I hardly remember the girl in the before picture, but I don’t want to forget her. I don’t want to forget what it was like to feel like a prisoner in my own body. The pain, the powerlessness to change. Change is slow and getting started is hard, but it’s possible when broken down into tiny manageable habits. If you’ve never struggled with obesity, it’s easy to think you just need to muster up a little discipline and put down the fork, but you’re wrong. It’s so much more complex than that. There’s a reason why 95% of those who lose regain it and it’s not because they’re lazy. We probably judge ourselves more than you because we’ve all been taught that it’s our fault. I’m working really hard to have compassion for myself – then and now –and for those who share the burden of obesity. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. But it doesn’t make us bad or lazy or stupid, it makes us sick. and I’m sick of a culture that believes otherwise and marginalizes people who are trying and failing despite their other achievements. Sorry to go off on a tangent, but this disconnect in understanding and compassion pains me. I am strong willed and determined and pursue my dreams with vigor, but when it comes to this, if I let my guard down, I’ll be back there in an instant. Seriously, eff obesity, but more than that, eff anyone who doesn’t have compassion for those of us who are up against it. Excuse my language, it’s the only word that feels appropriate this morning. Keep fighting the good fight babes and never give up. Happy Humpday 🐫
I will never understand why people like to use the term “sold out” when it comes to doing what you love. This isn’t me “selling out” it’s me accepting the fact that I want to do more than just curate other people’s content.
I posted original stuff before and I have seen them take off. But the problem is consistency and being marketable. The consistency problem can be solved, but the marketability requires people to actually WANT to share.
It all goes back to the name being “problematic”. No one wants to interview a viral content manager when there are blogs calling me “The Stormfront for Colored people” or “a blog lead by a Black Woman that hates White people” (there’s so much wrong with that statement that I’m just going to not even bother with correcting it.). Now, if you’re someone who’s been with this blog from the beginning, you know the blog’s former name is a thought-provoking statement, not a racist one. But nowadays, everyone is like “can you say this another way?” I had actual interviews where I gotta keep fixing what I have to say so it doesn’t become a firestorm (and yet somehow, it always managed to be one.)
It comes down to… what do I want to be known as? W3NK started with the intentions of being an experiment, but now there’s so much confusion, that it gets KINDA annoying that I have to fight these fires all the flipping time. And I have to fight more and more fires instead of focusing on what I want to do.
It is NOT an easy decision for me to make. But if this means I get to produced more meaningful content, then I rather do that.
If that means you see me as a sell-out, then I’m sorry to disappoint. But if I can get more people to get behind me, it would be more helpful than them hosing me down. Cause I’m honestly tired of fighting for air.
Stop. You shouldn’t be in constant competition for someone’s attention. Being yourself should be enough. Repeat that with me: being myself should be enough. If it isn’t, you’ve got the wrong person, because I promise: you are so much more than just “enough” and you shouldn’t have to fight every day to prove that so someone.
Things I’m trying to learn myself. (twitter: @thirtxenn)
I’m not sure if I ship Septiplier anymore. Sure, I know the tags are labeled as such to represent this drawing, and this series, but that’s more or less for open interpretation anyway. Take it how you will.
I’m going to leave it as a strong bromance for now. There’s just been so much going wrong in both the Jacksepticeye and Markiplier community because of this ship, and the people who take it too far. You can see it in their friendship. They’re strained. I don’t want them to stop being friends or stop making videos because of a ship. Look what happened to Mark and Yammimash (if you remember at all).
That happening again is my worst nightmare.
Jack and Mark - as people - deserve respect. I’m not going to continue making it worse because of a few bad apples.
So please, don’t go overboard. You can most certainly ship it, but take it easy. Keep it lighthearted. They’re not ever going to be a real couple. That’s just how it is. Don’t go to them and harass Jack, Mark, their girlfriends, or any other person for not shipping Septiplier or push the ship onto them.
You look like a boy with your mustache and eyebrows
Thanks. I’m well aware of that. And if you seen how I dress, that would only further prove your assumptions correct. But I am a girl. I just happen to be more masculine than feminine. And women can have body/facial hair. There’s nothing wrong with that. But thank you so much for pointing out something that I’m sure many girls with facial hair, including myself, are insecure about. Mine happens to be as prominent as it is from abuse I endured as a kid.
This has been sitting in my inbox for a few days now because I just don’t know how to rightly respond to something like this. There’s just-… so much wrong with this request I don’t even know where to begin. But fuck no.
Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed She was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her thumb In the shape of an "L" on her forehead Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running Didn't make sense not to live for fun Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb So much to do, so much to see So what's wrong with taking the back streets? You'll never know if you don't
this is why I contemplate deleting this blog every day
Confession: I’ve recently gotten into MBTI, so for fun I tried typing the guys. I’m not an expert on this yet, and I’m sure I have some things wrong about it but here’s what I have for them. Ohno-INFP. Aiba-ENFP. Nino-ISFP, but may be an N because he can be very intuitive. He’s definitely introverted. Jun-ESFP, but may also be ENFJ. Sho-either ENTJ, ENFJ, ESFJ, or ESTJ. He was the hardest because he hides is true persona so much on TV. I could be wrong on all of them, though.
I suffer from severe anxiety and major depression. I also was diagnosed recently with PTSD. I don't tell people these thing about myself because I'm scared others will think I'm seeking attention when I'm really not. All I have ever wanted is someone to talk to or vent with. But I'm to afraid people will just get sick and tired of me and not want to be around me anymore because there's so much wrong with me that I can't help or or control. Sometimes I just wish I was the opposite of who I am now
This broke my heart. No matter what goes on in your life, you’re enough and you deserve to have a support system of loved ones. If you can’t get the support from people in your life now, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me!