so this is what my life is now

I know you love me now - but one day you won’t and that’s what terrifies me. Hearing the words serves only as a reminder of what I have to live my life without.
I’ve already lost so much… and you wonder why I’m so afraid.
You don’t understand; telling me you love me means I still have more to lose.

It’s so weird that you become so dependent on someone’s presence in your life that when it’s gone you feel so lost and don’t know what to do. That’s how i feel about ethan and grayson. I go to sleep smiling because of them and i wake up smiling because of them. I’ve gotten used to looking forward everyday to their snaps, tweets and videos and then fangirling over them with you guys. They are a major source of my happiness and I’m not gonna lie, now that they are having a hard time i feel like my days pass by insignificantly, wasted. I know it’s not healthy to live your life through someone else’s but at the moment that is how I feel. It’s only been a few days but it feels like it’s been a month.
I guess you really do miss the sun only when it starts to snow. It’s been cloudy for the past days and i hope somehow the sun will be able to shine through.
I miss our boys so much, i am constantly thinking about them, i want them to take as much time as they need and even though i live for Tuesdays i wouldn’t want a video this week. I don’t want them to force themselves anymore for us

I’m in the first session of my grad program right now for education and I’m in this class called “Teaching in the Middle School” and so we had to write this paper reflecting on our middle school experiences. And honestly? I had about as good a middle school experience as anyone could hope to have. I was loved, I was protected, I had friends, I loved my teachers and they loved me, my parents cared about my education and me as a person, I was challenged by my material, I was happy. The fact that I know I’m an outlier breaks my heart. 

old people always talk about having a mid life crisis but ive already had like 5 and im not even 30

anonymous asked:

Eva... are you really over with supergirl? :/ you're one of my favorite blogs and i only want the best for you, and i want you to do whatever is good for you. I need you to know that.

Hey nonnie. Look, right now I’m done. They will be taking away the love of my life Maggie Sawyer and I’m so sad and pissed about that now… if the new eps were airing right now I would watch only the first one or two till Maggie leaves and I would drop that show so fast even Flash would be amazed. This doesn’t mean I wont be reblogging Supergirl content tho. I might not be making it anymore and I might be learning whats happening only on tumblr, but I’m pretty sure I won’t be able to completely let Alex Danvers go… so… yeah.
Thank you nonnie for those kind words. They mean a world to me ❤. Take care and stay hydrated :)

anonymous asked:

So um, do you think MCU Spidey, when he gets older maybe, will start taking pics for the Bugle? Oh! And what do you think are the weirdest things Peter has seen while out on patrol. How many times a day does he think "This is my life now"

I don’t know if the Bugle exists in the MCU. I don’t foresee money or employability being as big of an issue for MCU!Peter like it is in the comics (considering Peter has Tony in his corner, and a far more impressive CVS), so he might not have to turn to photography. And MCU!Tony would probably do something - legally or antagonistically -  if someone like Jameson was running his mouth about Peter on a national platform (especially considering that said slander has terrible, real-world consequences in the comics). I mean, maybe? But I would say probably not. 

And GOD, my dude, every other hour. Twice an hour. Half a dozen times an hour. Big cities are weird, NYC doubly so, without even factoring in things like mutants and cape chasers and everything else. “I guess this is just my life now” is Peter Parker’s MANTRA

submission from @tenkotenkotenn

thanks for sharing, I think @tenkotenkotenn


Look who just sent me a text!

Maddy McAlister??

What should I say?

Just play it cool.

Welcome to the world inside your phone

where everyone is expected to act one way their whole life.

Aww… snap!

Ow.

My name is Gene

and I’m supposed to be a “meh”.

Mehh.

You know, like “meh, who cares?”

My problem is I have more than one emotion.

Check this out!

Huh, huh?

Ha ha ha!

Son, please tell me

you weren’t laughing just now.

What if you get sent out on the phone

making the wrong face?

Dad, I’ll make the right face

then I’ll finally fit in.

Meh.

Sweetie, you’re so handsome when you make that face.

I think he’s ready, Mel.

Meh.

That’s our user, Alex.

We have an income text!

We are go for meh!

Who, me?

What’s he doing?

He’s making the wrong face!

Huh, what the heck?

Welcome to the loser lounge where the Emojis

who never get used hang out.

Wassup hi five?

I’m an Emoji

I gotta have some sort of purpose here.

I’m gonna help you.

We need to get off the phone and find the source code.

Then I can fit in!

Let’s roll!

Bye, Felicia.

First we have to get through this-

Firewall.

What’s Alex’s girlfriend’s name again?

It was…

Tina.

Access denied.

Karen

Sarah

I want to say Lupita,

but that doesn’t feel right now that I’m saying out loud.

I think you’re pretty cool just the way you are.

Wow!

Nobody leaves the phone!

Delete them!

My feelings are huge.

Maybe I’m meant to have more than just one emotion.

Where am I??

Candy Crush!

Divine! Sweet!

Tasy! Delicious!

Urrgh, I’m never eating another piece of candy ever again.

High five, don’t do it.

Don’t you do it. It’s already been in there once.

Ugh.

[toilet flush]

Okay, son. What do we do after we go potty?

Should we wash our hands?

Ha ha ha!

We’re number two!

anonymous asked:

"uh guys he’s so ripped like we knew this from pictures and stuff but we didn’t KNOW he is fucking SHREDDED and he was wearing THE TIGHTEST JEANS I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE and i would like to thank god and also jesus because i’m dead now" You totally just made my life! My partner is looking at me like "wtf are you that grinning like that for?" and I'm just like "I can't...I just can't." I'm so happy you got to meet him and see him doing what he does best live! And he was nice to top it off!

he’s

so cut

like i literally don’t know how anyone has muscles as defined as his calf muscles were or where the FUCK you get pants that are THAT CLINGY like jesus christ it was. a revelation.

there’s a few pictures floating around of him in the fencing uniform but like. as tight as that looks it’s NOTHING compared to what he was wearing for the first four acts like holy shit

[i’m still sort of processing that he is real and we made eye contact and he was NICE and said my NAME and shook my HAND and i’m DYING]

ok so, it turns out that i love drawing altean lance,, a lot

You were my first friend


i just finished hxh for the first time
is there a way to keep on living

i keep trying to memorize every detail of the moments i live in. in the soreness of my legs from standing so long at a concert, the chill of the night, the patterns of a tablecloth, the oily texture in my mouth after eating fried bananas. i keep trying to memorize the feelings, the quiet contentedness, the laughter, the excitement. i keep trying to memorize the people, their smiles, the way they speak, what makes them laugh. i’m constantly on the cusp of the next part of my life and that’s just so.. strange. but it makes it so much easier to find happiness no matter what’s happening to me, in a way? because i’m already kind of looking at life with those rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, simply because i know these are times i’ll never be able to live again, and these are people i might not always have, and that makes it so much easier to appreciate everything i might miss later. 

2

My heart is pierced by Cupid;

I disdain all glittering gold.

There is nothing can console me

But my jolly sailor bold.
___

I’m trying to fight my art block and I received some lovely suggestions I’m going to draw.

Mer!Hanzo and Pirate!McCree was one of these.
@rebeza and @finchworks are my inspirations and I look up to their designs and AUs ‘cause wow.

Have you ever seen a prettier Hanzo?

3

Take this sinking boat and point it home. We’ve still got time.
Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice. You’ll make it now.

4

Yixing + plushies and kisses

How Dan and Phil probably broke up #44
  • *after some really good sex*
  • Dan: God, that was amazing
  • Phil: I guess you could say that was wonderPHIL

Wow, I can’t believe Blizzard introduced Jetstream Sam to Overwatch!

Jokes aside, I love Hanzo’s new skin.

I really hope to get it before the end of the event!

((By the way, I’ll tell you something.

Months ago I thought about this Metal Gear!Au with Cyber!McCree and Cyber!Hanzo, but I couldn’t think of a cool design for Hanzo.

And guess what Blizz made now?
I’m so happy! ‧º·(˚T∇T)‧º·˚ ))