“Sometimes I’d start crying in class for no reason. Then when I got home from school, I’d just go straight to my room. I couldn’t even talk to my mom about it because I’d just start crying. People would tell me: ‘Just get up, exercise, and take a walk.’ But none of that helped. Things got so bad that even the school was watching me. I started bawling during a chemistry exam and I ended up in the school psychologist office. I remember thinking: ‘I don’t care if I ever see another chemistry exam again. Or my friends. Or my mom.’ And I started to get this feeling that I was definitely going to do it. I was going to lock myself in my room that night and take a bunch of pills. The only thing that stopped me was imagining my mom finding my body. That was three years ago. That time seems so far away now. I found a great therapist. I learned so much about myself. There’s so much that I want to do now. I want to travel. I want to get married. I want to have kids. There are so many poems that I haven’t written and songs I haven’t heard. So it’s terrifying for me to think that I came so close. My problems were small back then. They were teenage problems. But I came one step away from not being. And I had made the decision to take that step. I’m afraid that I can go back to that place again. And next time, my problems will probably not be so small.”
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Chowder’s eyes widen comically. He looks exactly as shocked about it as Dex still feels. “You– Oh my– What?!”
“I didn’t mean to.”
Chowder stops walking in the middle of the path. They’re going to be late to class, but Dex kinda figured that would be the case when he brought this up. “How do you kiss somebody without meaning to?”
“I was angry.”
“And, so, you know how I’ve been going to counseling this year?” Chowder nods. Dex stuffs his hands into his pockets and shrugs. “Well, my counselor recommended that I try to find more constructive ways of channeling my anger whenever it comes up.”
“Ways like… kissing.”
“Honestly, C? It was that or punch him.”
“I’m not sure I understand how the only options were either punching him or kissing him.”
Dex shrugs again. And then breathes in deep as much crisp, autumn air as his lungs can take, bracing himself for his next admission. “Because those have kinda always been the only two options for me when it comes to Nursey.”
Chowder’s expression softens from shock to a quiet understanding. “Oh.”
Dex drops his head and stares down at his own shoes.
“So… did he kiss you back?”
A small smile tugs at one corner of Dex’s mouth, and for the first time in a very long while he doesn’t bother fighting it. “Yeah. Yeah, he did.”
Summary: In which Bucky needs a reminder that he’s the only person you want to be with.
Pairing: Bucky x Reader
Word Count: 948
A/N: This one was written for my love, @janelock221. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU RADIANT QUEEN. I took the two prompts you sent my way and threw them in here - it’s my small way of letting you know that your friendship means everything to me.
“I can’t believe you’re making me do this,” you complain, staring at your reflection in the bathroom mirror. You don’t know how you got here. This wasn’t what you had in mind after returning home after a long day of work.
“I don’t call you my partner in crime for no reason,” Bucky calls out, voice carrying through the wooden door that’s acting as the only barrier between the two of you. “Now c’mon, doll. I wanna see how you look.”
“But he really was my favourite for that because he really kept me on my toes and i had a great relationship with the dog. The dog actually bit a couple of the cast members. He bit Jim, he bit Kevin yeah, yeah but but you know the dog never bit me and the dog never bit Michael and he never bit Amy.” - Sarah Shahi (x)
Really the more I watch the older episodes, Grif is kind of like that babysitter that you think is absolute garbage, but always knows where those POS kids are.
He’s the one to give Sarge CPR when Sarge got shot in the head
He’s the one that goes to Simmons when Simmons is having his mental breakdown in season 4
He jumps into action when Donut steals the flag in season 1 and is getting chased by the blues
Is genuinely worried when Donut gets captured by the Blues
He wants to dig Sarge up after the “funeral”. Simmons would have just left Sarge in the hole
Grif is immediately concerned with getting his sister home. Failing that, he makes sure the Blues will treat her ok before letting her into Blue Base
When Donut shows up in Valhalla, Grif is the first to notice it
Grif volunteers to go with Caboose on what sounds like a very stupid mission to rescue Tucker
In a deleted scene, Grif goes up to Epsilon to see if he can fill some of the gaps in his memory thanks to Caboose’s story telling
Fighting the Meta and Washington to rescue Simmons
Jumping on the Meta’s back to steal the Grifshot so that the Meta was a little less deadly
Being genuinely distressed when Sarge looked like he was doing a suicide charge.
Getting so stressed out during his time with the New Republic about their missing team members and the progress of the New Republic troops that he emulates Sarge.
“I spent my whole life following orders I want to do, I’m not going to make someone do that for something I want.”
And generally just being an emotional constant for most characters to bounce off of.
And in return he gets
His life threatened constantly
“Simmons, I want you to poison Grif’s next meal” “Yes Sir!”
All of Red Team’s emergency plans
All of Sarge’s plans start with his death
Remember Fake CT? “Tell me what you’re doing here, or I’ll kill the orange one” …. ….. …. “Yeah, you’re a little new around here. That’s not going to work.”
Gets SHOT at repeatedly
Sarge is the biggest culprit here, but Simmons has done it
dont forget the time Sarge shot him with a TANK
Generally belittled and mocked
Also you remember the other time that Grif tried to leave? Back in Season 10? When Church and Lina wanted him to go after the Director? Church called him selfish for wanting to leave then too, The rest of the Reds only stood behind him then, it seems like (at least to Grif now) because it was also something they didnt want to do, not because a member of their team was being attacked.