solace in the most beautiful form

free-expressioner replied to your post “like i will only have peace with this sad af ending if mikasa ends up…”

seriously though, must everything end up with sex and babies ��

Haha, well, when you put it that way, perhaps the way I stated it in that particular post might’ve made my wanting it to “end with sex and babies” sound shallow. 

Short answer: No. It obviously doesn’t have to end with sex/babies. But it would be beneficial for both characters if it did end with those things.

Long Answer: Mikasa becoming pregnant with Eren’s child before he dies means so much more than “ayyy we know they got it on ;)” and “awww eremika baby :)” and an implied “shipper victory”. 

It’s about what the act, and the “end product” mean to the characters.

Eren hasn’t shown the capacity to be romantically/sexually attracted to anyone (not high on his priority list, so this is understandable), and Mikasa has her walls built so high for everyone but him (and Armin, you could say, but to a different degree). So, the two engaging in the act could be beautiful and incredibly meaningful - most especially because tragedy is on the horizon and he’s going to die relatively soon. Sex would be a form of finding solace in one another, and showing the extent of their trust and care for one another, in a way that is intimate and completely unique to just the two of them. It would be Eren doing something he’s never really thought of doing, but does it because it is with someone who means a lot to him. It would be Mikasa getting to be intimate with the one she loves the most on a completely different level, and finally a form of reciprocation of her feelings. 

It’s already been talked to death about how, in losing Armin and Eren, Mikasa will be losing her family for a second time - and losing Eren a second time, but this time permanently. She will have no one, she will be even more traumatized, and she will be forced to lead a life without the ones she loves most. And yeah, people are saying “well she’s gotta move on” and that goes without saying. And she will.

But - being able to move forward from this incredibly dark period in her life while bearing the child of the man she loves would give her a sense of peace throughout all the shittiness - a sense of hope. Even though he’d be gone, she would still have some part of him with her, and the child would be a physical manifestation of how much they meant to one another. 

She is going to be forced to live without the one person she loved with all her heart - the person who taught her that life was worth living when she lost everything the first time; the person she was so willing to lay down her life for; the person who meant the world to her. And it’s going to hurt like a motherfucker. That’s why sex/having his child would be incredibly meaningful to her, and would be at least some light in the darkness.

Just my opinion.

I don’t think I’ll ever love a show more and I’m heartbroken it’s time to say goodbye; but I take solace in this truth—We’ve become more than a fandom. 

This show has accomplished something few others have or ever will. Over the last three years this beautiful and flawed television show and the love we share for it has cultivated true friendships. Although I am by no means the most vocal or visible member in our little fandom, My Mad Fat Diary and the connections I’ve formed as a result of its potent and often painful depiction of a teenage girl’s struggles with mental health and body image issues and her triumph over them, leaves me feeling a wave of gratitude toward every—single—person who played a role in the telling and sharing of this important story. 

Please know when I say I love you guys I mean it genuinely and I feel so lucky to have shared this experience with you all. A better fandom doesn’t exist.

Don’t be strangers.