i’ll just step outside of my comfort zone here and say that the first person i liked was jimmy fallon because i thought he was funny at first in some parody things and then i liked him and then everyone figured out that i liked him and then i was really embarrassed and that made me not like him anymore somehow.
i was like 13 at the time, idk
apparently i was staring at a picture of him too much by accident and my dad was like “hey she likes him look at her staring at him” and the entire family was sitting in the same room and that is probably why i refuse to let anyone know if i like anyone because no
one of the people i still like is the singer of lifehouse and i will always like him and i don’t care who knows that because i think everyone knows anyway but i think a lot of other people like him so idk if that counts. although i’ve never made a blog about him. yet.
one of the more normal teenager crush things i had was when i was like 14 or 15 and that was the jonas brothers
i can’t remember who else i liked but i do remember for most of my life i’ve always been like “oh no i like this person that everyone seems to think is ugly for some reason, i can’t let them know because that’s weird”
i should also point out that when i started posting phil stuff here, i did not like him that way, he’s just a great person and his music is the best and he would just be the greatest person to have as a best friend or something and i’ve always felt bad about his divorces and the songs about it and i just really liked him as a person and not as a crush kind of thing
but it didn’t take long for that to change, i can say that i 100% like him in every way now
probably the main reason i refuse to let anyone know who i like irl is because a lot of my family would talk about other people dating and be like “wow why is she dating him he’s so ugly that’s disgusting” and they’d make fun of people for how they looked a lot and i always felt bad because people can like whoever they want and they shouldn’t have other people that have nothing to do with it judging them for their own life choices and opinions
and sometimes somebody would be like “well maybe he has a good personality or money” as if that’s the only reason anyone could like the person
why do people make it sound like there’s 0% chance that anyone could find a person physically attractive just because of their own opinion
tbh i’d rather personality over looks, but it’s not a fact that some people only have one or the other
it just really angers me when people act like opinions don’t exist
i am sorry, i’m apparently in a ranting mood now, i feel like i barely answered the original question and the subject shifted a bit and i’m just posting everything that comes to mind