“There are a lot of things I wish I could’ve seen before.”
Dean’s voice gets a little rough, a little too strained for the quaint atmosphere
of the bustling coffee shop. “A lot more things I did see but I didn’t appreciate.”
He didn’t get a response, but he could sense the deeper
breaths from his coffee companion. Being immersed in darkness for so long made
him sensitive to other facts of life. Like how he knew his friend had ordered a
hot chocolate, could smell the marshmallows melting. Like how he knew there was
a cute girl, with a giggly personality and a love for lavender bath bombs, who
stopped by their table frequently as if she couldn’t stay away from them.
What he didn’t know was how they got to this point. They’ve
been friends for years and Castiel never brought up Dean’s past, Dean’s loss of
sight. It was one of the reasons Dean treasured their friendship. But now… now
Dean couldn’t help the disappoint as he continued to talk into the dark abyss
that smelled of coffee.
“I wish I would’ve paid more attention to my mom’s smile and
my dad’s grin. I wish I could’ve known to memorize Sam’s boyish features. But I
don’t. I have nothing to remember my parents except the ghost of their words.”
Taking a deep breath, Dean readjusted the cane by his side. The cold metallic
feel underneath his fingertips brought him some sense of safety. “I wish I could
see a lot of things, Cas.”
Still sitting in silence, Cas shifted in his seat. Taking a
soft breath, he finally parted his lips. “I’m sorry that I asked that question.
I know that… I want you to know that I really don’t see you as a blind man. It
only recently started to bother me.”
And there it was. The statement that made Dean’s face harden
into a grimace. That one sentence crushed everything he had built with this
other man. “I’m sorry it bothers you.” He couldn’t help the venom dripping from
his words. He was halfway on his feet when he heard a hiccup.
Turning his head just the slightest, Dean heard it. Crying.
Quiet enough as if Cas was using all of his energy to hold it in. That was not
what Dean expected. He found himself sitting back down and trying his hardest
to look in his best friend’s direction.
“I-I just…” Cas’ words were breaking, his breathing choppy
and violent. “I didn’t care before because… because you were my friend. But now…
now I f-fucking fell in love you and you’ll never see me… you’ll never see the
smile I get when you walk into a room or know just how much I stare and it’ll
never be okay because I want more than anything to have you see the way I love
A single cool tear slipped past Dean’s cheekbone. Without a
word, he maneuvered himself from his chair to kneeling beside Cas. With a heavy
heart, Dean reached up and took his hand in his own. “Castiel, I don’t need to
Cas sniffled, calming himself. “What do you-“
“I hear every smile you have. I hear every sigh and little
gasp from your lips. I don’t need to see you to know that you love me. Just as
you don’t need to hear me say it to know that I love you. Jesus Christ, Cas, I…”
Without hesitating Dean reached his hand toward the breathing he was so tuned
into. His fingers cautiously brush Cas’ stubble. “I love you.”
Dean didn’t need to see to know his friend was smiling. He didn’t
need to open his eyes to know that Cas was staring right at him, right into
him. And he sure as hell didn’t need his sight to lean forward and press their
“Let’s get out of here.” Dean whispered against tear-soaked
Cas nodded, clinging to Dean’s shirt. “Is it true that sex
with a blind person is quite mind-blowing?”
That, that was why Dean loved Cas so much. “You can tell me
that answer tomorrow morning, sweetheart.”
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