i wrote to this blog about fundraising for an abortion and i’m really hoping someone can help me out. my name is sam and i’m a trans guy living in california. i’ve only come out to myself as trans recently and am in a relationship with a really awesome guy who i was with before i realized i was trans. unfortunatrly, part of the reason i realized i’m trans is because i experience dysphoria. me and my boyfriend found out i’m about 13 weeks pregnant about a week ago (i’m really skinny and i haven’t gained much weight so i didn’t know until now). neither him or i are in a good financial position for this, and i can’t help but feel really uncomfortble thinking about what’s inside of me. i thought about adopting out, but whenever i think about being pregnant or giving birth, i just start freaking out. i really need this to be over as soon as possible.
i called a clinic near me and they said for how far along i am, it’ll be about $855. since i’m in cali, i don’t need a parent’s permission, and so far, i’ve mnaged to keep it a secret, which is for the best when it comes to my family. i hate asking for help like this, but i just cant see any other way i can afford this. i really hope someone here can help me.
i set up a paypal account just for this and any donations can be sent to paypal.me/samw2003. thank you so much, i’m really greatful for any help i can get.
Hi Sam. I’m so sorry to hear about the position you’re in, we can absolutely try to help you out. If anyone has a few dollars lying around, please consider donating to Sam. Big hugs to you, hang in there! We’ll help get you through this. -V
So you've been somewhat quiet and vague about the enlarging bulge, with your weight gain taking center stage instead. Will details follow along with a comparison pic in the Diesel jock?
Eh, I’m still wary about putting too much of a spotlight on my silicone, for a number of weird reasons.
For one, I’m paranoid about glamorizing this stuff. I would be happy if my experiences became the catalyst for some guys to eventually do it themselves, but what I don’t want is to make it seem like this was something I did out of the blue. It took me years of research and planning and contemplation to get to the point where I felt ready to take the plunge, and I cannot stress enough how important I think that is. The last thing I want is for someone to do it impulsively.
For that reason, I am glad that there is a dearth of information out there about silicone. Hopefully it forces people to slow down and really consider if this is what they want to do. It’s a big, big decision.
Also, it’s odd but it feels wrong to be as proud of it as my weight gain. Weight lifting and gaining takes so much effort for me that these 10-pound milestones feel like a really big accomplishment. When I add silicone, it is an amazing experience but it isn’t the same sort of accomplishment—all I did was pay for it.
I dunno, I’m very new to being part of this world instead of an outsider looking in. Still figuring it all out.
Anyway, on a less serious note, here’s a brief update. I had 200cc added this past weekend, putting me at 1000cc total (300 in my shaft, 700 in my sack). I was still quite full from my last filling, so that’s all I could manage. I’m going to be waiting 2-3 months before the next go so it can be another big one.
As far as the Diesel jock, it’s straining but it’s still doing it’s job. Other pieces of clothing are not so lucky.
What if most alien species reproduce like avians or reptiles with large clutches of eggs which they don’t spend much time with, so the concept of raising a child inside of oneself is absolutely disgusting.
Y’xplc wandered the corridors of the ship in the middle of the night-not that it mattered in space. Most everyone was in their sleeping pods, but he heard shouts from the humans’ pod. He scuttled over as quickly as he could to investigate. There were clearly loud shouts and signs of aggression.
“I don’t want to have the baby here!” Human-Sarah cried, “In space! What if something goes wrong- what if the spaceship air hurts it. What if-”
“That won’t happen,” Jane interrupted her, “Nothing’s going to happen to the baby,” Jane soothed.
This outburst surprised Y’xplc, surely human-Sarah couldn’t be concerned. The air was kept at a stable oxygen level for most species. And there were incubators for all species, the eggs would be kept safe.
Human-Sarah had been absorbed into the crew for the most part. After a few words with Jane, the message about the shrieking had been conveyed and she had stayed quieter. Sarah even taught some of the crew-mates how to play chess. Many hours waiting in deep space were spent staring at a chess-board interspersed with some compulsory cursing as pieces were taken.
Human-Sarah had warmed up to the aliens and was friendly with everyone, though it wasn’t hard to notice how she shied away from direct contact with anyone, Jane.
However, in the recent weeks, Human-Sarah had been getting moodier. Y’xplc assumed it had something to do with the eggs. But when he went to the incubator there were not any eggs there. Perhaps the laying cycle was not going well.
Months passed and Y’xplc began to notice other things as well; human-Sarah was eating excessively and was gaining weight, a lot of weight. Progesterone levels were also increased to an unhealthy amount.
Eventually, Y’xplc contacted human-Jane about. She was under the belly of a generator fixing it with a sonic wrench.
“Human-Jane,” He asked, “Is human-Sarah ok?”
“What do you mean,” Jane looked up “Is she hurt?”
‘No, but she is gaining weight rapidly and it’s noticeable as well as increased progesterone level.”
“Oh,” Jane let out a rush of carbon-dioxide. “That’s just because of the baby,” She explained
“But there are no eggs in the incubator,” Y’xplc questioned, “Are you keeping them elsewhere,”
There were a few species who liked to keep the eggs safe with their own body-heat as part of their customs.
“Eggs? What does this have to do with eggs,” Jane asked confused. “The eggs-your offspring.” “Y’xplc,” she garbled, “Humans are mammals we carry are babies in us.” “What?” Y’xplc couldn’t hold back a sound of disgust. “That’s why she’s gaining weight and eating so much, she has to feed the baby/” “That’s like a parasite,” Y’xplc unconsciously scuttled backward.
Human Jane's eyes narrowed angrily, “Our baby is not a parasite.”
In the coming weeks, human Sarah’s belly swelled to unimaginable sizes and she spent most of her days lying in bed. Jane too was preoccupied with the baby and Sarah. She was reading books on human child-care almost constantly whens he wasn’t fetching Sarah food.
Most of the other aliens kept a wide berth from the baby inside of Sarah. The idea of keeping one’s young inside of themselves was absolutely disgusting.
Then one day, Y'xplc her screams from their pod. "It’s starting,” Human-Sarah half screamed, half groaned. “the contractions." Many hours later a squirming ball of flesh popped out of human Sarah’s reproductory region. It was tiny and delicate. It’s smooth round head. Human-Jane carefully swaddled it into a soft blanket and handed it to human-Sarah.
"Your baby. It’s a she,” Jane smiled.
“Our baby,” Human-Sarah sighed in relief. “It has your genetic code."
The baby soon became a constant on the ship. Its wails punctuated the night and were subsequently followed by either Jane or Sarah cooing and shushing before providing it with sustenance.
Y'xplc documented the babies growth and wondered why humans would give birth in such a dangerous and painful manner. Well, humans were weird.
“baby, please tell me you’re ready!” Yoongi yelled from the bottom of the stairs.
“Yoongi! I’m not going anymore!” You yell back. A few seconds later you hear Yoongi running up the stairs.
“babbyyy sweetie :) what do you mean you’re not going anymore? I’m already dressed.” says Yoongi sarcastically.
you’ve been getting ready for hours now, but you still don’t feel comfortable in what you have on. You’ve honestly gained a little weight recently, you wanna be so prefect for yoongi you don’t wanna admit that this is the reason you don’t wanna attend his family party.
“I don’t like the dress anymore.” You simply shrug your shoulders sitting back on the bed taking off your heels.
“What? You literally begged me to buy it Y/N.” confusion strikes his face. You just shrug again. Yoongi sighs and sits down on the bed next to you.
“What’s wrong Y/N, you just were just so excited like an hour ago.”
“Yoongi nothing, I just don’t wanna go anymore” You speak looking down.
Yoongi got up and stood in front of you. He grabbed your chin to left your head up.
“Real reason please.” Yoongi said with a soft expression.
“Yoongi I don’t feel comfortable that’s all.”
“You don’t feel comfortable around me? My family? What’s wrong? Speak to me babe.” He says almost at a whisper.
“The dress. Myself. I just haven’t been feeling it lately. I’ve gained weight.” This makes Yoongi smile for some odd reason.
“Y/N look in the mirror! You look unbelievable right now. Babe the way this dress is hugging your curves honestly makes me wanna rip it off of you. Do you think that a little weight gain isn’t gonna make me wanna fuck you senselessly every other day?” You shrug once again.
“Well, it doesn’t. I love your body; always did. Now can we leave because if I keep staring at you we’ll be in this bed all night. I’m so excited for this after party in our bed later.” Yoongi winks and bites his lips.
It’s finally you and Jin’s date night, you guys go to your favorite restaurant. You’re so excited, these last couple months caused you to gain some weight. You have been stressed with school, family, and friends.
Finally arriving at your favorite restaurant you guys get seated, talk about life and after a while, your food arrives. You being to eat and eat and… eat. But suddenly you stop. Obviously making Jin confused.
“Hey, why’d you stop?” Jin asks.
“I can’t eat like this anymore, I need to go to the gym.” you say getting upset.
Jin laughs “Stop being silly and eat so we can make the movie,”
“Jin I’m serious, I've gained so much weight can’t you tell?”
“Babe, I don’t even care about all that. I love you for you, and always will. You don’t have to impress me or anyone else. Y/N I fell in love with your personality You’re a beautiful person … but I want you to be happy so if you want to go to the gym I’ll go with you. I’ll even make us more food, but healthier choices that you pick. Deal?
After Jin said all this it made you happy, this was the reason you fell in love with Jin. He always said the right things. “Deal :)”
“Namjoon am I getting bigger?” you ask as you stare in the mirror.
“Well I mean your ass definitely got fatter,” He says walking up behind you, grabbing you forcefully.
“Are you serious that’s not even funny, I need to lose some weight.” you say sounding upset.
“No baby, you know I like my women thick. I admire your body every day how can you not love it as much as I do?”
“I don’t know babe, you know I’m a perfectionist!” looking at him with your puppy dogs eyes.
“Well, sorry bae. I love it. Now stop looking all sad! Want me to make you happy?” Namjoon winks.
You thought to yourself, and it sure as hell didn’t sound bad. After all, he was a master with your bra.
Jimin is literally the sweetest guy ever. He wouldn’t want you to be sad about something that he saw as beauty. When you told him that you wanted to lose weight, he was ready for being by your side 100%. Although he couldn’t actually see that you even gained a pound. Jimin loved that way you looked, to him, you were a snack! He saw a full course meal every time he looked at you. But he was never the type to tell you what to do so, whatever your decision was he was all here for it.
“Y/N I lust over your body on a daily, but if you wanna work out.. fine, come over here and let me work you out.” Tae says while biting his lip and pushing you onto the bed.
“Baby noooooooooo I love everything about you! Don’t change. You’ve always been perfect.”
“You’re my hope babe, I want to see you happy. So change for you not because every one wants you to! A little weight gain never hurt anybody!”
this is literally all over the place, buuuuutt hope you enjoy. ~ Rae ♥
Do you know where that JD AH comment you just reblogged is from?
it’s from an article from the black mass premiere in toronto in 2015 when she was being her abusive and manipulative self:
Here’s the article
At the Sept. 14 premiere of Johnny Depp‘s new film Black Mass at the Toronto International Film Festival, photographers captured the passion on the red carpet between the star and his wife, Amber Heard, who kissed and cuddled for the cameras.
But away from the shutterbugs, a source says, the newlyweds got hot and bothered in a different way. Amber, 29, hovered near her hubby as he schmoozed, and when she saw him chatting with a young woman, the source says, “she stormed over and tried to butt in.”
When Johnny, 52, continued the conversation, she “looked livid” and quickly pulled him aside. The source says, “She talked to him like a child. Johnny smiled awkwardly and seemed to calm her down, because the next minute they were holding hands again and she was all smiles.”
According to the insider, this volatility is nothing new for the couple, who wed in February and bicker about everything from his female fans to Johnny’s recent weight gain. She’s bothered so much that Amber has begun dictating his diet. “She says he looks like a mess now,” says the source.
“Amber is very loving toward Johnny — but if things aren’t the way she wants, all hell breaks loose,” the insider says.
there are more stories like this example: at the lone ranger premiere in disneyland she was super rude to everyone basically, she pulled him away from fans at the airport in tokyo in 2015, when they were on their honeymoon, at the Hollywood Film awards in 2015, she hits him multiple times during that stupid Overhaulin’ episode he did specially for her
On May 21, 2016, officers responded to a domestic incident radio call…” LAPD Sgt. Marlon Marrache says. “The person reporting the crime [Heard] did not insist on a report and no report was warranted. There was no evidence of any crime. A crime did not occur so the officers left the scene and left a business card.”Marrache adds that if there had been any signs of abuse, officers would have conducted an investigation, regardless of what Heard said had happened. http://ew.com/article/2016/05/27/johnny-depp-amber-heard-police-investigated-abuse-claim-no-evidence-crime-found/
BTS reaction: Talking/ Singing to their unborn child
Hiii! Can i request a BTS reaction/mini scenario where they sing/talk to their new born child to sleep or something like that? pleasee!
„You know, mommy keeps eating all the food. She’s gaining so
much weight“, he laughed before you smacked his arm.
„But she’s doing it for you, so it’s fine. She loves you a lot.
I do, too.“
„The world is gonna be cruel at times. But you’ll get through it,
being strong like your mom and smart like me. We’re gonna be there
for you“, he’d say clamly, his eyes never leaving your tummy.
„You’ll probably also have my swaeg, so there’s nothing to worry
„Y/N keeps telling me how you won’t stop moving around. You have so
much energy, you’re definitly gonna be a great dancer, just like your dad“,
he’d say, unable to hide his smile.
„You’ll be a beautiful child, having my brain and Y/N’s beauty“,
he’d state while caressing your tummy.
„And when the other members have
their children, you’ll be Bangtan’s second generation. You’ll have a
lot of fun and make great memories“, Jimin would hum in content,
already planning your child’s future.
Taehyung would passionetly rap to Cypher pt.3, unable to contain his rectangular smile.
„You’ll be strong. Hmh. You’ll be
the golden Maknae’s golden Maknae, of course you’ll be strong“,
he’d nod to himself.