hptc22 asked: Can u do a cute one with Tyler seguin where u confront him Bc he said he only wanted to date older girls and u are younger then him and ur insecure Bc u want him to think ur like hot not adorable and he’s sweet and blah blah <33
Word Count: 1,165
Summary: You watch Tyler’s “Barstool The Life” video and notice the part where he says he’d only date older girls… It preys on your insecurity a little bit so you decide to find out what Tyler really thinks about your age.
I saw people drawing personality swap AUs and thought I should post mine too
EXCEPT 5.0.5. stays the same as a universal constant!! I need him to be a soft boi
Officer Flug- No one really knows much about him besides Black Hat. Back in the day, if you paid him enough, he’d assassinate anyone. Heroes, villains, civilians. It does not matter to Flug. When he ‘made’ Dementia, Flug moved from assassinations to selling weapons to villains. Since he is nearly unintelligible wearing his gas mask, Black Hat is his interpreter. Sounds like pyro from tf2
Dementia- She was a brilliant scientist known by a different name back when she was alive. Unfortunately, it caught the attention of Flug and he had sent Black Hat to retrieve her. She was able to fend off Black Hat with her inventions, but that only pissed him off. Instead of returning with her in one piece, Black Hat returned her in multiple pieces. She was reconstructed by Flug and is terrified of Black Hat. (She tries to deny then when he is docile that he is kinda cute looking)
Black Hat- Found by Flug a really long time ago. He has immense power and abilities, but spends most of his day causing minor chaos or lounging around. He is Flug’s lap dog and was usually the one who was sent out to kill people. However, he has a very short temper and will kill anyone who looks at him wrong. No one really knows why someone as powerful as Black Hat would listen to Flug and Black Hat’s responses always vary, but the most common response is “He feeds me, that’s enough for me!”
TW: Mentions of self loathing, cursing?? I guess Word Count: 7712 Genre: Fluff Prompt: dontforgettosmile (AO3)
Summary: It’s been a long time since Dan last dated someone. Eight years, to be exact. Phil offers that they go on a date, to save each other from the dreadful feeling of being alone. But no homo though.
Summer’s coming and you’re making a comeback. What comes to your mind when I say ‘summer’? Moonbin: What comes to mind when you say ‘summer’ would be freedom? I want to light a bonfire at a campsite and spend an enjoyable time. My hometown’s in Cheongju so a lot of times I’d have fun like that when it’s summer. JinJin: If you’re talking about summer, then of course it’s the sea. I used to enjoy fishing with my family when I was younger. The image of someone fishing paints itself like a memory. Sanha: I’ve only been to a waterpark once since I was born but it was a lot of fun. I want to go again. Eunwoo: The sun’s up longer during the summer. It makes me remember how it would still be sunny out even though school has ended and I’m playing soccer. My dad’s really been into hiking lately and I want to tag along too. MJ: A weather where you have to avoid the sun! Doesn’t it totally seem like a song title to you? I want to eat watermelon underneath a shady tree. Rocky: Maybe because I’d sweat more than I usually do but diet is what comes to mind first. Rather than hitting the gym, I want to try a sport that I can enjoy doing so I’m thinking of starting swimming this summer.
Is dieting important even to male idols? Do you regulate your meals as well? JinJin: I usually dance intensely so I don’t see the need to purposely go on a diet. When we finish filming for our music videos, I would hear that I’ve unknowingly lost weight. Moonbin: Before debuting, my diet meals were personally planned and I would have chicken breast and eggs in the mornings. If I’m busy, then it’s one apple. I would eat like that. We’ve decided that we’ll now manage our own selves. Eunwoo: We don’t pay as much attention to it as girl groups. But even so, we would each put in some care when there’s an important filming and if the other seems like he’s gained weight then we would tell him.
Is there anything after debuting that you want to be better at or something that has attracted your interest? Eunwoo: I think I need to continue studying up foreign languages. When we perform overseas, I think it’s polite that we learn their trendy words, dances, etc.. Because we have to do even better. Moonbin: Me too! And having stamina is more important that I thought. We were always overflowing with energy pre-debut so I didn’t think there was a need to worry about our stamina but as we continuously carried out promotions, I can feel that my stamina’s deteriorating. JinJin: I’ve recently developed an interest in fashion. If previously I only stuck to the hip-hop style that I like, then now I’m finding ways to wear clothes that fit my body and physical frame. MJ: I think managing my stamina and just generally taking care of myself is necessary. I try to eat some nutritional supplements too. Rocky: Seeing as how I’m a rapper, I’ve been thinking lately about how I should read more books. There’s a limit to how much I can write just using my own experiences. I’m reading and not too long ago, I asked Eunwoo hyung to loan me one of his books. It’s a book called but I’ve yet to start on it. Sanha: I’m relearning the basics of guitar (playing). I want to be better at it. I also want to show acoustic versions of our songs.
That reminds me, aren’t you having your first solo concert in July? Is there a stage that each of you are dreaming of? MJ: I want to put smile on the faces of fans who are coming to watch our concert. I’m thinking of having a stage with JinJin. JinJin: I’m going to do it with you (laughs). After debuting, I don’t think I’ve had the chance to really show my rap so I want to show off a dark rap that matches with original hip-hop. Rocky: I want to show off a dance stage that’s worthy of hearing comments like “legendary” and “the best”. We don’t have that kind of image yet. Eunwoo: Shall I go home today and upload one? With a title that says “ASTRO’s Legend.”
Summary: Before he was taken into the Maze, you and Newt had a son. Now, almost three years later, Newt shows up again in the Scorch. Except, he doesn’t remember you. His memories were erased. And then he meets his son. (Sorry, the summary is crappy. I wasn’t exactly sure how to sum it up.)
Pairing: Newt x Reader
Word Count: 5362(I’m so sorry. I got a little bit carried away.)
Warnings:Fluff, possibly some angst if you squint really hard.
(A/N): This idea came to me when I was listening to ‘Rockabye’ by Clean Bandit. So it’s very loosely based off of that song. Enjoy!
Hey! this is my first time writing smut so it isn’t very good but i tried my best and i am planning to get better at it so i can write a lot more.
Word count: 1285
Warnings - smut
Y/N and Kai had been friends ever since they were little.
They basically grew up together since they’re parents were friends due to their
similar powers. Y/N always knew that Kai was troubled and was a cast out of his
family but she didn’t care, he was her best friend and she wouldn’t leave him.
That was until the day he was forced to leave her due to his little outburst
which included him killing 4 of his siblings and attempting to kill the other
three. His family sent him to a prison
world because of this. I only know this because I watched it happen as I was
walking to his house for his birthday.
It had been 20 years and Y/N still missed her best friend,
Kai, every day. Even though she moved to Mystic Falls, made new friends and
made a new life for herself, she still couldn’t get the image of Kai’s face
when he realised what his family were doing to him, on his birthday of all
days. It was heart-breaking. In spite of all of this, she had moved on with her life. Since then, she hadn’t experienced the loss of a close friend, until the day that two of her best friends died.
Damon was the first person that Y/N had met when she moved to Mystic Falls 19 years ago. Once she had found out about vampires and the perks of being one, she convinced her friend to turn her into one and she loved it. She could move faster than any human, she could never die and she could heal people with her own blood, and if she wanted to, she could turn all of her feelings off with just a button inside of her head. Shortly after she moved, Damon left Mystic Falls and she left with him until they both came back 3 years ago and that is when she met all of her best friends; Stefan, Elena, Caroline, Matt, Tyler and Bonnie.
After Bonnie and Damon had died, she felt exactly like she did when she witnessed Kai become imprisoned in his own world, all by himself. Every since that day, she regrets not telling him her true feelings towards him and she never thought she’d have a chance, not until Damon came back and explained that he had met Kai. Y/N couldn’t believe it when he said that he could bring back Bonnie and her best friend, Kai.
One day, Damon came through the door of his house, shouting for everyone to come into the living room.
“What do you want, i was taking a nap” mumbled Y/N.
“Today is the day that we bring back Bonnie, my dear Y/N. And your weird murderous friend that you never shut up about” Damon exclaimed while rolling his eyes.
‘This is it’ Y/N thought to herself ‘This is the day that i get to tell Kai that i love him’
I missed her so much. No matter how long ive been in here, which is a long time by the way, so long that ive lost count how many days, i still love her. The only thing that has kept me from going crazy in here is the image of her face, her smile and the hurt on her face when she watched my family betray me 20 years ago.
At the minute, im stuck in this terrible prison world with a girl that hates me and no way of getting out anytime soon as she sent all her magic away. If only i didn’t almost kill her. Not being able to talk to someone who actually likes me is boring. I miss Y/N and im going to do anything i have to to get back to her, no matter how long its been for her.
Waiting around is my least favourite thing to do although it does give me a bit of time to think of what i’m going to say to Kai when he comes out of that prison world.
After a long wait, Liv and Luke managed to get Damon into the prison world to bring back Bonnie and Kai. Y/N would of went but Damon snapped her neck before she could even walk into eye sight of Liv and Luke.
When Y/N woke up, she noticed a figure in her doorway. After a few seconds of allowing her eyes to adjust, she noticed it was Kai. She ran into his arms and stayed like that for a few minutes before getting down.
“My god i’ve missed you so much Y/N” croaked Kai, struggling to keep the tears in.
And in that second, Y/N looked up at Kai with so much love and finally did the thing she had longed for ever since Kai disappeared from her all those years ago.
“I love you Kai Parker, i’ve never stopped loving you and i never will”
Their lips collided and it felt like heaven for both of them. They both started walking towards Y/N’s bed, their lips never leaving each others.The only time they did, was to take each other’s shirts off and throw them across the room.
Kai slowly lowered Y/N down on to the bed, hovering over her and staring into her eyes.
Requested by @little-dis-kaalista-pythonissama :Can I have a request where the reader used to live in Charming but she was very “chubby” and she was always bullied, so she leaves town. And returns years after completely changed and when Jax sees her is shocked because he always had a crush on her. And then he asks her to ride with him and the end of up to you. Pretty please.
Trigger Warning: Bullying
AN: This one got away from me!
The group of mean girls chased me down the hall, Tara leading the pack. I rushed to my locker, I just wanted to get my things, and leave. Two more days, and it was over. I could leave Charming and never look back.
I hated this stupid little town, the only reason I was here, was because my Aunt Luann and Uncle Otto was my guardian. Tara shoved me against the locker, laughing when I fell roughly.
“God, you’re such a fat slob….so pathetic.” The group of girls laughed, I emptied my locker, shoving everything inside. I rushed outside, feeling relief seeing Uncle Otto waiting for me.
The group of girls were still following me. “Oh my God, that poor bike! Is it going to be able to hold your fat ass?”
“TARA!” I heard Jax shout at her, I rushed to Otto’s bike. Later that night, I packed my things and left early. I decided to start summer classes at Harvard.
it was just a little after marco had first come
to real madrid. him, isco and nacho were screwing around, isco informing marco about who was most fun to joke with. “ramos. 100% ramos is the most exciting.” nacho claimed. “pretend you’re interviewing him with a fake mic. it’ll be so funny.” isco nodded along, tongue practically lolling out in anticipation.
marco shrugged. fine, whatever. he fisted his right hand, pretending to hold the microphone and walked up to sergio. “mr. ramos, marco from marca here. we wanted to know, what type of captain’s privileges do you get here at real madrid?” he deepened his voice dramatically. isco and nacho cackled from the side.
sergio looked him up and down. leaned in towards the hand. “means i get to fuck whoever i want. and you’re first on my list.”
Jaune collapsed the ground, his weapons falling from his hands after that very intense training session. “HURTS….”
Oscar was not too far behind him, collapsing right next to the blonde on the ground of the small training area the group had found since arriving in Mistral. “SO MUCH….”
Qrow simply scoffed. “Geez, Ruby wasn’t this winded when I started training her and she was younger than you two.”
The two males shouted in unison at the older huntsman. “DON’T PUT US ON HER LEVEL!”
The drunken shape shifter shrugged before he turned his attention back to the teens. “Fair enough, and I suppose it’s a good thing you acknowledge that. And you are lasting longer than your first session. Out of the rest of us, you two are more….conventionally normal.”
One of Jaune’s eyebrows raised in questioning. “Conventionally normal?”
Qrow went on, before turning more of his attention towards Jaune. “Normal is whatever works for you I find, but you two probably had the most considered normal upbringings of this group. You two aren’t fighters like how Ren and Nora fought with each other to survive or trained at young age by other fighters like Ruby. Oscar is understandable since he was a farm hand, but you…. you’re vastly behind where you should be.”
That hit nerve for Jaune as he visibly cringed while Oscar merely observed.
Qrow saw the effect and sighed. “Look, I can’t claim to understand what Ozpin was thinking when he let you into Beacon, but if it weren’t for the fact that our options are limited, I would have sent you home a long time ago. Can you honestly tell me you could face someone like Cinder, someone even your partner couldn’t handle on her own?”
Jaune looked downward as he spoke. “…no.”
The huntsman shook his head before turning around to head back to the Inn. “That’s what I thought. We’ll pick this up again tomorrow….and uh, don’t tell Ruby I said that unless you want more exercises tomorrow.”
Oscar stuck his tongue out a bit at the huntsman’s retreating form. “Jerk!”
Then the farmboy turned his attention to Jaune, who was still looking down in silence. “Hey….Jaune…it’s okay, you’re not that bad. You’re ahead of me.”
That didn’t get the desired effect as the blonde spoke softly. “He’s right though. I’m nowhere near where I should be; where everyone else at Beacon is.”
“Hey, there were probably a couple of people that hadn’t fought as much as Ren, Nora, and Ruby have. You just had the extreme luck of being surrounded by very gifted and much more experienced people.”
Oscar looked at Jaune in concern. “What do you mean?”
Jaune finally looked up at that and sighed before going on. “My family has this sort of reputation of turning out great heroes. My father, my grandfather….heck my great great grandfather fought during the Great War. I grew up on those stories, wanting to be just like them. Kind of childish I know, but still it was my dream.”
Oscar shook his head. “I may not come from a very notable family, but I don’t think that’s childish at all.”
“Yeah, well, I wonder how people would react if they learned that the latest son of the Arc family, known for their heroics, was never even trained by his family.”
Oscar was slightly confused, feeling Ozpin’s undivided attention to what was being said. “What?”
“You heard me, my father never trained me. No sparring lessons, nothing about Aura or Semblances, forbidding me from enrolling in combat school. If anything, both him and my mom seemed to encourage me to become anything else. When I told them I was going to Beacon, I could see it on their faces. They were expecting me to fail.”
The former farm boy but his hand on Jaune’s shoulder in comfort. “Jaune…”
The blonde’s voice turned hysterical then as his volume rose. “And I guess, maybe it wouldn’t bother me so much if they had told me why or I wasn’t the only one they treated like that. But, I have seven sisters and ALL of them were trained! Not all of them are fighters, but they at least know how to defend themselves! I wasn’t even taught that! I wasn’t even….given a chance to try.”
There was silence between the two boys for a few moments, Oscar piecing all this information together while the headmaster in his head was morbidly quiet.
The fight seemed to drain out of the blonde as he looked back down. “You know, sometimes I wonder why Ozpin let me in. He must have known, the other teachers noticed something was up, but he let me stay anyway instead of sending me home. Maybe….if I hadn’t been let in….Pyrrha could have gotten a better partner…and maybe she’d still be here. Qrow’s right, I’m not a warrior.”
That led to a more uncomfortable silence that seemed to stretch on. Oscar could feel Ozpin in his mind, wanting to say something but didn’t seem to have the exact words for it (a surprise, usually the wizard was very detailed).
Finally, Oscar sat up a bit and stared at Jaune. “Maybe Ozpin looked you….and he saw potential.”
That got the teenage boy’s attention and when he saw blue eyes were looking at him, Oscar went on. “You’re right, you’re not as skilled a fighter as Ruby, as much of a powerhouse as Nora, or have great control over your semblance like Ren. But Jaune….look at where you are, look at where you started! The fact that you’ve come so far in that amount of time, says so much about what you’re capable of.”
Jaune’s eyes dimmed a bit at that. “I had help.”
“True, but that doesn’t change that you did it. And then there’s all that stuff that came from you.”
Jaune looked at him questioningly. “What stuff?”
Oscar bit back a laugh as he went on. “In case you haven’t forgotten, last night you whipped all of our buts pretty handily at Remnant the Game. Even Qrow, as much as he’ll say it was just luck.”
The blonde looked sheepish as he rubbed the back of his head. “I just…play a lot strategy games, that’s all.”
“Yeah well, it shows. I have never seen someone able to think up tactics on the spot like you can. You may not be the best physically, but you make up for that with your mind. Then there’s way you just pick upon things; whenever Ren, Nora, Ruby, and I are bothered, you immediately catch on to that. You know when to talk to us and when to give us space.”
Jaune’s expression dimmed a bit at that. “Hasn’t always been like that.”
“Everyone makes mistakes and you’re learning. Being to able think logically and emotionally, that’s a gift I wish I had Jaune. And you chose this path all on your own Jaune, you didn’t have to be here but you chose to be here. Maybe….what Ozpin saw wasn’t someone who could just fight….but someone who could lead.”
“But Ruby is just as….”
“Don’t get me wrong, I like Ruby a lot, I wouldn’t have drunken death glares thrown at me every opportunity if I didn’t. But….she’s a warrior first and a leader second. You, on the other hand…..I could definitely see you leading people.”
Jaune’s face tinged red with embarrassment for a moment before it faded as he smiled. “Thanks Oscar….made me feel a little better.”
Oscar smiled in return. “Anytime, you’ve listened to me more times than I can count. Makes sense to return the favor.”
The blonde male smile as he got to his feet. “Well, I’m going to head back to the Inn and get a shower. Want to come back with me?”
Oscar shook his head. “I’ll be along in a while, just want to clear my head here for a bit.”
Jaune walked away back in the direction. “Suit yourself, I’ll make sure to tell Ren and Ruby.”
Oscar smiled, watching the young Arc walk away. Once he was out of sight, Ozpin spoke. Oscar…thank you.
“Didn’t do it for you.”
I know, but still thank you. I wanted to talk to him before all of this, but there was so much else to be done…I thought I had more time then I actually did.
“…..Ozpin, you said you let Jaune into Beacon because of….reasons. What were they?”
….I’m sorry Oscar, but I’m not ready to share that just yet.
Oscar sighed, frustrated with the headmaster in his head. “You know, for someone who talks a lot about trust, you’re not a very trusting person.
Fair enough. I promise, I’ll tell you the full story eventually. For now….let’s just say I knew his great great grandfather pretty well.
Whoa, lot of personal head canon territory with this. I kind of wanted to make sense of why Jaune was underprepared as well as what makes Jaune a good leader.
Oh Ozpin, I’m pretty sure you knew Jaune was unqualified. I’m hoping we’ll get to the reason why you let him in eventually.
Next time, I might list my ideas for my future RWBY story.
It doesn’t matter if you’ve been dressing up for years or if you started yesterday; we’ve all had the same fear. The fear that the cashier knows you’re really buying the dress for yourself, that those heels look dangerously your size and not your ‘girlfriends’, that it’s strange that a man would spend ages looking for something simple - as though he was browsing.
Some of us (myself included) have grown out of this fear, but that doesn’t mean we’ve never experienced it, or ever been caught in fact. However, sometimes being caught does more good than bad, but I’ll explain that later.
So, here are some of my favourite tips that I (used to) use to not draw suspicion to myself when looking for dresses/underwear/heels etc:
1. “It’s for my girlfriend”
The easiest and most common trick in the book, and I feel it doesn’t need that much of an explanation; just pretend it’s for your ‘girlfriend’. This is easier to pull off when you don’t have anyone with you because then they can only imagine what size your ‘girlfriend’ is.
Can get away with buying nearly anything, provided you’re alone.
Going-on about your ‘girlfriend’ too much will look suspicious.
Retail Assistants aren’t stupid. Some will figure out that you and your girlfriend are similar sizes.
2. “Help me I’m stupid and don’t know how to do girl’s clothes”
Another common one, especially useful when browsing. It’s not right to stereotype, but let’s face it some are true, and men very rarely know how to browse for clothes. This is perfect though, as you can simply play the role of a typical man who doesn’t know the difference between peplum and skater.
First, make sure you write down your measurements and what style of dress/skirt/whatever you want. This will come in useful for later.
Ask a Retail Assistant to help you find a dress/underwear/heels/whatever. Don’t give away too much information at once (who it’s for/their size/what they like), just say you’re looking for a dress/skirt/whatever in a certain colour/style. Chances are the Retail Assistant will ask the extra questions. This is when you pull out your note from earlier with all the details, and simply read it out to them. This all adds to the idea that you have no idea what you’re doing and you’re just doing the shopping for someone else.
Alternative Method: Go in the shop once and take a picture of what you want. Return to the shop later and show the Retail Assistant the picture. They’ll simply assume you’ve been sent on an errand.
Much lower risk of getting caught, especially if you do it right.
Allows you to browse without risk, plus Retail Assistants generally give good advice.
Very time consuming, especially if you already know what you want.
Not for the prideful.
3. “Yep, those heels are for me. The dress as well”
Here’s a method which I learnt a long time ago: simply being honest. I’ll walk you through how I discovered how it works:
I was buying a pair of heels with Moon. You might have already guessed that we don’t share the same shoe size (I’m size 9, she’s something like 5) but we were hoping the Sales Assistant wouldn’t notice. Funnily enough when we get to the checkout, the cashier looks at the size and then at Moon’s feet, quickly adding “I think there’s been a mistake, these shoes look way too big for you dear.”
Without missing a beat, and definitely before Moon could speak (because she would definitely try to think of an excuse which most likely wouldn’t make sense) I replied “That’s because they’re for me.”
Sounds like a nightmare right? Being caught trying to buy clothes and getting exposed, horrible right?
You can make up any story you like, as long as it involves you wearing the clothes. My favourites include:
As long as you don’t give specifics, you can get away with it. I’ve even had occasions in the past where Sales Assistants have offered to let me try on the clothes before I buy.
No lying involved, so suspicion flies out the window.
The Sales Assistant can help you more if they know it’s for you.
No-one really cares if the dress is for you.
Ironically, can take a lot of balls, especially the first time.
You might be unlucky and run into someone narrow-minded. This won’t really make a difference except for maybe a snide remark.
Added Bonus: I’m now at a point where I can straight up tell a Sales Assistant I’m buying dresses for myself without feeling the need to explain it.
So What One Do I Use?
Whichever one you feel most comfortable with. I started at 1, moved on to 2 and then eventually got used to 3. It doesn’t really matter as long as you get what you went shopping for. In some shops I’ve genuinely said “I’m a crossdresser, so what’s gonna make me look pretty?”. So far, I’ve had no trouble, just the occasional question.
Sorry again for the lengthy post, but if you need any reason to shop in-person rather than online, just remember that some of the best outfits come from browsing through racks, not webpages. For example:
Everything in that outfit: the dress, the heels, what’s underneath, I bought them all from a shop, not online. It’s one of the my favourite outfits and I would have never got it by simply searching online.
Hope this has helped some of you! Just give it a try once in a while and you’ll get used to shopping the right way!
Summer’s coming and you’re making a comeback. What comes to your mind when I say ‘summer’? Moonbin: What comes to mind when you say 'summer’ would be freedom? I want to light a bonfire at a campsite and spend an enjoyable time. My hometown’s in Cheongju so a lot of the times I’d have fun like that when it’s summer. JinJin: If you’re talking about summer then of course it’s the sea. I used to enjoy fishing with my family when I was younger. The image of someone fishing paints itself like a memory. Sanha: I’ve only been to a waterpark once since I was born but it was a lot of fun. I want to go again. Eunwoo: The sun’s up longer during the summer. It makes me remember how it would still be sunny out even though school has ended and I’m playing soccer. My dad’s really been into hiking lately and I want to tag along too. MJ: A weather where you have to avoid the sun! Doesn’t it totally seem like a song title to you? I want to eat watermelon underneath a shady tree. Rocky: Maybe because I’d sweat more than I usually do but diet is what comes to mind first. Rather than hitting the gym, I want to try a sport that I can enjoy doing so I’m thinking of starting swimming this summer.
Is dieting important even to male idols? Do you regulate your meals as well? JinJin: I usually dance intensely so I don’t see the need to purposely go on a diet. When we finish filming for our music videos, I would hear that I’ve unknowingly lost weight. Moonbin: Before debuting, my diet meals were personally planned and I would have chicken breast and eggs in the mornings. If I’m busy then it’s one apple. I would eat like that. We’ve decided that we’ll now manage our own selves. Eunwoo: We don’t pay as much attention to it as girl groups. But even so, we would each put in some care when there’s an important filming and if the other seems like he’s gained weight then we would tell him.
Is there anything after debuting that you want to be better at or something that has attracted your interest? Eunwoo: I think I need to continue studying up foreign languages. When we perform overseas, I think it’s polite that we learn their trendy words, dances, etc.. Because we have to do even better. Moonbin: Me too! And having stamina is more important than I thought. We were always overflowing with energy pre-debut so I didn’t think there was a need to worry about our staminas but as we continuously carried out promotions, I can feel that my stamina’s deteriorating. JinJin: I’ve recently developed an interest in fashion. If previously I only stuck to the hip-hop style that I like then now I’m finding ways to wear clothes that fit my body and physical frame. MJ: I think managing my stamina and just generally taking care of myself is necessary. I try to eat some nutritional supplements too. Rocky: Seeing as how I’m a rapper, I’ve been thinking lately about how I should read more books. There’s a limit to how much I can write using just my own experiences. I’m reading <Kim Eana’s Songwriting Method> and not too long ago I asked Eunwoo hyung to loan me one of his books. It’s a book called <Sincerely Yours> but I’ve yet to start on it. Sanha: I’m relearning the basics of guitar (playing). I want to be better at it. I also want to show acoustic versions of our songs.
That reminds me, aren’t you having your first solo concert in July? Is there a stage that each of you are dreaming of? MJ: I want to put a smile on the faces of fans who are coming to watch our concert. I’m thinking of having a stage with JinJin. JinJin: I’m not going to do it with you (laughs). After debuting, I don’t think I’ve had the chance to really show my rap so I want to show off a dark rap that matches with original hip-hop. Rocky: I want to show off a dance stage that’s worthy of hearing comments like 'legendary’ and 'the best’. We don’t have that kind of image yet. Eunwoo: Shall I go home today and upload one? With a title that says 'ASTRO’s legend’.
Do you have male fans too? Eunwoo: We do! There are those who come to our fansigns too. Sanha: I feel somewhat reassured when I see male fans. Seeing as how we’re males ourselves, I’m thankful and it’s nice meeting them. Rocky: It makes me think that I have to do better, that I have to set an example. MJ: I get excited if I hear a male voice when fans are cheering at music broadcasts. The sounds of the cheers become bolder. Eunwoo: “Eunwoo hyuuungung~” I hear stuff like that.
Is there a recent moment where you felt slightly happy? Sanha: When there’s time to spare after we wrap up practice, we’d go for a movie together or to the spa. Moments like those are fun. JinJin: We played futsal together not too long ago and then all of us went to the bath house before going for gopchang. MJ: Ah, that was nice. I was happy. Eunwoo: One platter serves three people but MJ hyung and I ate four platters to ourselves. Rocky: It’s not something that happened recently but lately I’ve been thinking about how we would hold performances every week at Lotte World pre-debut. Having to show different stages every week was taxing at that time but I think it allowed us to attempt a lot of new stages. The stages we can show are limited when we’re promoting.
The title track, 'Confession’, off your third mini album had the theme of “Don’t be taken by the bad boys and date me instead.” From a guy’s point of view, what kind of guy is crappy? Moonbin: I’ve never thought about it in depth but I think someone whose actions are slow and who’s kind of frustrating is whatever. JinJin: You’re totally attacking me huh? Moonbin: Because I really hate things that frustrate me (laughs). But I think it’s a problem too if his personality is feisty and hot-tempered. Even if my sister were to date someone like me, I think it’ll suck for her.
This time it’s a self-attack, haha. How about the other members? JinJin: I won’t attack (laughs). Firstly, I hope the girl doesn’t date someone who she’s unable to communicate with. And someone who’s tactless when it comes to feelings. I want to tell her to date a guy who understands girls and who respects her. Rocky: A person with no manners is whatever. You’ll realise things like that quickly. Usually someone who’s good to their parents are good to other people as well. MJ: I think it’s really important that a person has manners. Don’t carelessly speak what’s on your mind. Eunwoo: A person who doesn’t keep to their promises is seriously whatever. Isn’t a guy who’s kind of strict on himself a good guy? Sanha: Someone who lies! You shouldn’t date someone who’s not truthful.
That reminds me, how did you spend Parent’s Day that passed not too long ago? Eunwoo: I sent a selfie of myself in the family chat room (laughs). 5th May is my parent’s anniversary as well so I really wanted us to have a meal together but we weren’t able to. Rocky: I timed when my parents would wake up and gave them a call. I wanted to thank them but ended up accidentally congratulating them. MJ: I wanted to do a video call with my parents but they were driving so they were satisfied with just a normal call. I wanted to show them myself though…
You’re now going all out on promotions again. Is there anything that you wanted to say and that you practiced saying for when you win no.1 or for an important occasion? JinJin: Seeing as how I’m the leader, Eunwoo and I made a list in a notebook of the people that we should say our thanks to. Eunwoo: Yup, we did. Relaying our thanks is important too but I want to tell each of the members something. What kind of words they are is a secret. Moonbin: I was casted when I was in 6th grade. I really want to thank the person who picked me then. He’s like a mother to me. Rocky: I was in 5th grade then. I also want to relay my thanks to that person. And I think it’ll be nice if the members each said something that was heartfelt. We’ve had our opportunities to say those words but still, I’m sure there are words we’re holding in our hearts that we haven’t been able to say. Sanha: As for me, it’s of course my parents! I want to tell them that I’m thankful they gave birth to me and that even if I was born again, I want to be born as their son. Seems like I’ve said it all here. MJ: I want to hug my members and we’d all shout together. Until our make-up’s erased away. Until the broadcast ends!
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I still love him and he said he loves me. He won’t answer my texts but the last one he sent was this morning. I was planning on saying how I felt lonely again. But now I’m crying over him. We started talking almost at year ago and at the time, I felt like I belonged somewhere. I want friends. I feel bad for saying that because I have one who talks to me everyday but we don’t hang out all the time. I guess I want someone to adventure with.
I watched as Y/N walked away. It was an odd moment. In all
of the years I had known her she never blocked me out of her mind. Even when
she was angry she allowed her thoughts to spill out as an open book.
“Charles…” Hank says drawing me out of my own thoughts.
“Yes, shall we head down?” I say motioning for both of
them to head in the direction of Cerebro. I needed to make amends with Y/N. The
only problem was I don’t know how I can do that, especially since the only
reason amends was needed was because of things I had said to her.
“When was the last time you were down here?” Logan asked
as we continued our way to Cerebro’s door.
I can feel the pause in Hank’s voice. “The last time we
went looking for students.”
“A lifetime ago…” I said remembering that the last time I
was down here Y/N had been with and she had been able to help with the
emotional energy I was feeling by keeping it at bay. After I started taken
Hank’s serum it was harder to handle the pain and Y/N was the perfect way to
Now, well now that barrier was gone and I was going
to have to do this on my own. I swallowed as I stopped in front of the door I
am not sure if I am going to be able to do this without her. She had for some
reason always been there, even when the darkness of the memories had threatened
to consume me Y/N had been my rock.
I swallowed as Cerebro scanned my face. “Welcome
professor.” Her feminine voice rang as the door opened. In silence the three of
us approached the console center.
I went to pick up the helmet but my hands were shaking.
I’m not sure that I can do this without her and the only person to blame for
that is me. I pushed her away; no I shoved her out of my life. I told her
in multiple ways that she was nothing to me so she left. Now, I have to do this
on my own.
Hank leaned over the console and flicked a few of the buttons.
“Raven’s wounded. She won’t’ be moving fast.”
Grabbed the helmet and blew the five years’ worth of dust
off of it. I took a deep breath as I moved the helmet between the palms of my
hands “These are muscles I haven’t stretched in a long time.” I pulled the
helmet over my head and could feel my panic escalate.
As the console came to life throwing me into the
world to see all of the mutants, but as I felt the panic increase as I lost
control as mutants and humans alike were seen. I felt my control slip I was
never going to be able to do this again. I couldn’t take the pain all of the
cries gave off. I didn’t want the suffering of people that I never met. I was a
broken man with missing pieces.
“Charles!” Logan shouted as the last bit of my control slipped
and I short-circuited the machine.
I quickly flung the damn helmet off my head but shook
“Charles? It’s all right.” Hank said placing a hand on my
back and shooting a nervous look at Logan. “He patted my chest as he moved
away. “I’ll go check the generator.”
I nodded not having nor wanting the strength to tell him
that it was me and not Cerebro who had messed up.
Logan seemed to sense my thoughts. “Its not the machinery
is it?” I shook my head no.
Of course it wasn’t it was me, the broken man. “I
can’t do this, my mind…”
“Yes, you can.”
I wish that was true. “It won’t take.”
“You’re just a little rusty.”
I shook my head vehemently. “You don’t understand. It’s
not a question of being rusty. I can flip the switches. I can turn the knobs.
But my power comes from here.” I said gesturing to my mind. “It comes from-“ I
stopped as I gestured with a shaky hand to my heart. “and it’s broken.” I shake
my head in frustration because of the overwhelming helplessness that I felt. “I
feel like one of my students…. Helpless.”
I turned away from Cere bro and headed back towards the
door. “It was a mistake coming down here. It was a mistake freeing Erik. It was
a mistake involving Y/N. This whole thing has been one bloody mistake. I’m
sorry Logan, but they sent the wrong man back.”
I stopped upon hearing his words. Was someone else
supposed to be here?
“Actually, it was supposed to be you. But I was the only
one who could physically make the trip.” He says as he draws closer to me. “And
I don’t know how long I’ve got here. But I know that a long time ago… actually,
long time from now.” He says leaning forward and putting his arms on both of my
arm rests. “I was your most helpless student. And you unlocked my mind. You
showed me what I was. You showed me what I could be.” He paused and shook his
head. “I don’t know how to do that for you. You’re right. But I know someone
who might.” He says looking more determined. “Look into my mind.”
I shook my head. “You saw what I did to Cerebro. You don’t
want me inside your head.”
Maybe Y/N had the right idea in not letting me in. I could
have done a lot of damage.
“You can’t do any damage that hasn’t already been done.
I sucked in my breath it was worth a try. I moved my hand
up and touched my hand to his right temple waiting for the inevitable to
wash over me.
I watched as Logan screamed under water. As a woman with
red hair appeared and could feel the love between the two of them. I watched as
his arm broke. I watched as scene after scene of pain washed over me. The poor
bastard. All I can feel is the pain this man has suffered. The poor
bastard has seen more death than I have ever imaged on should go through.
I did not want his pain or suffering as my own was too much to bare at this
point. As I try to pull myself out of his memories I stop as Y/N’s familiar
face cuts into the memories.
She looked a little older but still as beautiful as the
day I saw her through Cerebro. Her hair was shorter than I’d ever seen it
and she wore a black and magenta suit that had an X on it. In the future she
was still around. In the future I hadn’t sent her away.
Logan is standing next to a woman with spike white hair
who looks to be crying. Logan looks to be grieving I turn my head back towards
Y/N and see a body on the ground. The look of agony on Y/N’s face is
overpowering. She looks so devastated and I can feel Logan’s seeping through
“Erik…Please…You don’t have to do this.” She screams out
as she falls to the ground next to the dead body with sobs wracking her.
“Please…Please just-“ Her voice breaks as she runs a hand on the body’s head.
“In order for our survival this must be done.” He says
lifting his hand as a man moved around Y/N and towards the body on the ground.
“No…God…Please….” She says looking back at the body.
“I’m sorry. I-I love you. Please…forgive me.” She says as she kisses the person
on the ground and stands. “Then kill me, not him. He-he doesn’t deserve this.”
I watch as a tall man comes up behind Y/N and stabs a
sword through her chest causing her to scream out in agony.
Oh god. Why? Why would Erik do such a thing? Who was so
important that she had died for them in the future? I quickly turn towards the
body. I knew that feeling jealousy she was more than willing to die for the
person on the ground like she had once been willing to die for me. I stepped
closer to the body on the ground. It was me. She died for me.
Logan’s voice cuts through my own pain at watching the
seen unfold in front of me.
“Y/N!” Logan shouts and comes running towards her getting
her before she collapse to the ground. “No. No. You shouldn’t have done that.”
“Jean and Scott needed more time.” She says gasping for
air. “Make sure he’s okay.” She says as tears stream down her face.
“No, you can’t leave.”
“I-I’m sorry Logan. Please understand.” She begins to
cough up blood.
“Promise me to take care of him. Someone needs to be there
Charles like he was for everyone else.”
“Y/N… Don’t die…You ca-“
I pulled away from Logan’s pain and memories. I sat in my
wheelchair staring at Logan.
“You saw it didn’t you?” Logan asked after I finished
yelling at him.
“I-It was-“ I stopped it was not my future. “You poor,
“Look past me.”
“No, I don’t want your suffering. I don’t want your
future.” God, I did not want a future were Y/N died. I didn’t ever want to live
knowing that I was the reason she died. The image of her dying in Logan’s
arms was embed into my memory.
“Look past my future. Look for your future”
“That’s it. That’s it. That’s it.” Logan chanted but his
voice felt far away.
I opened my eyes and I was on a table. I sat up and looked
around taking in my surroundings. I observed myself and glanced back and saw
Erik as well.
“Charles” I saw as I lean both hand on my arm rests. The
irony of the situation did not escape me. “So this is what becomes of us. Erik
was right. Humanity does this to us.” I said feel the bitterness well up inside
of my mouth.
“Not if we show them a better path.”
“You still believe?”
“Just because someone stumbles and loses their way it
doesn’t mean they’re lost forever. Sometimes we all need a little help.” He
says with a slight smile on his face.
I shake my head. “I’m not the man I was. I open my mind
and it almost overwhelms me.”
He nods in understanding. “I remember. You’re afraid, and
Cerebro knows it.”
“All those voices so much pain.”
“It’s not their pain you’re afraid of Charles. It’s yours,
and as frightening as it may be that pain will make you stronger. “ He pauses
as if trying to pick the right words. “If you allow yourself to feel it,
embrace it, it will make you more powerful than you ever imagined.” He smiles
at me. “It is our greatest gift, to bear their pain without breaking. And it’s
born form the most human of power…Hope.” His smile broadens as he shows me a
I watch as a bunch of young face pass by but pause when I
see the one familiar face smiling back at me.
“Please, Charles. We need you to hope again.” He says
pleading with me.
Before I fully pull away he touches my arm.
“Charles you know what you need. You’ve known all along
and you’ve been so terrified. You need to go after her. Trust me, she is your
beacon for hope, always was.” He says smiling at me.
I pull back and I am staring at Logan and not myself. He
was right, I knew all along that she was what I needed but I had been to afraid
of hurting her and of losing her that…I lost her due to my of stupidity.
“Find what you were looking for?” Logan grumbled as he
“Powers back on.” Hank says approaching us.
“Yes.” And I was going to get her back but now I had to
work so that I had a future to hope for. “Yes it is.” I said
looking at Cerebro.
I stood up as my smile faded off of my face to see a wary
looking Hank. I had to remember the emotions tide to my previous thoughts
were connected to the memory and not the man. “What is the problem?”
“It’s going to be a public place. “
I swallowed the salvia that was building up in my throat.
“Public enough to be put on display for the entire nation,
scratch that the entire world.”
Hank sighs and removes his glasses from his face and
begins the process of cleaning them. “It’s in DC. The president is making a
announcement and Trask will be in attendance.”
I looked at him a little shocked. “That’s suicide.” Not to
mention, if that was Raven’s plan I would put money on it Erik would not be far
“I know.” He says putting his glasses on his face once
more. “That’s why we are going to stop her. We will need you Y/N.”
“Well I am more than happy to help, at least for the sake
of the future.” I give him a tight smile. “And hey, this way I will be home.” I
said but not really believing the words.
“Y/N this is your home…”
He was right and we both knew it. No matter where I lived
I knew that the only home I had been was with these people. Yet, somehow that
seemed like that was never going to happen again, at least not in this
lifetime. The things that passed between Charles in I tainted a lot of my
memories of this place. It tainted the very thought of ever returning because I
knew I would never have what I wanted. Him.
“Charles has ordered to have the jet fueled and ready for
our departure.” He pauses as if contemplating my reaction. “Are you going to
tell Charles that you aren’t planning on coming back?”
I nod. “I-I already did.“
“Look, I told him exactly how I felt. I may not have done it
in the best way but I did it. He knows were I stand on most things.”
“What about him? Does he know that?”
I let out a small laugh and feel tears prick my eyes. “No,
how can he when I don’t even know?”
“I think you do know Y/N and you have spent the last five
years running from it.” Hank says before walking back towards the house.
you going Y/N?” Hank says with a pained expression.
the tears off my cheeks as I zip my suitcase closed. “Anywhere but here.”
I shake my
head. “D-don’t make excuses for him. It’s not fair to me.” I reach over and
squeeze his hand. “You’re not losing me.”
As much as
I wanted to scowl and lash out I was so drained from the last four hours of
crying that all I could do was sigh. “I don’t think he will care. Look, I will
call you when I get where I’m going. I promise.” I say as I head out of the
say goodbye to him.” Hank shouts from my room.
I took a
deep breath. Hank was right I needed to at least say goodbye. I moved down the
hall to Charles room and knocked. Not getting any response I turned to leave
before being met with the sight of Hank standing with his arms crossed. I
pushed the door open and headed into the disaster I had left hours before.
I am greeted by the sight of Charles tossing a
baseball up in the air on his bed. I really mustn’t mean anything otherwise he
would have been just as distraught at his words as I was.
something I need to tell you Charles.”
I watch as
he stops tossing the ball. “What?”
Hank know when you will be back.” He says as if dismissing me.
the thing.” I say pausing hoping for some kind of reaction but receiving
nothing but a look of annoyance. “I won’t be…back.”
asks finally sitting up and paying attention.
Y/N. You can’t do this anymore no matter how much you love him. You know that
he wants nothing to do with you. “I’m leaving for good. I think it is time I
find a place.” I pause hoping still for a flicker of the love his eyes once
shone but receive nothing. “Like you said you have Hank. As much as I lo-care
for you both I need to find someone who wants me. Someone who needs me around
and I don’t think Hank or you do.”
hearing my words Charles didn’t change expressions. “I see. That is very
logical. I agree that it is about time you left Y/N, you are not needed. I’m
sure Hank will worry so please do contact him and let him know.”
I feel the
tears well as my last hope of him loving me disappeared. I nod not trusting my
voice and exit the room.
Hank was right I was running, had been this whole time.
But, I wasn’t running to escape I was running because I prayed that some how or
some way that Charles would chase after me. That he would have woke up one day
and realized he still loved me. Realized that I was what he needed, what he
couldn’t live without but that day never came.
I suddenly felt
another presence behind me and I knew without looking that Charles was sitting
behind me. Somehow where he was concerned I had built in radar still.
“Find what you were looking for?” I asked trying to keep
my strain of emotions out of my voice.
“Not yet, I am working on it.”
I nod again I had said what I wanted. I told him exactly
how I felt. Well, I told him how I felt about Raven but I refused to
acknowledge, to him at least, how I still felt about him.
“Before we leave I wanted to-“
“Seriously Charles I can’t do this right now.” I say
standing to face him. “I-I just can’t.” I say not want to fight with him.
“You don’t have to go Y/N. Like Hank said this is your
home. You belong here.”
I let out a small laugh. “You know I used to believe that.
But, now I know that isn’t true.”
I take a deep breath I needed to be calm for this conversation.
I needed to make him understand. I needed him to fight for me. The last thought
brought me up short because I knew that was not something that he would do. I
was the last person he would fight for because I wasn’t worth all that much to
“It’s the truth. I-I lost my home a long time ago and I
have come to terms with the fact I won’t get it back.”
“You are always welcome here Y/N always have been.”
“You and I remember the past very differently then
Charles.” I put my hand up waving off his rejection of my statement. “I made my
peace with it and I know you have to.”
“What if I haven’t?” He questioned as he stared at me.
I shrug. “It was your choices that led us to this Charles.
This is the path you choose.” I say
brushing past him and heading into the house without hearing what he had to say
for the second time today.
“And if I now choose something different?”
I put my arms across my chest. “What are you talking
“We have a chance to do it all again. I’m willing to. I
know Hank is as well. We will start the school again. We will get Raven back
and the others. We will be a family again an-“
I put my hand up and sighed. “You don’t get it.” I say
cutting him off. I just wanted him and that wasn’t going to happen.
“Explain, because I can’t read your mind.“
I give him a tight smile as I brush past him into the
house. “You know Charles I shouldn’t have to explain because I spent years
doing it. I-I don’t want to do it all again because I know I choose right the
first time.” I say before disappearing into the house.
Three hours later I sat in the cockpit of the plane with
Hank but this time I was unable to sleep.
“You alright?” Logan asked.
“Getting there.” Charles says but there is a tightness to his voice the begs
I turn to see Logan staring out the window. “Whatever
happens there today I need you to promise me something.” Pause “ You’ve looked
into my mind and seen a lot of the bad…but you’ve seen the good too… The
X-Men. Promise me you will try find us. Use your power, bring us together.
Guide us. Lead us. Storm. Scott. Jean. Remember those names. Remember those
names. There are so many of us. We will need you, Professor.”
“I’ll do my best.”
“Your best is enough. Trust me.” Logan says as he stands
and heads towards me. “Mind switching seats?”
I nod even though it was the last thing that I wanted to
do. I move back to where Logan was seated but a hand grasp my wrist gently as I
pass by. “Y/N…”
“I already ex-“
“You never let me.”
He says motioning with his other hand the seat across form him.
“Please, I want to say this even if you choose not to come
I nod knowing that I needed to at least hear him out.
“How much did Hank tell you about me after you left?”
“I’m not sure I unde-“
He gives me a tight lipped smile. “Not much I take it.” He
says as he turns my wrist over in his hand. “I was a broken man.”
“No, it’s my turn. I lost everything except Hank.”
Yeah I already knew that. I heard that part first hand.
“I lost the person I loved and valued above everything
else. The worst of it is I never went after that person. I lost love and hope
while I wallowed in despair and took it out on you. I became weak, especially
the weeks after you left. I realized I had screwed up Y/N. If I could take back
the words I said I would but I can’t. I am so sorry. I just want us to have a
I nod in understanding as I tug my wrist out of his
hand. “ You weren’t broken Charles, lost
certainly but never broken.” I say before standing and moving to sit in the
chair Logan had vacated.
I listened to Charles explanation play on a loop in my
mind as we arrived at the White House. How could he not see that his words only
put the knife deeper into my chest? That my wounds were still open and raw.
I smiled at the man at the metal detector as I followed
Hank, who was pushing Charles through the detector.
“Can I see your
invitations, please?” The secret service agent asked.
“Yes you may. These three are with me.” Charles says using his power on the
Once the three of us are waved through I stop to see Logan
staring back at the metal detector.
Charles says calling us as Hank continues to push him.
“Something wrong?” I ask as we follow the two of them.
“Yeah haven’t ever had that experience before.”
I give him an odd look as we stop. I turn to Charles.
“Where is she?”
“I haven’t found her yet, but she has to be here.”
Charles pauses suddenly, “Raven?” Another pause, “I have her.” Charles lifts
his right arm and point in the direction of the left stage. “There, see? Secret
service men left of the stage.”
“Got him.” Hank
I move to follow but Charles grabs onto my arm.
“They can handle it.”
“Fi-“ I stop speaking as I pick up on Erik’s energy. “Erik.”
I say as I tug my arm free of Charles and head to find him.
“Y/N!” Charles shouts but I ignore him.
I don’t stop if Erik was here then something bad was going
to happen. I stop my search as I hear screaming begin. I look up and see Erik
and what looks to be a stadium. I also
see that the sentinels had been activated. Erik must have somehow gotten to
“Charles!” Logan yells.
I turn quickly at the panic in Logan’s voice only to be met with the sight of
debris falling on top of him, covering him until no one can see. I glanced
between Erik and Charles and new I could only make it to Charles in time.
My eye filled as I saw the debris covering his legs
leaving him helpless. “Shit.”
“Don’t worry love I am fine.”
I nod at Charles but run a hand through his hair. “You
can’t get into his mind.” I say.
“No Y/N, that would put you in harms way.”
“It would buy time.” I say as I brush back his hair.
“No.” Charles says grasping my wrist with his arm.
I move to stand as I watched the president walk out and
towards Erik. I knew that it was Raven almost instantly, because honestly why
the hell would the President even step forward?
Also, because she walked with a slight limp.
I watch her as she pulls the gun and shoots Erik. I
move out of my hiding spot as I watch Erik fall to the ground and onto his
knees before Raven knocks him out cold.
Raven then turns the gun onto Trask and the Presidents whole team. “Shut her down Charles!” I
yell opening my mind to him for the first time in over five years.
“No Y/N! It has to be her choice.”
I growled out. He had to be joking. Her choice? Was
he insane? Did he not remember her last choice? What is she choose to kill
Trask? Everything would be done for nothing and I was not going to stand by
while that happened. I was not willing to live with those consequences. “Dammit
Charles, if you don’t shut her down then I will!” I threatened.
“I believe in her.”
I scowled. He believed in the girl he claimed to have
risen. Had he not noticed that she was a woman? She was going to make whatever
choice she believed suited her. I glanced away from Raven and towards
Charles. I stood to move away from him
as Hank came up to us. I stepped back and watch the scene unfold.
Seconds past and Raven dropped the gun and removed Erik’s
helmet. Hank stepped back and nodded at me as if to give me reassurance.
Charles seemed to have briefly taken control of Erik to remove the debris and
Hank carefully helps him up.
I watch as Erik’s gaze slides over Hank and Charles. “You know
if you let them have me I’m as good as dead.”
“I know.” Charles shouts.
“Goodbye old friend.” Erik says as if in understanding.
Erik looks at the helmet and back at Raven and I know he feels
at a loss. Not because I was reading his emotions but because I could read his
As Erik ascends in the air he looks at me with a look of
despair. I avert my eyes and see Raven limps away and out of sight.
“We should get out of here.” Hank says and I nod as I duck under
Charles other arm to help support him.
After thirty minutes we finally made it outside to the car. I knew I had to say goodbye. As we prop Charles against the car I can feel
a subtle shift in energy
“I’m going to go see if I can find a first aid kit.” Hank says
as he disappears.
I stand “I should g-“ Damn the man he knew I was going to leave.
“Don’t go…” Charles says in a broken voice.
I shake my head. “I’m sorry, but I already told you I wou-“
“Y/N… I need you.” He says but I knew better. “Those words were never about Raven. They
were about you.”
I shake my head damn him for finding a way in.
“I was wrong Y/N. I knew
it the moment the words left my mouth.”
“Get out of my head Charles!” I growl out.
“I know that you are more than capable of speaking out loud so
please do so!”
“You can’t walk away from me if I am in your mind.”
“I did once.” I say before I can stop myself. “You practically
shoved me out the door yourself.”
“Yes, I remember. You looked like you were in so much pain when
you looked at me and I didn’t want you tied down Y/N. I was not the man you
fell in love with.”
“That’s a lie.” I say calling him on his bluff.
“No. I was broken. You didn’t deserve a broken man. I knew you
like the back of my hand Y/N. I knew exactly which buttons to push. ”
I stare at him as if he grew two heads.
“Losing you was the hardest thing I had ever had to do. I was
devastated for weeks. Hank thou-Well let’s just say he thought he would wind up
“Not hard enough, or you would have come after me.” I pointed
out as Hank reappeared.
“I am sorry Y/N. I couldn’t do that to you and I still stand by
my choice. I still need you. You are my-you mean more to me than you will ever
“I love you and I wanted better for you. I wanted you to have a
whole man and I-After Erik and Raven
left and I lost my legs I just didn’t think I was. ”
I shake my head as I step further away. Hearing the words that I
had been longing for wasn’t what I wanted after all. “I’m sorry. I- I have to go.” I say stepping
away once more before turning and heading towards the main road.
I was wrong. All those years of burying what I felt for Y/N came
back to haunt me. Why had I been such a
coward and said those things? Why did I let my fear consume my thoughts? I sighed as I sat in the garden, the one
place that was always ours.
“You know I hate you.” A familiar female voice says from behind
I turn in surprise to see the very woman that was plaguing my
“I spent five years moving from place to place because I thought
I had no where.”
“I know. I wish I could change what I did Y/N but I can’t.”
“The worst of it was that I thought that you were choosing he-“
“No.” I shake my head. Sure I loved Raven but never in the way
like I loved Y/N. Y/N had found her way into my heart with no effort. She
seemed to be were a lot of my good came from. “Someone told me that in order
for me to control my power I had to find my beacon of hope.”
“Your what?” She asked and I could tell she was holding back
rolling her eyes.
“You see my power comes from my heart and hope. By hoping I gain
more power. And you have been my beacon of hope since the moment I met you.”
I watch as she swallows. “I’m not-“
“I know. Things have changed but we will get there Y/N because I
have my hope.”
“You.” I said knowing that her next question was going to be what
was my hope.
“I don’t understand.”
“Neither did I but it is something that I am just going to take
on good faith.” I said as I wheel closer to her. “I love you Y/N.”
“I love you too but-“
I put my hands up in mock surrender. “That’s all I need for now.
One day I promise you will see just why you are my beacon of hope.”