somebody to hold

19

it is my birthday and every day of my life i have wished for love

hungry hurts the most when candle-cakes aren’t enough.

war is about to break out and i am nineteen

the semester is beginning, as is 2017


and lonely hurts when you take your walks at night,

on foot to the tattoo parlor downtown among the city lights

the needles may not hurt, but it would be nice to have somebody holding your hand

it would be nice to have someone misunderstand.

I crave affection. Not sex, but the most innocent parts of affection. I crave somebody to cuddle with me, and lay their head on lap. I crave kisses. I crave holding hands and running my thumb across theirs. I crave somebody to hold me while they tell me their thoughts or issues. I crave just looking at someone and wondering how on earth I got that lucky. I crave the feeling of having someone love me just as much as I love them..

Narrados en una canción
  • ARIES: I See Fire - Ed Sheran

‘‘And if we should die tonight
We shall all die together
Raise a glass of wine for the last time
Calling out father
Oh, prepare as we will watch the flames
Burn auburn on the mountainside
Desolation comes upon the sky‘‘
‘‘Oh, should my people fall
Surely I’ll do the same
Confined in mountain halls
We got too close to the flames
Calling out father
Oh, hold fast and we will watch the flames
Burn auburn on the mountainside
Desolation comes upon the sky‘‘

  • TAURO: National Anthem - Lana Del Rey

‘’He said to be cool but I’m already coolest‘‘
‘‘It’s a love story for the new age
For the six pages
Want a quick sick rampage?
Whining and dining, drinking and driving
Excessive buying, overdose and dying
On our drugs and our loves
And our dreams and our rage
Blurring the lines between real and the fake
Dark and lonely, I need somebody to hold me
He will do very well, I can tell, I can tell
Keep me safe in his bell tower, hotel‘‘
‘‘I’m your national anthem
Boy, put your hands up
Give me a standing ovation
Boy, you have landed
Babe, in the land of sweetness and danger‘‘

  • GÉMINIS: Die Young - Kesha

‘‘Hearts out of minds running
Till we out of time
Wild childs looking good
Living hard just like we should
Don’t care who’s watching
When we tearing it up
You know- that magic that we got
Nobody can touch
Looking for some trouble tonight
Take my hand, I’ll show you the wild side
Like it’s the last night of our lives
We’ll keep dancing till we die‘‘

  • CÁNCER: Breathe Me - Sia

‘‘Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame‘‘
‘‘Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me‘‘

  • LEO: Blank Space - Taylor Swift

‘‘So it’s going to be forever
Or it’s going to go down in flames?
You can tell me when it’s over
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex lovers
They’ll tell you I’m insane
Because you know I love the players
And you love the game‘‘
‘‘Because we’re young and reckless
We’ll take this way too far
It’ll leave you breathless
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex lovers
They’ll tell you I’m insane
But I’ve got a blank space baby’’

  • VIRGO: Solitaire - Marina And The Diamonds

‘‘Don’t wanna talk anymore
I’m obsessed with silence
I go home and I lock my door
I can hear the sirens‘‘
‘‘Hard like a rock, cold like a stone
White like a diamond, black like coal
Cut like a jewel, yeah I repair‘‘
‘‘Solitaire
Something you consider
Rare
I don’t wanna be compared
Yeah
With that cheap shimmer and glitter
Solitaire‘‘

  • LIBRA:  Good For You - Selena Gomez

‘‘Now you say I got a touch so good, so good
Make you never want to leave
So don’t, so don’t
Going to wear that dress you like, skin-tight
Do my hair up real, real nice
And syncopate my skin to your heart beating‘‘
‘‘Because I just want to look good for you, good for you
I just want to look good for you, good for you
Let me show you how proud I am to be yours
Leave this dress a mess on the floor
And still look good for you, good for you‘‘

  • ESCORPIO: Control - Halsey

‘‘I’m bigger than my body
I’m colder than this home
I’m meaner than my demons
I’m bigger than these bones‘‘
‘‘And all the kids cried out,
“Please stop, you’re scaring me”
I can’t help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?‘‘

  • SAGITARIO: Single Ladies - Beyoncé

‘‘Now put your hands up
Up in the club, we just broke up
I’m doing my own little thing
I decided to dip
but now you wanna trip
Because another brother noticed me
I’m up on him, he up on me
Don’t pay him many attention
Because I cried my tears, for three good years
You can’t be mad at me‘‘

  • CAPRICORNIO: Misery Business - Paramore

‘‘Well I never meant to brag
But I’ve gotten what I wanted now
Well, It was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feel so good
Because I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
Because God it just feels so…
It just feels so good‘‘
‘‘Second chances they don’t ever matter
People never change
Once a wh*re, you’re nothing more
I’m sorry that’ll never change‘‘

  • ACUARIO: Arabella - Arctic Monkeys

‘‘Arabella’s got a seventies head
But she’s a modern lover
It’s an exploration she’s made of outer space
And her lips are like the galaxy’s edge
And her kiss the color of a constellation
Falling into place‘‘
‘‘My days end best
when the sunset gets itself behind
That little lady
Sitting on the passenger side
It’s much less picturesque
Without her catching the light
The horizon tries
But it’s just not as kind on the eye‘‘
‘‘Just might’ve tapped into your mind and soul
You can’t be sure‘‘

  • PISCIS: Paradise - Coldplay

‘‘When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach
So she ran away in her sleep
And dreamed of paradise
Paradise, paradise, paradise
Every time she closed her eyes‘‘
‘‘Life goes on, gets so heavy
The wheel breaks the butterfly
Every tear a waterfall
In the night, the stormy night
She’d close her eyes
In the night, the stormy night
Away she’d fly‘‘

Duraznito-.

9

“calling out for somebody to hold tonight
when you’re lost, I'll find a way
I’ll be your light
you'll never feel like you're alone
I’ll make this feel like home”