On April 24th, 2014, I wrote my suicide note and planned it for April 27th, 2014.
I wanted to wait a few days because on April 25th, I was meeting All Time Low.
When I walked up to meet Jack, he immediately hugged me and I began to cry while muttering “thank you for saving my life” since All Time Low for me through some hard times a few years ago. Then I told him about some previous suicide attempts. He just looked me in the eye and said “Aw, don’t do that. Come hang out with us instead.” I then hugged and talked to the rest of the band (they were all so sweet!) and got in line for the show later that night.
But in that moment, when Jack told me not to kill myself, I knew I couldn’t do it. Someone who doesn’t even know my name just told me not to do it. I went home the next day and burned the note and decided suicide wasn’t an option. It never was and it never will be.
Now here I am, a year later, and I’m still alive. I’m not happy, but I’m alive. Thanks to the words of Jack Barakat. Someone who had no idea I existed but told me not to kill myself anyways. I will forever be grateful to this band.