sometimes i cry because this movie

“Cry Followup”, or “See A Doctor! The Musical”

I got sad. A doctor recommended that I go off my anxiety meds because they might be interfering with a bunch of other health issues. I did. It wasn’t good.

I tapered off for months and dealt with the withdrawal symptoms. When they were gone, I felt ok for a few weeks. Then I was easily irritated and sometimes angry. Then weird feelings started to creep in. I guess it was just dread. Maybe it was weird to just be feeling anything after being numbed on meds for so long. I started crying watching movies sometimes or thinking about whatever the fuck. I started getting really sad. Eventually I would cry everyday, sometimes for multiple sessions. It’s strange to think back on that now that I’m safely numbed to fuck again.

My grandfather had died about 8 months earlier and I thought I had emotionally exhausted that, but now it was back and I dwelt on it constantly. I thought of dying with an urgency that I couldn’t distract myself from. I thought of everyone I knew dying. It felt like time was an illusion and it wouldn’t be long until I’m standing beside their open coffins, reflecting on how quickly time had passed and now they’re gone and I’d wasted time not spending more time with them.

Most days I’d just wake up and lie there for hours. I’d try to look at things on my phone to try to distract myself. Snapchat was fun for that. Christ, so was Miitomo. I wouldn’t get any work done. It was difficult to focus and overcome the feeling in my gut of being pulled down and the constant present terror feelings of death and knowing this whole experience will be gone some day, but before that, I’ll watch everyone I know leave too. For a long time, I don’t think I really connected that it was my absence of meds that was doing this to me. I thought maybe it was just circumstances and some kind of Holmes-Rahe scale thing where a bunch of life events happening at once were stacking and compounding my depression feelings. There was no way to win against it and this kind of thing encourages you to not to the things that will typically pull you out of a depression. It makes you want to seclude yourself more and work on further diminishing your self-worth mentally. Instead of seeing friends or doing activities you enjoy, you convince yourself that you’re a burden to them, they don’t really want to see you anyway, and that something bad is going to happen if you go out and do anything. For so many fucking days I just laid there. That makes your depression even worse; your lack of productivity frustrates you and makes you hate yourself. All that wasted time boils your living asshole. It’s a paralysis and you don’t know why you can’t break out of it. You can’t just go into the other room and sit at your computer and do your work. Brains are incredible. Just a bit of absence from a certain chemical changes everything. Of course, you tell yourself things like this, that it’s not really you and that it’s just a biological ineptitude temporarily and that everything will be fine soon enough, but that doesn’t help at all.

That’s the other thing: you don’t feel like this will ever end. This is who you are now. A fucking shrivelled terrified cryhole. I did feel terror quite a few times during all this. It usually gets you when you wake up or try to go to sleep. Everything is still and You are going to fucking die someday, sooner than you think and You have wasted every moment of your life so far blast in your mind and your heart pounds, you can barely breathe, and you might even suddenly groan as panic waves hit your brain in an instant. There’s a terror in knowing there’s no relief from this; that all of these things are true and for some reason you believed the illusion your whole life and weren’t always in the perfect terror about it that you are now. Still, you beg for that trick to come back, to be able to put this mindset away and believe in the stupid shit we tell ourselves just to keep existing in some kind of calm. All these thoughts keep assaulting you with some kind of biological urgency, like you need to figure this problem out immediately or you die. This is what being on chemicals to help your brain for years and then suddenly going off them is like. Your body doesn’t know what the fuck. It’s weird to not give a shit about any of this and then suddenly imperatively have to give a shit about it and be unable to escape it. Even now when I’m in the clear, I still feel its background noise. Maybe I always will from now on. This whole thing has been a Paul on the road to Damascus type ordeal.

I fucking cried watching the new X-Files episodes, my dude. Probably during each one. That’s what it was fucking like. Imagine being in your late ass twenties and something in the X-Files makes you cry because you think of a squandered opportunity, or what you should or shouldn’t have done as a kid, or wishing you had put more effort into certain relationships with family or friends. It just finds anything to grab onto and get you with. You just have a dragging feeling constantly present and looking for things to attach to and convince you you’re sad about. Frankly, it’s fucking annoying. I cried one time because a nintendo phone app was enthusiastic about sharing my character’s picture with others. Just the fact that someone would have an interest in who I am and treat me like a normal person and want to share something about me with other terrible avatars made me cry as I was playing this thing and trying to take a shit. It made me think about my own self-worth and how long I thought there was no reason anyone should give a fuck. Cripe, one time I was almost screaming crying about my best friend who died when we were 11. It was like a fresh wound again and I was lying facedown on my bed wailing like an asshole. Depression can fuck with you.

So, this got pretty bad and I decided I had to see my GP about it. This can become a battle in itself, because past a certain point, you are convinced you aren’t worth the effort and that you’re a burden to have to deal with, and someone else could use that time to see the doctor instead. It gives you any reason to turn yourself down. I cried right away talking to my doctor. All this is really weird to reflect on; I was an entirely different person then. It was like a frantic sadness, an inability to just hold your shit together for even a few minutes. The impending terror was really pressing; a constant urgent anxiety that something bad is going to happen really soon, or that I’m about to get a call that someone I know just died. The doctor recommended seeing a therapist and going back on meds. Now I remember that the reason I finally did something was because my neighbour’s son killed himself. Fuck, that really bothered me. Hearing about any death at all was bad enough, but I think that week I was reading about Edgar Allan Poe’s death and then Vincent Van Gogh’s, and I just got really fixated on vividly imagining their final moments. I think there were others, too. See? Just a stupid thing to waste your time on but in the moment, you think this will help for some reason. Maybe the gravity of that kind of thing hooks you and you can’t help but look into it. So when my neighbour’s son also committed suicide, that was a pretty strong blow. I hadn’t even talked to the guy in over ten years, but I couldn’t help but fixate on having seen his father maybe 3 days prior as he joked in my mom’s backyard and borrowed a ladder. Now his life was ruined and the son he struggled to try to get mental help his whole life had killed himself. He was only 37 and he had a son. I think I spent a few days of weeping out my stupid ass over this, then made the decision to see my doctor.

I started seeing my therapist and cried within 6 minutes of entering his office. I wish I went to see a talk doctor when I was recommended it as a teenager. It’s good shit. Beyond that, I started seeing my friends again. Before this, I think 2 years had passed between us spending time together. I had talked myself into feeling like they were better off without me anyway and had their own real friends and lives that I didn’t have anything to do with. I started to exercise and even just take walks around the block. Sometimes, if I was just lying awake staring at the ceiling, I’d get up and go for a run. I started being able to work on videos again and looked forward to it. Thinking back on it now, I realize I kept streaming during the whole time. That would become the only thing I’d do or look forward to for most of this stretch. SO THANKS IF YOU LOOKED AT MY TERRIBLE STREAMS DURING THIS ERA I WAS QUITE WOUNDED AND I’M HOPEFUL THAT I WASN’T TREMENDOUSLY OBVIOUS ABOUT THIS, YOU HELPED KEEP ME STABLE WATCHING ME PLAY WITH CHILDREN’S TOYS. Beyond this, I’d just sleep until the afternoon and try to find a way to kill time until the streams started. This is why there were even less videos than usual. I was sad.

So, these things helped pull me out of the shit. A lot of it is self-examination and discovering why you feel this way in the first place. I’ve talked to my therapist about whether or not this whole thing was because of being on meds for so long and then going off them and feeling a withdrawal, or if that’s who I am underneath the medication.  He said that it is probably both, but more that that’s who I am. Fuck. He categorized this as a major depressive episode. It was weird to just hear the words. That is the kind of thing that happens to people in their mid-30s in office jobs who are getting shit on by everything in their lives. I guess it can also make you feel like a diva asshole; that you feel you’re so important that you had to have this major crisis about yourself. Writing this makes me realize how stupid it is to think like this, but that’s the kind of trap you get put into. Anyway, let me emphasize how important it is to see a therapist if you are depressed. Do it. It can change everything. Also talk to a doctor and see if meds are part of your solution. See a doctor. Do not just let it go. This is like if you had cancer and you just wanted to wait it out or hoped it would get better on its own. A lot of people let it go until it’s overwhelming and consumes them completely and just kill themselves to end the pain. Don’t!

I got better. I went on meds and in just a few weeks I made a drastic improvement. Plus the therapy, and plus feeling like I was doing anything with my life again. I hear a lot about hesitation to go on meds because you feel like they may change the foundation of who you ever are. This doesn’t happen. For me, it made me feel more free to be who I felt like I really was. That said, it may numb your emotions if you are a person who typically feels a lot of things. Just talk to a doctor about any concerns you have and don’t let these build up and become reasons you don’t get help for yourself. You are worth it. The doctor isn’t angry to have to deal with you. If it will cost what you can’t afford, don’t let that become an excuse not to do it. Save up or find a way to make it work. Again, it’s like if you couldn’t afford cancer treatments so you just let it kill you instead of finding out how you can make the situation work financially. What you’re dealing with is serious! Do something about it!

I almost forgot to mention that a lot of getting better was having something to look forward to. Knowing I’d see my friends and we’d have a good time was part of it. Another was spending all of my fucking money to go to as many conventions as I could. They were something I enjoyed in the past but didn’t bother with much anymore, so I decided to get back into them. It was the best choice. Thanks for coming to drink a lot of beers and talk shit if I saw you at a PAX or TwitchCon or Magfest! They were sincerely some of the best times of my life. Knowing that it wouldn’t be long until I’d be at another convention helped a lot with otherwise feeling complete dread. The power of giving yourself something great to look forward to is really strong! Do it! Find things you like and make time for them. Reward yourself! At one point, I got into a really unbalanced lifestyle and would spend maybe 60 or 70 hours a week editing videos and I burned myself out to shit. All I would think about was the job and let my health and relationships go to shit. You’re not supposed to do that. Give yourself good things and make it a habit. Anyway, PAX East soon, my man.

When I wrote my last crypost, a lot of people responded it it. I was in a daze for the rest of that day as I heard from a mountain of individuals. A lot of you deal with issues like this and a lot of you feel hopeless about it. It’s fucked up! This is your life! You’re entitled to a good one! Doing something about it will take a lot less than you may think, and will help you in a lot more ways and probably faster than you may think. A lot of you also said since that you’ve decided to finally get help. So yeah motherfucker I had a cool cry about your messages several times. What was also helpful was anonymous tumblr questions saying they got help so others could see your experiences and know I’m not just yelling out my dick about this. Thanks! You helped people!

Ok I think I have to cut this short now, it got late and I try not to stay awake until fucking 7 AM these days. I feel like I missed a few of the main points I wanted to make but by now I think you get the point that you can feel like you are going to face total annihilation within the next few moments and still get back to normal in very little time. I almost just wrote “Hopefully talking about my own cringe-ass experience helped you with…” and so forth to end this on a light-hearted self-shitting, but that again is part of the problem. Feeling as if your issues are embarrassing, not worthy, juvenile, or to be written off as not serious is no good. I know we joke about this kind of thing to help deal with it, but don’t feel that way for real. AGAIN, YOU’RE WORTH IT. YOU’RE GOOD! YOU’RE WORTH DOING WHATEVER IT TAKES TO FEEL NOT FUCKED UP! GO! 


Go!

2D☆STAR Vol.6 - B-PROJECT Private Uncensored Special

B-Project, who while going through movie appearances, live concerts, in the middle of 6 consecutive new song releases, and always going through the pressure of work, talked about their private lives! Driving, drinking, and even their bedrooms!? We’ll reveal what they talked about! There’s no doubt that you’ll be knocked out from the difference in the smiles you see on TV ❤

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remyratio  asked:

In their movie nights, Kara bursts in tears everytime a planet is exploded in Star Wars (Lena later stop watching SW with Kara) and Lena, for an unknown reason, gets tensed everytime the dinosaurs appear on screen.

Ahh, but see I think Kara feels an extreme kinship with princess Leia! Because they both watched their planets explode and they both have to carry on and be a hero even thought sometimes they just feel like breaking down and crying for all they’ve lost. She also loves princess Leia’s hair - especially the Endor braids!!

And everyone loves to tease Lena over her irrational fear of dinosaurs! Alex especially finds it hilarious and loves to leave toy dinosaurs in random places for sister in law to find!

Gods forgive me

okay so it’s not exactly Lance, it’s HTTYD, but I just made myself cry because I imagined Hiccup way back before the first movie, and the fact that he probably, at some point, spent the entire day from early morning sitting somewhere in the forest crying because he feels like he’s not good enough and he’ll never be enough for his fathers approval, and then he has to go back later and act okay or like he was just doing typical hiccup dragon hunting or something. Now I imagine, with his dragon, he sometimes just flies to somewhere secluded yet close because that kind of depression doesn’t just go away, he has his moments, and toothless just let’s him sob and rant, until the rest of his friends come, and toothless tells him and he wipes his face and acts okay like “oh I was just keeping watch” and goes to fly back, but they all just hug him because they know he’s lying, especially Astrid, she secretly knew of this before because she always went to the forest to train and saw him, and he just asks why the sudden hug and they’re just like “you don’t have to hide it, we know you’re not okay” and he just laughs and then he’s laughing but crying and then just crying and they’re all holding him while sitting down with his dragon and the rest protecting them

A Dream of Summer

Somewhere, there is a ringing, a buzzing, some insistent sonic prodding at my eardrum, something nipping at my brain…

But the sunlight is pulsing rhythmically against my closed eyelids.  Warm, spreading samples of melted orange and yellow.  Then there is wind, neither warm nor cold.  It is a force against the small of my back, urging me along.  The wind has a voice.  It is a familiar sound.  Someone I know.  There might even be words, names, places, times, plans, in that voice, but it just sounds like the waves on the shore.

In the dream, we are on the ferryboat, crossing the bay.  It is summer - finally - and we are leaning against the rail.  I can see myself against you, half-melted against your hard body.  If we stood motionless, we could be mistaken for mannequins, models, displays, pure bodies of summer, placed elegantly there to establish how summer it is. 

In the dream, I do not quite remember how I got there, but it feels so real, so vivid.  The waves spit playfully, tossing their white tails in the air like deer in the forest before vanishing into the thundering wake of the boat.  The gulls make their strident calls across the seamless blue above.  The wind ruffles your hair as if it is admonishing you, lightly.  And I, I am so in love with you.  I am so in love with you and I am crying in my dream because my heart is held with tight iron bands and it is hard to breathe.  You turn your face towards mine and you smile and you chuck under my chin. 

We are wearing similar outfits.  You’ve chosen them.  This has become normal now, after months of being together.  Half of the time I don’t even remember what I’ve got on, but sometimes you’ll show me a side-by-side, a before-and-after, before you post it to the internet, and remind me slyly how Far I’ve Come, and Who I Used to Be. 

Feels like a movie.  A dream.  Dream within a dream, perhaps.  I’m in a tank top.  It’s to show off my guns, because I have spent years working on them, crafting their sinews and their contours.  Looking at them, in the dream, I feel the urge to flex them, and you notice, and you nod, and without words, you give permission.  Not that I need permission.  It’s been so long now that you are my entire world, and the dream-people around me are this cream-coloured blur, possessing only eyes and legs.  They see me flex and all they feel is jealousy.  A thought worms its way into my head, a nasty little look at that dumbfuck, flexing like a moron, grinning like a moron, look at that dumbfuck jock but I feel you coaxing your thoughts over those, I feel you take hold of my chin and pull it so that my eyes lose themselves in the reflection of myself in endless recursion.  The lightest smile on your lips.  You know what I am thinking.  It turns you on.  I’m a little hard too, in the shorts that are a little shorter than I’m used to.  In the neon orange Nike Roshes that ended up in my mail one day.  Not sure how, but have stopped trying to guess.  You turn my cap around on my head and I wrinkle my nose in faux-exasperation, but your mouth on mine makes me stop.  Your hand creeps up from my shoulder to the nape of my neck, and your finger idly rests, climbs, rests, climbs, at the apex of my spinal cord. 

And there is the sound of traffic?  Something huge and heavy is whooshing by, there are murmurs and footsteps.  I am suspended in gray.  My body is not responsive and my thoughts are gelled in aspic…

“I love you,” you say, soundlessly, in the dream.  You pull away from my body and the boat rocks on the blue waves of the summer day.  Do you open your mouth to say it?  Do I open mine to reply?  The islands are spread out so widely in the bay.  Which are we even arriving to?  Where are we sailing?

Bro.  Bro.  BRO.

The dream pops, filmy, leaving its neon residue dripping down the walls of the subway station.  You’re there, too, in a different outfit.  You’re smiling a world-eating smile.  I love the small chip on your front tooth.  “Hey bro,” you’re saying, gesturing at my white Jordans.  “Wouldn’t those look hot on me?”

I look down at your sneakers.  Bright blue Under Armour sneakers.  So bright blue it’s almost like I’m back in the dream, squinting through my Ray-Bans at the sky above.  I hear a gull cry.  Or it’s the train squealing to a halt.  Your hand, light on my shoulder, shaking it.  “Bro.  Switch with me.”

The subway car rattles back and forth, jarringly.  I have to hang onto one of the metal posts for support.  My biceps bulge slightly, and you growl playfully, kissing the side of my neck, forcing my gaze downwards.  I am electrified.  Currents of unnameable energy ricochet from the base of my spine, around my ears, down my lats, through my pecs, and tingle down to the impossibly bright blue sneakers on my feet.  “I love you, bro,” you say into my skin, and I feel that, too, tingly, as it shoots through me.  “You’re mine, forever.”

The tunnel’s darkness, emphatic, pulsing, like squeezed-out ink from a tube.  My lips form a desperate smile.  Desperate for you.  For your direction.  For your guidance.  For your limitless voice, as formless and as strong as the wind in my ears and against the small of my back.  At the nape of my neck.  And I know that when we get home, you will guide me into our bedroom, and we will stare again into each other’s eyes, we will stare until the winter’s hold on the world is broken, until I wake up beside you on that ferry, blinking, convinced that I have woken up for real.

opinions of signs as people i know

(im a pisces sun and gemini moon)

aries: so good in every way i don’t know how they do what they do. down to earth and honest, will always give you a legitimate answer. genuinely cares about all their friends, witty as fuck. always positive and sends out gud vibes. somehow procrastinates on shit for hours but gets it done. they throw shade tactfully so no one ever knows. forgetful at times.

taurus: forgets how great they are at times, but can end up wallowing in self-pity. super procrastinators, extremely welcoming as a person and probably is cool with u. excellent cookers. subtweets a lot. treats u like family, but you’ll know if they dislike you. great taste in music. all memories with them are good ones, unless u piss them off. always has a lot on their mind. good people if u need to vent to someone. highly valued friends.

gemini: absolutely wonderful, is actually the living embodiment of sunshine. truly just wants the best for u. has their days, but who doesn’t. prone to anxiety. has a line for everything. youre either their friend or you want to be. witty as hell the one thing that’s true, loves to make people laugh and build relationships. loves to be involved, can adapt well. sometimes is overwhelmed by life. someone who will go out of their way to help u. book smart but often naive. dont dismiss them because theyre a gemini, they are more than worth ur time.

cancer: sweet like diabetes bruh. they honest to god radiate positive and good vibes. thinks theyre living in a disney channel movie. i always picture them with a smile. empathetic, willing to help. makes a bigger deal than it is and cry for ages, or theyll brush it off like it never happened. forgiving. dont take advantage of it, eventually theyll stop coming back around and it will hurt. gets carried away at times and will manipulate stories. likes laughing at dumb things.

leo: steals the show, if u find out someones a leo it makes sense. furiously protective, would probably die for their friends. so great with people but often loses focus. doesnt cope well, but they will deal with things. more sensitive than u think. loves to laugh, ur stomach will hurt when ur with them. a foodie. wants u to do ur best. sometimes its hard to tell whether theyre serious or not. always on their phones and enjoys a good meme.

libra: every single libra ive met is like my bff. rapid talkers, always have something going on in their head and they’re constantly thinking, it’s insane. probably going to be ballin by age 20. truly beautiful inside and out. indecisive as fuck which can lead to real life problems and lots of dilemmas. loves telling a good story and likes having attention. gets good gifts. has a great sense of style. wants to explore the world. appreciates little things. can listen to any type of music i swear

virgo: the ones i know i have gorgeous eyes. often lets their priorities slip. in great shape. humbled, ive never heard one brag or talk about themselves. good at reading people. has a small group of friends that they love deeply. will listen to you. loves adventures and new things. looks for improvement. gets hung up on the wrong things. the last person to talk about their feelings. always looks like theyre up to something. 

scorpio: true embodiment of emo. is always wearing a bitch face, but you get to know them and they will treat you like they’ve known u for their whole life. down to do legit anything. someone you can sit in silence with for hours and have it not feel awkward. lots of trust issues. bad with breakups and letting go. goofy as hell. loves writing. if they let u in be thankful. 

sagittarius: will show u a good time, you could spend days with them and never get bored. youll know if they dont like u. notoriously flaky. generally pretty attractive. has 10 bitches on call. doesnt fall easily, but when they do its hard. can act sort of ditsy sometimes, dont let that fool u. class clown. theyre paying attention a lot more than u might think. very selective on what they want to put their effort towards. dont get emotionally attached to one unless u wanna get wrecked

capricorn: individualistic as fuck, each one has their own really unique style. killer sense of humor. screaming deep down inside. best at decision making and prioritizing for success, but sometimes it can be difficult to follow through. does stuff on their own terms. u think theyre high all the time, but thats just who they are. they probably smoke too though. will stick through thick and thin for you. can hold grudges for ages and really aloof. loves alternative music. u dont understand how great they are until u get to know one. 

aquarius: the best sense of humor, enjoys shows like The Office. as harsh as they can be, theyre kind of sensitive too? gets frustrated with friends. somewhat intimidating to approach. furiously loyal. loves to be outside and animals and shit. wants to do whats best for them and cuts off shitty people. under appreciated. never tries to look good, but when they do its like a kiss from the heavens on both of ur eyelids.  wastes time a lot. somewhat aloof until you get to know them. 

pisces: (lmao me) creative powerhouses, can spit poetry and loves lyrics with good meanings. gives too many chances to shitty people. likes to get along with everyone. down to do anything. loves to be sad as fuck and gets swallowed in self pity a lot. has individualistic opinions that they will share. craves a good relationship and good conversations. can be two faced. truly looks for the best in people. likes posting selfies. lightweight crazy bitches but in the best way. feels deeply. 

anonymous asked:

jally sexcanons please?

u got it boi
k so i’m not that smutty of a gal ((this is gonna be real fluffy ok cuz nsfw doesn’t really appeal to me sorry if that’s what u we’re looking for)) LETS GOOO

- dally tops
- cuddling. so much cuddling how cute
- dal is so gentle. like?? SO GENTLE
- johnny finds it so sweet ok he diGS THAT SHIT
- but sometimes he’s so tired of how vanilla their doin is lmfao
- so w johnnys encouragement and him telling dally it’s ok they get kinkier i guess lol
- lotta kissin between these two HOODS
- they’re hella playful in bed i’m imagining it and it’s EXTREMELY ENDEARING
- their safe word OML LEMME START OKAY
- dally is SO !!! INSIS!!TE!NT on using their safe word
- he’s always reminding johnny to use it
- afterwards they always have cute mumbled conversations
- and they’re just so soft cuz sometimes they need that, because at times they can’t be so open about how much their love goes to each other
- aHEM “i love you”

WAIT LMAO THIS IS FUNNY OK THIS IS SOME BONUS SHIT
- one time they were bangin and PONY HEARD THEM
- he probably walked in on them too my gOD
- “so i was thinking we could go to the movies lat— AHHHHHHHHHHHH”
- and he just freezes and he’s screaming and then he starts crying and he’s so embarrassed what a loser lmao
- when the gang hears them they just cover their ears and start scREECHING (steve, pony, soda)
- two bit, the fucker, is cackling cuz he thinks dal brought a girl, and he’s laughing at the boys bc he’s confused at why they’re so embarrassed
- “where the hell is johnny? he’s gotta seE YOU GUYS HAHAHAHA”
- “two, that iS johnny”
- and he’s just so red omg

sorry if these were lame, thanks for being the first request tho!!!!

#18 Dating EXO would include series: Tao's edition

-Him asking you if he could join you in the shower every single day, and you denying him every damn time he asks, but he’d still join you any way and you can’t do nothing about it because he would start whining.
-Him trying to out sass you, throwing bratty remarks every now and then, but failing miserably.
-He’d take you out shopping a lot, but you’d be in the store for like 2 minutes trying to choose a dress, he’d wonder off to the men section and leave you alone.
-“Babe you look so good but i look much better”
-He’d buy you clothes and purses on every occasion.
-Fighting over who eats the last cupcake.
-Him being a little brat when he doesn’t get his way.
-Sometimes when you guys are fighting you would let him win, or else he won’t shut up for the rest of the day.
-During movie night he wouldn’t let you pick a movie, because he knows you would pick a horror movie just to laugh at him.
-Like seriously, he’d scream every like second, he’d hide his face behind your shoulder, and cry everytime someone dies, and will probably cling to you like a Kuala when it’s time to sleep. Now that is amusing.
-At times he would be so damn emotional, and he’d rant a lot too on the most random things.
-He’ll be a cutie pie, he’s such a tiny princess although he has the ability to wushu everyone’s ass to the moon, he still needs protection.
-His favorite movie will probably be mean girls.
-He loves showing you off in public, and he wants everyone’s eyes to be on you two, most importantly he would love to let people know that you are his and no one else’s.
-But if a guy approached you and started to flirt, or even just talked to you, he would stare at him until he feels uncomfortable and leave, and then he’d pretend as if nothing happens.
-When hate gets too much he would want you to cuddle him up and support him and assure him that everything will be fine.
-Sex would be a bit to the vanilla side, he’d spice it up every now and then with cuffs and stuff.
-But sex with him would be great, and he'e make sure you are enjoying it, would probably make you climax several times if he was feeling generous.
-He wouldn’t be a big fan of him going down on you, but it’d happen on special occasions or when he wants to show you how much he loves you, though a blow job would be highly appreciated.
-He’s gonna be a bratty princess at times and sometimes you will have to act as an oppa in this relationship, but he would love you with all of his heart, he would take you to meet his parents when things get serious and he would show you off infront of the world.

{Reaction} EXO finding out another member is dating their sibling.

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Park Chanyeol.

Originally posted by ohbaekhyuns

You tried your hardest to keep the fact you were dating Baekhyun a secret from Chanyeol, you really did.

The relationship started a few months back when Baekhyun asked you out with a grin and a bouquet of roses. Since then, you’ve been visiting the EXO dorms much more often, pretending like you’re really just missing your ‘brother dearest,’ but Chanyeol isn’t an idiot, and he’s noticed how Baekhyun is always lingering around you, hugging you much more now than he’s ever done. It wasn’t like you couldn’t trust Chanyeol with this information, but you couldn’t trust Chanyeol with this information. He was the most likely to accidentally spill it online, or say something in front of fans which could cause a lot of damage. But inevitably, he was going to find out, and when he did, you kind of wish you’d told him before.

Baekhyun: “We locked the door, didn’t we? I think I just heard Chanyeol downstairs.” *Pulls away from the kiss as you both sit on the sofa, his hands on your waist under your shirt.*

Chanyeol: “Hey {y/n}! Look at this awesome cat picture I f-” *eyes widen for a brief second before smirking.* “Oh… sorry, I didn’t realise you had company.”

Though honestly, Chanyeol is over the moon about the news since Baekhyun is one of his best friends and Chanyeol trusts him fully not to hurt. But oh boy if he does, Chanyeol won’t hold back.



Do Kyungsoo/ D.O.

Originally posted by veriloquentmind

You didn’t really know how Kyungsoo would react to finding out that you’re dating Chanyeol. He’s a very supportive brother, so you supposed this would apply to this situation as well.

You know that Chanyeol and Kyungsoo have a very playful relationship, something that held the line between liking and annoying each other. For a little while, you made no attempt to tell Kyungsoo, unsure how to break the news to him, there was no casual way to inform him of this development in relationship.

Somewhat luckily, you don’t need to tell Kyungsoo, he finds out on his own accord. You don’t know if this is better or worse really. (But he doesn’t seem to be too fussed about it, if anything he’s happy you’ve found someone that makes you happy.)

Kyungsoo: “I know you’re dating” *Looks at you both with a raised eyebrow*

Chanyeol: “How do you know?”

Kyungsoo: “Next time you go to shove your tongue down {y/n}’s throat make sure you’re not stood next to a window.”



Byun Baekhyun

Originally posted by baehkkyun

Baekhyun isn’t stupid, he knows something has changed the second you come to see him after being out on the first date with Minseok the night before. He takes note of how you dance around the topic of the other members, so he plays on that, seeing who of his friends you’re trying to avoid talking about until he pins it on Minseok.

He’ll pull the confession out of you, he has his way and knows how to read you better than anyone else. He’d feel happy about the development, and excited that you’re dating someone he trusts.

Baekhyun: “Did he kiss you?”

{y/n}: “That’s private!”

Baekhyun: “Not to me, {y/n}.” *Smirking. Will take every opportunity to tease you.”



Oh Sehun

Originally posted by exofetish

This is probably the most nerve wracking thing you’ve ever had to do. Tell your brother that you’re dating one of his best friends.

Luhan would tell you not to worry, and that even if Sehun wasn’t too happy about it at first then he would soon come around and realise how good this development is. You weren’t so sure, so you made Luhan come with you to make this daunting confession. When you finally break the news, Sehun reacted in a sarcastic way, added a bit of banter with Luhan, but really he’s happy for you. Like Luhan said, there’s really no need to worry, because Sehun secretly finds happiness in knowing that you’re dating Luhan, knowing that Luhan is the best man for you.

Sehun: “You’re dating Luhan? I see… I have a question… who is the ‘manly’ one in this relationship?” *Smirking.*

Luhan: “That’s funny, coming from someone who can’t last longer than eleven minutes in bed.”



Zhang Yixing/ Lay

Originally posted by secrethideoutme

As expected, Yixing wasn’t bothered at all when he found out that you were dating Kim Jongin. He’d respond sweetly, more than likely giving you a hug and congratulating you on the situation, knowing how happy Jongin would make you.

He’s also the kind of person to be obvlious to certain things, such as when the bedroom door is closed he definitely shouldn’t come in. But despite all of that, he’s the sweetest and supports you through everything. If you and Jongin meet a rough patch, he isn’t going to take sides or get angry at either of you, instead he’ll just be there to support you both when you need it.

Yixing: “I only have one condition if you’re going to date him.”

{y/n}: “Which is?”

Yixing: “I’m still the best dancer you know.”

{y/n}: “Always, brother.”



Kim Jongdae/ Chen

Originally posted by luderella

Jongdae will more than likely be the most whiny about the situation. He wouldn’t understand why you wanted to date Sehun of all the men you could choose from on the world.

It’s not that he’s unsupportive, but he doesn’t like the idea of change, or the thought of you two breaking up because that would more than likely cause a lot of tension. But after a while, and a lot of persuading by you, he starts to see the upside to the situation and will eventually see the best points and will do everything he can to support and help you both. But he will back away if you tw hit a rough patch, he doesn’t like being caught up in the complications.

Jongdae: “… And one more thing, if you guys dare go in my room I will have your heads.”

Sehun: “Right… noted for future reference.”

Jongdae: “What do you mean future reference? You haven’t done anything in there already have you?”

Sehun: “Uh… No?” *Terrible liar*

Jongdae: “I hate you both.”



Kim Minseok/ Xiumin

Originally posted by parkchny

Being the sometimes maturest and oldest member of EXO, he doesn’t really have much of a reaction when you tell him that you’re dating Kyungsoo. He’d be happy for the two of you, because he knows how much you can offer for each other.

Often, after being on tour he’d let you know how Kyungsoo is doing and if he’s keeping well. Sometimes he’d call to let you know what mood Kyungsoo is in before he comes home so you can prepare him a hot drink and a movie he likes to soothe his agitated nerves or tiredness.

But Minseok isn’t always going to be so kind and considerate, sometimes he’ll let his less mature side know and tease you both, just because he loves the way you both blush.

Minseok: “Kyungsoo-ah, I know you have the power of strength, but you and I both know who’s really the strongest here. Take that as future warning if you decide to hurt {y/n}” *Smiling ‘sweetly’*



Huang Zitao/ Tao

Originally posted by laygion

Tao isn’t going to hold back his annoyance when he find out you’re dating Yixing.

It’s not the fact that you’re dating Yixing that upsets him, it’s the fact that you didn’t tell him into quite a way into the relationship. He’d be annoyed and would probably give you both the silent treatment for at least a week until you persuade him to talk this out (with the help of Wu Yifan.)

Once he gets over the fact you kept it a secret from him for so long, he’d be happy for you both, and it would probably bring him and Yixing closer together once they’re seeing so much more of each other. It would also help that you all speak Chinese fluently since Tao struggles with his Korean sometimes.

Tao: “From now on, I want you to tell me everything, okay?”

{y/n}: “There’s probably a few things you don’t want to know about…”

Tao: “No, I want to know it- oh wait… yeah, I don’t want to know every detail.”



Kim Junmyeon/ Suho

Originally posted by 89ner

Suho is really happy when he find out you’re dating Kris, mainly because he knows how much you both need a relationship.

He knows how stressful it is to be the leader of EXO, and since Kris is the leader of EXO M, Suho knows that Kris will need the support that you can offer him after long days. And likewise, he knows how hard you work as well. He knows that you’d need each other to pull through.

But we all know how savage Suho can be, so he’s going to take every opportunity to sass you both.

Suho: “Thanks {y/n}, you’ve stolen Kris from me, now I have to look after all 10 kids on my own.”



Lu Han

Originally posted by jonnasexoticworld

Luhan isn’t really going to be bothered when you tell him that you’re dating Tao. He’d be happy for you, mainly because you didn’t steal his Xiumin Hyung.

He’d probably spend most of his time teasing you when he’s hanging out with you and Tao, just to poke fun since he knows Tao will react to it.

Luhan: “I don’t know why you date him, {y/n}, he can’t even watch scary movies without crying.”

Tao: “Hey Luhan, you should probably remember who’s the martial arts expert in here.”


Kim Jongin/ Kai

Originally posted by kairamelo

Jongin doesn’t notice anything is different, even when you’ve been dating Jongdae for a while, even after walking in you you both countless times in different sometimes awkward positions. (for example, that time Jongdae had you pinned against the wall, or time time you were sat on his knee, cuddling him as you watched a movie.)

When you finally break the news to Jongin, a look of realisation seems to hit him.

He is happy for you though, but he’s the best for being oblivious to things, you will get let off for so much.

Kai: “I can’t believe how loud you were.”

{y/n}: “Uh… I can explain.”

Kai: “Yeah, please do. Why would you jump on the dorm beds? They’re not bouncy castles! And if the manager finds out he won’t be happy.”

{y/n}: “You thought we were jumping on the beds?”

Kai: “Well what else would you be doing to make that much noise?”

{y/n}: “…”



Wu Yifan/ Kris

Originally posted by jinful

Kris is going to be very happy when he finds out you’re dating Suho. But you’d be nervous confessing that to him at first as you wouldn’t know how he’d respond to this development, but in the end he reacts much better than you imagined.

Kris would tease you both undoubtedly, but most of all he’d be happy that you’re happy.

Kris: “As long as you’re happy, {y/n} then I am too.”

Drabble prompts!!

Let me know the pairing, and the number or numbers you want!

The stuff in italics are dialogue prompts and the others are just situational prompts

(Feel free to use these but please give me credit if you do!)


Originally posted by esgaroths

1.) ‘I thought you hated me. Why are you taking care of me while I’m sick/injured?

2.) ‘Hey do you still like me?’                                                                          ‘We’re engaged of course I like you’

3.) ‘I’m on my period please make me a milkshake’

4.) ‘Marry me’

5.) ‘What the hell are you doing, get off of the floor’

6.) I heard a bump so I came to check on you and now there’s a hole in the ceiling 

7.) I’m short and you’re tall and I know that we are strangers but please help me get this thing that is up high

8.) ‘Stop talking and kiss me

9.) I was trying to make you a romantic dinner but now I’ve burnt everything and I’m upset

10.) There’s only one left of a product that we both want at target

11.) I accidentally elbowed you in the face I’m so sorry, also you’re kinda cute

12.) Hey what are you doing in here OH MY GOD YOU’RE NAKED

13.) ‘Your secret is safe with me’

14.) ‘How did you manage to get food on the ceiling?’

15.) From the back you look just like my friend so I hugged you from behind and you’re not them, gosh I’m sorry

16.) I’m reading the same book as you and I can see you’re getting to the good part. How do you like it?

17.) My ex is right over there, hold my hand to make them jealous please!

18.) Oh no! I spilled something on you and now I’m patting your crotch this is awkward

19.) I’m short a few cents for what I’m buying. You helped me out

20.) ‘Come dance with me’

21.) ‘It’s raining, what do you want to do?’

22.) ‘You almost got hit by a tractor trailer for a penny??

23.) ‘Okay how do I put this lightly, I’m pregnant’

24.) ‘You weren’t supposed to see that’

25.) I was trying to take you out on a romantic walk but now we are lost and it’s getting dark

26.) Every now and again I’d secretly steal one of your sweatshirts. Sometimes I forget to put them back and now you have literally no sweatshirts left

27.) ‘I heard a noise, come cuddle with me

28.) I’m very drunk and I have a crush on you so I might as well just tell you all about it

29.) ‘The stars are so pretty
‘Not as pretty as you

30.) I tripped up the stairs and you’re laughing at me but I think I really broke something, help please 

31.) I just got out of some kind of surgery and am still hopped up on drugs when I spill that I am in love with you

32.) ‘Wait don’t go in there! I’m not finished!

33.) I saw you walking your dog and she’s really cute, oh look you are too

34.) ‘I feel like we were always inevitable

35.) ‘Open your eyes, please. Please wake up

36.) ‘Do you believe in fate? Because I do’

37.) ‘Is that really what you think of me?

38.) ‘That wasn’t meant for you, I promise

39.) Hey you said something kinda odd in your sleep last night. Mind explaining?

40.) You are my super loud upstairs neighbor so I’m here to yell at you because I’m trying to sleep and my ceiling is vibrating.

41.) ‘Hey did you just take a picture of me?’
‘Yeah’
‘Why?’
‘You’re beautiful’

42.) ‘Come back please

43.) ‘How are you so beautiful in the morning?

44.) It’s your birthday and I’m pretending that I forgot because I am throwing you a surprise party. 

45.) We are both sick and everyone put us in quarantine together so we wouldn’t get them sick. 

46.) This movie is really sad and now I’m crying. Please comfort me. 

47.) ‘So we meet again

48.) I overheard you talking about me with your friend, so you like me?

49.) ‘Play with my hair please

50.) I’m stressed so you take care of me

51.) ‘Well- um, I was just wondering if maybe you’d like to go out sometime?

52.) ‘You make me nervous, but in a good way

53.) We are neighbors and I really like you but I am convinced that you don’t know that I exist. 

54.) Hey wow I walked in on you exercising and you look really good. Like REALLY good. 

55.) ‘Enjoying the view?

56.) You are my waiter for my really horrible date. Please rescue me.

 57.) ‘Trust me

58.) You have this notebook that you never let anyone look at and oh look it’s filled with drawings and journal entries about me

59.) I have a crush on you and you told me your favorite color is yellow so now I wear it all the time

60.) ‘Hey well I just wanted to let you know that I love you. That’s all. I’ll go now

61.) ‘What are you doing? It’s 3 in the morning’

62.) ‘You’re annoying sometimes but I still love you’

63.) I tried to be sexy but I’m super clumsy and I really hurt myself walking in these heels.

64.) ‘Sometimes I swear you are 5 years old

65.) ‘Come here’

66.) ‘Baby, don’t cry’

67.) I pretend I hate you but I really don’t. I actually kinda love you.

68.) ‘I was just trying to protect you’

69.) ‘After all this time, I still love you’

70.) You fell asleep on me and I really need to use the bathroom but I don’t want to wake you up

71.) ‘You’re so cute when you’re mad’

72.) I spot you across a crowded room and you take my breath away

73.) ‘I can’t ask her/him out! She/he is totally out of my league’

74.) You spoil me too much. Let me take care of you for once.

75.) ‘Come for a walk with me

76.) It’s valentines day and I’m here alone. Oh look you are too.

77.) We’ve been friends forever and I think I’m starting to like you. This is NOT GOOD

78.) ‘Can I talk to you? Alone?’

79.) ‘If I win, I get to take you out’

80.) ‘Is that a challenge?’

Happy Masterpost

Life’s fucking hard and we’re all tired and sometimes we just need something happy. I know watching complex tv shows/movies is cool but sometimes we just need something that is just plain simple without murder and sadness and crying so i decided to make a masterpost with movies and tv shows that are just that. Maybe i’ll add some songs and books too i don’t know yet but i’ll be updating this every now and then. So here we go i hope you enjoy at least one of these. (i’ll be writting the titles and linking to the summaries if it’s a movie/tv show/ book and linking to the song/artist if it’s music)

Movies

 Tv Shows

Other Stuff

Okay maybe this wasn’t such a great idea given my limited knowledge of movies and tv shows but i’ll be adding more when i watch more and you guys can suggest more as well 

#104: “Sometimes I feel too old to love Barbie movies, so I can never talk to anyone about them. Princess and the Pauper makes me cry everyone because the plot is so genuinely good, and I love it.”

- anonymous

more aus
  • i fell down the stairs and you caught me like a princess. what….what do we do now………
  • is. is that a kitten in your sweater. oh my god. oh my god can i pet it
  • youre a terrible, terrible dancer but i love to watch you do it so i tell you youre great
  • i know im the one who suggested you try on eyeliner but youre too attractive now i cant breathe go wash your face off right this second
  • we’re starting a band, u in? thats okay we already signed you up you dont get to choose
  • last night you were the designated driver and i was wasted and i think i confessed to you but im hoping i can play it off when i see you today
  • we work in the same office and sometimes i purposefully jam the printer so i can see you bend over to work on it, and also because you curse in the cutest most creative way i have ever heard
  • i have never been happier than when we nap together, this is even better than going on dates can we just sleep here together forever
  • i told you i hated romantic movies but the truth is i love them and i cry every time
  • we’re camping as a group and some of our friends played a prank on me and pushed my mattress into the lake but i cant swim and you have to save me before i panic worse
  • we’ve been living together for a few months now and when we clean the apartment we always end up singing a duet and dancing like the gross married couple we’re destined to become
  • we always eat lunch in the same place but i eat an hour after you and we started leaving notes in the crook of the nearest tree so we can talk to each other
  • youre a collector and i work at a store that sells the things you collect and you think im a passionate collector like you but honestly i just live for the little moments in my day when i get to see you again
  • we’re on a couples game show and if you lose im kicking your ass on live tv
  • you’re a demon that tried to possess me but when you realized what awful shape im in you forgot your nefarious plans and now youre trying to help me get my life together
  • youre the landscaper for the place where i work and ive gotten in trouble twice this week for staring out of the window and watching your muscles ripple when you lift bags of fertilizer
  • youre my celebrity crush and im an aspiring actor that gets an extra part in your show and we bump into each other backstage
  • i work at a craft/fabric store and i know exactly what you’re making, you cosplaying nerd
  • youre a firefighter and you saved me form a burning building and i briefly considered becoming a serial arsonist to see you again
TO ALL DC FANFIC WRITERS OR JOKER IMAGINE WRITERS OR JUST ANYONE WHO WILL WRITE ABOUT THE JOKER PLEASE READ

okay so heres the thing, lately I’ve been reading a lot of joker imagines and I’ve seen this a few times and I thought I should just say something bc I thought it might help the writers and the readers would enjoy it more. Oh and THIS IS GOING FOR ALL THE JOKERS, NOT JUST A CERTAIN ONE. So here we go.

The Joker is absolutely completely without a doubt INCAPABLE of FEELING LOVE LIKE A NORMAL PERSON. If you’ve seen the movies or tv shows, you would’ve known how mentally gone he is. He has absolutely no remorse for ANYTHING he does, no sympathy, no regret. He cannot feel anything but Anger, Happiness or Frustration. Maybe sometimes Self-Pity when Batman ruins his plans. But Happiness is his default emotion. Anger is his backup emotion. That is how he works. I’m re-writing some of this and when I first posted this I said he was 100% without a doubt unable to cry. But I think I’m wrong because the Joker in Suicide Squad is seen with streaks down his face in the “Where is she?” scene. But, I do still believe that he can’t feel sad and I think that he would only cry out of Anger or Frustration or when Batman destroys his plans that he worked really hard on, he would probably be feeling a huge amount of Self-Pity, but that would probably turn into anger/frustration/or his insanity would take over and he would go and like take it out on people. But it wouldn’t be often that he cries. Now, since he cannot do or feel these 3 things, (Love like a normal person, Cry out of sadness or Feel Sad), you may be wondering how the hell are you supposed to be able to write fluffy imagines about him. Well, while we feel love, he feels Obsessed. That is his version of love. Obsession. (And I don’t mean obsession like, he keeps you locked in some room and doesn’t let you out and treats you like an animal. I mean, he craves you. He would destroy anyone and anything to get to you. He’s crazy about you. You keep him “sane”. He’s obsessed with you.) Now this doesn’t mean that imagines about him can’t cute or romantic or fluffy. It just means that he would never say “I love you.” Because he doesn’t. But he still cares deeply about the reader. He is obsessed with them. Obsessed with protecting them. Obsessed with keeping them. And yes, I guess this in some way could be love, but you have to remember he doesn’t really understand love. He doesn’t understand the feeling or why people say it. And because of that deep down inside, some part of him is always going to care more about himself than the reader. His plans will ALWAYS come first. That is just who he is. And if you’re going to write about such a complex and unique character, you have to understand this. He will never be able to say sorry, because he doesn’t feel remorse. But he will feel bad, even if he doesn’t show it, in his own weird way. He’ll apologize without saying he’s apologizing or sorry. Probably something like: “I understand why you’re mad and I get it, and I know I should probably do better. Please don’t stay mad at daddy, dollface.” That is something along the lines of what he would say. He is also extremely possessive and you can use this to make multiple imagines or fanfics about him. He is protective up to a certain point. He’s not gonna baby you. If you’re dating him, you need to know some self-defence. He’s protective of you, and he’s thinking about your safety, but he’s also thinking about himself. And how will this effect him. He will also say “dirty” things, but not mean them in a dirty way, so it doesn’t always have to end up in smut. He will say daddy or kiss you roughly or slap your ass or breath heavily or tell you to sit on his lap, in a perfectly normal way without him suggesting at something dirty. That’s who he is. It’s apart of his character. You have to understand that. Again, this is for both Heath Ledger’s Joker and Jared Leto’s Joker. Any Joker. They’re all the same person with the same personality. Basically before I wrap this up just remember this:

1) The Joker is absolutely incapable of feeling any sort of Love like a NORMAL person, Sadness and he’s fully unable to Cry out of sadness because he doesn’t feel sadness. (It would be more like heavy Self-Pity, but that would turn into anger too) He feels no HEAVY remorse. (I guess he must feel a LITTLE if he feels bad for hurting you)

2) His version of Love is Obsession.

3) You can still write really cute and fluffy and romantic imagines about him, you just have to remember he would never say “I love you”. Probably something like “You complete me” “I need you” “You keep me sane” “You’re my favourite girl. My only girl.” “You’re my one and only.” One of these, or all of them, would be his substitute for “I love you”. (Though this doesn’t mean the reader can’t say it, I think they would and he would either say “I know, princess” or kiss them or just respond with one of those)

4) He will say dirty things very normally and this will not lead to sex all the time. It is apart of his character. The reader will be able to call him “daddy” or kiss him roughly or sit on his lap normally, because that would be a normal part of their relationship.

5) Overall the Joker will probably always care about himself and his plans more. But to some extent, you will be his weakness. For certain things at least. But he will do mostly anything for you, because he’s so obsessed with you and keeping you happy and apart of him needs you. Not a huge or big part, but a small part of him, that he’s tried very hard to push away, needs you. And losing you would kill another part of him. Not all of him. Just a small part of him. But he is insane. More insane than normal insane. He’s overally sane. And therefore it’s very hard for him to care about others, because he is not used to it. You have to remember, he’s been insane for so long. The main point is the Joker is very complex and hard to write about, but it’s not even that hard as long as you actually understand who you’re writing about. Keep this in mind and writing about him will be a breeze. I really hope this helped someone bc it took me a while to write all this, but I think I did a pretty good job. (P.S, the reader doesn’t always have to be crazy themself you know. She could be completely normal, just okay with the fact that she’s dating the joker. This would be cool bc you’d be able to write a lot of imagines about him teaching them how to use guns and showing them his business and him telling them all his stories and them being so fascinated bc they’ve never heard anything like them.) And btw, I do realize that everyone has their own ways of writing and a lot of people really like canon and I promise I’m not trying to hate on that, that’s perfectly fine. This was just for people who want to write about him like fully in the original character or who want to do canon but still want it to be in character.

P.S:uh I’ve added imagine ideas for the joker, incase anyone was having trouble coming up with new ideas for him or just uh needed help. they’re like prompts I guess. heres the link incase anyone wanted to check it out: Joker “Prompts”

MORE MOANA SPOILERS ARE IN THIS POST

But who else was very moved when Moana was feeling like giving up her quest and Grandma Tala calmly said to her, ‘If you’re ready to go home, I’ll be with you’?

It was such a good moment, because it validated Moana’s feelings and essentially said that it’s okay to feel overwhelmed and it’s okay to take some time to feel better and sometimes?  It’s even okay to give up.  Moana had a huge burden placed upon her as the Ocean’s ‘chosen one.’  She’s a teenager and up ‘til now her life has been pretty sheltered, and she’s just been sailing around where none of her people have gone for decades if not centuries, being threatened by all sorts of terrifying dangers, trying to get a demigod to do what needs to be done…and it seems at this point like her journey won’t succeed.  Maui left her angrily, she feels like the Ocean was wrong to choose her because she’s not an experienced wayfinder/sailor and doesn’t have any magic talents of her own or anything…  How can she do what’s been asked of her? 

And the narrative validates this feeling!  The Ocean appears disappointed when it takes the Heart back from Moana, but it does so gently, and doesn’t harm her at all.  And Tala, when she arrives, encourages Moana to see the worth in herself, but says, sincerely!  Not sarcastically, cajolingly, or with any sound of disappointment in her voice!  That if Moana wants and needs to go home, she will stay beside her and support her.

Moana is a Good Movie because its title character is a ‘chosen one’ trope (and the characters talk about this explicitly!) but ultimately she chooses, at every turn, to go forward.  She speaks about being unsure the Ocean chose rightly.  She speaks about how hard it is.  She’s given the option–a true option!–to turn back and she chooses not to.  Moana has agency as a character and does the things she does despite being afraid.  She is not forced–her heroic actions are all her, from her core. 

Sometimes you have to have a freakout about what you’re expected to do, sometimes you have to cry and worry about how you’ll do it, and express those feelings outwardly, before you can build up your courage to continue on.  Moana did that, and she is never shown as weaker or wrong because of it.  What a good model for viewers (Tala, too–a model for how to help someone)!

And that is another of my favorite things about Moana!

If you are going to love me

If you are going to love me
Here are the things you need to know…

I am a crashing meteor
Crashing in the unpredictable ways
You don’t see me falling apart upon entry
You will see orbs of shooting shards
You will find beauty in them
I will not

I hide behind my image
I’m not too strong
I’m not weak either
But my bones break like yours
My heart breaks even more

I cry a lot
Sometimes at nothing at all
Sometimes because of fear
I cry about my past
Even when it no longer hurts me
I cry about movies and songs on the radio
And when old people eat alone in restaurants

I fear love in every form
Love from someone
And Loving someone
Because in the past “love” was a murderer and I the victim

I am used to being abandoned
Don’t take it personal when i expect the same from you
If it happens with you
Don’t worry
I won’t fight your impulse to run

I am a mental wreck
Sometimes self torture is my only way to feel alive
I take pills to get through every day
Even more to sleep at night

I like emotional people
I love connecting on pain
I don’t know why
Maybe because I feel the understanding
Maybe because I like feeling someone else’s pain more than my own

I get lonely
But I won’t reach out
I will remain my own entity
Until someone notices me

I am far from perfect
My imperfections rattle me you see…
Because my one true fear
Is that no one can or ever will love me for me

Bet you couldn’t see all of these things
Just by looking at me
My surfaces tell you
I have a lisp when i get nervous
A stammer when I’m stressed out
A torturous love for music
Passion for elephants
Love for big cities
Compassion for old people
Maps, maps, maps and more maps
I show my heart in the form of gifts
I don’t believe in God
I don’t believe in love
But I’m passionate about the ideas and concepts of loving one more than myself

These are my truthes
Take them or leave them
This is what you need to know
Before you tell me you love me and then up and go

you ever think that sometimes dally mightve found johnny sleeping outside somewhere because of his parents and dally just picks him up and tries to find somewhere warm for him to sleep because i do a lot and then cry

anonymous asked:

i love your url but sometimes i read it as "ginevra spotter" as in "i could spot ginevra from a mile away"

oh my god this is so funny im crying

I also consider myself to be a master ginny spotter because she’s only in the movies for like 20 minutes and she’s background for so long lmao

Bad Habits (pt.4)

Genre: Angst//fluff??

Pairing: Jimin x Reader x Taehyung

Fandom: BTS

Pt.1 (M)// Pt.2 // Pt.3

Originally posted by thesoshisone

A few weeks had passed since your dramatic break up with Taehyung. The members were slowly getting used to the fact you were dating Jimin now. Yoongi, Namjoon and Jin distanced themselves from you because of you hurting Taehyung. It was awkward but they still managed to talk to you when they had to since you were still dating another member. Taehyung however didn’t speak to the both of you no matter what. Jungkook and Hoseok talked to you since they tried to understand the situation even if they didn’t agree with what happened. It was one of those nights where Jimin invited you over despite the weird atmosphere.

“They hate me…” You mumbled.

Jimin held your hand tighter and kissed your cheek. “They do not. It’s been almost 2 months now.”

You walked into the house to be greeted by Jungkook. 

“Hey kookie.”

He smiled. “Hey. Sorry we can’t stay for dinner. I promised Taehyung we’d go out.”

“Oh. That’s okay…”

Taehyung stopped when he saw the two of you. He just looked down and kept walking to get his jacket. You slowly let go of Jimin’s hand and grabbed Taehyung’s arm.

“You don’t have to leave you know. I’m not trying to kick you out of your own house…”

Taehyung sighs and pulls his arm away. Jimin stood there trying his best not to feel annoyed. He knew that no matter what he did you’d still be in love with his best friend. Nothing would change the fact that Taehyung did manage to get to you first. 

Taehyung looked at you for the first time. “Why do you keep trying?”

You were taken back by his sudden comment. “…I want to still be around you too.”

He laughed. “Probably should of that about that before you cheated on me and ripped my heart out.”

“Don’t you think I know that? Do you know how much-” You stopped yourself before you said anything you’d regret. 

“How much you what?” Taehyung asked, knowing what you were going to say  but was testing to see if you’d actually say it in front of Jimin.

“…I hated the way things ended.” You lied. Well it wasn’t a complete lie but it definitely wasn’t what you were going to say.

He scoffed. “Well things aren’t always about you. If I cheated on you- Oh wait. That wouldn’t happen because i’m a decent human being! You know I actually thought about proposing to you…what a joke…”

Jungkook tugged at Taehyungs arm. “Maybe we should just go-”

You ran out of the door and when you were far enough, you started walking around the neighborhood alone. 

Jungkook sighed. “Great….”

Before Jimin could run out and find you, Taehyung grabbed him. 

“Wait. I should apologize….I went too far..”

Jimin glared at him but let him run after you. He was able to find you sitting down on a curb, crying. You saw his shoes in front of you and you looked up to see Taehyung looking down at you. He sat down next to you, putting his arm around you. You sniffled, trying to wipe away your tears a little embarrassed to be crying in front of him.

“Sorry…” He said almost too quiet for you to hear.

You shook your head. “No. I deserve it…It wasn’t what you said that made me cry.”

“It wasn’t?”

You got quiet.

“Y/N?”

You shook your head again. “…I can’t tell you…”

“….Whatever it is I won’t tell your boyfriend.”

You hesitantly opened your mouth “..I thought about you proposing and If I didn’t screw everything up I could have been married to you. I don’t even know why I started sleeping with Jimin! Sometimes I second guess even being in a relationship with him. Things are so different now. I thought being with one person for so long was boring and he made it seem like it wasn’t a big deal but Tae I don’t love him…..”

When you started to cry again he pulled you closer so you could lean on his shoulder. He rubbed his hand up and down your arm. 

“Things are different because he’d not me. He’s his own person.”

You covered your face. “Now i’m emotionally cheating on my current boyfriend….God I hate myself. This is all like some dumb movie! They make it seem lighthearted and that it’ll end up in some spontaneous threesome but this is a nightmare!”

Taehyung let out a small laugh. “Yeah. Trust me I know…But do you have feelings for Jimin at all?”

You nodded. 

“Then…Make him happy. You might not love him now but Y/N you just started dating him. We were together for 5 years. It’s not weird that you still have feelings for me. I love you too but I can’t just forget what happened. It’s better for the both of us if you start seeing someone else. We can both move on..”

You sat up in shock to look at him. “Really?”

He nodded slowly. “I’ll get over it eventually. I did kind of take you away..I guess we’re all kinda selfish..”

You gave a weak laugh and hugged him. 

“Come on, let’s go back before Jimin thinks you’re cheating on him with me. Which in my opinion would be pretty justified” Taehyung gave a light smile, finally hugging you back. 

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END