18. Just take things one second at a time (canonverse)
“I still can’t believe…they’re gone,” Levi said. It was the
middle of the night. He and Erwin had just finished a mountain of paperwork and
were settling down for a drink of whiskey.
“It’s been over a year,” Levi said.
Erwin only nodded and said, “These things take time.”
“The next expedition…it’s in two days. Why do we care about
this paperwork? Why do we care about anything? We could die…we could…Sometimes
I can’t stand it, all the hours we spend out there. I don’t know how I get
through. Without breaking.” He didn’t know why he was suddenly so open. Torn open. Maybe it was the whiskey.
Maybe it was the way Erwin was looking at him: calmly, quietly, like he knew.
“Don’t count the hours,” Erwin said. “Just take things one
second at a time. Sometimes seconds are all you can stand.”
Levi sighed. “That’s a lot. A lot of seconds.”
“But they end. And before you know it, it’s been all those
hours. And you’re home. With me.”
Levi shook his head. “Unless one of us, or both, is in the
belly of a titan.”
“We know how to survive.”
“And Farlan? Isabel? They didn’t? The thing I want least is
to be titan vomit. They don’t even need to eat us. Just spit us back up. It’s
disgusting. But that’s where we’re headed. Isn’t it?”
Erwin looked into his glass thoughtfully. “I think we’re
headed toward freedom.”
“Pfft. You and your ideals. Is death freedom?”
“Of course,” Erwin said.
Levi balked. “You have a death wish?”
Erwin shrugged. “Sometimes…I want peace. Just like you,
Levi. We’re not too different, you and I.”
“You’re so…strange, Erwin.”
Erwin chuckled. “I wonder…what does that make you?”
I don't know if you're taking requests but could you do some smut writing with a male reader? Preferably with Gladio or Ignis ?
I’ve turned down requests before for male!reader inserts because I don’t think I could do it justice. Like, I know that seems odd, considering I’ve written gay sex between the chocobros now, but I’ve always felt weird about POV writing from a male perspective that I don’t have. I’ve said before that I wrote from personal experience for authenticity as much as possible, and since I’m female that’s the sole reason why all my works are by default fem!reader based.
I don’t know if in the future if I’ll explore that down the road (I might have to build up to that, tbh; like writing from the POV of the bros more, doing… uh, “research”, etc.), but as for right now I don’t see it on the horizon. :/
… but I mean, it wasn’t too long ago that I said I wouldn’t write gay sex or tentacle sex either and WELP, IT WAS A SLIPPERY SLOPE INTO MORE THOTHOOD I GUESS
just because you seem to be slower at understanding something, does not, in any way mean that you’re less smart or inferior. you’re on your own path of learning. every single step is progress, no matter how slow you think you’re going.