someone first choice

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she had the world || panic! at the disco

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David Tennant telling everyone at the TV Choice Awards where his wife was.

I have a theory..

A while back, during book 3, I came up with a theory, but since it was still pretty early into the Freshman/Sophomore series, it just looked like a coincidence I think not, but now that we’ve got 5 books, I’m starting to notice a pattern, and I can’t be the only one.

On the cover of book 1, we have Chris and MC. On the cover of book 2, we have MC by herself. On the cover of book 3, we have Kaitlyn and MC. Book 4 doesn’t matter right now cuz it was just an interlude. On the cover of book 5, we have Zig and MC.

I don’t think anyone has forgotten the cringeworthy “dispute” between Chris, Becca and our MC. Putting everything aside, we all know Chris is the one MC had the most trouble with in book 1.

Initially, I thought James was on the cover of book 2, why? idk, may have had something to do with that Christmas special. And since I thought it was James on the cover of book 2, I also thought James was the one MC had the most trouble with. My MC was dating James so therefor his storyline was more present and interesting to me lmao. But I still clearly remember MC getting blamed by Kaitlyn for outing herself. Tbh I don’t quite remember why Chris and MC were fighting but it happened.

I’m sure we can all still remember the fights with Kaitlyn and her band in book 3. Like I don’t even need to explain this one, do I?

Like I mentioned above, book 4 doesn’t really matter, as it was just an interlude.

Now, book 5, there Zig and MC. Every time a LI was featured on the cover, MC’s relationship/friendship was tested to the point of breaking and to the point of me hating them but I digress. Taking everything said above into consideration, I fear for whatever is coming for Zig and MC.

my level of extra: going on a cinematic adventure for a recipe video

Something that I love about Touka & Kaneki’s relationship is the contrast between how unloved he felt by his mother and how loved he is by Touka. One of Kaneki’s biggest issues was the fact that his mother never put him first, he wasn’t her first priority, he wasn’t her first choice thanks to her inability to choose; but Touka did the opposite. She put him first when she was willing to drop school only to leave with him and help him after he decided to leave Anteiku. She put him first by waiting for him for years as she built a home for him. She put him first by accepting his role as a king and all the things that came with it — the danger, the new ghouls, her daily routine being shaked because “as long as he comes back home things will be alright” — She put him and their child first over Yoriko, she chose the family that they have created together and he was deeply shocked by that, by her fervent determination.

Touka has put so much faith in who he is despite all his mistakes, I think it’s beautiful that Kaneki has a person who loves him like that, for the first time being someone else’s first choice without hesitation.. 😭💦

“I’m not going to put myself in a situation I know I’ll be uncomfortable and stressed in,” shouldn’t warrant being told to just “give it a chance,” after months of “"giving it a chance,”“ and shouldn’t warrant being forced to do something that will make you unhappy, and after you don’t give in it still shouldn’t warrant the silent treatment and anger.

Handling a situation with maturity and calmness should not result in hostility from the other person.

You should always have the right to refuse going into a situation.

honestly… some of y'all aren’t aren’t bothered when it comes to relationships and love and that’s awesome for you. but at the same time… some people do wanna be with someone. it’s a completely natural human desire and allah literally made us to feel this way, he created us in pairs and all that. everyone’s hearts are different and some people don’t care about that kinda thing but others do feel lonely and yearn for a companion. there’s no need to shame or mock people for wanting something just because you personally don’t want it! you aren’t superior or more mature because you don’t care about marriage. it’s something that is halal and is even encouraged in islam, jus let people be mushy in peace lool

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If someone were to ask me what my favourite Sondheim song is, I probably wouldn’t know what to say, because I find it hard to pick the ultimate favourite thing out of any number of things. But one of Sondheim’s songs always, and I do mean always, has a big impact on me, and that song is “Someone in a Tree” from “Pacific Overtures”. I won’t give any context on the song, because - let’s face it - if you’re interested in snips of sheet music like that up there, you already know that context. So you also know that it isn’t a very emotional subject that they’re singing about, and yet this song always makes me cry. My understanding of music doesn’t go that deep so I can’t really tell you why the song has this effect on me, but I can tell you WHERE. Right there, bar 287. Where the small gongs come in. It gets me every time. And if I don’t start crying there, I will a few bars later, when all three voices hold the last note on “histo-ry”. It’s so majestic, and beautiful, and stunning. And I love that a song can have such an effect on me, even after the umpteenth listen. It’s a wonderful thing to be able to feel so much without really knowing why or how.

I guess this all sounds tremendously cheesy, so it’s probably a good thing that nobody ever asks me what my favourite Sondheim song is.

discussion-

what do you guys think of people wanting/letting abled bodied people play disabled characters in shows/movies/etc

i think its honestly gross and disrespectful, almost always because whatever illness some abled bodied brenda is pretending to have, they almost always do it poorly because no matter how well you practice pretending to be sick, itll never be as real or as well acted as a disabled actor, because that disabled actor WOULDNT BE ACTING IT.

so if an abled bodied actor pretends to have said illness, and does it even slightly wrong, then it isnt well acted and comes off far more disrespectful than probably intended.

i also feel this as a disabled actress, i know i WOULD NEVER be someones first choice to pick for an abled bodied character, and it makes me annoyed that due to my illness, theres a big chance no matter where i go, an abled bodied character would get any disabled role over me, it happens all the time, ableism aside, its just in poor fucking taste. this isnt an attack on them as actors, this isnt an attack at all, im just tired of how wrong and unfair it is.

and honestly, i get that actors act, i get that an actor can act disabled but, that is not representation, thats the exact opposite, when people choose abled actors over disabled ones for disabled roles, they are, whether intended or not, implying that theyre fine w disabled characters as long as theyre not actually disabled, its wrong and disrespectful.

i just wanna know other opinions on this,

also, i dont usually put something like this in my post, but after a lot of discussions posts and alot of whiny abled people in the notes being ableist, i feel like i have to.

its okay for abled peeps to like/reblog this post but this is a discussion for disabled people about disabled issues and id appreciate it if abled people who do reblog this dont give their opinion on it, as it is not needed nor wanted.

All I want is one person who loves me more than anyone else. I want to be a first choice–maybe for a significant other, maybe for a close friend… I just really, really need that.
—  Posted by Anonymous
First Choice

Pairing: Oliver Queen x Reader

Summary: You join up with Team Arrow after Iris and Barry start dating. You start to rebuild your life but Barry unexpectedly shows up and begs for you to come back. Will you go with him or stay?

Originally posted by kholendx78

Six months.

It’s been six months since you joined up with Team Arrow. At first, Oliver, of course, had fought you saying that you were better off helping Team Flash but he eventually came around. And after Felicity left them for good, you became the pillar of the team. During the six long months, Oliver and you got closer and closer. Although both of you developed feelings for the other within two months of working together neither wanted to admit it fearing rejection. So, much to the team’s dismay, you both danced around each other’s feelings, all the while shamelessly flirting, sending desperate longing glances while the other wasn’t looking and finding any and every way to lingering touches. A couple of weeks after Ollie’s and your behavior change the team had had enough and took matters into their own hands. All of them tried in their own ways to get Oliver and you to spill your feelings for the other. Ollie refused each time and his was simple

Barry Allen.

He was the sole reason you came to work with Oliver in the first place. Though you never revealed all of the details on what happened between you two Oliver knew that you were in love with Barry for as long as you’ve known him and he was head over heels for Iris. And when Barry and Iris started to date it was more than you could handle. When being in the same room as he became a struggle you decided that your excellent engineering skills, kickass fight style, and medical training could be used to help the neighboring Star City’s vigilante team. Oliver was convinced that those feelings were still there and you could never see him as anything other than a friend.

“(Y/N), how about we go and watch that movie that you’ve been talking our ears off about?” Oliver asks as he walks into the Arrowcave. You turned around and cocked your eyebrow at him, confused. Was Oliver Queen, handsome hunk, ex-billionaire, mayor of Star City asking you out on a date? He can’t be asking you out on a date. He still has feelings for Felicity, I mean the guy wanted to marry her. This was why you kept to yourself about the feelings you have for him. “So…?” Oliver’s voice suddenly brought you back to reality.

“You and me? Like a date?” you asked, heart racing at the possibility.

“Well… I… umm… only if you want it to be, or it can be two fr-,” Oliver stutters.

“It’s a date then. The movie comes out tonight at midnight, how about you pick me up at around 8 and we can grab something to eat right before?” you interrupt him with a sudden surge of confidence.

Oliver’s face cracks into a big grin as he replies, “That sounds perfect.” You give him a quick smile and practically skip through the door to your car.

“Good job (Y/N). You finally got yourself a date, and that too with Oliver Queen. Good thing too, when was the last time you’ve been on a date? Honestly girl, you were turning into your mom, always work, work, work no time for fun. One more week of not having going out and I’m sure you would have started carrying that ridiculous suitcase to work,” you say to yourself while digging around your purse for your keys. “Haha! You didn’t think I would find you did ya?” you exclaimed in triumph talking to your car keys. You were about to open the door when there was a familiar gush of wind and suddenly you were on the rooftop of some skyscraper. “What is it with superheroes and rooftops?” you scream out turning to see the once-love-of-your-life grabbing his sides laughing and gasping for air.  “Okay, okay enough. Why are you here?” you demand with a sudden surge of anger.

“I just wanted to see you,” Barry answered. Although you knew that he could easily deflect your punch, you clocked him in the face anyway, satisfied as a groan escapes the scarlet speedster.

“Six months. Six months, no phone call, no text, not even an email to see how I was. What I was doing? If I was even alive and now you just randomly show up!!!” you screamed, frustration spilling out in the form of tears.

“Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. Please don’t cry. I’m sorry but I came to see you many times and each time you just seemed to be so happy. I didn’t want to ruin that,” Barry coos rushing over to you.

“Barry why would it ruin my happiness?” you choke out, as your tears turn into sobs.

“Well I know the real reason you left Central City, and I didn’t want to bring any pain to you, you seemed to be moving on with your life. From what I heard you’ve even got a date with Oliver,” he explained while wiping your tears away.

“Still doesn’t answer the question of what you are doing here?” you ask after backing away from him and taking a long good look at him. The past six months hasn’t changed him much, his hair was a bit longer than you remember and there was a significant rise of bags under his eyes.

He took a deep breath and said, “The team needs you (Y/N). I need you.” The wind gets knocked out of you at his sudden proclamation. “Please come back to us.”

After several minutes of consideration, you say, “Barry I can’t just leave all this.”

“Why not?” he replies immediately.

“I just can’t. I’ve started to build something here and I can’t just leave all of that in a heartbeat because the team needs me. I can’t rebuild my life at your will,” you respond. “Now please leave me alone Barry.”

“(Y/N),“ he started but you silence him by holding your hand up. “You chose Iris over me Barry, and after I told you my feelings for you too. You ignored me, you left me countless amounts of times and chose to run after Iris even when she didn’t need you, and you treated me like last resort when you needed help. You know what, you were right, you should not have returned to me,” you hiss out venom filled in your tone.

“I’m sorry,” Barry said before taking off leaving you once again to break down alone. Your heart wrenches, and all the wounds that were healing come undone. You sink to the ground next to your car and internally beg him to come back and comfort you, but once again you were sadly disappointed.

You don’t remember when or how but you managed to call the one person you knew would come running to help, he found you and wrapped his strong protective arms around your shoulder. You look into Oliver’s eyes, which were silently begging to let him help you, and you share your heavy broken hearts trouble to him. Throughout the explanation whenever you choked on your own words he squeezed you closer to him, as a sort of silent reassurance that he was there for you. Which he did, Oliver stayed holding you close to him, not saying anything, and he just let you cry out your heart. “I just want to be someone’s first choice. Is that too much to ask for? Am I just not worthy of that? My whole life I have never felt pretty, or special or incredible. That’s why I learned and conquered so many different skills. Even with all of my skills, I’m still not good enough to be someone’s first choice. Someone that a person would fight to be with. I know that love, at first sight, is not really a thing, but I thought that at least someone out there would be crazy enough to find me pretty the first time I met him. I hoped that that same someone would get to know me and think that I was special and incredible. Am I just asking for too much?” you ranted out in frustration not really expecting a response. Suddenly Oliver moved, picked you up bridal style and placed you in the passenger seat of your car.

“Where are we going Ollie?” you ask as he starts the car. “No questions” he responds and smiles at you. He drove to the edge of the city to a place with a breathtaking view, Oliver was quiet the entire ride and you still pondering the fact that you were never the first choice didn’t speak up either. When the car was parked Ollie sat back and sighed. “Why did you bring me here?” you ask and as a response, he got out of the car walked over to your side, opened the door and held his hand out for you. You reluctantly took his hands and let him lead you to the hood of the car when his hands go to your waist as he hoists you up onto the hood of your car a small gasp escapes your mouth, to which he smirks.  

“What do you think about the view (Y/N)?” he asks.

“It’s breathtaking, I’ve always wanted to witness a sunset like this” you reply and turn to him, “still don’t know why you brought me here.”

He walks closer to you and places himself in between your legs and asks, “(Y/N), do you remember what I did when I first saw you?”

“What? Are we playing 20 questions?” you joke to try and lighten the mood but at his stern look sigh and respond with, “You did a double take and then quickly try to cover it up because you were with Felicity.” You smile at the memory of the awkward first meet that Oliver and you had. The meeting ended with Barry having to run you back to your apartment after Ollie managed to spill hot coffee over you.

“I did a double take because I was taken aback by how beautiful you were, and not to be immodest but I have met supermodels, none of them ever made me do a double take. And to be fair at that time I was not with Felicity. The only reason I tried to cover it up was because I thought Barry and you were together,” Oliver explains. “You were so beautiful that I fumbled with nerves when I was talking to you so much that I spilled coffee all over you. No girl has ever made me feel that way before.” The grin you were wearing earlier faltered at his confession. “When you came to work for us, I was overjoyed because I hear so many stories about how good you are at practically everything,” he continued on, “And when I got to finally see you in action I thought you were not only incredible but also unique and special. After I got closer to you I learned that you were all of that and even more. You were compassionate, kind, level-headed, caring and many more qualities. You made me fall in love with you (Y/N). Just by being you, you made me fall deep in love. You were never asking for too much, you deserve so much more than what you ask for because you are so much more than what any guy could ask for. Barry was blind not to see that but I’m not. I love you (Y/N), and I will fight to be with and you will always be my first choice.” Oliver finishes and leans into you only leaving a centimeter of space between your lips, giving you permission to make the final move, which you do in a heartbeat. The kiss started off being sweet and innocent but was quickly turning into something more.

“Wait,” you say gently pushing Ollie off of you, he groaned at the sudden loss of contact and looked expectantly at you. “Two things. One, I love you too, I was so afraid that I was just reading the signs wrong and that you still had feelings for Felicity. Two, why did you bring me here?”

Oliver laughs at the latter portion of your outburst and replies, “Well this was THE place to take a girl when I was a teenager but I never got to take anyone out here because my parents were so worried about security and stuff. Of course, I could have sneaked out and brought a girl out here but for some reason, I saved this place for someone special and I wanted that someone special to be you.”

“Dammit Oliver Queen, you really do know how to work up a girl,” you laugh out as you press a kiss to his lips once again and wrap your legs around his waist. All you regret and sadness about Barry melted away at every touch, and every look Oliver sent your way.

“You are my first choice. I love you,” he said pressing his forehead to yours.

“I love you too,” you reply smiling at him.