so my mom's not letting me get on my laptop

Please help me get my life together!

Hello followers and non followers do I have a story for you

The name’s Madison but you can call Me Maddie Im a 20 year old lesbian who is so mentally ill that it has been effecting me physically Ive lost almost 20 pounds in over a month as well as having little to know appetiteI’ve been very emotionally unstable recently,Feverish off and on,I have a suspicion i may have schizophrenia, And i’ve been having problems i’ve been watching im concerned about and not too sure what too do  ive been getting with chest pains and once a week sometimes two weeks my heart feels like its struggling and i cant do anything for a few seconds??? its terrifying and of course my heart racing feeling its going to beat out my chest when im just sitting around

somewhat came out to my mother a few months ago but really she looked at my private information on my phone when i was going through some serious lesbophobia and trying to get some advice with friends shes been off and on about accepting me that night i had told her even though i already knew that she knew she made me feel like something was wrong with me and I had some sort of demon and PCOS

The money I’ve made I’ve gotten through my job gifts through holidays and some help from other people have been taken by my parents as well

The point is I really need some money If any of you have a couple of extra bucks to share I would be soooo Greatful! It will go to: 1. Putting aside savings for emergencys 2. Giving proper care to my dog (Who needs medicine to prevent heart worms and his rabies shot soon) 3. A laptop so i can draw away from home 4. Getting some money aside for driving lessons (I’ve been too mentally ill and let my parents walk over me for too long its hard to get a job when i have to rely on them i had to sob to my mom to take my dog who was bitten to the vet and tell her to please take me to the doctors for a week when i was sick) That’s what im starting with for now im trying not too overwhelm myself My mom put me through three anxiety attacks in almost 2 weeks i called my brother up telling him i was not doing well and he rescued me about two weeks ago today which i am so greatful I will immediately follow you!

I really need help and made these examples today to show my improvement and what i can do

Heres a simple but cute sketch which will be 5$ or lower Depending on how complex the character (I’ll leave out the guidelines at the face and put more effort)

Colored and cute 9$

Detailed sketch 6$ (Again i’ll put more work in it I most these examples in several hours today)

Lineart 8$ added characters 2$ each

Colored 10$ shaded 12$

Background an extra 2$ (Old example)

Memes 4$

Im not the best with humans,Backgrounds,and Inanimate objects but I will do my best! Thank you so much for listening and if you cant help me out please spread the word! To those who are willing to help me out I can’t thank you enough

To those willing to help me out please give me time to get it done my anxiety has been through the roof lately and I really want to make sure you’re all happy with all i make for you in return!

Thank you so much!

Support me here:

paypal.me/Rawringrainbows

So apparently a Windows update fucked up my laptop cause I can’t move past the welcome page. The login screen will flicker briefly before disappearing, and then every time I click anything, the same thing happens.

I’ll get it checked tomorrow but if anyone has had anything similar happen to them, please let me know?

Reason for being inactive

Yes, I know, school isn’t the best reason and all, because also many of you have school and still do your work on ask-blogs. But my days are always full. I woke up at 5:30 and the morning to prepare for school which starts at 7:30 and it last until 14:30 and 13:30 in lucky days. I arrive at home at 15:30/14:30 and then get some sleep until like 16:45 let’s say. I have to eat and things like that and then I have to do my fucking homeworks, and even if I use my laptop for them, I can’t draw just because I want. My mom is almost always in the same room, so I can’t do much about this. I finish my homeworks like at 21:30 and then I have to get ready for the next day.

It sucks, but you have to bear with me sadly. I’m sorry.

hey i got my phone and laptop taken away untill the end of the school year so unless i can get my mom to let me use my phone at school ill be gone till june 14
This is serious...

YAY IM GETTING MY OWN LAPTOP! I thought I might get Photoshop today but I didn’t.
Laptop Explanation: So basically my “uncle” (he isn’t really my uncle) refurbishes computers and he said he would give me one of the laptops (he’s gonna get a 64 bit one cause he knows I like the the sims) but my mom is a butt face and wouldn’t let me get it today so I have to wait a week or two but I finally get my own computer and I’m happy I might try and figure out a way to get my save over to my laptop but I think it will mostly just me gaming from my family computer so yeah luckily I have 3 saves. My townie makeover save, just a day in the life and my sister’s save so I might start a save that I will play on my laptop and when I go I trips like this I can still do stuff instead of having my stupid crap phone (that I am thankful I even have a phone) ooh and it means I can make cc on the road

Photoshop Explanation: My uncle told me he had a 3rd key code for his Photoshop he bought but it turned out he only had the 2 so yeah

anonymous asked:

hello im back again to let you know that im so so sorry about whats going on in your life, it sounds absolutely awful and you dont deserve it but i promise from the bottom of my heart that it will get better and you can make it through absolutely anything. youre such a strong, incredible person and i believe that you'll do amazing things with your life. stay strong and remember that so many people love you and support you <3

Thank you. Seriously.
As of right now my mom has my phone, debit card, and ID, but I’ve got most of my day to day clothing, laptop and a bit of cash.
My cousins letting me camp out on her floor for a while, but it’s probably a good thing I sleep at work twice a week.
Still looking at apartments.
Don’t know why places that are looking to rent out don’t answer their phones but whatever.
I’ll be okay
(By the way, she called me abusive because when she yells at me, I shit down and go silent. Literally can’t get a sound out. And her having to deal with that is abuse.)

executingcocacola  asked:

dec 20 :3c

December - what do you want for christmas?

A bean bag!!! AAAA those are super cosy!!! that or a wacom/tablet that doesnt force me to use my laptop just to get the right colors + has a larger length so i can fit all the tools on the screen haha

what is the most expensive thing you own?

uhh probably some of the clothes/makeup/cosmetics my moms boss passes down to me bc holy shit that high end stuff >:U

but if its something that my family has bought, probably this drone i got on christmas (which i let my brothers use bc they broke theirs,,,they sent mine over the railroad when i wasnt home ;m; it got trashed ofc)

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Well, well. HELLO EVERYONE! I’m the newest simblr on the block and currently hoping I am welcomed with open arms 😌. A little bit about me…. I’m 19 years old, I’m a college student & I’m in a 4 year relationship… with a boy. So yeah i’m gay too. I have been playing the sims since my mom bought me The Sims Bustin Out for PS2 since the I have been hooked. Once she let me have my own laptop i bought the Sims 2 and yeah the rest is history. Until recently I wasn’t aware of the simblr community, only youtube’d videos on how to instal CC for TS4 seeing that most people get CC from tumblr I did a little (well alot of digging) and that is where I found different Simblrs. Did a little more digger and I fucking found THE BLACK SIMBLR COMMUNITY! UGHH! Nothing against the White Simblr’s just.. yeah. But anyway once I found the black simblr community and seen the Melanin pack from @xmiramira I fell even deeper inlove with the Black Simblr community. After finding her I hit the jack pot and found @ebonixsimblr, @blvck-life-simz, @juicysims, @blackms-cc, @talesofascrewup, @streetxsims, @pixelheaux. Looking through your blogs gave me the inspiration to make my own simblr, despite being scared that I wouldn’t be well liked, or no one would like my RP, Or Let’s Play’s. Thank you guys. For making the Black Simblr community what it is today. I’m sure I’m missing some people.. If i missed anyone who is crucial to the Black Simblr community tag them for me please 😌. Also on my profile is my Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram. The soundcloud is not me. Its my boyfriend he is an underground rapper in Pittsburgh, PA. Oh and another thing. I have a crude humor/stan blog. @jayzs-lovechild so if you ever got a message in your ask from that tumblr that was me lol ALSO the blog that I had before this @cocothesimmer was just a blog to reblog CC that I liked so if you ever seen that blog reblog you that was also me lol. Well yeah, Happy Simming ✊🏿

When I got my first laptop, I was about 14, and my computer had just died. We didn’t think we’d bother getting somebody else in to repair it, so my mom agreed to let me get a laptop. I was SO excited, and we went to the store, picked one, took it home, set it up, and I was always on it. Constantly. Then my mom decided she’d turn the wireless connection off every night at 9. I used to have this way of scuttling downstairs when she wasn’t looking, and crawling behind the couch to the table where the switch was, it was like a Bond movie or something, I thought I was so cool. I’d ever so slightly reach out, flick the switch, crawl back behind the couch and just be on the bottom stair when my mom would call from the living room, ‘Go back to bed Taylor. I’m switching it off again.’ It was so devastating, you know? All that hard work for nothing!

I FINALLY GOT MY FIRST 1K FOLLOWERS! so, in honor and thanks to my lovely followers I am going to spending a WHOLE week doing blog rates, promos, fancasts and maybe personalized ficlets (if I am inspired enough to write), and personal edit requests for all who ask. 

Rules and Info below the cut.

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Before He Cheats Part 3

Pairing: Dean x Reader in flashback, slight/eventual Sam x Reader
Prompt/Summary: Dean drunkenly cheats on the reader, she retaliates by wrecking the Impala and is consoled by Sam. Based off Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood.

Author: two-idjits-and-an-impala
Reader Gender: Female
Word Count: 1510
Warnings: Swearing, wrestling, unresolved tension ;) and someone gets slapped

Author note: I’m so sorry this took so long to get out! My mom is only letting me have my laptop sometimes (uGh) and I’ve been liveblogging almost constantly for the past 2 days and I had my first therapy session yesterday and it’s just been very stressful, but at last, it’s here!! I hope you enjoy, I had so much fun writing this chapter! <3

Part 1

Part 2

when i was in 7th grade that’s when youtube started getting popular and i remember sitting in the cafeteria before school started every morning watching taylor videos because when I told my mom about it she was suspicious of youtube and wouldn’t let me go on it at home so when i went to school i felt rebellious cause I’d sit there in the corner by myself with my laptop watching fan made music videos to i’d lie with like jake and miley from hannah montana in them