Hi Pia. Just wanted to say I'm sending strength and compassion your way. So sorry you're going through so much.
Thanks so much anon <3
It’s been pretty hectic lately, I can do with all the strength and compassion, I’ve just visited the hospital three days in a row while simultaneously dealing with a Mega Cold (you’d think it was the flu, but it’s definitely a separate virus, just…not one that’s interested in leaving or making my life any easier).
And I gotta say, sitting in a waiting room for an hour waiting for a neurosurgeon to see you, while some tiny little gremlin in the back of your head is turning a tap behind your nose that’s slowly turning you into a faucet is NOT actually my idea of a good time, lol.
But actually, all that being said, I’m doing okay anon. :) A bit weary, but what’s new there? Today, the neurosurgeon said: ‘you’re quite philosophical, aren’t you?’ And I said: ‘what do you mean?’ and he said: ‘well, most people with your condition and tumours would be anxious or terrified, and here you are, smiling and cheerful, and you seem very calm.’ And while I thought ‘yes, I am very good at hiding my anxiety and terror’ I also considered that my smiles were genuine. I don’t think that makes me philosophical (I think studying Tao and other belief systems might do that), I just think you know, here are some good things from today:
* The most gorgeous light on the drive home, as the sun began to set behind rain clouds that were slowly sailing away.
* The guy (teenager) in front of us was super chatty with his mum in the waiting room. And it was obvious he was both dealing with something pretty major, but that he also had a really good relationship with his mum, and they showed a lot of love for each other.
* The latest Manchester Orchestra album is fucking incredible.
* We saw at least 300 kangaroos today. We pass a local national reserve on our way to and from the hospital that’s quite close to our house, and they were all close to the fence. Happy kangaroos.
* Massive landworks going on (bulldozing and such) and while I’m sad for the bushland, I also know it’s to build a major arterial road to Ellenbrook (where I live) which is sorely needed, and it’s cool seeing people come together and do these epic feats.
So yeah, there are good things. :) *sends strength and compassion your way too*