, and not inherently a sign that your love is fake or inadequate. 

some people don’t like receiving gifts, and that’s okay! it’s also okay to give gifts if it’s a way to express your love and make others happy! 

disliking jumin’s valentine’s day ending is not the problem. disliking it because you think gifts automatically diminish his feelings is kinda missing the point. 

i know no one cares but i’ve just recently started stimming wholeheartedly after years of repressing it, even while alone, and it feels so good i could cry

I guess I’ve been doing a better job of avoiding the worst of the left here because I honestly didn’t know that many were still insisting that evidence of connections between Russia and Trump’s administration, and of Russian interference in elections in the US and Europe to prop up right-wing candidates, are just elaborate liberal fantasies AND a pretext for the US to go to war with Russia. Because…imperialism. Or the Deep State. Or both.

it’s like when I see comments from people enraged that democrats haven’t prioritized introducing a health care bill that mandates single payer. I’m wondering, have you all not caught up to 2017 yet? Or is this what happens when your primary sources of information are the Intercept and tumblr posts by teenage communists?

sometimes someone will make a remark about a behavior i relate to, then i take it a step further in my head and i get weirdly excited because self-awareness?! like wow i’m an asshole & i KNOW WHY i feel the need to behave this way…now i can heal from that mindset and change

This is a great example of what I mean when I talk about the symptoms of personality disorders. Lots of people have the traits described in personality disorders. Most people have them at the “adaptive” or “subclinical” levels. Not many people experience these things to the “disordered” or “severely disordered” level described above.

Note - these specific examples are not enough in and of themselves to diagnose a personality disorder; a personality disorder is a collection of many different traits that all must be experienced at the disordered or severely disordered levels.

Theodore Millon, Personality Disorders in Modern Life (second edition), 2004.

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anonymous asked:

Sorry if this has been asked before, but is writers block ever a problem for you? I have admired how prolific you are, and appreciate how you've discussed the negative aspects of writing too much. But what about when you've been staring at a blank document for what feels like years? Tell me there's a magical cure!

It is a problem for me, though I often don’t call it writer’s block (though sometimes I do, I’m fickle).

I’ve written about it in the past. This is probably the best post I’ve written about it. :D

Okay, but also yes, YES writer’s block is a problem for me. See:

- Taking two years to get started on The Ice Plague. Definitely insecurity related writer’s block.

- Taking a billion years to publish a book. See an absolute fear of failure.

- Me using the old technique of ‘I’m writing therefore you can’t see what I have writer’s block with’ (i.e. trading original works for fanfiction because it’s less pressure).

I can generally get words down. Most of the time. I’ve also had a solid writer’s block of years in the past - like literally years - where I wrote nothing. Nothing at all. But…I trained myself as a visual artist to work even when I didn’t feel like working, and as a result, I can also write when I don’t feel like writing. It’s a work ethic thing, and it means my job isn’t always fun (like all jobs), though I do think inspiration likes a willing partner, and is more likely to come if I just start and try something, than if I wait for inspiration to lead the dance.

So I’m very fortunate, because I know writers who can’t write like this. Idk why I can function this way. But then there’s things like yeah, I really did kind of spend ages hanging on The Ice Plague and staring at documents or blank pages, and feeling like…awash with terror and no movement happening.

As for how I solved that. I made myself sit down and write a line. I knew my writer’s block with The Ice Plague was - and still is - in part that I feel like no one will want to read it, and that it will be bad. I feel this in my bones. It’s a horrible feeling. I also had it with Game Theory and The Court of Five Thrones, but to a much lesser extent (god if I’d known that feeling could get worse), but it’s very bad now because I’m working with characters I don’t know anyone will ever love. Gwyn and Augus light a pretty bright torch. People might not want to look at candles after that, even if they’ll become torches later.

And so… I just… I told myself that 2017 was the year I had to start, and I needed a chapter by the end of February, and that all I had to do for the first two months was like, try writing a line. Or a paragraph. Or a snippet of dialogue.

I sort of jettisoned the idea of ‘completing a chapter’ like I normally do, and just…gently forged on. As a result, I’m five chapters in, and I’ve made the most progress I’ve made since I came up with the idea years ago.

I wish there was a magical cure! There’s not. Writer’s block is so uniquely personal to each of us, and everything from health and fatigue, to mental illness, to grave insecurities, to the story not being ‘right’ or us not being ready to write it yet, etc. can be behind it. It can be all or none of those things!

I think there are some things to remember:

- You can be nice to yourself or you can be good to yourself. Sometimes if you’re lucky, these are the same thing. But sometimes they’re not. For example:

Nice: I will treat myself to a thousand burgers (dis me)
Good: I love burgers, but I want to be good to my body to be healthy so I’m going to eat some salad and lean meat.
Nice & Good: Man I love spinach I’m so glad it’s good for me too. OR;
Nice & Good: I’m going to have a burger today, I love them so much, but I’ll keep being disciplined in the day to day re: what I eat.

In writing, it can look like this:

Nice: I’m going to be gentle to myself and not work on this project until I’m feeling it more. (this can last a lifetime!)
Good: Provided it won’t harm me in any way to do so, I’m going to cultivate some writing discipline and try writing a sentence of this thing I’m blanking on today.
Nice & Good: Because this project intimidates me, I’m not going to look at it tomorrow or the next day, but today I have to write a line. And on X day, I will write a paragraph. And then I’ll rest some more with this idea.

- You need to learn how to write in a way that works for you, and sometimes overcoming writer’s block is a matter of turfing a lot of things you’ve learned - that you need to put down words regularly (you don’t), that you need to achieve a wordcount (you don’t), that you need to never rewrite (you don’t), that you can’t edit as you go (you can), that you need to write a lot at once (you don’t), that you need to ‘finish’ something when you start it (you don’t), that it has to be perfect (it doesn’t), that you need to be nice or good (you don’t, lol) etc. 

Like it was very freeing for me to be like ‘okay, even if everyone hates The Ice Plague, I need to write this for me. It ties up a lot of loose ends in the universe, and Mosk and Eran’s stories are important to me and need to be told. If I don’t tell them now, their stories won’t fade. So I’m going to tell them.’ But I also have to remind myself of this all the time, because I also want to give the people who read Fae Tales something they want to read, and I am terrified of not delivering. Emotional journeys, am I right??

But still, that moment of ‘I’m doing this because of X’ - clarifying your motivations - can help a lot. It can help you to realise or remember why you wanted to write on that blank page in the first place.

- Sometimes writer’s block just lingers. Be honest with yourself about your mental state, do you have the energy to be writing right now? Are you too mentally fatigued? Is it not the right time to be cultivating writing discipline? That kind of stuff matters a ton. I regularly blast past my own limits and then crash, and I don’t recommend that to anyone. Sometimes writer’s block protects you from yourself. And you know, that’s a thing too.

things that are extremely important:

- my character’s opinions and or feelings are not my own.
- just because my character has such opinions, or feels a certain way during a thread, it doesn’t mean they can never change, grow out of them, or evolve.
- please give them a chance to.

Words To Break A Heart

Kol Mikaelson X Reader 

Word Count: 549

Requested: Anon

Request: Can I request one with kol where you to get into a fight he says some things that hurt you so you leave him when he realizes what happened he won’t stop until you come back home? Thanks love💚

Originally posted by skyangel22

You’d been arguing for a while, you see you knew that Kol and Devina were friends and you weren’t the type of girlfriend that would stop him from being friends with other girls you just wanted him to spend some more time with you, that was your only problem. Kol had sent the majority of his time with Devina these past few weeks and you just wanted a little bit of time with him. Kol, however, seemed to think that you were just getting on his case and wanted him to stop talking to Devina. “You know what your problem is?” Kol asked.

“What?” You asked your hands on your hips.
“You’re too clingy, you want me to be here all the time, I have other things to do and sometimes their more important than you!” He glared.
“More important?” You asked hands slipping from your hip and your whole demeanour weakening.
“I didn’t-”
“No, I know what you meant.” You nodded walking out of the living room and towards the front door.
“(Y/N)!” Kol called after becoming angry when you didn’t answer. “Whatever! You’ll come back.”

It was hours before Kol realised that you weren’t coming back and he was worried because the only other people that you knew were his family and you weren’t going to go and stay with them after a fight, they all lived together after all. Kol realised that you’d just be wondering the streets of New Orleans early hours of the morning when everyone would be thrown out of the pubs and vampires would be looking for a meal. Kol grabbed his coat and run out the door, you hadn’t even taken the car, he was worried.

You were wandering the streets and you were cold, you didn’t take a coat with you and there was nothing that you could do about it, you had only just moved to New Orleans and you hadn’t made close enough friends that you could go to them after a fight. “(Y/N)!” You could hear him calling and you knew that he would find you soon enough. “(Y/N)!” You tried to fid a way to lose them and then decided that you’d just stay where you were leant against the wall. “(Y/N) there you are!” Kol said in relief.
“Go away.” You mumbled rubbing your arms.
“Here.” He mumbled pulling the coat around your shoulders and began rubbing your arms himself. “Hey look at me.” You didn’t look up. “Darling?”
“Go away.” You repeated.
“I’m not going anywhere unless you agree to come with me.” He argued gently stroking your cheek. “I shouldn’t have said what I said okay… I was angry and that is no excuse, so I’m sorry and all I want to do is make it up to you.”
“Promise?” You whispered.
“I promise.” He said guiding you face up so you were looking at him, he gave a soft smile “Let me take you home.”

The next day you were both curled up together in bed when his phone rang he looked at the caller ID and then declined the call sending quick text t the caller before turning back to you to continue you hushed conversation, he’d do his best not to lose you no matter what.

Requests and general question!

I love doing things with other people, but honestly, sometimes being social can be draining. I think it’s very important to spend some time on your own because it allows you to take a break from being social and really discover who you are. 

Here’s a couple things that you can do when you want to spend some time by yourself.

  • Pick a director and watch their entire filmography! If there’s a particular movie you like, find out who the director is and watch every movie they’ve made. It’ll keep you busy for hours and who knows, maybe you’ll find a new favorite film. 
  • Paint something! Pick up a canvas and use painter’s tape to create a design. Then paint over the tape and wait for it to dry and remove the tape to see how it looks!
  • Clean your room! Honestly, nothing feels as cathartic as really cleaning your room. Wash your bedding, get rid of clothes you no longer wear, vacuum the floor. Trust me, you’ll feel so good once you’ve finished. 
  • Go to a used bookstore! There’s a $10 dollar or less bookstore that just opened up near my house and I love it. Try picking up a bunch of books that you wouldn’t normally read and see how many you can finish in a day. 
  • Pick up a cool coloring book! I picked up this coloring book called Lotus Designs by Creative Haven (They sell it at most craft stores, but you can also find it on Amazon) and I love it! It takes a while to finish one page, but once they’re done, the patterns are pretty enough to frame and hang on the wall.
  • Recreate a makeup tutorial on Youtube! Try a look that you normally wouldn’t go for! Who knows, you might learn something new that you can use every day. 
  • Learn to cook something! Go on Pinterest and scroll through the countless recipes until you find something you want to try (I usually stick to dessert recipes, but that’s just me). I always feel really accomplished after I make a new recipe, especially if it turns out to taste amazing. 
  • Personalize some shoes! Buy a pair of cheap white shoes from Payless or Target and make them your own! You can ombre them with some fabric paint or grab some markers and doodle all over them. 
  • Binge watch a cult TV show! Netflix has a decent selection of cult tv shows so check them out so you can finally understand people’s references. There’s Twin Peaks, Bob’s Burgers, and a ton of others so just pick one and go from there. 
  • Make a terrarium! Grab some succulents and some succulent soil and something to put them in! Make sure you place them in a spot with enough sunlight so the plants can thrive. 
  • Make yourself a friendship bracelet. There’s a bunch of cool patterns you can find online for super intricate bracelets and they’re so pretty. Plus, embroidery floss is super cheap!

These are just a couple things that you can do by yourself, but I’m sure there’s a bunch of things that I didn’t include! What are some of your favorite things to do by yourself? We’d love to hear them!


anonymous asked:

is it just haikyuu!! you blog about? no yoi, cheer danshi, yowapeda, days, dna, free!, hajime no ippo or knb? nothing else just haikyuu? :o

Hahahahaha way to call me out anon!!! ;)

But, uh, yes! I’d say it’s about.. 95% Haikyuu!! I do reblog Kuroko no Basket as well (Aomine remains one of my all-time favourite anime characters ever), and I have reblogged some Free! but not very much and not in some time… While I enjoy these anime and will reblog them occasionally, it’s really only Haikyuu!! that I’m obsessed involved with, fandom-wise.

I haven’t finished the game yet but since Alisha’s a princess, I really wanted to see her dressed as one so tadah!

Also it’s been a while since I designed anything so I really wanted to do something fancy!