someone-tell-me-how

Sometimes I’m scared that I’ll never be good enough, that no one will ever truly love me. I’ve been torn apart by countless people and I have yet to figure out how to put the pieces all together. I’ve tried, I really have, but every time I do, it feels like I just make everything worse. Someone, please tell me how it is possible to fix someone so broken, so hopeless.
My desires in a relationship have changed over time. I no longer want someone who promises to always love me and never leave me, I need someone who understands that life happens and sometimes things don’t work out. I don’t want someone who sugar coats things and never gets angry with me, I need someone to tell me how it really is and put me in my place. I need to be able to go five hours without talking to you and not feel lost or incomplete. I am complete without you. But with you, I want to be so much better. I want to be stronger with you. I want us to grow together and help each other grow individually. I don’t need you, but I really fucking want you. And this may not work out, but the fact that you understand all of this and this is how our relationship works, makes me think we’ve got a pretty good shot.