something that is not paul

anonymous asked:

Hey,in your post about "you've got to hide your love away" you say something about john and paul kissing, sleeping together and paul who dont take it serious. can you explain it for me? please. 🌺 (Ñ English isn't my first language sorry if something is wrong )

English is not my first language too so don’t worry i don’t care,…you mean this post right?

Talking about ‘You’ve got to hide your love away’ I wrote this:

I’m not denying that this song wasn’t written for Brian, I believe John wrote it after the ‘strong’ experience he had with him in Spain. I also believe that John tried to identify himself with Brian and his very difficult life at the time as homosexual. Said that, after John had that experience with Brian, in which he probably confessed him how hard it was to be homosexual in the 60s, he internalized those feelings and wrote this song not really as a tribute to him, but as a confession of someone who is in love with somebody and doesn’t know what to do cause he’s afraid people will condamn him forever.  

John was married with Cynthia, he had no reason to hide his love away. If the song was entirely for Brian, he wouldn’t have written such an intimate song, he would have written a song in third person, or create a character as he often did.

In this song he’s struggling with HIS feelings, not somebody else’s. That’s why I firmly believe that the Spain holiday opened his eyes about his relationship with Paul. A relationship that in 1965 was still considered by both of them (but mostly Paul) as a joke, something both of them experienced during that time (sleeping in one bed, kissing during recordings..) but hadn’t the courage to admit it to each other. They were still in their own bubble, but while Paul was cleverly ignoring it, pretending it was just a friendship, it was John who started questioning it openly, worried about his feelings and what they might lead to, one day.


In the last part what I mean is that during the early 60s both John and Paul were living the excitement and the bright side of their fame and their relationship, but without questioning it.

In 1980 John compared his relationship with Paul during that time to the early stage of marriage and sex:

In a marriage, or a love affair – when the seven-year-itch or the twelve-year or whatever these things that you have to go through – there comes a point where the marriage collapses because they can’t face that reality, and they go seeking what they thought they should be having, still, somewhere else. If I get a new girl, it’ll all be like that again; if I get a new boy… But for all marriages, all couples, it’ll all be the same again. But what you lose is what you put into that… relationship. The early stuff – the Hard Day’s Night period, I call it – the early period, was the early equi– se– what I’m – what I’m equating it to is the sexual equivalent of the beginning of a relationship. Of people in love. And the Sgt. Pepper-Abbey Road period was the period of maturity in the relationship. And maybe, had we gone on together, maybe something more interesting would have come out of it. It would not have been the same. It would have been a different thing. But maybe it wouldn’t either. Maybe it was a marriage that had to end. Some marriages don’t get through that phase. It’s hard to speculate about what would have been. “ John, September 1980 - Playboy Interview.

During that time, the A Hard Day’s night period, the Help! period, John and Paul spent countless time together, for example, when they were on tour they always slept together, like Bob Bonis said in an interview:

Did The Beatles get on each other’s nerves a lot? They were always so closely confined in their hotel rooms?“

“No. It was surprising. They always had a suite. George and Ringo stayed together in one room, and John and Paul in the other bedroom, and a big, big room in between.

- Gary James’ Interview With The Beatles’ Road Manager Bob Bonis.

Also Paul has confessed it many many times during his interviews.(an example here)

During the Think for Yourself session  you can hear them kissing

This was the early stage of their relationship, as John also explained, there was excitement, there was fun, there was the joy of the fame, but on another hand both of them didn’t know what the hell was going on, and didn’t bother to discuss it. It wasn’t just a friendship, and they knew it, but they both were too afraid to confess it to each other, and Paul more than John.

They didn’t talk, they didn’t express the feelings they had for each other. The only time that this happened was in Florida in 1964 while they were on tour, when they got drunk and confessed how much they loved and needed each other. This is the famous story that inspired ‘Here Today’ lines “what about the night we cried, because there wasn’t any reason left to keep it all inside" .

I believe that this period was the most intense for both of them, but they didn’t acknowledge it, all the things that happened, the confession, the kiss, sleeping together, and God knows how many other things,…were never really discussed.

John and Paul were in love with each other, but they their relationship in a very different way: Paul didn’t like to express his feelings, he preferred to deny, to not give John too much for a couple of reasons: afraid of the social/historical enviroment in which they lived and afraid of their career.  Also, Paul was overconfident, I believe he was 100% sure John would have always been there for him, and always loved him, no matter what, that’s why he was so shocked when Yoko took his role in John’s life. He took his relationship with John for granted, he knew that John needed him, and that’s why sometimes he was pretentious enough to reject him.

John was more open, more honest and didn’t think about the risks. That’s why the ‘Dylan period’, gave him the opportunity to write more personal stuff, like ‘You’ve got to hide your love away’.

This way of dealing with each other feelings was their major flaw, because they never really talked about their feelings and what they had for each other and it brought to such huge misunderstandings that later caused their break up.

Just a little example of how these issues they had were never discussed and brought to misunderstandings and later to a break up: Michael Lindsay Hogg (the man who directed both “Let it Be” and “Two of Us”) secretly recorded John, Paul, Yoko, Linda, and Ringo talking while they were filming “Let it Be”. One day, January 13th 1969, John and Paul have an argument, and John brought up an old discussion they had, when John asked Paul “do you like me?” and Paul never gave him and answer.

JOHN: Because you–‘cause you seem to have got it all, you see.

PAUL: Mm.

JOHN: I know that, because of the way I am, like when we were in Mendips, like I said— “Do you like me?” Or whatever it is. I’ve always–uh, played that one. So.

PAUL: Yeah.

John has always played ‘that one’, who questioned their relationship, who talked freely about his feelings to Paul, and who asked for an answer, that Paul never had the courage to give him, and will regret it only after 1980.

The Signs As Musicals
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  • Taurus: Matilda
  • Gemini: Newsies
  • Cancer: Waitress
  • Leo: Heathers
  • Virgo: The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee
  • Libra: The Phantom of the Opera
  • Scorpio: Something Rotten!
  • Sagittarius: Falsettos
  • Capricorn: Dear Evan Hansen
  • Aquarius: Come From Away
  • Pisces: Dogfight
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THE BEATLES - ‘ABBEY ROAD’ (1969) - Concept Posters

created by Minimal-Pulse-Art [minimal-pulse.tumblr.com]

Yeah I could always draw actual female rockstars
But my inner 14 year old wanted to gender-bend

FANS

david bowie fans: 

- gay 
- obsessed with glitter 
- dress like a 70s groupie 
- want to do cocaine


hole fans: 

- fights everyone that says courtney killed kurt 
- a ball of anger 
- smudges their lipstick on purpose 
- sleeps with everyone


nirvana fans: 

- probably depressed 
- buys vintage clothes 
- cries themselves to sleep 
- hates courtney love


amy winehouse fans: 

- cries about their ex 
- wears too much eyeliner 
- sleeps with their best friends crush 
- probably smokes weed


tøp fans: 

- depressed 
- makes weird conspiracies about blurryface 
- really emo
- never stops crying 


lady gaga fans: 

- gay 
- watches rupaul’s drag race 
- “YASS QUEEN SLAY" 
- "LG5 will be soon”


eminem fans: 

- “i hate women”


sky ferreira fans: 

- have an aesthetic tumblr blog 
- smoke 
- “masochism will be released soon" 
- knows deep down that it wont


lana del rey fans:

- have a daddy kink 
- flirts with their older brothers friends 
- pouts 24/7 
- wants to do acid and fuck everyone 


melanie martinez fans: 

- wears babies clothes 
- bitchy af 
- cries about everything 
- fights anyone that says something bad about mel


the beatles fans: 

- lowkey bitchy 
- cry over paul mccartney 
- listens to vinyl 
 - wish they were alive in the 60s


mcr fans: 

- emo 
- think there will be a mcr reunion 
- have black hair 
- wear 20 wristbands


oasis fans: 

- thinks theyre a roadman 
- wears parka coats 
- uses ‘your mum’ as an insult 
- says 'fight me’ to everyone


the doors fans: 

- write poetry 
- read jack kerouac 
- do drugs
- love boys with beards


marina + the diamonds fans: 

- that FROOT is familiar! 
- electra heart is the best era 
- calls themselves a heartbreaker 
- has never had a bf


halsey fans: 

- vegan 
- wears foundation darker than their face 
- has an aesthetic blog 
- probably sad


miley cyrus fans: 

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- hannah montana is dead ! 
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rihanna fans: 

- ready to fight a bitch anytime 
- never stops twerking 
- dont fuck with them 
- wears leather bras


the smiths fans: 

- "MORRISSEY IS GOD" 
- never leave their room 
- depressed 
- tweets that pic of morrissey holding his tit all day


5sos fans: 

- rats in human form 
- start wars with other fanbases 
- never stop screaming over everything 
-need to shut up


fka twigs fans: 

- probably have a ouija board 
- angelic but deadly 
- always wear black clothes 
- perfect lipstick all the time


drake fans: 

- still not over their ex 
- bitches about their ex’s new gf 
- has fake gucci bags 
- eyeliner so sharp it could kill a bitch


velvet underground fans: 

- only ever wear black 
- smoke cigarettes for the aesthetic 
- love andy warhol 
- probably bisexual


by @francesxox on Twitter.