I’ve come to the conclusion that I desire human interaction. Not in the typical sense, I suppose, but in the sense of that I am not satisfied with just talking to people. I want to feel people and I want to be felt. I want to impact people. I want to kiss and hug and show people that I’m not in a shell and I’m not shy. I’m ridiculously outgoing but the fact that I’m so scared of how people will react disallows me from doing this. I could care less about sex; I just want to be on another level with so many people yet I feel like I, in all my effort to bring people closer, repel them instead. Nobody realizes how easily I become attracted to different people but they also don’t realize what that attraction entails. I get close to people extremely fast and I leave them the same way. It’s just my simple process yet it becomes so complicated, it seems. I want to find people I could fall for the same day I meet them and they do the same and the next day it could end and no ones feelings are peeled apart yet a blissful and energetic memory retains. I don’t understand why people are so closed with themselves. Physical contact: kissing, hugging, cuddling, holding. These are simple, meaningless things until we give them meaning. These are the things that allow me to share myself with other people in a way that I find to be special. Talk is boring and thoughts are cheap. I like to feel raw emotion and I like to be able to understand the language of a the fingerprint or the taste of a lasting bodily embrace.