sobber

proud anniversary

yesterday the 1st of July, it was a year again since I have cut down on myself. Afflicted physic pain on myself, to get a pause from all the pain I was feeling in myself.

I have been clean for a year and though the scars won’t disappear I am proud to say that I have been able to stay away from that for a year. 

Mostly the reasons has been because I have seen a therapist. But it is also thanks to the people who I have aloud to come into my life and show me what living was really about.

So yeah a big thumbs up for me for staying “cut-clean” for a year

~ Emilie

06-14-2011 HeartBreakingStory

06-14-2011 HeartBreakingStory:

But why?

it all started way back… April 2011 … :c

I believe that every story has an end…

and that people does nor change…

but, FEELINGS do…

our relationship has always been so LIGHT…

no obligations and all… and that we always understand…

we thought it was perfect…but it was obviously not…

to the point that we’ve been so confident with each other

that we would miss a day without seeing, texting, calling

and checking upon each other.

And with that kind of situation and relationship…

somehow we grew apart…

and that someone had a change of heart…

I thought we’re okay…but we’re obviously drifting apart :[

and the heartbreakingday came…

I caught him…

i got mad of course… but i think it is best if would give it a break…

it has been 2years and 9months…

how could you do this to me?

I definitely think I don’t deserve to be treated like this…

because, i’ve been loyal and faithful to you biatch!

I definitely don’t wanna see your pesky face again!

I wish you would disappear…

I wish we never met…

…and fell :c