When you don’t have many friends and you don’t have a social life you’re kind of left looking at things, not doing things. There’s a weird freedom in not having people treat you like you’re part of society or where you have to fulfill social relationships.
We all know it comes down to time management but how many of us actually manage their time well? Very few, if any. This probably won’t be the perfect guide for managing your time and how much to allot to each part of your life but it will give you enough guidance so you can do it yourself.
I can just feel my mental health declining day by day now. It’s exhausting. I have 3 roommates; one other African American, and the other two are European international students. When I first met them all, things were okayish. I warned the EI students that I’m extremely introverted. It’s always been bothersome to me. I’m a junior in college and to this day, I can say I don’t have a REAL close friend. I did a few year back but we drifted once she found new friends.
I go day by day, barely having anyone but a few acquaintances here and there that speak to me in class. I tried doing the more social things with my roommates over the years, but I was almost always far too uncomfortable and slipped into the shadows. I like my alone time. But it’s become lonely now, I think. I feel my EI roomies are frustrated that I’m not more outgoing and I hate it. I try to reach out to the black students at my school but I get shunned. Especially from the black guys. :(