so this is for all the people who followed in the past 4 5 months

Get to know me
  • 1. Name
  • 2. Age
  • 3. City that you live in
  • 4. What do most people not know about you?
  • 5. What do most people know you for?
  • 6. Hobbies
  • 7. What are your passions?
  • 8. What do you search for in a significant other?
  • 7. What are you most proud of?
  • 8. When was the last time you had a significant conversation with someone you love?
  • 9. Have you ever collected anything? What was it?
  • 10. List 10 things off of your bucket list.
  • 11. What was the last thing you learned?
  • 12. How many relationships have you been in?
  • 13. Turn ons
  • 14. Turn offs
  • 15. Favorite food
  • 16. Favorite drink
  • 17. What is the best birthday gift you have ever received?
  • 18. Are you optimistic or pessimistic?
  • 19. Do you sleep during class?
  • 20. What is the most expensive thing you own?
  • 21. What is the cheapest yet most useful thing you own?
  • 22. How many times a day on average do you check your phone?
  • 23. Text or call?
  • 24. Opinion on long distance?
  • 25. What is your definition of success?
  • 26. Favorite song?
  • 27. Favorite artist?
  • 28. Celebrity crush/crushes?
  • 29. When was the last time you read for fun?
  • 30. Favorite flower?
  • 31. What is the best gift you could receive right now?
  • 32. Any guilty pleasures?
  • 33. What is one thing you would like to change about yourself?
  • 34. What do you search for in a friend?
  • 35. How many times have you said "I love you" in the past month?
  • 36. Where did you last go other than your room/home?
  • 37. Why do bad things happen to good people?
  • 38. In your opinion, what hurts more? Being left out or being stabbed in the eye?
  • 39. How many green shirts do you own?
  • 40. Do you like anime?
  • 41. What do you invest the most time in?
  • 42. What was the name of the last book you read?
  • 43. What's the difference between loving and liking someone?
  • 44. Where are you most productive?
  • 45. List 3 things you enjoy doing with friends.
  • 46. List 3 things you enjoy doing alone.
  • 47. Do you believe world peace will ever exist?
  • 48. Do you have any allergies?
  • 49. When was the last time you cussed at someone?
  • 50. What was the last promise you made?
  • 51. What was your last dream about?
  • 52. If you won a trip to Hawaii and you could take 5 people with you, who would those 5 people be?
  • 53. How many countries have you visited?
  • 54. What is your favorite medium of art? (Music, dance, painting, etc.)
  • 56. When was the last time somebody complimented you?
  • 56. If you switched bodies with someone, how would you recognize yourself?
  • 57. Do you consider yourself mature?
  • 58. How many days in your life do you think you have wasted on tumblr?
  • 59. What is your favorite quote?
  • 60. If you started a new religion and you had to create 3 rules or commandments for your new followers to live by, what would those 3 rules be?
  • 61. What is your greatest accomplishment?
  • 62. Do you believe in the death penalty?
  • 63. What are your goals for life?
  • 64. What do you think your soulmate is doing right now?
  • 65. If you could live anywhere, where would you live? The place can be in an imaginary, fantasy, or the real world.
  • 66. What were you like in 2013?
  • 67. Do you have a job?
  • 68. Tell us a story about your childhood best friend.
  • 69. If you could change one thing about society, what would it be?
  • 70. How many all-nighters have you pulled before?
  • 71. Is tumblr your favorite website? If not, then what is your favorite website?
  • 72. What is the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars?
  • 73. Does money equal happiness?
  • 74. How many times have you experienced true happiness in your lifetime?
  • 75. How many times have you experienced true sadness in your lifetime?
  • 76. What is the funniest joke you have ever been told?
  • 77. When was the last time you looked at the news?
  • 78. If you could say one thing to the world, what would you say?
  • 79. What is your favorite animal?
  • 80. If you could earn a million dollars by pretending to be dead for 3 years, would you do it?
  • 81. What is one thing that everyone is bad at?
  • 82. What time do you normally sleep? How many hours of sleep do you usually get?
  • 83. Does age necessarily equal maturity?
  • 84. What is your favorite clothing store?
  • 85. In the winter- beanies or gloves?
  • 86. Would you rather have wings or a fish tail?
  • 87. If you had the power to erase one person from the world so that nobody remembered him or her except you, would you do it?
  • 88. What do you fear the most?
  • 89. How many digits of pi can you recite?
  • 90. If you could travel back to one year and relive it again, which year would it be?
  • 91. Describe yourself in one word.
  • 92. Describe your last victory.
  • 93. What is the weirdest thing you have ever seen?
  • 94. What is something you will never forget?
  • 95. Would you rather forget all of the past or remember everything in vivid detail?
  • 96. Have you ever broken a bone before?
  • 97. Is it harder to love or to hate somebody?
  • 98. Coffee or tea?
  • 99. What are some little things that you do that have changed your life in a positive way?
  • 100. How many hours have you spend on tumblr today?
What I learnt after losing 20kg in 3 months

1. It always starts on a high note but the key thing is to keep it going.

You see someone losing a lot of weight and suddenly you are so inspired and pumped to reach your ideal weight, or you realise that you have put on a significant amount of weight and decide to crash diet. It could even be for an upcoming important event. Usually this inspiration will last for a week or two, after which you start to give yourself a little more allowance, this is where most people fall back to where they were. It happened to me countless times.

You have to want it bad enough.

2. You have to be consistent.

Losing weight is hard af, but the important thing is to be consistent. This is what I did:

- take weekly progress photos (whenever I see how my body changes week by week I’m motivated to push on)

- weigh in weekly (I know how easy it is to be obsessed with the scale)

- follow inspiring people (this helps you more than you think)

- whenever I feel lazy to work out, which happens almost every single day, I tell myself this: ‘if you get out there and do what you have to for 30mins, you are one step closer to your goal. If not, the time will pass anyway even if you’re scrolling through Facebook.’

3. Workout

I started with swimming because it was the easiest. You don’t sweat as much, it’s easy on your knees, and it burns a shit load of calories.

After some time, I switched over from swimming to cycling HIIT on my stationary bike. After which I started doing blogilates’s PIIT28, and started hitting the gym after that.

What I’m trying to say is, change up your activities once in a while! Add some variation to your workout by keeping things interesting and you will look forward to it.

My best friend got me out of my comfort zone. I have been so unfit all my life that I wasn’t able to complete even a 2.4km jog. She dragged me along for a run and I fell in love with jogging. To be fair it happened about 6 weeks after I started working out.

It doesn’t get easier, you just get better!

You only need 30mins a day to complete your daily workout. Choose one workout, be it jogging or HIIT, and just do it!

No matter how tired I am, I make sure to get my 30mins in. Sometimes I impress myself with my determination.

4. Moral support

You’re committed to your goals and are working hard towards it. We all know it gets lonely sometimes. Motivate a friend to do the same! Motivate each other when things get tough or the scale is not budging. I’m lucky to have my BFF on this journey together with me.

Even for those who discourage you or those who once called you fat, you got to have the fire in you to make a change and prove them wrong!

Do it for yourself, your love ones. I know you can. I have fallen off the wagon many times too. But the lower you fall, the higher you will fly. Believe in yourself. I promise you, once you start believing, everything will fall in place. There will not be success without failure. You will get there sunshine. One day you will shine. You just got to start believing in yourself and start working damn hard towards your goal.

Old saying but pushes me a lot: 
it’s never going to be easy but it’s going to be SO worth it.

5. You didn’t gain it overnight, don’t expect to lose it in a month.

Don’t be demoralised just because people ain’t noticing the changes. Don’t beat yourself up.

I gave myself 6 months to reach my goal weight. 7kg more to go! Yay!

6: Your boobs/butt will shrink, there might be loose skins/ stretchmarks if you lose weight too fast.

What I did for boobs and butt:

Do planks and squats every day. Yes every day. It helps firms your boobs and squats give your flat booty a lift. 

I learnt this the hard way. Losing 50kg in a year 2 years ago definitely tested my skin’s elasticity. I researched ways to reduce the appearance of stretch marks since the only way you eliminate them is through a laser surgery.

Loose skins and stretchmarks are tricky. I tried everything so I can’t pinpoint what worked and what didn’t.  But it reduced the appearance of stretchmarks and my skin doesn’t look too loose either.

What I did:

- Drink lots of water (it really works!)

- Dry brushing

- Body scrubs (if you ask me I would say coffee scrub, I didn’t start selling it for no reason)

- Bio oil

- Clarins body tonic oil

- Weight training/resistance training                        

7. Relationship with food

Many asked me what meal plans do I follow or do I have certain calorie restrictions.

I have to clarify that I’m not going for a hot lean body hence this method might not work for you if you are going for that.

I do not follow any specific meal plans. I did many times in the past and tried countless meal plans including Herbal life, natroslim or even master cleanse diet. I’m not saying that all these doesn’t work, they do. You will see yourself losing weight, but it isn’t sustainable.

I eat whatever I want now but I control the portions strictly. I cut out sugar drinks too. Don’t underestimate the calories you are taking in as well, it could be the reason why you are not seeing results.

Learn to say no when being offered food (who does that?!). It’s not easy to say no to the piece of chocolate your best friend got for you, but it’s even harder burning it off later during your workout. If you didn’t plan to eat it, don’t. Save it for another day.

There are days when I have peanut butter toast in the morning, fish soup for lunch and economic rice without any rice (just the meat and vege side dishes) for dinner.

But there will also be days where I crave fried chicken. I order them without sides and go without sugar drinks.

Sometimes I live on ban mian (Singapore-style noodles with mince pork soup) without finishing the noodles. Or some days I have fruits before going to bed.

I try to keep my calorie intake within 1500. I don’t feel starved at all and I eat whatever I want in moderation. It keeps me content to keep going.

You are what you eat. If you know the food you are craving for is unhealthy, have it in small amounts. We all know what happens when we over indulge. A healthy journey consists of 80% diet and 20% exercise.

Food that will help you in your journey:

- Water, just drink enough water.

- Unsweetened green tea, yes you’ve heard this 2 million times. But it works.

- Fruits: Papayas, Watermelons, Apples, Bananas, Lemons and Kiwis.

- Needless to say lots of vegetables

Try new recipes like cauliflower rice. Or replace potato chips with kale chips.

There won’t be any food to avoid in my list because I genuinely believe in moderation.

8. Curbing cravings

You just had dinner but you are craving for dessert. We all know it’s not acceptable to do it every day.

I’d go for a jog if I were you. The cravings for unhealthy food usually subside after a run. You’ll burn 150 calories with 30 minutes of jogging, but it takes 1 serving of potato chips to gain it back. Is it worth it? You be the judge.

If not I’ll find an alternative like yogurt or fruits to curb the cravings.

The last method is to take off your clothes in front of the mirror and stare at your body. Tell me if you still want that tiramisu after that.

Many times we eat not because we need it but because we want it. A treat is only a treat if you have it once in a while. 

9. Shitty days

Just recently I broke down and cried just because I felt fat. I felt like the ugliest/biggest girl in the world and I just wanted to hide away from the world. There will be days where you feel like shit and nothing you do makes sense to you.

I allowed myself to cry and tell myself that I’m not good enough.

Sometimes we have to embrace our emotions instead of hiding them. Only when we acknowledge what we are feeling, will we be able to fix what’s really broken inside.

After my emotional battle, I pick myself up and continue whatever I was doing. I fixed what was going on inside and stayed focused. People around me saw results. I saw my results. I deserved every single bit of it because I worked hard for it.

Happiness is a choice. You are how you feel about yourself.

Don’t give up on something just because of the time or the difficulty to achieve it. The time will pass anyway. If you don’t work on yourself, who’s going to do it.

I learnt to love myself for every stretchmark, cellulite and scar that’s on me. At the same time, I do my best to be a better version of myself.

10. Take a break If you are tired, not quit.

Lastly, regardless how many times you fail, as long as you get up and try again, you will succeed in the end.

Getting healthy is not a quick fix, it’s a lifestyle. There will be days you feel like eating fast food and not working out. But as long as you get back on your feet the next day, I promise that everything will work out.

Never ever give up on yourself and your body, because you are the only one living in it.

Hope this helps!! Happy 2017! Keep on rocking! :) Let’s embrace 2017 together and achieve whatever you need to acheive!

@motiveweight - submission 

Hello! I didn’t actually expect that many people to request this and I was going to make this anyways soooo… Let’s get to it!

 Before we get started to actually making the spread, you first need to answer the following:

  • Do I want to follow a theme?
  • If so, what theme do I want? 
  • What are the things that motivate me?
  • Are there certain people that motivate me?
  • Do I want to plan my weekends? 

 My weekly spread isn’t the same every week and I change some things very often because I feel like it’s necessary to do so but I’m not one to change my over all color scheme very often although there are some studygrams who change theirs every week. It’s hard to keep on changing your theme if you are a studyblr so I suggest to stick to one for a long time. It’s not necessary to have one but it makes it more neat and pleasing in the eyes and makes it look more organized. I don’t know what they’re originally called, but I call them ‘space-fillers’ mainly because they fill up space (duh). To sum it up, these are basically little things you can add to your bujo to make it more handy and useful. (* - my favorites) Some examples are: 

  • Weekly Playlist*
  • Sleep Tracker
  • Water Count
  • Thought of The Day (TOTD)*
  • Quote of The Day (QOTD)
  • Daily Mood
  • Weekly Expenses 
  • What I Eat in a Day* 

 I want to make this clear, because I live in the Philippines, I don’t really have access to expensive stationeries that you could always see on tumblr and instagram such as Tombows, Muji pens, Artline Stix, and Mildliners. I know that there are some MUJI branches in Manila but it would mean climbing Mt. Everest, crossing the Han River, and spending your life savings. Not worth it (in my opinion because I’m like 14 who basically depends on her parents). So, learn to use what you have and supplies are just supplies. Expensive stationery don’t equal to immediately having beautiful lettering. I just use the Faber Castel ones but depending on where you live, these might not be available for you. I use it because it’s cheaper and does the job. Although the tips do fray overtime, you’re still getting more than what you paid for. So definitely a must-try.

 Before we start. Checklist (* - optional) 

  • Bujo
  • Markers 
  • Glue 
  • Ballpen 
  • Ruler 
  • Highlighter* 
  • Washi Tape*
  • Colored Paper*
  • Photos* 
  • Music 

(I didn’t list any specific brands because you can always substitute supplies)

 Okay and now we can finally start! 

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DO YOUR WORST
  • 1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
  • 2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
  • 3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
  • 4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
  • 5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
  • 6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
  • 7: Do you want to be single?
  • 8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
  • 9: How late did you stay up last night?
  • 10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
  • 11: Last three things you had to drink?
  • 12: Have you pretended to like someone?
  • 13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
  • 14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
  • 15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
  • 16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
  • 17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
  • 18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
  • 19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
  • 20: What would you name your future daughter?
  • 21: Do you miss anyone?
  • 22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
  • 23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
  • 24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
  • 25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
  • 26: Who did you last see in person?
  • 27: Are you listening to music right now?
  • 28: What is something you currently want right now?
  • 29: What is the last thing you said out lot?
  • 30: How is your heart lately?
  • 31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
  • 32: Are you wearing socks?
  • 33: What do people call you?
  • 34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
  • 35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
  • 36: Who did you last share a bed with?
  • 37: Did you do something bad today?
  • 38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
  • 39: Do you get stressed out easily?
  • 40: Will you sing today?
  • 41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
  • 42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
  • 43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
  • 44: What are you listening to right now?
  • 45: What is wrong with you right now?
  • 46: What is on your wrists right now?
  • 47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wea
  • 48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
  • 49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
  • 50: Are you a good artist?
  • 51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
  • 52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
  • 53: Ever been on a golf cart?
  • 54: Do you have trust issues?
  • 55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
  • 56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
  • 57: Do you use chap stick?
  • 58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
  • 59: Do you have a little sister?
  • 60: Have you ever been to New York?
  • 61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
  • 62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
  • 63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
  • 64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
  • 65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
  • 66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
  • 67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
  • 68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
  • 69: Will next Friday be a good one?
How To Be A Good Med Student In The Clinical Years

A doctor once told me that the best instrument we have is medicine is the retrospectoscope.  Basically he was saying that often it is easier to make sense of things when looking back from the vantage point of the future.  This is true of life too.  After being an intern for two months I suddenly understand what things make for a strong med students, and what things do not.  Unfortunately, I feel like I lacked many of the qualities that would have made me a helpful med student.  Though I cannot rectify my own mistakes, perhaps I can pass my advice on to future generations of third and fourth year medical students.  I now present, how to be a good clinical med student:

  1. Show up.  This seems obvious.  When you are there to work, then be there to work.  It is so frustrating when medical students are mysteriously absent all the time (only to be found later in the cafe or cafeteria) or when they are there but totally disinterested in what is going on.  I understand that sometimes as a medical student things get slow - like when the interns are putting in orders and notes or when there is a slow call day.  But at least bring something to read.  Don’t play Pokemon Go.  Don’t spend all day on Uworld.  Make an effort to learn real clinical medicine.
  2. Take initiative to learn.  When I was a third year I would wander the hospital to find learning opportunities.  I made friends with the telemetry nurses and they started a folder of good tele strips to give me each day.  I would go to other teams and see if their patients had good exam findings.  I found the cardiology fellows and asked if they had good patients with murmurs.  There is so much learning that can happen if you are willing to experience it.  Now, referring back to number 1, make sure you always let your residents know where you are.  Personally, I would be ecstatic if my students went to hunt down murmurs rather than playing Pokemon Go. 
  3. Read your patient’s chart.  This can be very helpful and will make you look like a star.  Residents are busy taking admissions and sometimes don’t have the time to hunt down records that are three and four years old.  You can stand out by doing that  Look at a patient’s past hospital notes or their specialty clinic notes.  For example, you might be able to alert the resident that an old echocardiogram demonstrated a below normal ejection fraction, which in turn might change how much fluid the patient is given.  Or perhaps you found that during a hospitalization in the past the patient became delirious and needed a one-to-one sitter.  Find ways to add information in a helpful, non-prescriptive, non-judgmental way.  I guarantee your reviews will benefit.
  4. Read about your patient’s condition.  Even if you just browse Medscape, UpToDate, or some other curated source, make sure you understand the basics of your patient’s primary diagnosis.  If they are there for heart failure, read over the basics of treatment.  If they have autoimmune hepatitis look up some info on diagnosis and prognosis.  These things will get noticed, especially when you ask intelligent questions on rounds.  Do not be like a med student I had who, when asked, reported for 4 straight days that he had not read about his patient’s disease.  He instead responded he was too busy with Uworld so he would get a good shelf score.
  5. See your patients.  I literally had students who, on rounds, tried to present without actually having seen the patient in the morning.  This is a huge no-no.  Get to work early enough to see your patients, review their labs, and their overnight events.  
  6. Practice your presentations.  Even if it is on your own or with other medical students, spend time working on your presentation skills.  Heck, even ask the residents to watch you.  I would be happy to do that for any of my students.  Unfortunately, none have taken me up on that offer and instead bumble through their presentation each day making the same mistakes.  By the end of medical school you need to be able to make a good presentation. 
  7. Spend time working on note writing.  Compare your notes to your residents’, your attendings’, and the specialists’.  Everyone has a different style.  Look at lots of notes to determine a style for yourself.  
  8. Forget all the step 1 stuff you learned.  I find many students perseverate on the terrible stereotypes and patterns they see on step 1.  Not all black people with cough have sarcoidosis.  Not every patient with acute kidney injury needs urine eosinophils.  These are good associations, but realize that step 1 has little overlap with real clinical medicine.  Take those associations with a grain of salt. 
  9. Don’t just look for zebras.  I cannot tell you how many times students opt not to follow a patient because the case “doesn’t seem that interesting.”  The majority of medicine is made up of mundane and common diseases such as heart failure, pneumonia, COPD, cirrhosis, etc.  It is pretty rare to get the exciting cases, like disseminated histoplasmosis or a crazy paraneoplastic syndrome.  A lot of learning can happen on cases that are “bread and butter” medicine.  Make sure you follow those cases too. 
  10. Be gentle to your interns/residents.  The transition from 4th year to being a doctor is swift and brutal.  It is easy to criticize when you aren’t the one taking 5 admits.  Find ways to help your intern/resident, because in return they will help you.  I learned this lesson the hard way my 4th year, when I unintentionally threw an intern under the bus while trying to look smart.  Afterwards she took me aside and reminded me that she controlled much of my fate while I was a student under her.  I learned my lesson and we went on to become very good friends.

The clinical years of medical school are daunting.  You constantly feel like a tap dancing monkey, trying to impress people you barely have time to get to know.  But personally, I am not looking for someone who knows everything about everything.  That’s why you are in school.  The best thing you can get out of third and fourth year is how to do a good history and physical, how to write good notes, and how to triage patients.  The best students are interested, willing to learn, and know their patients well.  If you keep that in mind, the clinical years are much simpler.  I promise, if you follow your patients you will learn much more than just doing qbank questions.   

Best of luck on your clinical rotations.  Don’t make things too complicated.  At the end of the day have fun, treat your patients right, and keep an open mind.  The learning will happen whether you recognize it or not.

The Only Exception (Part 10)

Summary: AU. Reader is given the task of running a popular love advice internet show when her coworker is fired. Her cynical attitude toward love makes her offer some harsh advice, and more than a few hearts are caught in the aftermath. Will hers be one of them?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader

Word Count: 1,937 (End!)

Warnings: language, fluff, it’s an innocent lil epilogue

A/N: Sorry I get so cheesy in this space. Thank you to the people who encouraged me along the way, most of you total strangers who didn’t need to stop and take time out to do so, but did it anyway because you’re good people. Thanks to the other writers who sympathized with and cheered for me, I adore you. This is dedicated to you empathetic, beautiful people.

Part - 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10

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Spirit in the House - chapt 10 END

Modern!AU Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: Reader is in a coma after a car accident. Bucky moves into your apartment and find your spirit still hanging around. (Based on Just like Heaven)

Word Count: 2,167

Warnings: Language, Mention of Depression, Mention of Suicidal Thoughts 

A/N: I was so moved by your feedback and I’m so happy to give you this final chapter. Thank you for everything! Hope you’ll enjoy it and… remember that I love you ♥ 

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Originally posted by softtroublemaker

It had been almost four months since you had left the hospital. Your apartment was oddly silent and you were starting to feel like something was missing. There were days when you would catch yourself staring into space, smiling, as if you were living another life in your head. A life you didn’t have access to.

Your therapist told you to be patient, you had to let your brain recover and adjust. It was a topic that even Peggy and Tony avoided. You realised the past few months had been hard on them too, so you decided to pretend everything was fine.

But you were not fine. You were sad and lost.

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KARD reddit AMA

Q: are you guys friends with any other kpoop groups?

Jiwoo- gugudan Mimi unnie and Boys24 Doha oppa

Somin- twice Jeongyeon, and seventeens Mingyu and Seungkwan are my school juniors

J.Seph- gfriends Sowon

BM- day6 Jae and ladies code

Q: do you guys lurk/look at social media like Reddit and Twitter often to see what fans are thinking/saying?

Somin- yes we do. I look at instagram hashtags. Thank you for always cheering us on.

Q: 1- which of your songs is your favorite? 2- which is you favorite choreography? 3- what are your thoughts on being a co-ed group? 4- whats a musical style do you want to try in the future?

J.Seph 1- don’t recall

Jiwoo 2- the next song thats coming out…I think that choreography will be really awesome

Somin 3- I’m really happy about it because we’re very much like a family. I feel like we have a really great foundation because we have two oppas.

Q: Just wondering…whats your reaction to this gif?

a/n: gif cred to hwasuga

J.Seph- oh it’s cute!

Q: What were your initial thoughts/reactions after seeing how large your international fanbase was? what are some of your favorite songs at the moment?

J.Seph- at first I was flabbergasted. I never even thought about it. I saw a picture of our fans in Brazil waiting in line to buy our tickets and it was so amazing. I don’t know these people but they know me. So i wanted to see who they were so I zoomed in and looked at their faces. (laughs)

Q: how did you guys come to know of r/kpop? do any of you frequent this sub and are there possibly any other kpop stars out there that do?

Somin- out tour manager unnie set it up for us! It’s our first time here!

Q: 1- were you surprised to receive so much attention internationally with your pre-debut singles? 2- BM and J.Seph: did you expect to receive so many singing lines (like in rumor), and do you get nervous when you have to perform them? 3- do you think that having many international fans will continue to make kards music more diverse (like how rumor had a latin sound)? 4- what are some of you favorite western artists or other genres of music to listen to?

J.Seph- I was nervous and excited. I want to show a good side of me but I’m still lacking so much. I tried really hard to do my best.

Jiwoo- there are so many genres that we want ti try right now. I think we will definitely continue to be more diverse when it comes to our sounds.

Somin- Tinashe, Ariana Grande / Jiwoo- Beyonce, Rihanna, Kehlani, Alexander Jean / J.Seph- Little Mix!

Q: 1- will you be continuing the “hidden” concept after officially debuting? 2- is there a different concept or sound you would like to try in the future? 3- were any of you kpop fans before beginning training? if so, what groups? if not, what made you want to become an idol?

J.Seph 1- we’re not sure how we’re going to come out again, but we want to keep releasing good content.

Somin 2- I want to try R&B…but honestly I want to try everything.

Jiwoo 3- I liked TXVQ sunbaenims and BoA sunbaenim. I wasn’t focused on being an idol but I really wanted to do great music in general.

Q: who eats the most? who makes the most jokes?

Jiwoo and Somin together- J.Seph!!!!!!

Q: how many times does BM dab per day?

BM- at least 20

Q: bm what advice can you give to other tall guys who don’t want to look really awkward? also, in the Oh NaNa with fun video your necklace flipped up and nearly chipped your tooth! do you have any other memorable stories that were a result of dancing too hard?

BM- all dudes. short or tall.. own it and swagg out with you got. haha I almost lost a front tooth that day.

Q: 1- which music show do you most look forward to appearing on? 2- with your big international following, you seem to be doing better than other co-ed groups of the past. what unique challenges do you face in korea being a co-ed group? 3- what country are you looking forward to visiting most on your world tour?

1- Jiwoo- Infinity Challenge! / Somin- Yoo Hee Yeol’s Sketchbook

2- J.Seph- Dubai / Somin- Europe and I really wanted to go to America…actually I want to go everywhere. / Jiwoo- Dubai / BM- Greece and London…Spain…Chile is dope too

Q: for BM: what were your motivations for pursuing a career in kpop having grown up in LA? did you ever doubt whether it was the right choice, for example following your appearance on kpop star, and how were you able to bounce back?

BM- definitely had a lot of times where I felt like I should quit..almost did a lot too but I had a lot of good support around me. #blessed

Q: 1- you guys have great chemistry, how long have the four of you trained as a group? 2- co-ed groups are obviously still rare, how did you all react when you found out that you were going to debut together?

1- J.Seph- 5 years / Somin- with the oppas it’s been 5 years / Jiwoo- I joined 6 months ago!

2- J.Seph- at first when I heard it was a co-ed group I was a bit overwhelmed. I saw Somin from such an early age when she was little, but I never thought  that I would be in a group with her. It felt so strange, but as we started to practice and come together, it became really great.

Q: BM, please rate the english level of the other members!

BM- 1 being baby. 10 being able to communicate comfortably…j.speh 3, somin 3, jiwoo 3. all pretty similar

Q: when you guys/gals were kids, what did you first want to be when you grow up?

BM- I wanted to be a lawyer

Q:  I laughed so much when I saw you dancing “Olha a Onda”, a Brazilian song from the 90s. Knowing that your songs so far evoke latin (and thus Brazilian) beats, is there anything each of you would like to learn about our culture? Foods, drinks, clothing, local music genres, anything?

Jiwoo- I want to learn about the food because I love trying new foods.

Jseph- I heard about Carnival and I really want to go. I also want to learn about samba. 

Q:  BM! Are you close with Ladies’ Code’s Ashley? What are your favorite things about being in this group and what do you feel about the amount of love you’ve been getting from the international fans?

BM-  thats my homegirl fshooooo shoot still super unreal to me.. super humbling and super thankful

Q:  BM: Was it hard to make the decision to move to Korea from USA and become an idol? Did your family support you all the way?

BM- I didnt know squat about the language and culture before i came so yeah it was a hard decision. yeupp one hunnit percent they supported me

Q: many kpop artists are encouraged to learn new languages. What new language would you want to learn and perform in?

Somin : English… (laughs) And French! 

(Jseph says : Bonjour) 

Jiwoo: Chinese and Japanese 

BM: Portuguese

Q:  Regarding your positions as ‘King’ ‘Ace’ etc. were they assigned to you or could you choose which card you wanted to be? Also, can we expect a ‘Queen’ member joining in the future?

Jiwoo - We decided together after a meeting.
Somin - I like the black joker though… I don’t think I would fit the other cards.

Q: BM! What’s your favorite bar in LA?

BM- i came to korea before i turned 21 in LA so i havent been able to turn up too much in my hometown yet :[ send me some suggestions!

Q: when did you start getting interested in music?

Jiwoo - When I was around 8 or 9 I wanted to be a singer. 

Jseph - When I was 7. 

Somin - Probably around junior high.

Q: To BM: Got any workout tips? How did you get so “big” :O

BM- i used to be real hefty. turned all that fat into muscle through dieting.. dieting is 70% workin out is 30%

Q:  What are you all most looking forward to during your tour?

Jiwoo: LA, because I am excited to see Matthew oppa’s family!

Q: BM, do you have any advice for someone who is trying to get and stay in shape?

BM- stay strict and have self discipline one your self diet. workout is a MUST stay active

Q: BM how much can you bench press?? I just started so I can barely do 70 ://

BM- i stopped benching after almost snapping my shoulder. i just do flat bench and incline dumbbell presses now

Q: Would you rather fight a horse-sized duck, or 100 duck-sized horses?

BM: horse sized duck

Jiwoo : 100 duck sized horses… I’m scared of birds

Jseph : Horse sized duck

Somin : Horse sized duck 

All Too Well | Pt. 10 [Final]

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Part 10 | Epilogue

Summary: You and Yoongi shared a loving relationship with one another until you both agreed to end things and pursue your separate careers. But two years later, Yoongi is a member of the ever growing Bangtan Boys, and you are a new makeup artist for their upcoming tour.
Pairing: Yoongi | Reader
Genre: Fluff/Angst/Smut; Idol & Makeup Artist AU
Word Count: 9,575
Author’s Note: Yes, this is the last part of the series, and I still don’t want it to end. I don’t think I’m ever going to be ready to say goodbye to this series. It’s been such a joy getting to create these characters and their dynamics that have led up to this final part; getting so much love for something that you work really hard on outlining and thinking about relentlessly is such a joy of mine. The amount of support this story has gotten over the months has boggled my mind. Thank you to everyone who has read or commented or talked to me about the series; you all have helped make All Too Well by giving me the motivation to push the story beyond what I thought it was capable of. 

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It’s strange what four months away from home could do to a person. In hindsight, four months is a relatively insignificant frame of time, especially when taking a step back to look at the bigger picture. Looking at your life, you know that four months is more of a whirling experience on the grand scale that is twenty-one years of living and breathing on the planet. But you have every confidence that the you who stepped onto the plane four months ago is a completely different you who is stepping off the plane four months later.

There is a freeing sensation, to look out the window from your seat, to see miles of city landscape and for once not be terrified of what lay past the horizon and the vast oceans. To see miles of beyond and actually know what kind of culture, what kind of people, and what kind of places filled the blanks of your mind.

But underneath everything, underneath your different mindset, your achieved goals, the knowledge that you were finally, finally on the path you’ve dreamt of since the beginning—Seoul is the same, and so are the people who roam across the surface. Seoul is still the same, providing a benchmark to measure your own growth with.

There is still the same food that floods your mind, the same night markets that America lacks, the same city lights that you dream about from your own smaller apartment across the oceans. There’s the same hustle, the same music that makes your lips curl up, because it’s a curious thing to not know how much one longs for home until that home has been taken away for four months.

But you’re back, and you wouldn’t have it any other way.

Keep reading

My beautiful Sprousehart family, please stop worrying about why Lili didn’t go to NY with Cole, and about Sasha. The picture I’ve linked above is from one of Sasha’s recent stories. She’s got a bf, and months ago, when I first started following her, she had posted an IG story of herself waking up in bed with a guy who had the exact same hair as Zack. The man in her story was sleeping on his stomach, so I couldn’t see his face, but I recognised the hair straight away - it was Zack! So don’t worry; she and Cole are just very good friends. Plus, she lives in NY. How would Cole even have time to spend with her when he’s based in LA and Vancouver for most of the year! And the photos he posts of her on his Instagram page are old pictures he took last year. *Dylan doesn’t follow her on IG, so she can’t be that special to Cole. :)

With Lili not going to NY, that’s not surprising at all. Cole has pretty much packed everything for Vancouver (saw it in a few of Debby’s snap chats). So he’s pretty much set to move up there next week. Lili is probably still sorting all her stuff out before she leaves, and also wanting to spend time with her close friends, Nik and Taylor.
Remember, Cole didn’t go to some beach resort to relax; he went to stay with his brother and spend some time with him because he’s going to be gone for pretty much the rest of the year. This week isn’t Cole and Lili time; it’s Cole and Dylan time. :)

If my calculations are correct, Cole and Lili have only been dating for 5 to 6 months. That’s still the early stages of a relationship, especially one they’re being super secretive about. If we all knew Lili went to NY to hang with Cole’s brother and their group of friends then everyone would be sure they’re together. It’s too risky for them to be that obvious right now. Also, maybe Lili isn’t ready to meet his NY group; it could be overwhelming for her. Let’s at least be happy that he’s introduced her to his LA crew, Dayna and his stepmom. :) That’s a huge deal, and I don’t understand why more people haven’t made a bigger deal about it.
If you want even more reassurance, Cole and Lili don’t have to travel everywhere together. Dylan and Dayna have been together for about 4-5 years and Dylan travels without her all the time. Just over a month ago, he came down to LA to visit, and do a photoshoot, and Dayna stayed back in NY. So why can’t Cole and Lili do the same for a few days? They don’t have to act like conjoined twins all the time. 😜
They’re about to spend every single day together for pretty much a whole year. I think they’ll manage spending 5 days apart, especially because they’ve been seeing each other everyday for the past week.
After what we saw of them at WizardCon, I can’t believe people still doubt them. Have some faith, my loves. We’re going to be very spoilt in the next three months: filming starts in a few weeks, Comic Con in July, Cole’s birthday in August and Lili’s in September. We’re going to have confirmation sooner than we think. 💜

A Beginner's Guide to Detoxing

For tmphenomenon:

I was looking forward to writing this for you because I love seeing young, black people do things to better their overall health (so we can be fine and sexy forever and slay into eternity, Amen). ALSO, ‘CAUSE, YOU’RE FAM FOR LIFE!!!

Why people detox:

When we enjoy delicious ass shit from our affordable fast food restaurants, we are destroying our body. Most of the time, the food we eat has been fried, dyed, processed, “enriched,” packaged, repackaged, and distributed, so by the time it gets to us it’s not really even food, though it tastes fucking amazing. It really messes with our internal health and perspective, clouding our judgment and fucking up our life. The healthier you eat and drink in general, the more clarity you have.

To combat the nasties, your body needs mini-cleanses every now and then so your digestive system can properly eliminate the bad, allowing for the absorption of good vitamins and nutrients we actually need. This strengthens your immune system and cleanses the blood. It also helps to block certain negative creepy crawlies that try to infect our cells.

The body eliminates toxins via the kidneys, intestines, lungs, skin, and lymph nodes, but most of the time it’s using all of its energy to break down everything we eat. Therefore, the toxins just float around and wreck havoc because the body ain’t got time to kick them out.

Buckle, up! Here we go! 

BODY

Food + drinks:

1. Lots of liquids- this flushes out all the bad stuff. It’s good that you already drink lots of water, but we need to kick that up a notch with herbs that will help cleanse your liver and colon, bettering your overall digestive health. I, of course, being a ratchet hippie, recommend tea. 

 a) infuse water overnight (slices of cucumber or lemon in a bottle). See tumblr for the chart of when is best to drink water for the most benefits + recipes at bottom.

b) green tea or herbal tea, start off with green +honey then work your way up 

c) juice! -fresh, not-from-concentrate, not- bullshit into thinking it’s healthy

You don’t even need a juicer, honestly. pour some water in a blender and spinach in there. BOOM. juice.

2. Fresh fruits and veggies (it’s cheaper to do this in smoothie-form). Big bags of spinach, bananas, and whatever fruit you blended up in a cheap blender (I got my from Wal-Mart for $15 and found another one at Goodwill for 3).

3. Fiber: This will help your body get rid of the toxins easier. I recommend eating at least one of the following ever day: brown rice, sprouted bread (NOTHING “enriched,” that just means bleached to look pretty -__-), cabbage, broccoli, spirulina, chlorella, etc. Fruits and veggies have an ass of fiber, so if you’re already eating those, you’re good.*

*If you don’t want to do the actual work, I recommend Bolthouse farms green juices. They taste good, have no preservatives, and are like 2.35 for 8 servings at Aldi. If y'all don’t have Aldi, I’ll get you some. Also, a lot of people mix these with water to stretch them, but also to make sure your body isn’t overwhelmed.

4. Take some type of vitamin. When I was drunk I ranted about “eating the rainbow,” because different colors correspond to different essential nutrients we need to survive the human experience. These colors also correspond to the 7 chakras. If you’re eating right, it balances other aspects of your life as well. Most of the time ain’t nobody got money or time for that, so buy a cheap one-a-day multivitamin so you won’t shock your body during detox.

What do the colors of fruits and veggies mean? (pic via @catasana)

Blue/purple= high antioxidant + balance bood pressure

Green= remove toxins and carcinogens, also sources of vitamin K, folic acid, omega 3 fatty acids

Yellow= Lutein (good for eyes), healthy fats, pretty skin

Red= powerful antioxidants 

Orange= vitamins A +C

Tans/weird beiges–usually high fiber content

5. Healthy fats- Depending on how long you want to detox, you’ll need to reintroduce heavier foods into your diet, after mostly eating fruits, vegetables, seeds, etc., so you won’t shock your body when you eat a piece of pizza

Try: Salmon, avocados, walnuts, etc.

6. Simply substitute slowly (alliteration for that ass!) Going cold turkey will make you miserable. Instead of french fries, get sweet potato fries. Instead of ranch dressing, get Italian or something oil/vinegar based. Instead of iceberg lettuce (which is honestly trash, and I would slap the fuck out of anyone who tried to serve it to me), get romaine. 

1 month detox:

First week: just drink one green smoothie/drink/tea (or eat your fill of fruit) every morning and don’t change anything else. Soon your body will start to crave whatever is in your smoothie.

You can also alternate between a green smoothie, a scrambled egg on toast w/ avocado, or BOTH. Whatever else you want that’s not like… frosted flakes you can pretty much have. You just want you body to get into a routine. Avoid heavy, delicious foods like pancakes, pasta (anything wheat-based. we’re prepping your digestive system) and no candy +sugar.

Second week: Make your breakfast AND lunch “green.” Have a big ass salad or lots of vegetables with a side of sweet potatoes or something. NO CHEESE (feta/goat cheese is okay though–easier for body to digest and less allergenic). We’re not even supposed to have dairy products, because it doesn’t agree with our systems at all, plus it’s gross (but so delicious).

I tell non-vegetarians that it’s okay to have chicken and lighter choices, but stay away from beef and dairy products. Listen to your body. Once it’s detoxing, you’ll start to crave everything you DON’T need to have. Especially sugar. Pretty much any fast food we eat is jacked up on sucrose. 

The first 2-3 days you might feel super crappy because your body is ridding yourself of toxins, but  once you get past that you’ll have an unusual amount of energy.

Third week: If you made it past the cravings hurdle, up the ante. Have a green juice before bed as well as in the morning. Stick with your one green meal for lunch or dinner. It is important that you eat enough, otherwise you will feel weak. Plants and herbs give you a lot of energy but you need to EAT them and drink them. We feel full after eating a burger but lethargic the next day because we just poisoned our body. We feel awesome after having a big ole salad because we basically just ate direct sun energy.

Last week: Listen to your body. The first time I did any kind of detox, I was so eager to stick to a plan, but every plan doesn’t work for everybody. Your body will tell you what it needs and by this time you’ll know what it is you’re supposed to be eating and drinking. It takes 21 days to break a habit (I don’t know if this is true, but let’s go with that).

Also, your body might not need a full month, and it might need longer than a month. You can tell how you’re doing by your energy level, whether or not you had a detox reaction (the feeling crappy, almost flu-like), and if you’re shitting regularly. 

Common types of detoxes:

Some people detox for weight loss, health issues, or just want to give their bodies a break. From what I’ve experienced, here are the most popular types:

1) Strictly juicing/liquids: unfeasible for you because you’re on your feet all day or using your energy on snapchat. The longest I’ve seen someone do a juice cleanse is for 41 days, but usually they’re 3-5, just to give your body a break)

2) All green- basically, no animal products and not a lot of processed food. Plant-based/(80/20 raw/cooked) are common forms. If you eat pasta/fries/pizza, you make it yourself and know all the ingredients going into it. Be cheap and buy frozen fruits and vegetables and make stir fry. Whatever you want to learn how to make, check out organigasm’s instagram and I’ll send you the recipe. It doesn’t have to be flavorless and fucking boring to be healthy.

3) Paleo- Yes: Fruits, Vegetables, Seafood, Nuts & Seeds, Healthy Fats, Lean Meat. No: Dairy, Grains, Processed Food, Processed Sugar, Legumes, Starches, Alcohol. Honestly, I think this diet is a fad that comes up with different names every few decades. Seriously, a bunch of rich people use this to diet or have “healthy lifestyles,” but thousands upon thousands of families don’t have access to these types of foods. I digress.

MIND:

1. Set your intentions when you wake up in the morning. Example: “Today, will be fan-fucking-tastic,” or you can thank the creator or thank your body for helping you out with your shenanigans. Keep it to yourself, write it down, shout it out, whatever. You need to start your day with positive thoughts to ensure you have the willpower to make it. You will crave everything you DO NOT need.

2. Work-out at least 30 minutes a day, and if you can’t do that, try 3/7 times a week. Start somewhere. Dance it out when you get out of the shower, walk down the street at a fast pace–whatever, again, just get moving.

3. For strength of body and mind, I recommend yoga, and I hope your stubborn ass considers it (it also makes for fun sex, I’m just saying).

Here’s a link to good poses for detoxing: http://bodyunburdened.com/yoga-for-detox-10-poses-that-promote-cleansing/ + youtube and netflix have free videos FOR NOOBZ!#@

4. Before you go to bed, clear all the negative energy you can. I’m not gonna get into all the stuff, but like when you woke up, write it down, draw it out, etc.

Doing this throughout the detox will allow you to clear your mind and determine what works for you during this new journey!

5. Get enough sleep–This is a tough one, but while you’re sleeping your body does the most incredible things. Seriously, you will thank yourself. Even if you only get 4 hours of sleep, getting 15 extra minutes, then gradually increasing REALLY helps.

Final tips:

1. eat your biggest meal at lunchtime (your metabolism is peaking from about 12pm-8pm)

2. SLEEP. Seriously. Your body is healing you. Let it help.

3. I will help you meal prep, but frozen vegetables + canned beans, packaged nuts keep the costs of detoxing low. Also, farmer’s have good ass prices. Take a fine honey on a date to the farmer’s market and cook a sexy meal afterwards.

4. Try new things. Seriously. You can’t eat a cucumber and an apple every day and expect magic to happen. 

5. Don’t overcook anything. Leave that broccoli a little crunchy. Don’t kill the nutrients, bro.

6. cheat! allow yourself one day during the first two weeks to cheat on your detox, or whenever you fucking feel like. you deserve rounds… of krispy kreme donuts. TREAT. YO. SELF. 

7. Don’t count calories, or carbs, or whatever the fuck the newest pyramid says to do. 

Good Water Infusion Combos:

1. lemon/lime +mint + honey

2. strawberries, blueberries

3. pineapple + basil

4. grapefruit/orange

5. mango + peaches

6. apple+ cinnamon + honey 

Final thoughts: Really, once you get used to it, you’re always detoxing. Even drinking a cup of tea a day and still eating like shit is better than nothing.  Just be kind to yourself. It’s a process, and I’m still learning, but I get better every day. Good luck! I’m always here to help. 

Now, let’s go detox, y'all.

✌️

3 Billion Dollars [Part 9] - G Dragon Mafia!AU

Originally posted by s-tttop

Summary: When your father owes 3 billion dollars to the mafia, he must repay his debt. Although things don’t exactly go the way he hoped.

Genre: Angst? fluff?

Warning: None really

{part 1} {part 2} {part 3} {part 4} {part 5} {part 6} {part 7} {part 8} {part 9} {part 10} {part 11} {part 12} {part 13} {part 14} {part 15}

A/N: Sorry this one is really short. Although the next one is gonna be intense. I hope you like it! My inbox is always open.

~ Brooklyn

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Ji Yong woke up from the sunlight that shined into your room. It took him a minute to take in his surroundings, a lazy smile coming onto his face as he remembered what happened the night before. He looked down, confirming the events of the night. He smiled down at your sleeping figure. The light shined down on you at the perfect angle, lighting up your hair and giving your face an angelic look. Ji Yong draws light patterns on your skin with his thumb as he closed his eyes. He stayed with you, relaxing before he had to go back to work.

Ji Yong watches as you stirred in your sleep, slowly waking up from your dream. He smiled and brushed your hair back from his face. Slowly you woke up, your eyes opening. You look up at Ji Yong, who smiled down at you. You gave him a half-hearted smile, only to close your eyes and nuzzle your head against his chest until you got comfortable. He smiled, pulling you close to him again.

“I have to go to work princess,” Ji Yong said. You groaned but didn’t move. He laughed lightly and brushed his fingers through your hair, detangling it slowly as he brushed them through. You relaxed into him more, refusing to get up. He chuckled deeply, and you could feel his chest vibrate. “I don’t want to either, but I have to.”

“Don’t go,” you whined quietly. He smiled down at you. You leaned off of his chest and looked up at him. You guys stared into each other’s eyes for a minute. He continued to stroke your hair, lightly pushing back all small strands.

“I don’t want to princess,” Ji Yong said quietly. He pulled you closer, kissing your forehead lightly. He pushed you away from him enough for him to look at your face. He smiled softly, your eyes shining as you stared at him. He lightly pushed you away from him so he could get up. You followed his actions and sat up on the bed. You wrapped your arms around his waist, leaning your head against his back. He smiled and chuckled lightly. “I’ll be back tonight okay?”

“Promise?” You asked. You pulled away from your hug and looked him in the eyes. He smiled at you and nodded his head.

“I promise.” He got off of the bed and stood up. You watched him as he bent down and grabbed his shirt, putting it on. He smiled at you and petted Ai as he slept in the sunshine. He rubbed your arm and sat down on the bed next to you. “I don’t expect you to bounce back easily after seeing that. If you need anything from me, and I mean anything, time, a hug, anything let me know. Okay?”

“Okay Yongie,” you say. You smiled softly at him. He returned it with a smile of his own and pulled you into a tight hug that you leaned into. After pulling away he got up and headed towards the cream colored door. He smiled one last time at you before opening the door and leaving.

You sighed as you aimlessly petted Ai. The image of your dad still seemed to haunt you every time you closed your eyes. The fact that you were now without any family also seemed to repeat in your mind. You closed your eyes and took a deep breath. You opened your eyes and got up and headed for the shower, needing something to relax now that Ji Yong was gone.

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Things had gotten better after talking to Ji Yong. You had felt a bit better in the house, feeling more protected and loved than you did before talking to him. You had grown to be more comfortable around the house. It was a blessing that you honestly deserved.

A few months had passed since the incident at your house. You had accepted a few things since then, but it took a lot of nightmares, Ji Yong’s cuddles, and a lot of ranting. Time really does heal the heart though, and as you continued to learn about how the mafia works, the more independent you became. You depended less on Seungri and Youngbae to lead you everywhere, although you still had guards thanks to Ji Yong’s. People began to give you better looks as you walked pass them. It was a good new change.

You had also developed a schedule in the past few months as well. You would wake up with Ji Yong next to you, holding you tightly against him. He’d leave with a small goodbye and you’d get ready for the day. You’d read or draw a little while eating breakfast, wanting to spend a little time for yourself before you got started.

After an hour later Seungri and Daesung would knock on your door and take you away for training. Seungri would work on your knife throwing, spending forty-five minutes on just throwing than another forty-five working on new stuff. Daesung helps you with hand to hand combat. He’d practice with you for thirty minutes then works on new stuff for an hour. It became your main stress reliever. The physical exhaustion becoming the best easiest way to sleep easily, other than Ji’s cuddles.

After your training though you’d go to lunch with Mr. Kwon. He’d ask you how everything was doing, how your training was going, and if you’re feeling comfortable. Mr. Kwon had started to become a private therapist to you. He listened as you talked to him about your family. Although he wasn’t fond of your dad, he did seem to care about you and your wellbeing. It was nice. He seemed to understand what you were going through. He understood the pain of losing family, and that one similarity had helped start a connection between the two of you.

The rest of the day would be just you in your room. If you were lucky one of the four boys would join you and you’d talk. It was relaxing at this point, a good time to bring your heart rate down after training. It was also the time where you would run errands if you needed too. When the kitchen was running low on food one of the boys would take you to the supermarket and help you pick out food. It was always one of your favorite times of day because somebody was always with you whenever you needed a friend.

Your all time favorite time though was right before you’d go to sleep. Ji Yong would slip into your room before you’d get in bed. He’d take off his shirt, and occasionally his pants, and he’d slip into bed with you. He’d hold you against his chest and you would talk about your day. He’d talk about the meetings and the crazy people he’d meet, and you’d talk about your time with the boys, making sure to avoid any mention of training. It was relaxing, especially when he’d run his hands through your hair as you’d talk. As you fall asleep he would kiss your forehead and fall asleep as well. When you’d wake up, you’d be right next to a sleep Ji Yong and you’re ready to start the day.

Although today was a little different. You woke up next to Ji Yong, like usual. You watch him leave with a smile, wishing him the best of luck today. And you got ready for your day, a quick morning shower to wash away any trace of sleep, brushing your teeth, and Ai’s mandatory petting that he demanded to have. It seemed to be a good morning. As you waited for Seungri and Daesung to go to training with you, you heard something. It wasn’t a usual something, but something that sounded off. It was a thumping sound, but it was a bit faded. Although it wasn’t something major, but you couldn’t help the feeling that something is wrong.

Ji Yong frowned as he heard something crash. It wasn’t the sound of glass breaking, but the sound of something hard hitting the ground. What alarmed him the most was the sound of gunshots that followed the noise. He looked at the oldest Seunghyun alarmed. Grabbing his gun, Ji Yong left his office and went towards the sound, Seunghyun following behind him. He frowned as his mind flashed to you. As Ji Yong went into the lobby he saw who caused the problem. In front of him stood Flynn, a gun in his hand and an array of dead bodies littered around the ground. Flynn smiled wickedly at Ji Yong.

“Looks like I finally got the Dragon out of its cave. Nice to finally see you face to face G Dragon.” Flynn talked so smoothly and effortlessly, it made Ji Yong frown.

“You better have a good reason to show up here,” Ji Yong said. He his anger easily, but he still planned how he was gonna slowly kill Flynn. Flynn smiled and then looked at Seunghyun.

“The infamous T.O.P, ruthless to those who oppose him and his family. Never thought I would get you out here.” Seungri came rushing into the lobby, Youngbae and Daesung following behind him. Flynn looked at the boys amused. Each of them had a weapon in their hands. “Looks like I really brought out the big boys.”

“What do you want?” Ji Yong said. Annoyance filling his voice. Flynn looked behind Ji Yong his smile softening as he saw a female figure in the distance. Ji Yong’s eyes widened as he heard your voice.

“Flynn oppa?”

ExorJosh: Master Post

Until Dawn AU (Comic list and Summery)

List of ExorJosh comics & illustrations:

Comics:
[1 “Inconclusive”] [2 “Masked”] [3 What Happened] [4 “Sam”]
[5 Change Room”]  [6 “What’s that sound”] [7 “unknown symptom”]

Other UD Comics:
[siblings] [bromancy]

Illustrations: *some nsfw*
[At the Mall] [In the Morning] [Walk the line] [on the steering wheel][Josh’s Scar] [nostalgia] [kiss] [Warm Tea] [Chillin on sofa]

Other UD illustrations:

[Josh][some legends say] [Peck] [Ashely]

List of Fics (coming soon)

***This post will be updated every time I make a new ExorJosh posting. 


What is #ExorJosh:

ExorJosh is an Until Dawn head canon/AU that I came up with that is more of a possible post-game scenario .
It is continued after one of the canon ending where, Josh turns Wendigo.
In this scenario, Josh gets captured by a team of private investigators that was put together by Josh’s rich parents who are desperate to save their last surviving child.
Once he is captured, his parents put him through every possible medical treatments to ‘stabilize’ him thinking that he is suffering from some sort of a neurological illness in combination with an unknown viral infection that’s causing his physical deformity. This is because he already has a history of severe mental illness. However, when they run out of options with all the negative results, they resort to an exorcism. Not by a christian method but through a Native American method. They are able to come to this decision due to their high interest in, and past dealings with, Aboriginal culture(<-this is a canon) in combination with the word-by-word police report of Josh’s friends and from reading the dead-wendigo-hunter’s diary that was retrieved from the remains of the lodge basement.(by one of the investigators)
While it’s not for sure whether the exorcism fully rid Josh of wendigo spirit, it appears to be a success and Josh regains his consciousness. However, he is extremely weak from the months of deterioration/treatments and the physical deformity is clearly evident around his mouth and right eyelid. He gets the basic treatments (skin-graft, etc) to re-construct his right eyelid and to close the wide gap on his left cheek but he refuses to get any more cosmetic surgeries out of the guilt of causing so much medical expenses to his parents. (Evident  from his in-game dialogue that Josh is not just a spoiled rich boy but financially conscious enough)
Even after the exorcism, it takes a long time for Josh to recuperate physically and mentally and he has to stick to a specific diet and slew of medications.  Eventually, Josh’s mother contacts Chris and Chris is the first friend for Josh to re-unite with. Then, despite of Josh’s newly developed anxiety, Josh is able to re-unite with Sam as well with the support of Chris.


This is the base idea of ExorJosh. There are more related Ideas and awesome fics written by other lovely people that expand this scenario. So if you’re planing to write on #ExorJosh, You should check these out :)

[related idea/facts posting #1]  [Josh’s Mental health#1]  [Josh’s Mental health#2]


Logic Behind #ExorJosh:

In this section, I’ll expand on the logic behind this AU.
If there are any more questions, please ask me and I’ll add explanation to this part of the posting.  

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If you’re very invested and protective of any other 'Josh-survives’ scenarios, I DO NOT recommend you to read beyond this point. My intention is not to destroy someone else’s fandom branch but to explain why I came up with #ExorJosh the way I did to people who are interested.

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Of Books and Dirty Cash

Librarian!Yoongi Au

Inspired by this and this

You can also read part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18

Yoongi x Reader

Before you moved to live on campus for college, you had never heard of a librarian who had a reputation for yelling. But not only does Min Yoongi yell, he’s also dangerous, and part of something much, much darker. When curiosity gets the better of you, you end up involved in much more than you bargained for.


Before you moved to live on campus for college, you had never heard of a librarian who had a reputation for yelling. All the librarians you had ever encountered had been very nice and friendly, if a bit old. But Min Yoongi, the librarian at your university…

People talked about him.

You had never heard of a librarian that people gossiped about either. But this one, people had a lot to say about. They said he was young, handsome, and very strict, mostly. One boy in your class, Dylan, claimed that the librarian had punched him in the face for forgetting to put his phone on silent, but you highly doubted that. Dylan had an overactive imagination and was a chronic liar. The concerning thing was that the librarian did have the authority to ban people from the library if he deemed it appropriate, and he deemed it appropriate quite often.

It wasn’t until midterms that you actually had to confront the problem. As they approached, you realized that there was a whole list of books that you needed. “It’s fine,” You thought to yourself. “I follow the rules. He won’t mind me. I’ll just get my books and go.”

You had seen the building every day since you arrived, but had only ever been in the library once, during school orientation. It was four stories high, the first level only computers and a mini coffee shop. The second floor was where all the book were. And the evil librarian.

To your relief, there wasn’t anyone at the desk when you stepped off the elevator to the second floor. This was fine, you could just find the books you needed, and take pictures of any important pages for later.

You had always loved books. The smell, the feel of them. There was something about being surrounded by books for the first time in months that made you feel at home, and at peace. Finding the books you needed was easy, you had spent so much time in libraries as a child you knew where to look for things. You found a desk in the back to put all of your stuff, and noticed how quiet the place was. It was a breath of fresh air compared to the constant noise of your dorm room.

Once you were finished writing down everything you needed from the books and taking pictures of the really important bits, you set about putting them all back. Technically, you were supposed to leave them on the cart for the librarian to put back, but you figured you’d save him the trouble.

You had just placed the first book back on the shelf when you heard someone clear their throat. You turned slowly, making eye contact with a young man with circular glasses.

“…Can I help you?” You said, utterly confused at the glare he was directing at you.

“That.” He pointed to the book you had just put on the shelf. “It doesn’t go there.”

You looked at it, and then back at him. “Yes it does.”

He rolled his eyes before stepping past you, snatching the book from the shelf. “It does not. It goes here.” He put it about two feet from where you had placed it.

“Same thing.” You shrugged, not seeing the importance. It was only two feet after all.

“No, it is not—you know what? You’re not even supposed to be putting books back on the shelf. They’re supposed to be placed right there-“ He pointed to the book cart. “So that someone who knows what they’re doing can put them back.” His voice had been getting louder as he spoke, his anger at the misplaced book evident on his face.

“Hey, sorry, I was just trying to save the librarian some trouble. No need to get so upset. Or so loud. It is a library.”

He narrowed his eyes at you, before taking the book back off of the shelf. “Why are you putting it back, anyway? Don’t you want to borrow it?”

You blinked at him, the change of subject catching you off guard. “No.”

“Are you putting those back, too?” He pointed at the other five books you were holding.

“Yes?”

“Give them to me.” He held out his hand impatiently for you to hand them over. You did, figuring he was going to put them back since you apparently did such a bad job.

He glanced at each one before frowning at you. “These are all on biology.”

“Yeah, I’m writing a paper…” You didn’t see why he was so interested, you were putting them back anyway.

“Then why aren’t you going to borrow them? Don’t you need them for referencing? And you can’t have read everything in them in such a short amount of time.”

You shrugged, not wanting to admit that it was because you had heard the librarian was mean. What a silly reason that would sound like.

“Come on.” He gestured for you to follow him to toward the front desk that was still empty.

“Wait, why?”

“Don’t you want to do well on your paper?” He asked, stepping behind the desk. “Hand me your ID card, you can check them out with that.”

“Can you do that, though?” You asked, bewildered.

“What?” He asked as he scanned the bar codes on the books.

“Let me borrow the books.” You clarified.

“Well, I am the librarian.” He glanced up at you. “It’s kind of my job.”


A/N lol I had so much fun writing this… Yoongi the librarian ended up a lot scarier and angrier than I first planned, but I like it like this. Thank you for reading, I know this isn’t what I normally post. I hope everyone has a great weekend! <3

The Boss - Jason Todd x Reader

THIS FIC HAS BEEN SUBMITTED TO ME BY ANON FOR PUBLICATION

Jason blended into the crowd of lowlifes. An aura of “don’t-fuck-with-me” rolled off him in waves, causing people to steer clear of him on the sidewalk. When he reached the apartment building he was looking for, he stared up at the top. 

It was Section-8 housing. It looked like it, too. The building was run down from years of people moving in and out and the government not caring enough to fix it up. There were children playing on the steps outside, despite the fact that it was 11:00pm. Their parents were probably still at work. Jason felt for those kids. He knew there was a lot stacked against them. It wasn’t their fault, nor was it their parents fault; life had just dealt them a hard hand. 

​He wasn’t here for the kids, however. He was here for the man running the block out of the apartment building in front of him. Jason crossed the street and passed right by the kids, not giving them a second glance. He couldn’t have, his resolve would have broken if he had to stare them in the eyes and know that they’ve seen just as much carnage and bloodshed as he had. Instead, he walked straight into the building and up eight flights of stairs. 

The building had an elevator, but it had broken back in the 90s and hadn’t been fixed since. Once at the top, he looked to his left and his right, making sure he was alone. Once he was sure there was no one else on the floor, he strode towards apartment 802. Not bothering with knocking, he kicked the door in and strode inside.

You had been lying on your back in the bed, your phone hovering above your face as you scrolled through Facebook. You were trying to distract yourself as you waited for confirmation that the major drug exchange was a success. 

When the front door of your apartment slammed open, you jumped in shock, grabbing your gun off the nightstand and slipping it into the back waistband of your jean shorts then pulled your tank top over to hide it. Suspicious that it was someone challenging your authority, you moved silently and carefully. No one for a 5-mile radius would be dumb enough to challenge your claim to the block, but there were always outliers. 

As you stepped out of your bedroom and towards the living room, you strained your ears to try and hear voices. It was silent. ​Suddenly, a man appeared in the hallway with you. Your heart stopped in panic as you recognized the red mask that had been terrorizing your suppliers for months. The man misread your fear, though. ​

“I’m not here to hurt you.” He said as if he was trying to console you. “I’m just looking for the man running this block.” You looked at him in confusion. The Red Hood must not know that it was actually a woman who was in charge of the area. You certainly weren’t going to correct him. ​Shaking your head, you answered him, 

“I don’t know where he is.” Your voice cracked as you said it, playing at his assumption that you were a victim to the dealer’s plot. ​His eyes looked past you, not completely buying your act. He moved forward, pushing you gently to the side as he went to check the rest of the apartment. 

When his back was to you, you rolled your eyes and moved into the living room. You debated in your mind whether you were more concerned about this man’s sexist opinion of women not being able to be in charge of drug rings or if you were grateful for his ignorance. You sat down on your couch and waited for him to finish searching your house. When he joined you back in the living room, he had a gun out. ​

“Where is he?” Red Hood demanded from you, knowing that you knew something about the drug lord’s whereabouts. ​You shrugged. 

“I have no idea where he is. I don’t know where you get your intel from, but there is no drug lord here.” ​He argued with you. 

“Yes, there is. My sources are solid. And I’ve been staking this place out for weeks. You’re hiding him, and I don’t like it when people hide information from me.” ​You bit your cheek to hid the smile that threatened to completely give away your cover. His threat was unconvincing. 

As tough as the man in front of you seemed, he was a “save-the-damsel-in-distress” superhero. They all were. He wasn’t going to hurt you; not while he thought you were just the girlfriend of the local drug lord.You stood up, moving towards him with your hands up. 

​“Listen,” you told him, “I sincerely do not know where the man you’re looking for is. I wish I could help you, but I can’t.” ​

“Then perhaps you wouldn’t mind me waiting here for him to come home, would you?” Red Hood asked, moving to sit in the seat you just vacated. 

​“What? No!” You followed him and stood over him as he sat on your couch. “I have to wake up and go to work tomorrow at 4:30am. I have a real job, unlike you.” ​Red Hood ignored you, settling in on your couch. 

​“Oh.” He added, pulling your phone from his pocket. “Just so you don’t tip him off that I’m here waiting for him.” ​Your heart caught in your throat when you saw that he had your phone. You were still waiting on a confirmation text from your lieutenants that the transaction was successful. Still, you didn’t want to tip him off to anything, so you kept your cool. You shifted your weight to one leg and cocked out a hip, running a rand through your hair. ​

“I really don’t have time to argue with you.” You said, stifling a yawn. “I really have to go to sleep. And I can’t do that with an armed maniac in my home. Can you please leave?” ​At that, he stood up, his height towering over your smaller frame. He stood right in front of you, your chest almost flush with his. He smelled nice, for a vigilante—like cigarettes and leather and soap. He reached behind you and, after a second, you realized what he was reaching for. Trying to back away before he could grab it, Red Hood grabbed your gun from you.

​“It doesn’t look like you’re struggling to protect yourself, sweet cheeks.” He joked with you. ​You reached for your gun, fighting his strength with as much of yours as you could. Eventually, he gave in, allowing you to grab it from his hands. Holding it up so that it was pointed at his chest, you motioned with your head towards the door.

“Get out. Leave my phone. And get out.” ​He held his hands up in surrender and walked towards the door.

​“This isn’t the last you’ll see of me, sweet cheeks.” He told you before shutting the door. ​You immediately went up and reset all your locks. Thankfully, only the deadbolt had been broken, not the numerous other chain locks that you had installed after you had moved in. Locking the door up tight, you fell down on your couch, exhausted from the adrenaline of almost getting caught. ​

Your phone vibrated underneath you. Pulling it out, you saw that you had a message from one of your lieutenants. It was a confirmation message. The deal was a success. It was only after you sent a reply that you noticed the time stamp on the message. It had come in 10 minutes ago, when Red Hood was searching your room. 

He had seen the message. 

Rika’s back and MC gets left P. 3

Rika is back and MC gets sick at the same time she feels abandoned. Part 1 (x) | Part 2 (x) | Part 3 (x) | Part 4 (x)Part 5 (x)

  • Initially you don’t trust Unknown he did lure you to an apartment that put you in harms way
  • But because of Unknown you met some of the best people before they felt like you werent good enough for them
  • At first you didn’t think his idea would work
  • But the first “trial” made you feel like dying would not only be heaven, it would feel like you were on cloud 9 even if you ended up in hell
  • Plus, Unknown really took to Paco and both got along
  • After a few visits  turned into a few weeks, you no longer had hope that you would ever attend another rfa event with everyone
  • You didn’t pay attention to how close you were to tasting the last lingering lifeline you had
  • All you cared about was that Paco was taken good care of
  • And that you were not feeling anything anymore
  • Whatever Unknown has been giving you, you wanted more…

– Jumin –

  • Jumin was not stupid
  • Emotions were all that clouded what was happening
  • He knew that everyone tended to be more sentimental than rational and that he may be seen as heartless and cold
  • But he was not stupid
  • At first Jumin didn’t find it off that Rika wasn’t the slightest concerned with MC bc maybe they have been talking in private
  • But after Jahee brought it up to him that she was concerned, he had to verify
  • He checked on the CCTV that showed MC’S apartment hallway when he showed her the building he didn’t tell her it was owned by him and that’s why it was cheaper for her and convenient for him to look after her which he hasn’t since Rika came back
  • He didn’t notice anything odd
  • It just looked like MC was a creature of habit; every day taking her dog out walking early and in the afternoon, leaving daily for work, and most of all
  • MC looked healthy
  • But something didn’t feel right

Jumin has entered the chatroom.
Jumin: MC When you see this, please call me.
Rika has entered the chatroom.
Rika: Is something the matter?
Jumin: No, I just needed to ask MC for her opinion on something.
Rika: Well, since I now handle emails and the party, why don’t you ask me? ^^
Jumin: It’s for something else, I’m sorry Rika.
Rika: Oh. I see. Well, hopefully MC logs in soon! I haven’t heard from them in a while.
Jumin: I thought you said you talked to her recently when Assistant Kang interrupted us during lunch?
Rika: Oh yes! I did, I forgot. Sorry~!;;
Jumin: I see. I must go now. Enjoy the rest of your day Rika.
Rika: Thank you, you too! ^^
Jumin has left the chatroom.

  • Jumin wasn’t convinced anymore
  • He would have to ask Seven to look into this when he came back from wherever he went
  • For now he’d have to do this alone
  • Jumin left the office, telling Assistant Kang to reschedule the days meetings for another day
  • He had Driver Kim take him to the apartment building MC was living in
  • He walked past the bellhop boy and made his way to MC’s door: 606
  • He knocked repeatedly with no response
  • Was she at work? No, too early… Did she take that animal for a walk?
  • He got tired of waiting and went to see the building manager and requested for the room access code to 606

But sir; no one lives there anymore. I thought you knew?
-What do you mean no one lives there? Where is MC?
Please, calm down sir. We only did what was said
-What was said? By whom?
By you. You were the one who requested that it be vacated as soon as possible. The previous owner left about a month ago…

  • Had it really been that long since MC last spoke to any of us? Why didn’t I notice?
  • Jumin panicked; if MC wasnt there, where was she?

– Unknown –

  • Unknown was only doing what he was told to do
  • He didn’t harbor any resentment towards MC, well not anymore
  • Maybe it was watching someone so sick slowly deteriorate that Unknown became more sympathetic towards her
  • Or maybe it was the dog
  • His Savior told him that by getting rid of MC, everything else would fall into place
  • Since he was sure the Savior would let MC go to Paradise first, he didn’t feel all too guilty
  • So of course, Unknown did it all for Paradise

– 707 –

707 has entered the chatroom.
Rika: Hello Seven, how was your trip? ^^
707: I didn’t even get to go and play in the ocean. Vanderwood had me on a tight leash ;;
Rika: At least she’s looking out for you! You should really listen to her~
707: …but I wanted to swim until I couldn’t! There’s no water in space. Well, not a lot like the ocean. Ah, Vanderwood caught me slacking off.
Rika: Focus on your work Seven, but also relax every once in awhile ^^
707: 707 will take your words into consideration..  MAYBE I SHOULD TAKE ANOTHER VACATION LOLOL! byyyyeee
707 has left the chatroom.

  • It felt strange and lonely without MC
  • Seven didn’t know if he should consult V and Rika with what Jumin told him
  • He should though because V was supposed to be the one person he could count on
  • But when Jumin asked for no one to know about this, not even V or Rika, he became concerned
  • What if MC really is in danger? But Rika said she was fine… unless she lied…
  • Seven got the videos from the apartment building and found that the videos had been tampered
  • He went back to when the tampering began taking him back to 2 months ago
  • Had I been gone that long trying to get into Russia?
  • The last two videos that didn’t look tampered with happened to be the video of MC going for a run
  • After that all later videos were edited
  • Looking at the time stamp Seven tried to find the GPS history of her phone
  • But she left it in the apartment
  • Seven looked through the GPS history and only one time did something not follow her normal schedule
  • She went to the hospital a day after the video of MC going for a run
  • Did she get hurt?
  • Seven tried to see if there was any way to see where MC was
  • But she was gone
  • her phone was gone, the GPS wasn’t there; MC was no longer in the technological world where Seven could find her
  • Dammit!
  • Seven looked at the robot cat he worked on for MC
  • “Master doesn’t seem happy meow~ why aren’t you happy? Master is scared~”

– Unknown –

  • It was almost too easy for MC to disappear
  • The doctor she saw was a member of Mystic Eye
  • on orders by the Savior, he gave his files and anything with MC to Unknown who would be sure to destroy all traces of her
  • Unknown cleared his computer files that belonged to MC and all records of her visiting this hospital
  • Unknown cleared all videos of the doctor going into stores to buy things for MC and Paco
  • But looking at how MC still smiled at Unknown despite his intentions, his heart swelled
  • Don’t look at me like that!
  • “Is something the matter Unknown?”
  • No; he couldn’t get mad at her
  • towards the RFA he could
  • They were to blame for her getting so sick
  • they left her alone, tossing her to the side as if she were a used toy that everyone got bored of
  • they didnt even seem to care that she had been missing for over a month now 
  • they dont deserve her 
  • they never did
  • Call me Saeran, we should be on first name bases now
  • “If you say so Saeran” MC smiled, then coughed, leaning over the side of the bed to dry heave into the bucket Saeran left for her
  • Paco whimpered, expressing what Saeran felt

– 707 –

  • When he looked into the computer files of the hospital MC was at, he didn’t find anything
  • He even looked for people that would fit MC’S description and still, nada
  • Seven second guessed himself, maybe MC didn’t go to the hospital but probably took someone?
  • He almost gave up until he found a backdoor that had one message:

She’s terminally ill. You all should have looked after her better. -Unknown

– Jumin –

  • Jumin felt guilty, shame, and resentment
  • Guilty that they pushed MC away when she probably needed them the most
  • Shame that he promised he’d look after her breaking the promise when Rika came back
  • Resentment that MC didn’t try harder to get help
  • Jumin knew he had to tell the other RFA members
  • But because how much it revolves around Rika’s return, he didn’t want her to feel at fault …

Maybe she had something to do with this?
Don’t be impossible, it’s Rika were talking about
She did fake her death though and had us mourning
It was all for RFA’s safety!
From what?

  • Jumin needed wine no something stronger than wine
  • He was doing what he hated and that was letting his feelings cloud his judgment

– 707 –

  • Seven knew
  • He knew MC was still alive with Unknown, he didn’t however know was that she was seriously sick like almost seconds away from forever ceasing to exist 
  • Not until he traced the IP address from that message
  • He hacked into the security cameras in the building where MC was and his heart broke
  • There
  • lying in a bed with a dog, was a thin and sick MC
  • her face hollow and her body weak and feeble
  • But she still smiled
  • She was petting her dog and smiling towards the person who had their back to the camera
  • If that’s Unknown, why is she smiling at him?
  • Oh no
  • Seven looked in horror as MC doubled over, coughing what looked like blood into a bucket while Unknown rubbed her back as if he was supporting her 
  • What did we do to you MC? What did I do to you?  
  • Seven closed his eyes, conjuring the last time he spoke with MC and hearing her smile through the phone as they talked about the moon and space
  • What did we do to you?
TUMBLING TUMBLEWEEDS.........

Since I am now day 3 into this sinus infection (feeling much better though, and thanks for the sweet well wishes), I have been tumbling around here, and other sites when some interesting thoughts hit my congested head!

It appears that “some people” are doing all they can to throw shade at all of the fun and positive things we are seeing from our dreamy duo. And don’t you really wonder why that is?? It made me think of a saying my Dad used to say to us growing up….“never believe anything you hear, and only half of what you see”. In my drug induced state…this made me a little mindful of what we “don’t” see. Take away ALL of the press, PR, OL, con, interviews, etc…and what do you have?? Well let’s count, shall we??

1-BTS pics from S2 with a very cozy S/C, complete with water bottles and *gasp* kissing!! Quick, get the spray gun!!

2-Last years GG’S with the arm around Cait, the intense gazing off camera, and let’s not forget…pizza in the room at 4am. Who knew??

3-2016 time travel gaps. Where do we begin?? Well, we know Cait was in Cannes, while a surly Sam stayed home. But, then came Wimbledon, while Sam was “off the grid”, only to learn later that he too was in London for the Barbour photo shoot. And let’s not forget the bonny Prince himself tweeting Sam to “enjoy the tennis”. We then had random pics if Cait’s “holiday ”…Ireland, Portugal, Italy… while Sam was being papped on the streets of NY, and even a “placed pic” in Montreal, then off the grid himself. My thought here….Sam did all that, only to join Cait on said holiday, and they spent the summer together. Just follow the “shoe” in the shadow!

4-Fast forward to filming time, and we get Cait’s birthday, and the traveling forehead. There is absolutely no way in hell that Sam was not there with her…..none, period, fini!!

5- Ahhh, the Bafta’s. Initially a little shocker, but probably the best thing to happen to us in a very long time, and why, you might ask??..that backstage shot of Sam and Cait. Case closed.

6- Christmas and New Years- We all saw pics, tweets and a host of innuendo, but my assessment?? Sam went to Amsterdam for the obligigatory narrative, had dinner with friends, and flew to LA to see Cait, and have the “fireside chat” meeting that sparked his January 4th IG post, and now here we are. ECCC video, PCA video, FB Q&A, and once again, cosy bts pics. And my freaking favorite?? T2 premier. Talk about getting jiggly with it?!? Sam and Cait OWNED that space for all the world to see!

I am sure that I have missed many other important events in between, but the point of my drivel is quite simple. We no longer need to “prove” they are together, in any capacity. IMO, they are co-workers, friends , lovers, and if I am really going down the rabbit hole, married as well. And the sheer joy and happiness they have exhibited for the past month tells me that they have been (under some freaky circumstances) and are now living their lives their way. The complete lack of response from Sam and Cait when “others” have tried to piss on the current love parade should be celebrated. If they can ignore and live it, then so should we.

So, let the SamCait flag fly! And everytime someone swerves into our lane with a “why”…our response should be why not? Just keep looking at what we don’t see. It is all there, and they are slowly raising the curtain! As @mama-tumblz so eloquently stated…these are desperate times for some, but not us!

Happy Thursday Tumblerinias! I am off to see if Cait is using Sam’s “pole” today! (I will NEVER get over that one from flocklander)!😘😍😂😂😂

Sirius Black X Reader - Cold Autumn Nights

HELLO I HAVEN’T POSTED ANYTHING SINCE LIKE 2016 BUT IT’S FINE. 

So backstory to this story!!! I started writing it in November when I literally got my heartbroken (a lot of the dialogue is like,,, almost verbatim lmao) and then I opened my Drive today and said “I’m going to write shit” so I opened this up, renamed it something cuter, and finished typing it up! Yeah. So I have another Sirius Black thing coming up, a Peter Parker thing I started, and a Zuko thing coming (those are the things I am working on literally rn), so stay tuned (i’m digging the Parker one so if you like Tom Holland and Spiderman be ready). Okay I’ve talked a lot please enjoy Cold Autumn Nights (aka Budzoned)!!!

Word Count: 1820


Have you heard of the Friendzone? Wait, of course you have. Everyone has.

But have you ever heard of the Budzone? It was a thing you didn’t even realize existed until now. It was almost friends with benefits, but worse. It was almost dating, but not. It was nearly the friendzone, but not quite. Basically, it was hell, and you had no clue what you had done to Sirius Black to deserve this.

But let’s start from the beginning of the story. It was a cold October night in Hogsmeade, and it seemed as though you and Sirius were the only two there. You were close, of course, that’s how you ended up walking alone in the beautiful town. You only had a couple hours left before you were required to go back to Hogwarts, and you were making the most of it.

“My hands are freezing,” Sirius had said, rubbing them together.

“Really?” you asked, a small smile on your face.

“Really,” the boy replied, dropping his hands back to his side.

“How cold though?” Sirius raised his hand in response to your question, holding it out for you to feel. You placed your hand on his, nodding your head as you caught his gaze. “That’s pretty cold,” you noted. You turned your head away, dropping the eye-contact you had been maintaining, but you kept your hand on his and, in a moment of confidence, slowly intertwined your fingers. To your surprise he didn’t pull away, and instead pulled you closer to him.

Later you two were talking. Sirius admitted that he had stopped seeing and flirting with girls because of you. “I get why whenever I’m with you,” he had told you, giving you that small smile that made your heart flutter.

That night was like a dream.

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Award Pardy!

The PardyPeople’s Choice Awards (2017)

Hey guys! Today I am happy to announce that I will be hosting a silly little award ceremony here on tumblr this month. The award ceremony is specifically designed for tumblr writers and will take place on June 25th, with voting on the 24th and nominations throughout the month. 

The idea is not to exclude anyone, or actually say that anyone is better than anyone else, but more so to just have fun and spread some love around. What makes it so fun? Well, besides the fact that I enjoyed setting it all up, YOU guys will actually get to nominate for each category and then YOU guys will ultimately vote for the winner. There are 8 categories to vote in.

Categories:
- Favorite Rhyming Poet
- Favorite Short Poem Writer
- Favorite Prompt Participant (wrote for any 2017 prompt)
- Favorite Photograph Poet (uses photo uploads)
- Favorite Poetry Blog Platform (as a whole)
- Favorite Storyteller (short stories)
- Favorite New Writer (blog must be less than a year old)
- Favorite Writer of 2017

*To be considered for a category, your blog doesn’t have to only post one type of content. For example, if you write rhyming AND non-rhyming poems, you can still be nominated for Favorite Rhyming Poet. If you write short AND long poems, you can still be nominated for Favorite Short Poem Writer (and so on).

Nominations

The First Five Nominations
In each category, there will be 6 nominations, 5 of which have already been determined by me, which I think is fair given the fact that this is my little award ceremony. My 5 nominees were picked partially based on personal opinion, because how could I not, and also on a basic set of criteria. 

1. Visibility - My ability to actually find their blog through tumblr’s tagging system and just overall ability to know that their blog exists in general. If I don’t know they exist, I simply cannot consider them.
2. Quantity - How often and consistently they post. Inactive blogs aren’t eligible.
3. Quality - How many likes and reblogs they get. People wouldn’t like it and share if it they didn’t think it was of a decent standing.
4. Personal Opinion - Again, because how could I not?

*Obviously I can’t view every single writing blog there is and judge them based on all of that above and compare them, that would be way too intense, but those things WERE considered and my choices weren’t made hastily just because I like someone. And of course, that is also why there is the 6th nomination… 

The PardyPeople’s Nomination
In each category, the 6th nomination will be determined by you guys. The way this will work is you will use the form below to submit your nominations. When nominations are closed, I will tally up the numbers. Whoever is nominated the most times in a specific category will be the 6th nominee. If no one person is nominated more than anyone else or there is a tie, then I will revert back to the original criteria used for picking the first 5 nominees to help decide who of the remaining or tied people’s nominations will take the 6th spot. 

The Nomination Rules
To submit your nominations, you must use the form below. Copy and paste the ENTIRE form into the submit box on the submit page (linked below) and fill out the form accordingly. You must use the URL of the tumblr blog that you are nominating. If you do not have a nomination for a specific category, leave blank or type N/A (not applicable). You may not nominate anonymously or via any other messaging system. You may not nominate non-tumblr users. You may only submit your nominations once, but you may also nominate the same blog in multiple categories. Inactive blogs aren’t eligible (if a user hasn’t posted in a month or more, I would consider it inactive). You may not nominate yourself or me. Nominations close on Thursday June 22nd at 11AM NDT, but please enter them before then! It would be a lot easier on me! 

Any nomination that doesn’t follow the rules will be considered null and void and will not be counted. All nominations will be kept a surprise until voting day.

Nomination Form
You MUST follow the rules above. Copy the form below.
Submit Here: https://sarahmariepardy.tumblr.com/submit

PardyPeople’s Choice Awards
Favorite Rhyming Poet Nomination:
Favorite Short Poem Writer Nomination:
Favorite Prompt Participant (wrote for any 2017 prompt) Nomination:
Favorite Photograph Poet (uses photo uploads) Nomination:
Favorite Poetry Blog Platform (as a whole) Nomination:
Favorite Storyteller (short stories) Nomination:
Favorite New Writer (blog must be less than a year old) Nomination:
Favorite Writer of 2017 Nomination: 

*To be considered for a category, your blog doesn’t have to only post one type of content. For example, if you write rhyming AND non-rhyming poems, you can still be nominated for Favorite Rhyming Poet. If you write short AND long poems, you can still be nominated for Favorite Short Poem Writer (and so on).

Nominations close on Thursday June 22nd at 11AM NDT.

Voting

Voting will take place on Saturday, June 24th at 11AM NDT. There will be online polls set up for you to vote that will be posted here to the blog along with the list of nominees so you can view each blog before voting. There is no official way for me to know if you vote multiple times, so it is allowed. For the same reason you may also vote for yourself. Voting will close at 11AM NDT Sunday, June 25th. The winners will then be announced by 5PM NDT. Currently there is no real prize for the winners other than bragging rights.

So I think that’s it! Again, this isn’t a way to single anyone out or leave anyone out, but more so just for fun. I hope you guys are as excited for it as I am, and start submitting your nominations asap! And again, I will not be a nominee. This is for you guys, not for me (aside from giving me something to do)!

Any questions? Send them here: https://sarahmariepardy.tumblr.com/ask

Keep havin’ a Pardy!
Sarah