Ah some piece of shit vent art from a piece of shit. Where do I start?
Well to be honest, I feel like most of my friends are only there out of pity. I’m even pretty sure my own girlfriend is only here because she doesn’t want me to do anything drastic. Even though I am too much of a pussy to even cut myself (I am terrified of blood). I just honestly have hit a new low. I don’t wanna move, sleep, eat, or do anything. I just feel so useless to everyone around me. I don’t have anyone to talk to, since I don’t have a lot of friends, and I just have to keep everything bottled up until one night I sob it out into my pillow. My dad has been a huge asshole, as he has verbally abused me most of my life. He’s had 3 strokes so we usually got a disability check for him to help pay the bills cause he couldn’t work. My mom took on a second job so she could pay the bills and we barely made it along. Recently one of the doctors filled out one of his sheets incorrectly and hasn’t got a check. I try to help out as much as I can but don’t make much money from commissions and I can’t get a actual job because I help out my dad and brother with autism. My dad has been extra tough on me since I don’t get the best grades (around B’s and C’s), so at this point I have just broken down. Most people are probaly like “oOoOH thiS iS FOr AtTeNtionNN”, but don’t seem to even get the idea that I am human and enjoy talking about issues too, so don’t even bother if you think I’m just some kid on tumblr looking for attention, cause I don’t even care anymore.