UGH I’m In Such A Mood Right Now!!! IDK wHAt my deal IS (i ithink i’m manic i guess? idk i dont really get manic usually.. i just feel like there’s eight Big Hamsters scrounging aaround in my brain for some small semblance of a personality)
maybe because im seeing the doctor my mum
(basically forced) persuaded (?) me to go see tomorrow. and like. idk. idk. IDK :V
I’ve Been So Consistently Knocked Back By Doctors regarding mental health stuff (that comic i saw earlier about the goat going to see differetnt doctors abt their mental health and getting not taken seriously is like Story Of Mine Life Too Friend) so yea im like. how do i even make someone take Me Seriously.
(when i dont take myself seriously)
NAH BUT LIKE IT IS SERIOUS i seriously Want to be taken seriously. and i want serious help. but it’s just idK! i feel like i need to be trained in the art of being taken seriously. because, i default to happy bright chirpy format (also laugh compulsively at serious shit 2 do w myself) and that doesn’t convey the GRAVITY of my situation. lmfao.
but anyway. if this one tomorrow doesn’t go smooth then im moving out like next week and i can go see a doc of My Own Choosing and i can talk to them instead.