so this is what disappointment feels like

TVD- 8x09- All I Need

So, It’s been a while since a TVD episode has struck an emotion in me. But, this one did me in.  For the first time since season 6, I have found the desire to really write an episode post, I mean, I wrote one earlier this season but it was crap, kind of like the episode itself. But this episode was not crap at all. I think we are well enough into the season where we know more things about the sirens and what their plan is that I can actually appreciate it and find it interesting. I am liking the bell storyline and how Matt’s family ties into it. Stefan with or without his humanity is always a big disappointment so that felt right. But the Delena this episode was so on point. The Miss Mystic Fall Pageant is the true foundation of Delena’s love story. It’s where Damon realized his feelings for her and its where Elena was finally honest about her feelings for him. And now it is what gives Damon the strength to resist Sybil’s influence.

“Damon, I gave you that necklace because it is as powerful and as magical as the love that you and Elena have for each other. Being here and feeling what you’re feeling proves that a love that deep and real can win over anything.” - Caroline Forbes

 The necklace that was once meant to keep Damon away from Elena, is the very thing that is drawing him back to her. And their love for each other does win over anything. It has before. It always has. It won over Elena’s love for Stefan. It won over all the doubt created by the sire bond. It won over a spell casted to bring Elena and Stefan ‘s doppelgängers together. It won Alaric’s compulsion for Elena to forget her love for him. So, of course, their love will over a evil narcissistic siren. Because they always find their way back to each other.

“The fact that you’re telling me this proves you care. Somewhere deep down in that part of you where Elena is still buried. Find that place, Damon. Fight for her. Or spend the rest of eternity trying to figure out what happened to the best part of you. It’s your choice.” - Caroline Forbes

Guys, I literally have no words so I am just going to explain to you the reaction that I had to this line. A literal blubber was made. Tears started to fall. Followed by laughter because… why the hell am I so pathetic? Followed by a more tears. But there was just something about this line that made me break down. That made be realized just how much I missed Delena. That reminded me why I love them so much. I haven’t felt that in a very long time. 

“You think this is where your love story began, but the truth is, Damon, Elena never would have looked at you twice if I had been there that day.” - Stefan Salvatore

I don’t know what exactly the point of this line was but here is the way I see it. Stefan wasn’t there that day. Damon was. Those are that facts. It was choices that Stefan made for himself that lead him to not being there for Elena. Abandoning her. Eventually leading to losing her for good. And it was Damon’s choice and quick thinking to be there for her. Rescuing her. Eventually leading to a night where they would reminisce about that moment and dance by a fireplace. That is what happened. And that is what the truth is.

“And even though I can’t feel a damn thing for Elena, the more you try and push her out, the more I understand she’s never going away. And there’s not enough room in my head for both of you.” - Damon Salvatore

I love this so much. Damon is fighting for Elena here because even with his humanity off he still understands that “There are just some things you can’t erase.” And experiencing and remembering the time that he realized that he was in love with Elena Gilbert made him realize now why and how he can push Sybil out. And its because Elena isn’t just in his mind. She is also in his heart. And that is the reason that Elena is never going away.

Don’t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don’t tear me down
You’ve opened the door now, don’t let it close.

anonymous asked:

I love the blog and everything you guys do! If you have the time, can I have some Stackson fics? I'll accept any and all, but no-werewolves AU would be great. So would anything where Stiles and Jackson were casual, even then become serious! Thanks again!

Human Stackson coming right up. - Anastasia

Originally posted by fyeahstackson

change room talks by ericaismeg, foxerica (ericaismeg)

(1/1 I 1,628 I Teen)

“Checking me out again, Stilinski?” Jackson mutters, trying to catch Stiles looking at him. Only Stiles is bent down, untying his shoes. Why does Jackson feel a little disappointed? Maybe it’s because he likes when Stiles checks him out. It’s an ego boost. At least that’s what he tries to tell Danny and Mason.

drive my Porsche means I love you by tryslora

(1/1 I 1,648 I Mature)

Jackson doesn’t let anyone drive his Porsche, until he hands his keys to Stiles. 

No Plans by hazelNuts

(1/1 I 1,824 I Teen)

It started by accident. Or rather, an accident. Stiles managed to destroy his sunglasses and because Stiles was, well, Stiles, he kept forgetting to buy new ones. After almost a week of listening to Stiles complain to Scott about the sun blinding him on his way home and surely getting into an accident, Jackson had shoved a pair of his own sunglasses in Stiles’ backpack when Stiles wasn’t looking.

Chasing Cars, Oh how you hit me baby by MyNameIsSam

(1/1 I 3,215 I General)

Stiles got hit by a car. So far his day is going good.

It’s Not the Size (Well, Yeah, It’s the Size) by tryslora

(1/1 I 3,226 I Explicit)

Jackson never noticed what Stiles was hiding under his clothes; finding out makes Jackson want to take the next step in their relationship RIGHT NOW.

Little Miss Matchmaker by clotpolesonly

(1/1 I 8,211 I General)

Little Miss Elizabeth Jacqueline Whittemore might just be the perfect child. Teaching kindergarten is not easy, especially with Scott complaining about his (very) pretty-boy jerk of a coworker at every opportunity, but with a student like Miss Jackie, Stiles can probably make it through.

Howling Hills by lazybug

(10/? I 17,902 I Not Rated)

Jackson’s family owns a country club, and Scott, Allison, and Stiles are lucky enough to spend the summer working there. Jackson is a dick, but maybe he isn’t all that bad in the end.

Scowls and Sarcasm by dr_girlfriend

(16/16 I 26,054 I 

anonymous asked:

School is more important than blogging

I know that but yesterday I got what two maybe 3 post? And I feel like I’m doing something wrong because it used to be a post every half an hour and I’m not getting much sleep from school but I dont want to take a break from tumblr because last time I left for like a week and a half and I missed so much and yesterday I found out that ive spent so little time on all my favorite peoples blogs and I just feel like I’m weak or disappointing someone

anonymous asked:

I'd really like your opinion on who would be the best chocobro for me? I'm awkward and kinda shy but still talkative and I adore animals and lean on technology more since life seems to disappoint all the time. But I crave cuddles all the time and sleep too bc I never have enough apparently. But I just want attention and love. Basically I need whoever u think fits me. Any ideas?

Okay, so my immediate reaction was Prompto. The boy is a literal ray of sunshine, but he knows what it’s like to be shy. When you’re together, though, both of you forget that sometimes talking to people is hard because carrying a conversation together is so easy. He’s so outgoing that he makes it feel effortless, and even though he could totally talk your ear off, he’d know when to shut up.

Also, he LOVES animals so much. Chocobos are literally his bffs, and in the anime he nearly wrecks the Regalia just so he can go save a puppy that was injured in the middle of the road. I can picture you two cuddling up on the couch and watching videos of kittens or puppies for literal hours until you fall asleep with your head on his shoulder.

Prompto’s definitely got a lot of love to give, and he’ll make sure you know it. He pulls out all the stops: takes selfies with you all the time, picks pretty flowers for you because they make him think of you, always holds the door, offers to let you take pictures with his camera, and he’ll always, ALWAYS be down for cuddles.

You’d become his entire world, and he wouldn’t be afraid to constantly remind you by hugging you and saying that he loves you.

anonymous asked:

Why did it look like victor was disappointed in Yuuri in the whole episode and it seemed like he enjoyed yurios skating more :( that must have sucked for Yuuri 😥😥

I don’t know what are you talking about, because Victor show us so many wonderful expressions and emotions as always, just look: 

You know what I see? It’s passion. He feels very passionate about Yuuri’s performance, even with the failures, isn’t something that is put to discussion, is actually something very simple imo. 

Now, this is Victor towards Yurio’s performance: 


We don’t know that much about this but it’s very probable that Victor sees a part of him in Yurio and that’s something that is reaffirmed by Yakov in this panel:

Plus, about the Chris one is a different thing, being the first time he “sees his rival from the stands”.


Chris is a rival in Victor’s eyes, it has been like that since they began to share the podium, and in fact, was quite clear in the previous episode.

And at last but not least, how feels Victor towards Yuuri’s performance?

I really need to say more? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Secrets of the Signs

Aries: Can’t handle fighting and losing people. They act like they’re happy to let people go, but in reality they regret fighting and want those people back, they hate loosing people that mean something to them.

Taurus: Is afraid that no one actually wants them around, and that they’re easily forgotten about to the people who mean the most to them, is constantly wondering if they mean anything to anyone.

Gemini: They try so hard to fit in and be friends with everyone they change who they are themselves, but would rather change than be alone, because being alone is extremely scary to them.

Cancer: Tries to act happy all the time. They feel like if they let others see them upset, they’re disappointing them. Needs to make sure everyone around them doesn’t worry about them, no matter what the cost.

Leo: Believes they are unlovable and that everything that goes wrong is their fault. They try to act tough and like they don’t care, but deep inside, they are probably the most sensitive person you will ever Meet.

Virgo: Has trouble handling life. They may seem like they have everything under control and in order, but in reality they have trouble making it every hour of the day. It’s hard for them to stay positive.

Libra: Can’t be without a lover because they need to invest time in others so they don’t have to focus on themselves. Hates having to deal with their own problems so they hide them and pretend everything is fine.

Scorpio: Is scared of getting close to people. They love being trusted by others but have a hard time trusting others. Are afraid one day this will push everyone away but they don’t know how to fix it.

Sagittarius: Wants only love and to be loved. When they aren’t with someone, they start to feel hopeless and like they aren’t good enough for anyone.

Capricorn: Invests themselves in trying to get to the top, so they tend to not have deep connections with anyone. They’re afraid because of this that they’ll be alone forever.

Aquarius: Doesn’t feel emotions like they think they should. They get into relationships and don’t feel anything for awhile, and because of this they believe there’s something wrong with them and hate themselves for it.

Pisces: Actually has no idea what they’re doing in life and day dreams to make themselves feel better. Is lost and confused but acts like they have everything under control and hates asking for help.

1. I think I wake up thinking of you. i check my phone notifications and even if I’m too tired to know what I’m looking for yet, when I don’t see your name I’m disappointed.

2. What’s it like? to have someone be so honest with you, all the time. how does it feel to know everything?

3. I can never tell if you look at me anymore. i want you to. i want it to stop hurting when you don’t.

4. I almost bought a new bra this weekend but I didn’t because I have no one left to show it to. i’ve run out of places to go when I’m lonely.

5. i bet you guys are good together. i bet she doesn’t hurt you like I did.

6. did i? did I hurt you? there’s no blood on my hands. my conscience is clear.

7. i wonder if you can say the same.

—  i bet you can, there’s no one at fault– lily rain

After reading the Miraculous Ladybug Christmas Special description, it got me thinking about how Marinette will feel having accidentally caused yet another person to be akumatized. 

So what if when school starts again and this two other holders appear she just kinda stands down. She’s feeling guilty and insecure and has convinced herself it is best if she lets them handle it so that she can do no more harm. 

Alya and Chloe are both of course very sad about Ladybug’s absence but Chat, damn, Chat Noir is going out of his freaking mind. He’s worried sick. He’s angry. He’s trying to figure out what he possibly did to make his lady bail on him like that. 

It’s not any better at school. Marinette sits through Alya and Adrien discussing Ladybug’s absence time and time again. Both worried. Both hiding how desperate they are to find the truth. She only further feels like a disappointment to them too. 

 "I think they don’t need her,“ she whispers one day, looking at her hands like they are suddenly very interesting. Alya and Adrien shut up and stare at her like they can’t believe what she just said. "I- I mean… they are doing fine without her…" 

 "Dude, how can you say that?” Nino blinks. 

 "Paris needs Ladybug, Mari,“ Alya says with a frown. 

 "And they need her,” Adrien adds with a solemn nod. 

“What for? They are doing a great job and no ones accidentally getting akumatized. I think they are even better without her." 

The silence is thick between the four kids. The bell rings and Marinette takes it as her cue to leave. No one follows. She wishes her friends understood, but they can’t possibly know what that responsibility is like. 

By now, Chat Noir is close to desperate. He has ran out of ideas. He knows Ladybug would at least have told him if she was leaving town for a while. She would not bail on him without a word like his mother did. Not his Lady. If she’s in danger or captured by Hawkmoth he has no way to tell. He doesn’t know her civilian identity, not even her phone number. 

So he does the only thing he can think of, after the latest akuma has been defeated –butterfly saved in Volpina’s box, waiting to be purified by his Lady– he goes straight to the news anchor and says he has a message. He looks straight at the camera and all he can say is "I’m sorry, bugaboo. Please, come back." 

 Marinette is watching from home, she’s always watching from home with her heart in her throat praying no one gets hurt. Chat’s message makes her want to scream in frustration. He’s sorry? He’s sorry, after what she did? She doesn’t understand. It makes no sense. He should know better than anyone… 

So Ladybug comes out for patrol three days later. Because at least she needs to clear things up with Chat, tell him it’s not his fault. He’s waiting for her in their usual spot. As soon as he sees her his eyes light up and he nearly tackled her with a hug. 

 "My Lady! I was so-” he chokes a little and Marinette’s heart falls to her feet. 

“I’m sorry, Chaton." 

 "Where have you been? I thought maybe Hawkmoth-” Oh. 

“No, silly kitty, I’m fine,” she says stepping out of his hold. “I just- There was something I had to deal with." 

 He looks at her with that cat-like curiosity, tilts his head waiting for further explanation that never comes. Then a smile breaks through his frown as he holds her hand. 

 "Come! You need to meet the rest of the team! They will be so happy to see you!" 

 "Yeah… heard you’ve been doing a very good job together,” she mumbles. 

Chat stops in his tracks and gives her one meaningful look. 

 "My lady, there is no one in the world that could pawsibly take your place.“ 

The smile he gets in return is still a little watery, still a bit shaky just like in their first adventure. But it’s a smile from his Ladybug and for the first time in weeks Adrien can breathe again.

People on the Oct .& Nov. rosters:

This is going to be a disaster.. So many newbies.. where are the leaders? No Alex, no Ali, no JJ, no Hope, no Pinoe, no HAO, no Whit??? What’s the point of even playing??This is going to blow up in our faces….If I look up ‘disappointment’ on the dictionary it’s have your pic Jillian! We’re going to suck! Who’s going to score and lead the team!?!? 

Christen Press 5 goals and 3 assists later…..


Okay but what they don’t tell you about growing up with strict parents is that you develop this self-possessing need for approval. It literally makes you feel so empty when you so much as think you disappointed someone. It could be a complete stranger, somebody you’ve never met before in your life and if you detect even the slightest hint of disapproval it will completely destroy you. What they don’t tell you about growing up with strict parents is that you are afraid to have real relationships with anyone out of FEAR for what people will think of you. WHAT THEY DONT TELL YOU IS IF YOU GROW UP WITH STRICT PARENTS THE IDEA OF FREEDOM WILL ACTUALLY SCARE YOU BECAUSE YOU HAVE NEVER KNOWN WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE. why? Simply because we have never felt like we deserve it, even if we do. It’s unobtainable. We are so scared of people disapproving of us that we subconsciously limit our own happiness.

I’m very sad because judging from the posts on my dash I feel the fandom, or the part of the fandom I feel a part of, is going to change a lot. Many people will probably turn away, disappointed, and I get where this is coming from.

But I will stay, I liked this ep and the last one, and despite all the justified criticism, I still love the show and I am here and not leaving anytime soon -

I also think that Moftiss really let go a fantastic opportunity to make Johnlock more explicit because it is there, very much so, it’s what this is all about, for God’s sakes!


Request: ‘could you possibly write something where Spencer is your roommate and one day you catch him staring at you so you decide to tease him and it takes a while bit he figures out you have been purposefully teasing him? Then maybe some smut?? ;););)’ KEEP THE REQUESTS COMING GUYS! 

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You have always had a no pants rule in your flat. Well, YOU have. Spencer has never been so keen. When he moved in with you, you told him he was welcome to slump around in his boxers. But your roommate always opted for full pajamas, much to your disappointment. You would give anything to see what was under those pajamas, as living in such close proximity to Dr. Reid brought your suppressed feelings out in full force. He, on the other hand, was typically oblivious. 

So when you walked into the kitchen in your usual oversized t-shirt and panties, it was like any other normal day. But as you bent down to reach a low cupboard, you noticed that Spencer’s eyes were in fact on your ass, not his newspaper. Doing his classic lip bite, you saw him shift uncomfortably in his seat as he undressed you with his eyes. You smirked to yourself. 

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01/08/17: Second Year, Second Semester

I finally got enrolled! (yey) First semester might not be the good sem for me, I experienced many things like failing an exams and quizzes, do not sleep for a day, keep on reviewing but still got the least score in the class, tortured my brain and many more! I felt so down during those time but I thank God for giving me a very supportive family and friends! :) Luckily I passed our last sem and now that I’m already on my second year, second sem I feel so motivated to pursue and finish what I started. I can no longer disappoint those people who believed in me! Tomorrow is the start of the wracking-of-brains again and I will do whatever it takes to pass this semester! Anw, here are my subjects for this sem. Let’s keep fighting! :D

On Yuri and Viktor learning how to build a life together

I’m not disappointed that Yuri came in second. The show has never really been about Yuri’s journey in competitive skating. It’s about Yuri’s and Viktor’s journeys in life. They both start the series feeling like they’ve been focusing so much on skating that they have lost track of what makes them happy. They both know something is missing in their lives and are considering leaving skating to go find it.

That’s what the show is about. It’s about Viktor and Yuri finding their joy again. Viktor and Yuri make each other feel more alive than they’ve felt in a long time, maybe ever. They realize that, in each other, they’ve found what they were looking for.

Viktor’s top priority is staying with Yuri, but Yuri’s anxiety doesn’t allow him to see that. Yuri thinks Viktor would be happier off skating without him. Viktor has found a new depth of happiness in the last eight months with Yuri. He doesn’t want that to change. At the beginning of episode 12, Yuri thinks that Viktor wants to go back to skating, and Yuri doesn’t want to hold him back, but also doesn’t want to skate without Viktor as his coach, so Yuri wants to retire. Viktor doesn’t want to skate if Yuri’s not skating, so when Viktor finds out Yuri wants to retire, Viktor wants to retire. Through the rest of the episode Yuri comes to understand how important he is to Viktor and realizes that he doesn’t need to sacrifice Viktor and let him go live his dreams. They can live their dreams together. Viktor realizes that what he has with Yuri won’t change if he returns to skating and that with Yuri by his side he can love skating again.

By skating together, they both find a love for the sport that they had lost. They’re both so used to fighting alone on the ice, and a big part of why they were both considering ending their skating careers at the beginning of the season is because they were tired of fighting alone. Skating together, fighting together on the ice, is bringing them new joy and fulfillment in the sport that they haven’t experienced before. I see people writing that Viktor’s and Yuri’s sudden change in plans from retiring to continuing their careers came out of the blue, but I think it’s perfectly in character. They both still don’t want to skate like they’ve been skating in the past. They’ve just come to the realization that they get to do this together, and they’re so ready to do this together.

So the climax of the season isn’t the medal podium. It’s Yuri and Viktor figuring out how to build a life together.

Yuri on Ice Episode 7


This show. THIS SHOW.

I know how you feel, Yuri. I woke up an hour before I had to just for this episode. (And much like you I was not disappointed) 

I was expecting random bondage for about 0.5 seconds… Not gonna lie.


It’s becoming increasingly obvious how Victor has no idea what to do in a relationship of any kind, and it’s adorable.

…what….what were you expecting to happen??? IT LITERALLY WENT JUST LIKE YOU PLANNED WHY ARE YOU SO UNPREPARED.

I love Yuri.

Literally everyone knows they’re dating.

He touched the butt head. Yuri’s magic happy button XD

Yuri discovers his inner sadist. The relationship will never be the same.

I just love this face. Victor Nikiforov in Home Alone on Ice.

I think he’s got a pretty wild imagination, if you know what I mean. ^_~ (I think he’s probably such a kinky little shit, seriously. No idea why)

*chariots of fire plays*





Victor you asshole. Lol

what’s interesting about araki’s commentary on how he didn’t want josuke to feel bad for kira is that josuke kinda ends up feeling bad for kira regardless? not enough to forgive him and not enough to override any other feelings of disgust and anger there, but what really strikes me in the end is josuke’s reaction to kira being run over is almost…disappointment.

it’s made clear that josuke prefers non-lethal measures, and even when he’s doing something pretty cruel (i.e. booking terunosuke), it’s never at the cost of a life, at least not entirely. even doing something like killing a rat seems to make him uncomfortable, so by extension it’s only naturally that this sort of empathy for life isn’t extinguished even when a serial killer is involved (like angelo, who he also refused to kill properly).

in this way, it makes him a clear contrast to kira, but it also adds to the almost bittersweet air of part 4′s ending, because it was clearly an ending josuke wanted to avoid if possible.

Why You Are Beautiful.

Look at yourself in the mirror, and at first perhaps you will feel disappointment, shame, even disgust, because that’s what you were taught to feel. But allow yourself to feel these feelings, and know they are not “you,” only old energies moving.

And let thoughts appear in the mind, like “ugly” and “fat” and “bad” and “broken,” and know that they are just words and sounds, familiar and old. Let the mind chatter away, like so many birds.

You have to love yourself by also loving the part that doesn’t love yet or trust yet.

Allow all of you to be reflected now. All of it. Begin to see yourself through the eyes of a loving mother who sees you as precious even if you have pimples or deformities or rashes or birthmarks, even if you have half a face or missing limbs. You have to see yourself through these bigger eyes, eyes of pure loving attention, eyes that do not judge but at the same time allow all judgments to be there. 

Your eyes have been too small up until now. You were taught by people who didn’t love themselves, and you got infected. Until you looked at yourself today. 

Your medicine now is naked, choiceless attention, being as spacious as the mirror itself, making room for thoughts and feelings but not mistaking them for the truth.

Your beauty lies in your willingness to feel, and see beyond all labels. Hold the totality of the image the way the mirror holds it, not resisting, not hiding, not shaming, not trying to adapt yourself to some secondhand idea of beauty or perfection. See how your imperfections are so perfect in this light; your wrinkles and blotches are works of divine art, fascinating and real, and so human. See. 

You are beautiful, without changing a thing; your beauty is not earned.

  ~  adapted from Jeff Foster

Imagine Loki has to raise his two children alone because their mother is dead. He tries to be as good father as he can, always spending time with his children. The older in just like his father; gifted in wielding seidr, but the younger one can’t use magic at all. Loki doesn’t notice how he starts to always spend time with the older one, training him to become even better than himself. The younger one feels left out, and that Loki is favouring the older one, making him angry and jealous (like young Loki). He starts acting out to get attention from his father, but Loki just gets angry too. Eventually, it goes so bad the younger one doesn’t feel loved and he runs away from home, leaving a note behind where he says Loki doesn’t have to deal with a disappointment anymore and can just be happily with the older child. Loki realises what he has done and goes after him.