so this is my contribution to the fandom

As a blog with a meager 39 followers I probably don’t have the authority or the audience to propose this idea, but what do you all in the TGP fandom think about doing a secret santa kind of thing this year? I’m pretty new to the fandom so I don’t know if y’all have done this kind of thing in the past, but judging by my experience in the Classic Doctor Who fandom they can be pretty fun! We could give anything from fanart to fics to gifsets or whatever else people could contribute.

Just throwing out the idea…

Status update

Slowly, slowly, coming back around to rejoining the fandom. Between fire ravaging my hometown in October, a (thankfully unrelated) death in the family a week or two later, and some interesting interpersonal/relationship developments since then—I’ll be taking steps to resolve those tomorrow, but I’ll need all the luck I can get to do so—I’ve had my hands full lately.

I’d like to return to the fandom sooner rather than later, but it’s likely that my only contributions will be queued Texts from Bakumatsu for some time. My agenda in the coming days is as follows:

  • restock the queue with Texts from Bakumatsu
  • answer and post the remaining submissions for the latest ask meme (yes, there are actually still several of these to go…)
  • answer and queue the few remaining Truth or Truths I never got around to writing out; I’m not sure how long it will be before I open them up again
  • respond to the various prompts and requests that have been in my drafts forever—lowest priority due to taking more time/energy
  • come up with a 1000-follow celebration??? holy shit

Until then, I’m feeling socially stronger despite being out-of-practice in terms of creativity, so this blog may become slightly more personal until my fandom feet are back under me. If you want to talk to me or ask about anything [not just the things that’ve been going down this past month or two, but legitimately anything], on or off anon, my inbox is open as always. I love you all, and I hope to be back in the swing of things soon!

P. S. If you haven’t heard already, mobile users are advised to turn off the recently implemented “Best Stuff First” option to avoid missing out on new content from creators such as myself. There is also now a petition to remove this update, so your signature would be appreciated if you haven’t signed it already!

9

I’d like to apologize in advance.

IT AU where everything is the same, except nothing’s the same and this is terrible i’M SORRY.


Based on @itseddietozier‘s post.


edit: It’s come to my attention that I’ve caused some…mild discomfort in the IT community, and while I would like to say I regret my decision, I’m basically having the time of my life reading through all these tags and comments. You guys are great *blows kiss*

But seriously though, THANKS SO MUCH FOR OVER 5000 NOTES! I’VE NEVER FELT SO LOVED AND HATED AT THE SAME TIME??

Anonymous said: Could you maybe draw the members from MCR in dresses? (preferably revenge era aesthetic) btw I love your work!!! <3<br>

Barely recovering from their infamous battle with the hockey and lacrosse teams that shook the school, the boys soon face a new kind of obstacle: senior prom!!!
In this exciting teen drama, questions abound: What will Gerard, Mikey, Ray, and Frank wear to the dance? Who is Mikey’s mysterious date? Will Gerard get to be prom queen? Does Ray have a dark secret? Will Frank and Gerard ever get together?
But most importantly, can these four social outcasts turn the school’s hierarchy on its head and go down in high school history as the most badass group of freaks ever to crash senior prom?
Find out this summer, in I’m Not Okay (I Promise) Part II: Prom Fright!!!

theme song: Give ‘Em Hell, Kid– My Chemical Romance
well don’t i look pretty walkin’ down the street in the best damn dress i own?

homesick
vel
homesick

so I composed a song that’s, well, langst inspired, lol, and it’s set in his perspective, mainly about his homesickness and feeling inadequate…


lyrics

away in the vastness of space

light years away from the clear blue beach

and the familiar scent of sea spray


the sunrays settling on my face

sound of home’s lively chatter

and my mother’s warm embrace


if i close my eyes

I’ll be carried back

to earth, to home

to the very place i miss


I’m here, away in space

given a role i’m scared i can’t play

what is the significance

of my presence here


I’m unexceptional

so easy to replace

if i were back home

maybe i wouldn’t feel this way


if i close my eyes

I’ll be carried back

to earth, to home

to the very place i miss


yeah, I wanted to do something but, I can’t write fanfiction for shit or make funny text posts or come up with mind-blowing theories, so here’s my contribution to the vld fandom, lmao.


link to soundcloud here! it’s available for download just be sure to open soundcloud while in the desktop version of the page!! <3

8

Sheith (Takashi Shirogane/Keith) Tropes

So I just did a post about how I manage my time and my daily schedule and such, and I felt like this part is really important and was getting lost in the minutiae of my day, so I made it a separate post. I was talking about various ways in which my life is not necessarily “normal”, like how I go to bed at 7:30, which people treat as one of my eccentricities, and rightly so. But while it is weird it speaks to the crux of my life philosophy, which I’ve spoken about before as regards dealing with anon hate:

My time and attention are finite resources and they have a value I can bestow where I wish. If something is not necessary to survive, does not solve a problem, or does not provide joy, I stop doing it.

I pay my bills and do my dishes and wash my clothes because you have to do those things. I engage in activism and try to stay current on the news because I believe I have a moral duty to contribute to society, and I run because it’s good for my heart and my body. I have friendships, engage in fandom, play the ukulele, write, go to concerts and movies and art galleries because it brings me joy to do so.

Going to bed early solves a problem for me: I wasn’t doing anything useful with that time anyway, I wasn’t enjoying myself or feeling happy. If I wasn’t getting any benefit from that time, how could I put it to better use? Sleeping is beneficial, so I tried that, and it worked; I get more sleep and I don’t miss anything I can’t catch up with. Work doesn’t make me especially happy or fulfill me in ways we could all wish, but that’s okay. Work is necessary to survive, so I do it. I don’t date much because I tried dating semi-recently and the promise of future joy did not outweigh the lack of joy that dating itself brought to my life; it was painful, ugly, and boring, and so I stopped doing it. 

The dating thing may change in the future, if eventually the promise of a relationship becomes more enticing, but it’s an example of how the pursuit of happiness is non-standard, and you are allowed to weigh the cost against the payoff based on your own personal feelings, not on society’s dictates. Because it turns out when you are doing what makes you happy, when you feel joy, you could give two shits about what everyone else thinks should make you happy. 

Sometimes, what brings me joy is sitting on the couch listening to a podcast I’ve already heard ten times and playing a stupid mindless flash game; I often catch myself thinking “I could be doing something more useful, something cooler, something more active” and remind myself “But this is making me happy, and it’s what I’m capable of doing right now.”

“Does this make me happy” or, if you’re struggling with happiness, “Does this calm and soothe me” is a great metric for what you should be doing in life when you are on your own time. It’s a good way to check in with yourself and lead yourself towards a more fulfilling life on your own terms. 

If you are out at a bar with friends, stop and ask, does this make me happy? Because there is no way in which asking that does not help. If being at a bar doesn’t make you happy and if it’s the only time you see your friends, maybe it’s time for a change; you are now free to pursue something that will make you happy. If being at a bar doesn’t make you happy but your friends do, and this is one way to bond with them of many, then it’s a cost with a later benefit, and you’ve now become conscious that while you aren’t happy right this minute, you are paying into future joy. And if you like being out at a bar with friends and are having a good time, then you’ve reaffirmed to yourself that you are happy and this is where you want to be. And affirming that you are feeling joy is a great thing to do. 

You don’t have to be happy all the time – but on your own time, when work and chores and the duties of the day are done, you should devote yourself to finding joy in whatever form that takes, be it a nap or a party or a date or your kids or, I don’t know, watching people make fake food on YouTube. 

Believing that your time and attention have value and should only be bestowed on the worthy means coming to believe that you have value, which is so hard to do that I’ll take any shortcut I can get. Devoting your time time and attention only to what is necessary or what is pleasurable means learning a great deal about what you value, and I truly believe leads you to a more fulfilled life.

So when people ask me about time management, I have real tips and tricks to offer – but I think the most important think I can offer is the suggestion that whatever time you have, you should believe it has value because it is yours, and you should direct it appropriately.