I could hear
all those things
you ran from
with every song
you released
living your dream

you didn’t need
to play your
albums in
reverse to hear
the taunting
of your demons

I grew up
I cradled your
songs close to
my chest
I knew I wasn’t
the only one

that felt numb
that watched the sun set
that wanted something
rather than nothing
to matter

I wish we could’ve found
a new palette of colors
that just weren’t a collection
of shit grey so maybe the world
wouldn’t need rose colored glasses
just so it can make another rotation
just so the fingers of the sun
could tighten it’s grip out of love
rather than anger

I hope you slipped calmly
beneath the waves when
you decided to let go
of the edge you so
desperately clung

I’m sorry that your armor broke
I’m sorry that you were the only
one who could repair it
I’m sorry that your symphony
played it’s final notes in
the middle of battle

you may have already felt
like a ghost in your final
hours but we never lost
sight of the spirit you let
spill from your eyes with
your honest lyrics
your highest notes

you felt the weight of
a thousand worlds for
so long that anyone
could understand
why you would
it to insanity

you don’t need to apologize
I understand that these plans
we make can be written in blood
washed away with the mud
of uncut clouds
leaving us with more questions
of subjects we thought to be
experts on

I hope you didn’t scream at yourself
I hope you finally felt like you won
I hope you can walk to what you
always wanted when you wake up
on whatever road you travel next

I fucking care that your flickering
light went out amongst a sea
of dimmer specks,
even though
you might feel you didn’t shine
as brightly as you did
so many
used you to guide us
shining brighter
than Polaris did in
a world without the pollution
of smog traced neons

I’m sorry that you lost books
of stories when you lost track
of your scars
those consequential sharp
edges are wounds some of us
share as we trudge
this unmapped path

so we all continue forward
under this blanket of scars
we still listen to your words
hydrohelioizing your perfect

polarisized star

Tips for the worst days

•even the worst day has to end eventually. There will always be a new day.
•people still love you no matter what.
•everyone has days like this. No one is 100% happy all the time.
•it’s okay to cry. Bottling it all up doesn’t help in the long run.
•the same things don’t always work for different people, so these are just some ideas which could be helpful:

•have a shower.
•get dressed.
•brush your teeth.
•brush your hair.
•have a drink. You still need to stay hydrated.
•get something to eat, even if you aren’t hungry.
•if you feel up to it, read a book, or watch a film, or do some art or call a friend. If not, okay, listen to some music or play a game on your phone. Just do something rather than nothing.
•if you’re confused about how you’re feeling and you’re just feeling all the feels, write it down. Write what you’re thinking. It helps to make sense of it all.
•put on your favourite outfit.
•smile, even if you’re faking it.
•but also, don’t pretend you’re okay!! Tell people you’re not, let them help.

It will all be okay. You will be okay.

Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements - the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution and for life - weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget Jesus. The stars died so that you could be here today.
—  Lawrence M. Krauss, A Universe from Nothing: Why There Is Something Rather Than Nothing
Ask meme written by me!
  1. What features would you want your house to have if you could avoid all the technical difficulties involved in building them/installing them?
  2. If you had to describe tastes without using any taste-specific descriptive words, how would you do it?
  3. What is the effect on you of having people physically nearby, if they’re not interacting with you?
  4. What simple action do you wish most could be automated by a small device? 
  5. If you could change the color of your blood with no other effect, would you do it?
  6. Do you tend to tell more stories about things that happened to you long ago or recently?
  7. Would you rather come up with the core of a brilliant invention, or find someone else’s design and bring it to completion and usability?
  8. Is walking more tiring for you, or talking?
  9. Suppose a cat started speaking to you and you could understand it. What would you do first?
  10. When your mind is fixated on something, does it more manifest as your mind coming back to the same topic throughout the day, or being unable to change its focus at all for a long period?
  11. When you read a book, does a fixed mental image (from a movie or illustration) improve or hurt your experience of the characters?
  12. Which of “greasy, salty, bitter, sweet, spicy, bland” do you react most strongly against?
  13. After you finish a good book or movie, how much do you want sequels compared to an equally good and independent book/movie?
  14. If you could change your name to anything whatsoever for one year, and there would be no social/practical consequences to the change or the name itself, would you do it, and if so what name would you pick?
  15. When you’re completely exhausted, do you prefer to be around people or not?
  16. When you share responsibility for a bad event with a lot of other people, is it nobody’s fault or all of your faults?
  17. When you introspect, how much and what do you see about how your thoughts form, and how reliable do you think that information is?
  18. How would you decide what your favorite word is? Do you focus on meaning or sound more?
  19. How much would you have to be paid to spend a week completely alone in The Woods and completely bereft of any belongings or trace of civilization? (you would be protected supernaturally from physical harm from hunger, thirst, and cold, but not discomfort)
  20. Would you prefer to write essays by typing, writing, or dictation, assuming the tech for dictation were perfected?
  21. Brainstorm the design of a planet terraformed purely for artistic purposes.
  22. Would you rather burn to death over the course of an hour, or lose your sanity over the course of weeks after an accident makes you unable to see, feel, smell, taste, hear, or move?
  23. How much would you enjoy watching your life turned into a movie?
  24. If aliens came to earth and brought you to an alien zoo, and you knew there was no way of escaping or bargaining, what sort of accommodations would you ask for your cell?
  25. Imagine 1-way teleporters existed, but were expensive enough you’d need to spend a lot of time saving in order to afford one. Would you?
  26. What purely cosmetic super-power would you most like?
  27. Do you like doing things communally?
  28. Name two food items you’ve never eaten combined before but would like to.
  29. Rank {Oceans, Forests, Tundra, Deserts, Mountains, Prairies, Lakes} with whatever comparator you like.
  30. Is it better to intentionally trick yourself into believing something false for a practical purpose or to intentionally leave yourself ignorant about something with important consequences?
  31. Do you feel more fulfilled when you do something fun for its own sake or in the pursuit of something else?
  32. How easy is it for you to tell from looking at a piece of clothing how much you’d wear it if you owned it?
  33. What is one piece of trivial knowledge you would most enjoy being shared cultural knowledge?
  34. Have you ever seen something that wasn’t there, even as an optical illusion?
  35. When you tell someone something about yourself, what do you want or expect them to do about it?
  36. If you could load books onto a reading device with actual pages, would that be better or worse than a tablet?
  37. Abolish human-caused death, or disease-caused death?
  38. Come up with an arbitrary system for dividing people into groups. No copying existing media!
  39. Is it better for things in general to err on the side of too simple, or too complex?
  40. If you could send your current personality back in time to your past self, would you do it? (factual knowledge would not go with)
  41. What would music look like if it were visible to you as music?
  42. Why is there something rather than nothing?
When we ask “Why is there something rather than nothing?” or “Why is there order rather than disorder?” or “Why is there this rather than that (when that was equally possible)?” we fall into…error: We mistake the more for the less, we behave as though nonbeing existed before being, disorder before order, and the possible before existence. As though being came to fill in a void, order to organize a preceding disorder, the real to realize a primary possibility.
—  Gilles Deleuze, Bergsonism
Faint - Jihoon Au

- Admin Xion <3

Originally posted by kimjaehvvan

genre: angst & fluff but mainly fluff
member: park jihoon
word count: 1067
requested: yes
side notes: n/a

requested by: anon

hiiii! Thank you so much for writing our request and i really love reading it ^^ can i request for a jihoon scenario whereby two of us are rlly close friends and he take cares of me alot because my parents arent around much and also because i have depression? Like low self esteem and stuff. Thank youuuu~~

- hi i love angst
- and writing angst
- but i feel like this turned out to be more of a fluff so im sorry-
- so here ya go bb
- around 6am in the morning, the doorbell rang nOT
- groggily, and still ¾ asleep, you stumbled down the stairs and opened the door as the usual face is there
- jihoon
- he’s been your childhood friend and he’s older than you too
- lazily, you walked over to the couch by in the living room as you fell asleep there
- jihoon, knowing the drill, closes the door and locks it as he throws a blanket over your body
- smol time skip
- you woke up to jihoon shaking you constantly, repeating the words
“wake up idiot,”
- you opened your eyes, still tired
- “go get dressed,” he says
- “5 more mins plea-”
- “nO,”
- “plEASE?”
- “n o,”
- “hMPh,” you whined like a child
- you closed your eyes back as you force your body to get off the couch. the blanket was still wrapped around you
- you were extremely thankful for jihoon
- he’s been there for you through the thick and thin
- and he’s a friend you never wanna forget
- you re-entered your room as you passed your desk
- a purple sheet of paper caught your eye
- you approached it, picking it up as you read ‘FIELD TRIP TO BUSAN CITY’
- you flip it to the back of the page as your eyes skimmed
- you rolled your eyes as you crumpled, torn and threw away the sheet of paper into your garbage bin
- “my parents wouldn’t give a crap about me or a stupid fucking field trio anyways,” you mumbled to yourself
- entering your washroom, you did the usual routine
- point out your flaws, brush your teeth and stare at how imperfect you are, rinse, brush your terrible straight hair and then left to change into your uniform
- walking downstairs jihoon gave you a slice of plain bread
- he knew you never were in the mood to eat
- but he still encouraged you to eat at least something rather than nothing
- you shook your head and refused
- “eat you idoit,”
- “no, im not hungry right now,”
- “eat,”
- “i’ll gain weight,”
- “does it look like i’ll give a fuck if you gain weight?!” he snapped to your surprise
- you didnt flinch nor jump
- your heart just began beating extremely quickly
- gritting your teeth, you accepted the single slice of bread as he scratched the back of his neck
- “sorry,” he mumbles
- “issokay,” you reply
- “also,”
- “stop pointing out your flaws. i heard what you said in the washroom to yourself and i personally think your waist looks beautiful,” he says slightly blushing
- your heart warmed a bit but it wasnt shaking as much anymore
- you felt a bit more at ease
- “thank you jihoon,” you said with a soft smile
- he walked you to school and to your locker as he basically just talked about trying to come up with a catch phrase in which made you laugh a lOT
- but he was glad he got to see you laugh
- because your laugh is beautiful
- time skip woosh
- gym period soon came
- a period you hate so much
- you guys had to run around the track
- and you saw this as an opportunity to lose weight
- jihoon was also in your gym class too
- but you focused too much on running quick and sweating a lot
- you ran
- and ran
- you heart was beating so quickly
- your breaths felt like sharp needles in your throat
- sweat dripped down from almost anywhere
- as you ran
- ran
- ran and ran
- and suddenly everything was becoming dizzy
- as you didnt remember what happened next
- you fainted
- time skip woosh
- you woke up in the nurse’s office
- all you recall was you running
- your legs were sore and your throat still felt like needles poking into one another
- jihoon was sitting beside you reading a book
- “oh you’re awake,” he says
- “what happened?”
- “you fainted,”
- “really?”
- “yeah,”
- “then who brought me here?”
- “the teacher,” he replies bluntly as you notice a small smile on his face but chose to ignore it
- you nodded your head as you stood up from the bed and dusting yourself off
- “where you going?” he asks, looking up from his book
- “somewhere i dunno,” you reply as you exit the nurse’s office
- you walked around as you saw the gym teacher in the cafeteria talking to the janitor. he seem to notice you too
- “hey y/n! do you feel better now?” he asks warmly
- “yeah, just a bit sore. thanks for bringing me to the nurse’s office,” you said
- “huh?” he replies
- you rose an eyebrow in confusion
- “i didnt. jihoon did. he even performed cpr on you,” he speaks
- “c-cpr?” you asked as you could feel your heart race and becoming flustered
- “as in-”
- “yes, his lips touched yours. ahh the most romantic way to kiss,” he says
- you turn around as jihoon was standing there leaning against the wall cooly with a small smirk across his face as you could feel your cheeks burning
- “j-jIHOON” you yelled as he chuckled
- he walked off as you were left there, flustered
- you lightly slapped your cheek multiple times
- you shook your head as you roamed around the hallways for a bit more
- “jihoon took my first kiss…” you said inside your head
- time skip woosh
- you walked home as jihoon was already sitting on the couch, legs crossed and doing some homework
- you couldn’t help but instantly be flustered
- jihoon looked in your direction as he saw you
- you quickly tried to close the door to pull it off that you weren’t staring at him
- you closed the door as you fumbled your keys as suddenly the sharp keychain cut your skin as you winced
- “fUCk,” you yelled as you held your hand
- jihoon softly grinned as he stood up, placing his books to the side
- he approaches you as he reaches into his back pocket
- pulling out a band aid, he places it onto your finger as he holds your hand softly
- he noticed you staring at him as he grinned warmly
- and he kissed you one last time as he held your chin
- “a girl like you doesn’t deserve to have insecurities,” he says

The amazing thing is that every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements - the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution - weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way they could get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget Jesus. The stars died so that you could be here today.
—  From A Universe from Nothing: Why There Is Something Rather Than Nothing, by Lawrence M. Krauss
Begin Again

Originally posted by bloglikeaman

Pairing: McKirk

Prompt: A non-coffee shop coffee shop AU for @yourtropegirl‘s 1000 follower celebration

Summary: Sometimes love shows up when and where you least expect it.

Rating: Teen

Word count: 1586

Leonard sighed as he killed the ignition on his car. He loosened the tie around his neck enough to remove it, tossing it onto the passenger’s seat and shrugging off his jacket. He shoved his keys in his pocket as he got out and headed toward the bar. Walking in, he tried not to cough as he walked through a cloud of cigarette smoke. Sleazy bar after being screwed over in a divorce. What more could he ask for. He found a seat at the bar and flagged the bartender down.

“So, what’d’ll it be?” the blond asked smiling at him.

“Bourbon. Neat,” Leonard answered.

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As someone who has zero understanding of Julian’s pain kink, I sometimes wonder if he enjoys the pain because it makes him feel something, rather than nothing. Maybe he has felt nothing but pain and acts as a constant reminder of some sort of sensation. Perhaps this pain that he enjoys so much was all he ever knew before experiencing the feeling of someone’s hand’s brush against his? Or the feeling when someone holds you gentle and protectively in their arms?

Or I could be dead damn wrong  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Pairing: bokuaka         Words: 1,932

The television volume was set low and static sound filled the room as Koutarou leaned back against the sofa. Keiji was seated with his legs on his lap, his attention to a book. Koutarou would lightly massage his feet while he waited for the drama to return from the commercial break.

It was a slow Sunday for both of them. They both had gotten up late, opting to stay in bed for the most part of the morning. Koutarou had talked about his volleyball training excursion for which he had been away for the week. Keiji had asked a few questions but had allowed Koutarou to take reign of the conversation. They hadn’t talked much over the week except for the goodnight messages and the occasional ‘I miss you.’

He was glad to be back home. The thought made his heart flutter. He was home to Keiji. Their lives had become so busy; with him mostly practicing after being scouted for the Japanese Volleyball team and Keiji working on his final photography portfolio. Only their mornings were a rush of greetings, a swift kiss and goodbyes. Rarely they would meet by the commercial area to have lunch together. Dinner together was more often, but even though Koutarou brimmed with stories to tell, they both would be tired to actually be engaged.

Only last evening on his return had they talked about the rainy weather and Keiji moving the positions of the furniture. A nice dinner of hamburger steak and cake for dessert. A movie that played in the background as their small nudges and touches turned to passionate kissing. Koutarou blushed slightly at the recollection of last night.

He was home.

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anonymous asked:

Why does it seem like S-types are so much better at getting things done than N-types? My S-type family and friends are constantly doing something, and it seems like they would rather do SOMETHING than nothing. Whereas I would rather do nothing than do something that doesn't fit into a bigger plan/goal. But of course, the S-types are much more productive and successful. How can an INFJ work to resemble this S-type quality?

Ss don’t feel a strong desire to sit around and ponder what to do; they simply do what needs to be done. This is a major weakness for INFJs that stems from Ni-Se imbalance. You should develop your functions to overcome this, consult the study guides as you don’t seem to know the basics of your type.

anonymous asked:

Have you found sufficiently satisfying answers to the ultimate questions at the intersection of cosmology and philosophy, like "why is there something rather than nothing?" or "why do laws of physics exist"? is the only thing I’ve ever seen that makes sense.

EDIT: Maybe I should have ended with “…about this topic”, but I like the implication as written.

The rules of math and logic created the universe. Even if there were “nothing” rather than “something,” the rules of math and formal logic still apply. And those are the laws that govern our universe. Together with the (possibly infinite amount of) information encoding previous conditions of the universe, that means the entirety of creation can be expressed using mathematics. In fact, the universe is no different from the information encoding it. Since mathematics has no predicate for existence, that means that not only our universe, but every mathematically possible universe must exist. It’s not that “something rather than nothing” exists, it’s that “nothing, therefore everything, therefore something” exists. That is, being is born of non-being. Mathematics is infinite, it has endless detail and intricacy, and to call it “alive” would be an understatement. It is “being” itself. The concept of formal reasoning, following logical rules, no matter what they are, is divine.

20 Life Hacks To Get You Through Your 20s

We live through experiences that help shape our lives, but occasionally, seeing other people’s experiences helps us most. Being a 20-something can be hard; we all need a little bit of help sometimes in the crazy world.

Check out this list of 20 simple life tips to help you through the decade:

1. If someone holds absolutely no purpose and or positive placement in your life, then you should remove him or her immediately. For instance, the guy who would only text me (and never see me) had to go.

2. Be friends with people who know which songs to talk over and which songs to be quiet during. These are also the people with whom you dance on that spontaneous Wednesday night out — these are the friends in your life.

3. If you’re missing someone, it is okay to write him or her a simple a text — even when it’s been too long. Sometimes, relationships fizzle, but can easily be repaired by someone making the first move and saying hello.

4. Elderly people are like cheat codes to happiness. They are single handedly able to assist in any problem you’re having, either by providing you with amazing advice or baking you a platter of cookies. Either way, you leave their presence smiling.

5. Friends are supposed to make you feel good about yourself. Don’t ever forget that.

6. It’s okay to feel unmotivated about something you are supposed to be doing. Sometimes, focusing too hard on one thing can bar you from completing the task. Sometimes, you need to take a break or a walk, listen to some good music and then revisit the task.

7. Never let something or someone cloud your feelings about something you want. Anyone who tells you that you cannot achieve something deserves to get the finger and see just how much you can do.

8. Traveling is probably the best thing you can do for yourself in your 20s. It doesn’t need to be an extremely long trip; it can be spontaneously getting in your car and driving through as many states as you can. If you can do it, you should. There is too much out there to experience and so little time. Oh, and if you can take the long trip, do it in a heartbeat.

9. Date someone who has similar musical taste as you. One of the more beautiful things about life is music and the effect it has on us, and if you can find someone who has similar feelings about the same songs as you, then what is better than that? If you feel strongly about something other than music — like movies, books, volunteering, etc., — find someone who shares that interest with you and never let them go.

10. My father always said to write checks to myself to take a part of my earnings, pay myself and save. It’s always better to have something rather than nothing — you never know what could happen.

11. Whatever you do, do not worry about what people think about you. As long as you are happy with the person who you are and the decisions that you make, then you shouldn’t stress about anyone else’s thoughts on the subject.

12. Learn to accept that you are where you are in life for a reason. Life happens in a weird and creepy way — everything happens for a reason, yet you probably find yourself questioning why. Sometimes, seemingly negative situations must transpire in order for something better to come along. It’s nothing to fear or be sad about, but instead, reassurance that something good is on its way.

13. For instant happiness, listen to this.

14. If something feels right, don’t overthink and create issues that don’t exist, that may potentially scare you from acting. Just let things flow and go where life takes you.

15. Take one day at a time. By trying to predict the future and planning life, you miss a lot of moments and probably create a lot of unnecessary stress.

16. Don’t be the person with his or her phone out during the entire concert. Disconnect from social media every once in a while. Be where you are when you are there; there’s no need to live tweet every moment of your day.

17. Read more books. Reading is probably one of the most relaxing activities out there and creates so much peace to escape the world in which you find yourself.

18. Exit situations that do not make you happy. Whether this is a job or a relationship or something else entirely, if you don’t look forward to it, it probably isn’t the right place for you.

19. Keep a journal, a blog or anything else that will help you organize and keep your thoughts in one place. For me, writing has always provided for a learning process because I record my thoughts and need to read and reflect on them. You can easily read about the past occurrences that you have navigated, which will ultimately help you grow as a person.

20. Always remember that you are your first priority.

SMILE!! ^__^

(Originally posted @Elitedaily Samantha Metzger)

“Why are you hanging onto him? Why are you choosing to stay with someone you know you’re better off without?” He asked her.

“Because,” she paused, “I don’t know. I’d rather be hurt by his presence than probably killed by his absence.”

“But why?” He continued to argue with her,
“It’s like you’re scared of losing something you don’t even really have. You say you’d rather have something than nothing at all, but isn’t it harder to have half of it than not have it at all?”

—  Days passed and seasons changed but her feelings remained the same //
Excerpt of a book I’ll never write

anonymous asked:

Even if you've everything to lose. Isn't it worth it for just a moment to let someone in? Isn't it worth it for a moment to feel something rather than nothing at all? So what if it backfired. That's life. You can't possibly say that you're just going to storm off after the first attempt.

* BeCAUSE. This is not the first time. 

* This isn’t the first time. 

* Fine. 

* FINE. It’s over. I’m going home. 

* Screw this.