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Always Mine - Chapter 11


A/N: Here’s chapter 11! Better late than never lol! I hope you guys like this chapter! And if you haven’t already, check out my JDM one shot called Change! 

Katherine didn’t answer. Everything in her had frozen. Just yesterday she had been silently praying that Negan would just show up already and hand out her punishment so she could get it done and over with. But now that he was here in front of her, she just wished he’d leave her there.

Negan chuckled dryly when she didn’t answer.

“I’ll take that as a fucking yes.” He walked over to her and squatted down in front of her, using Lucille to balance himself. His eyes raked over her. There was dirt all over her dress as well as her skin and her hair was a knotty mess.

“Don’t take this the wrong fucking way, Doll, but you look like fucking shit.”

Katherine still didn’t answer him. It was deathly silent between them for a few minutes. Katherine could feel his hard stare on her but kept her eyes on the ground.

“Ya know, Doll, these past few days have been pretty fucking shitty. First, your brother kill two of my fucking men. Second, I almost fucking got shot by that little hot head from your group. Third, I find out you have been fucking lying to me about our little buddy, Spencer.”

Katherine felt tears stinging her eyes when images of Spencer and him lying on the ground dead flashed in her mind.

“And then, imagine my fucking surprise when we get back and I fucking find out that Daryl fucking killed Fat Joseph before escaping.”

Katherine’s eyes widened and she slowly looked up at Negan, who had a deep scowl on his face.

Daryl had escaped?

“You’re group has been causing me a lot of fucking trouble lately. I am this fucking close,” he put his thumb and pointer finger together, leaving a little space in between. “To getting all my men, taking all the fucking guns we took back and heading back to Alexandria and ending the problem once and for fucking all. But first…first I’m gonna fucking deal with you.”

He moved slightly closer to her, making Katherine press her back against the wall.

“Did you really fucking think I didn’t know about Spencer? I knew from the first fucking time we went to Alexandria and he opened the gate. I saw how he fucking looked over at you. And I even fucking gave you a chance to tell me the fucking truth and you still fucking lied!” He yelled his anger once again rising when he thought about the situation.

Tears fell from her eyes and a sob left her mouth. Negan kept the scowl on his face.

“Why did you fucking lie to me?”

Katherine sniffled.

“B-because I knew you would kill him when you found out. I-I didn’t want anyone else to die.”

“He fucking touched you, Katherine. He’s fucking lucky I made it as quick as possible. Besides, you should be fucking thanking me. He was trying to get me to kill your fucking dad.”

Katherine just continued to sniffle and wiped the tears from her eyes.

“I-I’m sorry. I’m sorry I lied.”

Negan gave a small grin.

“I fucking know, Kitty Kat. But you lied and that means you still have to be fucking punished.”

Katherine felt like her heart was going to jump out of her chest.

“P-please don’t hurt me.”

Negan tisked at her.

“Calm the fuck down, Kitty Kat. You know I’d never lay a fucking hand on you.”

“No but there’s worse,” she whispered. He wouldn’t lay a hand on her but what about her family? She knew he would gladly go after them to teach Katherine a lesson.

Negan smirked.

“Oh how right you fucking are, Kitty Kat!”

Katherine didn’t like the look in his eyes as he stood up, Lucille hanging by his side.

“Get up.”

Katherine sat frozen on the ground. Negan sucked his teeth when she didn’t move.

“Are you suddenly fucking deaf? Get the fuck up. Now.”

Katherine swallowed hard. Not wanting to make him angry, she slowly stood on shaky legs. Negan grabbed her by the arm and pulled her out of the room. Katherine momentarily closed her eyes, the lights from the hallway burning her pupils since she had been kept in a dark, cold, cell for three days.

Negan pulled her down the hallway to another set of cells. Katherine slowly opened her eyes as they stopped in front of one. Negan pulled the door open and shoved Katherine inside. Her eyes widened when she saw Eugen, kneeling on the ground, Simon holding him down with a gun next to his head.

She looked him over, seeing dried tears on his face as well as a bruised cheek and black eye. She heard the door shut before Negan’s heavy footsteps came towards her.

“You see Kitty Kat, our little fucking bullet maker here refuses to tell us anything about your old group. He’s being tough, which by the way, is fucking surprising with how often he cries. But anyways, I gotta fucking break him. And you…you’re gonna fucking help me do it, Doll.”

Katherine’s eyes widened she swore her heart stopped.

“Simon, you got it?” Simon nodded and pulled something off of his belt loop. Katherine gasped softly seeing it was a whip.

Negan smirked and walked over, taking the weapon from his right hand man before looking back at Katherine.

“Get the fuck over here, Kitty Kat.”

Katherine’s eyes remained wide as she shook her head in horror. Eugene didn’t deserve this.

“No.” She whispered. “Please don’t make me do this. I-.”

“I know, I fucking know. You’ll do anything. Well guess the fuck what, Doll, this is what I want you to fucking do. So get your fucking ass over here.”

Tears began running down her cheeks again and she shook her head. Negan scowled and walked over roughly grabbed her chin. Katherine yelped and looked up at him, fear clear in her eyes.

“I’m fucking tired of you not listening, Katherine. When I tell you to fucking do something, you better fucking do it or things will get so much fucking worse for you.”

He dragged her over so they were standing behind Eugene. Negan nodded at Simon who put his gun in the holster before pulling out a knife and cuting Eugene’s shirt clean down the back before pulling it open and exposing his bare skin.

Katherine stood frozen in fear as Negan forced the whip into her hand.

“Five fucking hits should do it. And I want them to be a good fucking hit, Kitty Kat or I’ll fucking make you start over.”

Katherine started sobbing and shook her head.

“P-Please don’t make me do this.”

“Your fucking actions have consequences, Katherine. Maybe next time you’ll fucking think about things. Now fucking do it.”

Katherine cried and shook her head.

“Katherine, it’s okay. You can do it, I’ll be fine.” She heard Eugene say. It just made her cry harder.

“Well look at that. The fucking pussy grew a spine! Well let’s see how fucking well he does after this.”

“I’ll give you a baby.” She blurted out without thinking. Negan chuckled and shook his head.

“Kitty Kat, a baby is a gift. You broke a fucking rule. You don’t get a fucking gift for that. You get a fucking punishment.” He walked closer and bent down to whisper in her ear. “But let’s fucking revisit that baby idea after all this shit.” He grinned and stood back up.

Katherine closed her eyes and cried. She was trying to come up with other ideas on how to get out of this but nothing was coming to mind. She knew there was no where out. Just like there was no way to get away from Negan. He’d always win.

“Fucking tick tock, Kitty Kat. Keep wasting my fucking time, I’ll add on more fucking hits.”

Katherine sniffled and opened her eyes, looking down at Eugene’s bare back through blurry eyes.

“I’m sorry.” She whispered, before raising the whip and hitting his back. When he cried out, she started crying harder while Negan laughed.

“That a fucking girl! Keep it going.”

Katherine sobbed as she hit Eugene over and over again. It seemed like it had gone on forever until she felt Negan grasp her shoulder’s.

“See? That wasn’t so fucking bad, was it?” Katherine just cried and threw the whip on the ground before looking at Eugene’s bloody back.

“Simon, take him to fucking see Carson then lock him back in here.”

Simon nodded and pulled up a barely conscious Eugene, pulling him up and out of the room.

Katherine fell to the ground. She clutched her chest as her body shook violently with sobs. She was just made to hurt one of her friends because she broke a rule.

Negan began whistling as he squatted down next to her, running a finger down her cheek.

“Hey there, Kitty Kat, no need to fucking cry. It’s over now. You fucking delt with your punishment.” He lent in closer to her. “But if you ever fucking break one of my rule’s again, I’ll fucking make sure that’s Carl you’re hitting next time. And then maybe your dad, and whoever fucking else I see fit. You fucking got me?”

Katherine slowly nodded.

“Good. Now let’s go get you a fucking shower and have that fucking baby talk.”

Katherine sat huddled in the corner of the shower, shaking, as the water rained down on her. She hugged her knees to her chest while she heard whistling just outside the door.

Negan had led her to his room, handed her a fresh set of clothes and shoved her towards the bathroom.

Katherine stayed sitting in the tub, not wanting to get out. She couldn’t stop thinking about what she had just done. Her mind was racing a mile a minute. She had blurted out the baby thing in a moment of desperation. It was something Negan had brought up while they were in Alexandria and the only thing that came to mind in that moment of need.

She didn’t know what would happen now that she had said that. Sure she wanted kids but after the world turned, she wasn’t to sure anymore. She knew it was risky now a days to have a baby. And she was sure she didn’t want her baby’s father to be Negan.

What if they did have a child? What if it grew up to be just like Negan?

She wiped stray tears from her eyes as a loud pounding sounded on the bathroom door.

“You’ve got five fucking minutes to get out here before I fucking come in there.”

Closing her eyes, she took a few deep breaths to calm herself down. She needed to be strong. She slowly stood up, her legs shaking below her as she turned off the water and stepped out into the cold air.

Drying off, she slipped on the pair of white laces panties Negan gave her along with the matching bra. After that, she pulled on the pale yellow sundress and brushed out her hair.

She turned around and placed her hand on the doorknob but couldn’t find it in herself to turn it. She wished the walls would just close in on her.

“One fucking minute!”

Katherine closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths before slowly opening the door. Her eyes immediately looked around the room for Negan. She spotted him standing at the table that housed all his alcohol with his back to her.

“About fucking time. Go sit the fuck down.”

He ordered, not even looking at her. Katherine swallowed hard. She took notice of how overly calm his voice was and that worried her.

Her shaky legs carried her over to one of the leather couches and sat down.

She focused on her hands, the only sound in the room being the clinking of the alcohol bottle and a glass.

He turned around a few seconds later, a glass of scotch in his hand as he whistled some cheery tune and sat down on the table in front of her. He took a sip of his drink before setting it down on the table and looking at her.

“Now Kitty Kat, there is nothing I’d love more in this fucking world then to have a fucking rugrat with you but you gotta fucking admit, Doll, our fucking relationship needs some work before we bring a kid into the mix.”

Katherine let out a silent sigh of relief. Negan noticed this and smirked.

“You look fucking relieved, Kitty Kat. Why is that?”

‘Shit.’ She thought.

“I um. I-I just don’t know if this is a world to bring a baby into.”

Negan laughed.

“Doll, we’ve got the best fucking doctor and medicine here. Plus everything from the communties that fucking work for us. We’d be all fucking set. No one would fucking mess with our baby. But like I fucking said, our relationship needs some fucking work. You aren’t being the good fucking Kitty Kat I first met and I think I fucking know why.”

‘Because you’re a psychotic, possessive, bat wielding, murderer?’

Negan moved closer, blissfully unaware of the things Katherine had called him in her mind. He reached out and cupped her chin, making sure she kept her eyes on his.

“It’s because you’re fucking jealous.”

Katherine wished she could have seen the look on her own face. She was fairly sure it was a look between shocked and confused. She tried her best to hide it but knew she wasn’t doing a very good job.


Negan nodded, a serious look on his face.

“You’re fucking jealous. Here I was, fucking living it up, married to five other women while you were left slumming it back at Alexandria. You’re jealous you have to fucking share me with the other girls.” He smirked as Katherine just continued looking at him like he had three heads. “And I’m here to fucking tell you, Doll, you don’t have to be fucking jealous. You’re still my number one fucking girl. Well, besides Lucille here.”

Katherine couldn’t help but think that Negan had finally lost his mind.

Negan pulled her face closer to his, his hot breath fanning her lips.

“I’ve got just the fucking thing to fix all that though.” He eyed her lips before moving them up to lock on her blue orbs. He grinned widely, his tongue poking out between his teeth to wet his lips before he spoke. “You and I are gonna get fucking married for real.”


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