someone else took it for me

anonymous asked:

I just saw a psychiatrist about being trans and he said that he thought I might be autistic and because of that he wants me to explore my sexuality before I make any life changing decisions. Is this normal?

Well no, it’s bullshit. Sexuality and gender aren’t even remotely relate besides both being tossed into an acronym together. Also, know that some people feel their genders ARE influenced by their autism, but that doesn’t make them any less valid. I’d find another psychiatrist. Hopefully the place you’re going to has other people you can see. They’re not supposed to get offended if you ask to see someone else. I’ve done it before.

Also, though, be careful. If you get a psychiatrist like my old one, they may try to rush you through your social transition. My psych took things way too fast for me and it made me uncomfortable. Make sure that YOU’RE comfortable, and explore your gender, not your sexuality.

~ Gene

i have pelvic floor dysfunction & interstitial cystitis and i dont talk about it bc its not something a lot of people know about plus it’s super personal but like. it has me absolutely exhausted and it’s had such a negative effect on my life and worsened my anxiety tenfold and i honestly dont know what to do. im going to physical therapy & trying my best but it just never stops. i’ve had more serious conditions but nothing’s crushed me like this honestly & there’s like no support network i know of it took me months alone to even find out what was wrong with me. it’s so bad idk why i’m whining about it on here maybe out of hope that someone else has it and can talk to me but idk i just feel so so alone in this

  • someone: hi
  • me: all time low is coming out with a new album on june second called the last young renegade and the songs are about alex gaskarth but from the perspective of someone else and i think that's creative genius and it is greatly inspired by the eighties and honestly i've never been this excited for a new album and dirty laundry was an amazing single that took some time to grow on me but now i can't stop listening to it and i'm eager to see the new direction they take after future hearts
Auction AU Part 2


Here’s the first part  ! I recommend you read it before this part, or else it won’t make much sense.

Sorry this took like, ten million years. Thanks to everyone who messaged me and said they liked the first part, it always made my day <3 

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    The relief only lasted so long once he realized that yes, no more old-leopard-print lady (thank god), but still there’s a date with someone. A stranger.

    Jack’s barely held decent conversations with his teammates, how would a date with a stranger work?

    It wouldn’t. No way.

   Feeling like he’d just survived a brutal game, Jack took a few seconds to gather himself. He wiped the condensation from his forehead (he really hoped no one had noticed), slowed his breathing, let his jaw unclench. Once his fingers became steady enough he fixed the cuffs of his uncomfortably hot suit.

   “Fuck it,” He shucked the jacket off entirely. It felt good until he lifted his arms- “Ugh.”

   Pit stains.

   For a moment he struggled with what to do: If I wear the jacket I’m uncomfortable and sweating more, but if I don’t people can see the sweat and thats embarrassing and-

   “Jack!” Someone from management tapped his shoulder, “This way, the kid is waiting on stage right.” She gave him a brief once-over, “Put on the jacket.”

    With a somewhat relieved nod, he slipped the jacket back on and wished for a calmer heart-beat.

     The wish didn’t come true, of course. It rarely did.

    They approached the stairs leading off the stage.

    This kid must like you. They bid on you. They spent money for a date-thing-whatever with you. Just smile. Act like a normal-

   “Hi!”

   -person.

   “Uh, hi.”

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Part 2 of 2 - GF ditched me to be with a tinder hookup. She typically wouldn’t do this however I told her how it’s a turn on if she takes control and makes decisions for herself instead of asking permission. I used the example of her fucking someone else and standing me up to fuck them more, so she took that idea and ran with it!

i feel like ppl think of carolina and tex both as just these cold horrible bitches who don’t know how to have fun but

tex was fucked up by omega, and was otherwise so compassionate that york, ct, north, and theta all liked and trusted her, and even when carolina got hurt with the two ais she demanded that someone come and help her and knocked her out for her own good

and carolina was the victim of the director’s impossible standards, but york loved her and maine took a bullet to the throat for her without a thought, and even after york and tex and eta/iota and everything else, look how she laughed and joked with epsilon (”you can tell your friends you picked me up”)

like. be nice to mine girls. it has been a hard time

Summer ‘16 is when I decided to become healthy. I stopped drinking soda and started drinking water and going to the gym and watched what I ate. I took pictures throughout the process and plan to continue to record my journey. Wasn’t going to share them at first but I feel that seeing others helped me feel like it was doable/manageable so maybe this will help someone else 💪🏽

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Usually when I take a day off it’s for something sensible and practical, and it’s often for someone else.

Today I took a day off just for fun that was all for me. And it was AWESOME!!

(Big thanks to my buddy John who works at Wizards for inviting me to visit, and also a big thanks to Alison Luhrs for taking the time to meet me while I was there!!)

And can I sleep all night long to the drums of the city rain?

The truth is, I was never able to breathe when we were together. Love is supposed to care for you and be there for you every step of the way but sometimes it’s just too much and I needed to be on my own. I knew that if I brought this up, he would manage to convince me to stay, I was never able to tell him no, he got me under his spell. So I just left and took my first breath after ages. It felt good as first but also really lonely, so I started to rebuild my life, with someone new. It was a good and simple life, something I needed in a long time but fate or whatever you’d like to call it pushed me once again offshore and towards him. I took one look at him and my good and simple life seemed like a joke to my eyes, like it didn’t belong to me. Because I was his and he was mine even though we pretended to be something else for all these years.”
“We never had a closure. I just woke up one day, she became so cold all of a sudden. And everything became so messed up. She didn’t tell anything, but her departure says it all. I was caught off-guard because I have learned to live my life with her. It took me years to rebuild myself. I haven’t picked my broken pieces because I know, it was all about her. I managed to step on it and inflict pain on myself in order to wake up. God knows how hard I tried to save myself and survive. I was lost that made me desperate enough to find a new light. I even burned bridges so I wouldn’t look back and walk to my past again. Those were the miserable years of my life. I have managed to surpass the storm. But unfortunately, life didn’t give a warning that storms could be back. I thought everything would remain calm. After all those years, she’s sitting in front of me right now; I hate how universe give us the opportunity to bump into each other again. It’s been five long years. I know everything changed, but as I look to her, it feels like I’m ready to risk and be fooled again.
—  How I Met My Lost Star by @giulswrites and @baekebyan
bts theory

so I saw a post that said something about how in some neighborhoods, shoes tied together and hanging off a power line signified death but in MY NEIGHBORHOOD that means someone nearby be selling the druggies whICH EXPLAINS JIN’S PINK FLIP PHONE

those plants around him? weed

how else do you think he got vlive on his pink flippity flop phone? photoshop? took a pic of another phone? no weED

source: dude trust me but also 

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“Whatever cracked out science thing you’re about to do, I need you to stop, and I need you to listen to me, because this is about Delphine. Somehow during Krystal’s misguided but oddly effective investigation, she found herself on the trail of Delphine. Now, she saw her get shot, and that’s bad. But, Cosima, she saw someone else pick her up. Delphine was alive when they took her away.”

Kwami Swap AU gone dark - Part 1, Origins
Part 1 (you are here!), Part 2

I have to warn you, this is gonna be a hella long post. I’m sorry.

So, I can’t believe how long it took me but I finally realized why I don’t particularly enjoy how the Kwami swap AU is usually portrayed. Or better, I do enjoy it, but in a highly specific setting: the “Akuma somehow gets them to swap powers" one. That, I love. It has so much comedic and character insight potential, how could I not love it? Nothing like getting to walk a mile in someone else’s shoes to better understand them, right? No, what perplexed me was the other kind of Kwami Swap. The “they get the opposite Miraculous from the get go”.

So far, I’ve only seen this AU played out as something fluffy, but I’m talking past the cutesy idea of seeing our heroes in each other’s suits and roles.What could the actual implications of such an idea be, put realistically (as much as you can when talking about a fictional work) into the show’s canon? Because to me that would be a proper nightmare on so many levels that it’s actually kind of interesting. And this, really, is the whole point of this post. Brace yourself, it gets depressing.

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anonymous asked:

your line art style is so smooth and real looking omg if it's not too much trouble, could you make a tutorial showing how you do it?? like what is your process?? how do you get your proportions so perfect and the lines so clean?

first of all I’m so sorry about how long this took! second, thank you?? you’re so sweet <3 I wasn’t really sure what you meant by “tutorial”, and since I was already in the process of drawing something, I hope some screen caps will do 😁

please bare in mind that this is what works for me and may not be the best method for someone else! I’m still working on improving, and this is what seems to work best for my style.

  • I use a huge brush for blocking out the basic shape and proportions of whatever I’m drawing, based off of the reference. No worries about whether it actually looks like anything or not.
  • Next I lower the opacity of the first layer and start a new layer, sketching out the general location of features and such with a slightly smaller brush.
  • Then I lower the opacity of that layer, start another new layer with an even smaller brush, and sketch out features more detailed, mostly focusing on where the eyes, mouth, ears, etc are and basically creating rough line art without worrying about how clean it is.
  • Lastly, (you guessed it) I lower the opacity so that all three base layers are faint enough to simply act as guidelines, start a new layer, and use a hard ink round brush, 100% opacity, to create the clean, detailed line art using my ref photo as a guide.

And I think that’s it?? Idk tbh anon I’m still working on getting better! oh, also, be sure to pay attention to line weights. See how my lines aren’t the same thickness everywhere, but are thinner in some places, and darker in others? I find that doing this really helps emphasize depth and lighting without actually shading anything in, if that makes sense.

as for how I get my lines to look clean, it’s really just lots of practice and LOTS of using the undo button!. but basically, it’s all about creating your lines in one fluid motion with confidence.

I hope this was at least somewhat helpful?? ^^ please let me know if not!

final taehyung line art can be found here