I find myself saying that i don’t like alcohol more and more lately. It started as a joke mostly, but i realized that i do want to stray away from alcohol now. I want to just try to live a mostly sober life!
Maybe I miss the drugs because they gave me that same feeling you did.
Maybe I miss them because they filled my chest up the way your laugh did.
Maybe I miss snorting line after line after line because it drowned out the loneliness for 15 minutes.
Maybe I miss feeling alive.