I was going to go to panic but then I found out that my spring choir concert is on the same day as the only tour date in my state so :'))
i’m about to be a bad influence but if you really really love panic and want to see them, do it.
i was planning to go to bamboozle 2012 and i ended up having a big end of senior year band concert that day and i decided not to go because i figured i’d have plenty of other opportunities to see mcr again. it was their last show and i’ve never forgiven myself.
there will be other chorus concerts and at the end of the day you’ll remember seeing panic more than one chorus concert among however many others you’ve had/will have in the future.
I do have meet and greets before the show and after. And there is a song that get requested a LOT. First of all I think that if you have involved my music in any way, through your heartbreak or loneliness–that’s the highest honor you could ever give to somebody. So thank you to anyone who’s ever done that. I’ve done a lot of thinking about heartbreak and what it is to lose someone and you I think that worst part having your heart broken or losing someone–you lost a friend or someone you were in love with–if you think about what it is to fall in love. It involves a lot of bravery and vulnerability. When you let someone in your life, you decide your going to trust them, you decide you’re going to let them see every aspect of your personality in your life, things you might be insecure about and you let them see those things. You’re going to introduce them to people you know, you’re going to let somebody in. And I think the worst part about having your heart broken, or being betrayed, or losing someone is that it makes you regret those brave things you did in the beginning of the relationship. You sit there and think “Why am I so stupid? I should’ve played game. I should’ve played games–you’re supposed to do that. You’re not supposed to just let people in and trust them immediately. Everybody tells you that. Why am I stupid?!?” And I think that’s the worst kind of heartbreak because let me just tell you that letting people in, trusting people and being generous with your heart are beautiful things to do–those aren’t stupid things to do! And I have a feeling that just based on how you’ve treated me tonight that we have a lot of optimists, a lot of daydreamers, a lot of hopeless romantics in the house–do see? Those are my favorite people to hang out with. The cynics they may get hurt less, they might get fooled less, they might get betrayed less than us but I think that if you’re open, and your generous and your not cynical about love and life and happiness and excitement I want that life for YOU because I think you’ll have a much more beautiful life. You get your heart broken and then you have to go on living every single day, putting one foot in front of the other and replace all these habits. Like getting a text message from that person in the morning, or a phone call at night, or little surprises. You have to replace those habits, but maybe you replace all the time with that person with spending time with your friends or your family and maybe you decide instead of factoring someone else’s opinion into every decision you make and everything you decide to do with your life maybe you only start listening to your own gut instinct, maybe you start making choices based on what you want. I think whether it’s a few months or a year, you wake up and you don’t have to think about replacing those habits anymore and you don’t feel like heartbroken is written across your forehead and you don’t feel like it defines you anymore whether it’s one year or two years later, one day you wake up and you look in the mirror and you’re clean.
TAYLORS CLEAN SPEECH NASHVILLE NIGHT 1 09/25/2015
Sometimes I’ll be off doing stuff - laundry, errands, work, hanging with friends - and then check AO3 and see that I’ve gotten kudos on something or will get an email about a comment and it never fails to blow my mind a little, that while I’m sorting socks or buying broccoli someone has been reading something I’ve written and gotten something out of it. It doesn’t matter how many times it happens. It is a thrill and an honor and a source of happiness every. single. time.
Thank you, all of you, who have ever left kudos and comments for any of us. It’s such a gift.
I never believed in love at first sight but for some reason, I felt something different when we first met. The more I got to know you, the more my feelings intensified. And when you smiled, I knew that I was in trouble.
I just hope that you’ll let me fall in your arms
…and you tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.
Warsan Shire, “For Women Who Are Difficult to Love”
The first time I spoke to you, I was in a hurry to leave and get myself home. But your arms soon became my home. And I suddenly couldn’t think about anything else but you holding me throughout the night.