so much respect for fan artists

things that continue to make me love namjoon from this interview

  • humble af
  • praising other members
  • cutest laugh ever
  • makes sure to include everyone as much as they can in the interview and makes sure they have a voice on each topic
  • had the topic of change for the collaboration with Wale because of the situations going on in the us and in korea
  • when speaking about his colab with Wale he brought up how much he wants the other members to do the same with other artists or dancers to showcase their amazing talents
  • always hyping up their group connection 
  • english has improved so much??? like how? he was already perfectly fluent boiii
  • thankful 
  • loves when people come up to them when they are recognized but also expressed that when they are alone, it’s because they want to be alone and to respect them
  • the actual sweetest bean
  • tries to divide songs evenly amongst who’s voice fits that part  best
  • moved by how american fans know the lyric
  • thankful for int and k fans translating things for each other so that everyone can understand everything and feel included

as much as we can joke about western artists being all confused about BTS and ARMYS screaming during the BBMAs, I hope fans will behave and not embarrass our boys with excessive screaming and over-excitement. I’m sure boys will be grateful for the support, but we’re also in charge of their image and reputation, so if you’re attending the awards, please behave and be respectful, they’re already under big pressure, they don’t need more of it because of fans making a mess.

Christian Yu x Reader: Let Me Explain - Chapter 1

Chapter 1: These Seoul Streets.  | Chapter 2: Uninvited Guests |

Chapter 3: Confrontation | Chapter 4: Who Would’ve Thought?

Word count: 3159

Series type: Angst, Smut (in later chapters) & Fluff.

Warnings: Mentions of alcohol and sex and bad language. 

Additional Characters: DPR LIVE (Dabin) and mentions of other artists/fictional characters.

Rough summary: Christian is your boss but also your best friend. You both have feelings for each other but his way of living complicates your relationship.

A/N: For the people who were waiting for this, thank you for your patience. I struggled a little writing the series. Also keep in mind that English is not my first language, therefore there might be some spelling/grammar mistakes. 

You were part of the inner circle now. At least that’s what one of your best friends Christian said when you signed the 6-month contract. He called it a try out contract. You would still be known as yourself, the only thing you had to do was paste DPR before your own name to get more recognition for DPR itself. You weren’t mad at the contract, so why not? Anything to help out a friend who you also happen to have a crush on. At least that’s what you thought until it actually happened.

As a well known choreographer in Seoul, South Korea you worked with a lot of artists and ‘underground’ dancers.

You’ve choreographed for the big 3 so your name was out there. Everyone in the business pretty much knew who you were. You managed yourself and stayed out of the drama filled party scene which made you well respected by many in the industry.

It’s not that you hated clubs, you just hated when people’s nasty true selves would come out after a few shots. You mostly observe how handsome and successful idols would take advantage of their fame to get their pick of the night, without the public or their beloved fans ever finding out.  

It disgusted you, and the fact that men you’ve worked with would try to butter you up to take you home with them disgusted you even more.

You were used to it by now, the “No thank you’s” would come out of your mouth at least 20 times a night. Sometimes you even had to swat some hands away, and still you are here, just like every other weekend for the past month since you’ve signed your contract. It was your job to be with the crew whenever you could since you were a part of it now, but tonight you were not having it. You were tired and frustrated with your boss. Christian had been acting indifferent with you lately, it was almost as if your friendship before this whole business deal was non existent.

You were seated in the VIP area of one of Seoul’s most prestige clubs because your now new temporary boss had a special deal to book tonight with another artist and it also happened to be that artist’s birthday.

“So you’re the DPR dance department now, you’ll choreograph for the girls in our mv’s and other clients that might want to work with you, you still get to do your own thing just keep in mind that since we manage your scheduling now we take 40%”

“40? Christian I don’t know; I manage myself just fine you know.” You bite your lip looking at the contract in front of you.

“We’ll make it 30 then. The thing is to make us a package deal, if they want you they have to want us to shoot the mv too, and also I can’t just not pay our manager, feel me love?”

Love. He always calls you that.

You roll your eyes at his slick way of negotiating. “Fine. Just don’t forget that I’m the one doing you a favor with this.”

He gave you his mischievous smile. “How could I ever forget that?”

Yeah… How could he ever forget that?

If there’s anything you regretted more in life than signing that contract was the fact that you were here. At the birthday party of Kim Yura, a rookie artist who was about to debut under YG Entertainment. Christian would hit it big time if he scored a deal to direct her first mv, since her debut was highly anticipated. You had been working on her dancing with her, which she was terrible at. You never really hit it off with her. Mostly great friendships formed between you and your clients, but Yura was different. She was selfish, cunning and arrogant. Making it difficult to work with her as she never admits her wrongs. Besides all of that, she had a thing for Christian as well.

Signing the contract didn’t only take 30% of your original payments, but it also shone a light on Christian in a way you’ve never seen before. You were happy seeing him once or twice a week when your relationship wasn’t work related, but now that you see him almost every day, you also got to see the girls, partying and the alcohol making you wonder how he still had a functioning liver.

You couldn’t wait for the next 5 months to pass so you could get back to your own routine and try to start to forget your feelings for Christian. Even though you wanted to hate the way he treated you at times, you couldn’t. Because he was the sweetest man on earth before you knew him like this. You still hold on to those old times, low key hoping you could get back to them when your contract ended, but you knew that you just had to get over him as a whole when your business ties were broken.

You’ve taken care of him on his drunken nights countless of times, he also tried to fuck you on those nights countless of times but despite your feelings for him you were at least smart enough to kindly decline and put him to bed. He only did that when he was shitfaced with alcohol, and the day after he wouldn’t even remember.

He would always text you with a fucked up “Thank you for getting me home, love”

Lost in thought you take a sip of your non alcoholic cocktail when Dabin approached you putting an arm over your shoulder.

“Wuz poppin” he says giving you a quick kiss on the cheek.

“Just…sipping on this, minding my own business” you answer playing around with your straw.

Dabin knew you like the back of his own hand, if anything good came from your contract it was your friendship with him.

He chuckled. Looking at Christian who having a laugh with Jay and Loco.

“Is he still being a dickhead?” he asks leaning his head on his hand looking at you.


“What do you mean who” he chuckled.

“I’m not talking to you about him, you’re like brothers” you say taking another sip avoiding eye contact.

“So, does that mean I can’t keep secrets. Come on you always tell me when things pop off” he says looking at you with a pout.

“You’re just thirsty for drama” you say pushing his face away.

He chuckles and so do you. “No y/n, I actually care about you, you know that.”

You give him a reassuring smile looking into his sparkling eyes.

“Y/n” his voice made you look up immediately, and so did Dabin, his expression was a lot more relaxed than yours. You met his gaze and stayed silent.

Christian looked at the two of you ready to say something but he closed his mouth again before he did.

You could tell something was bothering him, you just didn’t know what yet.

“There’s a lot of people here who want to meet you, instead of sitting here all night, why don’t you make an effort to talk to someone” he said a little ruder then he intended to.

You raise your eyebrow at him. Ready to rip that fucking piercing out of his nose. “If these people want to talk to me so badly then staying in once place makes me more approachable doesn’t it?” you give him a cold look slamming your drink back on the table a little harder than you intended for.

You got up avoiding his gaze turning your back to him. “Dabin if you don’t mind I have to pee.”

Dabin chuckled and waved his hand signing for you to go.

“What’s up with her” Christian frowned watching you walk away.

“Ah, you know her, this just isn’t her thing. I guess the work stress makes her a little more agitated today than usual.” He calmly says shrugging trying to mend the situation.

Dabin was always in the middle of you two. He knew you had feelings for Christian and he also knew that Christian always complicates things when it comes to you because Christian can’t deny that he has feelings for you too. Christian tries to acts like he doesn’t, but he does and to Dabin it has always been obvious, but not to you.

“Then she should have thought twice about signing that damn contract” Christian said sitting down next to Dabin. “What is she even drinking” he said sniffing into your glass.

“Probably apple juice or some shit man I don’t know” Dabin chuckled leaning back into his seat.

“She just…frustrates me.” Christian says sighing.

“In what way? Sexually?” Christian shoots Dabin a glare which he simply laughs off.

“I just want our relationship to go back to the way it was you know.” Christian says removing his cap and ruffling his hair around with his hand.

Dabin sighed crossing his arms. “I think that makes two of you, just go talk to her.”

“Not tonight” Christian says throwing his head back, playing with his hair a little more. “I have to make sure I get this deal with Yura and her agency”

Dabin relaxed state vanished. He knew you hated Yura with every fiber of your being. She was a trainee but acted like she debuted 10 years ago, only because she’s from YG. You always nagged about her to Dabin, saying she was more stuck up than G-Dragon could ever be in a 100 lifetimes. Then again you also didn’t like her because Christian was extra flirtatious around her. Reeling her in with a debut mv would mean hitting it big time for DPR making them more well known to the bigger boys in the industry. You understood to some extend but Yura was enjoying the attention too much to your liking, especially for a rookie with a dating ban.

“What are you going to do” Dabin asked wide eyed.

“I don’t know man I might hoe out a little bit.”

Dabin scoffed. “What else is new.”

“Like you haven’t” Christian raised his eyebrow at Dabin’s sudden annoyed expression.

“You keep talking about how you want to mend things with y/n but then you keep fucking these girls it just doesn’t make sense.”

“Who ever said mending things with y/n meant being in a relationship with her.”

“Man that’s bullshit and you know it, if you do this tonight with Yura and y/n finds out, it’s end game for you.”

Christian opened his mouth to say something but Dabin shut him right up again.

“y/n is loyal, funny, hella cute and super hard working. She always puts up with your shit, she takes care of you when your legs won’t carry you anymore, yet you’re out here fucking around, knowing she has feelings for you, which you do too, even though you always try to deny it.”

Christian closed his eyes at his best friends’ hard words. Dabin was right. He was. But he wasn’t ready for a relationship. Not now.

“The timing just isn’t right” Christian replied.

“So you’re just going to lead her on until you get your head out of your ass?” Dabin says raising his eyebrows.

Christian opened his eyes in a millisecond looking Dabin straight into his eyes with an angered look.

“Fucking around is fun and all. Until you lose her man. You have to sort shit out with her. Rather sooner than later.” Dabin eyes shoot up when he sees you walking towards the table again. “Don’t sleep with Yura cause if you do, I will tell her. I’m on her side with this one Ian.” Dabin says seriously.

Christian just nods burying his face in his hands. Not knowing how to process everything that was just said to him. He only ‘fucked around’ because he couldn’t be with you. Other women distracted him of the fact that he couldn’t be with you. Not only would you turn out to be the girl who fucked her boss, if word got out. But it would also cost Christian his credibility as a boss with female employee’s.

You approach the table and feel the tension, wondering what happened in the time you were in the bathroom. You cautiously sit down next to Dabin on the other end of the rounded sofa. “Uh- I just ran into Dean. He said he wanted to talk to you” you tell Dabin. He nods getting up. “I’ll go find him”

Fuck. That’s not what you meant. You make eye contact with him. You tried your best to make your eyes scream. “Don’t leave me alone with him right now” but Dabin ignored you and Christian completely, making you wonder even more what the actual fuck happened while you were gone.

Christian lifts his head looking at you. His facial expression was soft and so was his voice when he spoke.

“Are you tired?” he asked scooting closer so you could hear him better over the loud trap music.

He put his hand on your thigh to comfort you, showing you he was trying to be sincere for once.

“I’ve been more awake.” You reply not making eye contact.

“I’ll take you home if you want, I didn’t take into consideration that you worked all day today before I made you come here.” He says removing his hand from your leg while sweetly putting a strand of hair behind your ear so he could see your face better.

You look at him, confused as hell, but you tried not to let your facial expression speak for you. This Christian reminded you of the old Christian, the Christian you fell for.

“I-“ you purse your lips together again reconsidering his offer.

“I’ll go home by myself, it’s just a 10-minute walk from here to my apartment, I’ll live.” You say getting up, but Christian grabs your wrist before you could walk away.

“No, it’s 2 in the morning, I don’t want you out on these streets alone in this outfit, at this hour, I’ll walk you home and then I’ll come back here it’s no big deal.” He says getting up.

You say your goodbye’s to everyone explaining you had a meeting planed tomorrow morning at YG. Dabin kissed your cheek like he always does, telling you to text him once you get home, even though Christian was walking you home.

The walk home was silent; it wasn’t an awkward silence though. Both of you just didn’t feel the need to speak. Just being like this together again was a huge step in the right direction for the both of you. After a few minutes your heels made it harder for you to walk on those damn tiles, so like you always used to do, you linked arms with Christian, stabilizing yourself on these Seoul streets.

Christian looked at you surprised when you did. You didn’t even realize him looking at you because you were too focused on trying not to trip.

“Don’t tell me I have to carry you” Christian said jokingly to lighten the mood.

“I’m good like this, just make sure not to let go of m- FUCK” you almost landed face first onto the sidewalk, but luckily Christian grabbed you by your waist, making sure you didn’t fall down. In the process of almost falling your heel broke, as it was stuck in a hole in between the tiles.

“Fuck y/n be careful” Christian says startled, still holding your waist.

“Nooooo my fucking shoe” you say in an annoyed baby voice, throwing an aegyeo filled tantrum as you take off your expensive as fuck nude Valentino pump looking at it with an almost tearful pout.

Christian bursts out laughing grabbing your face and pulling you into a hug. You bury your face into his chest. Your heart was racing like crazy.  “You’re so cute.” He simply stated caressing your hair. “I’ll buy you new ones, don’t be sad for too long okay.” He chuckled into your hair, kissing the top of your head.

He’d be lying if he said he wasn’t overly touchy, but he cherished moments like these with you, as they have become more rare over the past few weeks.

You stood there lopsided, trapped into his hug as your other shoe was still on.

Christian slowly let go of you. “You have to take the other one off too.” He says squatting down. You lift your foot up for him, holding onto his shoulders for support as he takes off your other shoe.

He gives you the other pump as you stand barefoot, not knowing what to do.

It’s just a few meters to your apartment from here, but the industrial iron stairs that actually led you to your front door were what worried you.

“Come here” he says lifting you off the ground bridal style.

“Christian!” you squeal surprised in a hushed tone. The streets were empty but you still felt kind of embarrassed as he carried you to your apartment and up the stairs. You buried your face into his neck while wrapping your arms around his neck as well.

“Here” he says putting you down. You wobble a little when your feet hit the cold concrete, making Christian cautiously hold onto your waist again. You hand your pumps to him, searching for your key in your handbag.

He waited patiently until you unlocked the door and stood in the doorway, taking your shoes from him again and placing them behind you on the floor.

“Thank you” you say yawning covering your mouth with your hand.

He gave you a warm smile. “Go sleep.” He says caressing your cheek with his thumb. You lazily lean into his hand nodding.

“I’ll call you tomorrow when I wake up okay, I think we both know there are things we have to talk about.”

You were surprised but you finally realized why the mood was so dark when you came back from the restroom back in the club. Dabin probably told Christian he was being a dick, and it worked.

You nod. “Okay” unexpectedly Christian pulls you in for a hug again, wrapping his arms around you, holding your head close to his chest. You wrap your arms around him too and you just stand there.

How long was it? Seconds? Minutes? You didn’t know, but to you it couldn’t’ have been long enough.

He let go of you first looking into your eyes. “I’m sorry.” He said giving you one last look before walking away from you.

After you texted Dabin you got ready for bed. All night you twisted and turned under your sheets thinking of what he was sorry for. Of course you had countless occasions listed in your mind of what he could be sorry for but still it didn’t make sense.

At around 4 you finally seem to fall asleep, but only three hours after your phone started to buzz you awake.

Chapter 2 

When did it become OK to be a dick to Taylor Swift?

She has every right to be proud of her achievements

by David Farrell 3 days ago 209 Views


It’s cool to hate Taylor Swift.

If you were to believe what people say about Taylor Swift you would think she is nothing less than an evil mastermind bent on world destruction when, in fact, she is simply a musician whose work has been justifiably recognised for its more than considerable merit.

You may say that people hate on Taylor because Kim Kardashian exposed her as a snake, but in reality this was just the final straw. The tide has started to turn against Taylor well before that. The hate she received and is still receiving for winning the Grammy for Album of the Year in 2015 (which was completely beyond her control by the way) is a perfect example of that.

The fact is that people loathe to celebrate successful people, especially women. When it seems like someone is getting popular, they are immediately seen as too big for their boots and the criticism starts rolling in. They are the real snakes, not Taylor.

A perfect example of this is this article from BuzzFeed which accuses Taylor of making her entire career off playing the victim. BuzzFeed have previously been very supportive of Taylor, publishing articles like “21 Times Taylor Swift Proved She Has A Heart Of Gold”, “17 Reasons Why Taylor Swift Couldn’t Possibly Top “1989”. If you’re going to be critical, then please show a consistent line.

The truth is that now that it’s in vogue to hate on Taylor, publications like BuzzFeed have readily jumped on the bandwagon. Penning a 20-page long essay about how much you despise someone is tantamount to creating a ‘Mean Girls’-esque burn book. Not only is this playground behaviour, but also a colossal waste of everyone’s time. The whole article is redundant because by engaging in a personal attack upon Taylor’s character it ends up doing very thing it claims Taylor Swift has based her whole career on – turning her into a victim.

The disturbingly ruthless character assassination of Taylor has come about in an age when America is rebelling against the traditional girl next door. This once practically untouchable archetype has now been thrown out of the window in favour of celebrating diversity, which is undoubtedly fantastic for society. What we must be careful of, however, is to not go too far the other way in order to achieve this goal of equality.

How can the persecution of what Taylor stands for – the girl next door – belong in the diverse accepting society we want to create? This is a society where there is room for the gay kid, the black kid and the girl next door to sit at the same table, rather than one where the girl next door is left out to justify the years she enjoyed the spotlight over others. That’s called reverse discrimination, which benefits nobody. What we need to strive towards is equal spotlight, equal recognition.

There now exists a paradox whereby white artists like Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber and Ariana Grande, who all received Grammy nominations this year, are still clearly favoured by established institutions such as The Grammys, as evidenced by the events of last Sunday, but their work is unfairly dismissed by the masses as redundant fluff.

Taylor Swift winning Album of the Year angered a lot of people and whether or not it was the right decision it was the decision which was made and Taylor has every right to be proud of her achievement. After all, this was the moment she had worked for since she was 15. The culmination of the fruits of her labour. The fulfilment of her dreams. To rob anyone of that satisfaction is bullying no matter what the reason.

The fact is that ‘1989’ was, in fact, one of the best albums in recent memory, you can check out this BuzzFeed article for all the reasons why. You don’t need to carry a political message in order to be a bloody fantastic album. Taylor’s mastery lies in reinvention and pitch perfect PR campaigns. And newsflash, every single artist manipulates the media – Beyonce herself is just as shrewd a businesswoman and people adore her. It’s a fickle business.

The matter is one of respect. Artists, generally speaking, are much better at showing respect for one another, which is important considering that we lived in an era when pop is looked down upon as a lesser art. Taylor Swift had already declared herself a fan of Kendrick Lamar when she asked him to feature on her song ‘Bad Blood’. If Lamar did not respect Taylor’s work he would have declined, which begs the questions as to why the general public is so damning of Taylor on behalf of Lamar when the artist himself publicly has already declared his respect for her work.

Taylor Swift is an intelligent, strong woman who has managed to create a successful career for herself out of nothing and that is purely based on talent, not playing the victim. Do you think people who buy her albums if they carried the same message, but without her level of musical mastery? Absolutely not. Does society need to change to recognise more diverse talent – of course, but don’t blame Taylor Swift for a problem that should be equally shouldered by all of us.

In my opinion, the thing that really sets BTS apart from all of the other groups is the deep level of mutual respect and love between artist and fans. I’m sure most celebrities love their fans, but even so, no group has ever felt as genuine when it comes to the bond amongst all the members and the appreciation for those that support them. Just the fact that BTS (and most likely Namjoon here) makes sure to tweet in English for international fans really shows the considerable lengths to which they go to for the sake of ARMYs. You can seriously tell just how much gratitude they feel, and I’ve got nothing but a sense of pride in being their fan. 

All right, fuckers. Lets talk about Rat Queens, the comic so amazing I breezed through all three volumes in a day and a half and then almost cried because there was no more to read

For decades, the fantasy genre has had that moniker not just because it dealt with fantastical things like dragons, magic, elves, and other such things, but because it was also a genre where men’s chauvinistic fantasies ran wild, where women were often little more than helpless damsels in need of being rescued, and even the ones who weren’t were dressed up as objects of male fantasy, wearing armor that made no sense, which served no practical purpose. It was all about the male gaze, it dominated the genre for a very long time.

In recent years there has been an effort to overthrow that long standing norm. Many have pushed back (such as the pathetic “Puppy” movement at the Hugo awards recently, a group of voters who banded together specifically to get works that were pro-women, pro-poc, and pro-lgbtq+ to lose) and the result has been a renaissance of the genre, with projects that are inclusive of all genders, sexual identities, and races. Recently these previously ignored or demeaned groups have come to the forefront, leading several titles in the genre.

One of those title is Rat Queens, a comic about an all-female team of adventurers living and adventuring in a D&D style world.

Note: I read all three volumes, so there are some teeny spoilers, but I avoided anything really big. And most of it is character stuff and not plot stuff.

The Rat Queens are violent and magically inclined badasses, but they’re also introverts, nerds, hipsters, stoners, and emotional fuck up. Despite the fact that they use swords and magic to take down monsters in a fantasy world, they’re real.

They also obliterate the idea of what a sexy female fantasy character is. They have wide hips and big thighs, flat chests and real boobs that are sometimes floppy. Their tummies roll when they bend over. These aren’t four female fantasy characters with the same unrealistic, typically sexy body. Their bodies are all very different, and they’re all very sexy.

Hanna would probably be considered the leader of the group, if the Rat Queens really had a leader. She’s a half-elven demon who desperately tries to had that latter part. She’s also a skilled magic user, relying more on her spells than her blades in a fight. She’s a loud mouth, surly, combative, and wonderfully vulgar. 

She’s also in an incredibly complicated relationship with the head of the city’s guard, Sawyer. 

Her story and backstory really does seem to anchor most of the story, but I really think that’s just because the story is unfortunately finished. We were definitely getting foundation to really explore the other characters’ stories in more depth, but stuff behind the scenes caused the series to be put on hold indefinitely, so they never got to the point of digging into the other characters like they did Hannah. (I’ll talk about the behind-the-scenes drama at the end of the post).

Dee is an incredibly powerful cleric who just happens to not believe in the deity that grants her powers. She was raised in a cult that worshiped an ancient god and she learned her powerful magic there, but she had doubts that led to her leaving home to figure things out on her own. 

She’s also a nerd and an introvert who prefers a book to most people. She struggles with how much she misses her family, and the pain of leaving behind her parents, her siblings, and her husband while also struggling with her faith. 

Like Hannah, she also favors magic in a fight, but where she really comes in handy is with her curiosity and her fondness for research. One of the things that I really like about Dee is how not sexual her character is. Not because the sexuality displayed by the other characters is bad (quite the contrary) but because every woman is different when it comes to their sexual appetite and their enjoyment of sex, and it’s wonderful to see a character for whom sex and romantic relationships is not a major part of their arc.

Violet is a hipster dwarf who loves stabbing things with her sword. As long as too many other people don’t start loving it, too. Whereas Dee and Hannah use powerful magic in fights, Violet charges in pointy end first, looking to cut apart as many baddies as possible.

She’s also a huge dork who tries so hard at being badass that it almost negates her actually badassery at times. She’s very, very much a hipster, who left her life with the dwarves and shaved off her beard because she felt stifled by her culture, and then grew the beard back when she saw that other dwarven women were shaving their beards, too.

She also really likes sex. While Hannah and Betty are definitely sex-positive and definitely have sex during the course of the story, I think Violet is probably shown to be the most sex-positive and most sexually active. Her boyfriend is an Orc named Dave (or “Orc Dave”, as he’s a member of a group of adventurers called “The Four Daves”) and she is not subtle about the fact that she wants him, and she is not shy about sharing the facts of their sex life once she has him.

Finally, there’s Betty, the cutest little smidgen ever (from the art, I’m guessing “smidgen” is equivalent to gnome). Betty likes drinking, fighting, candy, drugs, and girls. And, specifically, one girl.  

Betty’s got it bad for a chick named Faeyri, but Faeyri’s not crazy about Betty’s friends, especially Hannah, who can get pretty combative when drinking. In between all the fighting, the adventuring, and the magic, we get a sweet little love story that actually presents a relationship with very real and honest problems.

While Betty loves to get stabby, and while her small size often serves as an advantage in battle, her greatest contribution to the group might be her skills as a thief and her ability to read people. She can look at any place and figure out how to get her teeny tiny form into it in the most covert way, and she can look at any person and read them look a book. 

But no matter how clever she is, she’s still a huge weirdo who loves candy, drugs, and her friends.

The women of Rat Queens are all so different in so many respects, and they’re all so flawed and real. The series is hysterically funny, full of so much heart, and a must read for any fantasy fan who loves well written female characters. This fast became one of my vert, very favorite comics of all time.

Unfortunately there are only three collected volumes + one issue. The original artist was arrested for domestic abuse, and though he ultimately wasn’t charged, he was not brought back to continue as the series’ artist. They did find a new artist for what would be the third volume, but ultimately, according to the series’ writer Kurtis Wiebe, they didn’t really mesh, and now the comic is on hiatus indefinitely. From searching around the internet it looks like the plan is to eventually continue it as a web comic, but Wiebe is currently writing the new series Bounty (which is another great female-led comic, this time taking on the also-until-recently male dominated genre of sci-fi. I’ve only read the first issue but I adored it, and I can’t wait for the TP to come out, which will happen the day after my birthday), so I’m not sure when it’s actually going to happen.

While it’s definitely a bummer that the story just kind of… stops, and we don’t know for sure when it will continue, you have to read Rat Queens if you have any kind of appreciation for stories led by strong female characters, and especially if you’ve been disappointed by other fantasy stories, and especially if that disappointment largely came from the misogyny, lack of diversity, and homophobia in the writing. I’m getting emotional from how much I love Rat Queens, that’s how good this series is.


“Who are these Asians at the BBMAs?”

I’ve seen comments like “who are these Asians at the BBMAs?” and “this award doesn’t mean anything, it’s fan-voted” and “their music isn’t in English.” 

Let’s ignore the fact that they aren’t American or native English-speakers for a moment and focus on something that’s so basic we should all be able to relate to it: they’re human beings with feelings, who’ve experienced hardships, and they’ve achieved something that’s been a dream for them. As a human being, how can you be so blind and say such hurtful things?

Look at how excited they are to be in America, meeting artists that they admire and listen to. Look at how excited they are to win a Billboard award in front of those same artists. Artists that you might admire and listen to as well. How dare you try to taint that experience for them.

Music is music. You enjoy it because of how it makes you feel. Not because of what language it’s in. You listen to Lil’ Wayne? So do they. You listen to John Legend? So do they. The Chainsmokers, Coldplay, Beyonce, Ed Sheeran, Drake, Nicki Minaj, Rihanna, Celine-freaking-Dion.

Am I saying you need to become a K-Pop fan? Absolutely not. If you’re not into it, you’re not into it. But don’t disrespect BTS because they speak a different language, or because they’re Korean. Have the sense to realize that music is global and is for everyone to enjoy. Coldplay was just in South Korea for a concert. Gallant, Timbaland and Wiz Khalifa performed at the MAMA awards in Hong Kong in 2016. American and English-speaking artists tour the entire world, despite language differences. It’s a two-way street.

Let’s come back to them not being American or native English-speakers. It’s 2017 and we still cannot look past someone’s race or nationality or language? Namjoon must have felt the weight of the world having to do the interviews for the BBMAs and to give the acceptance speech. This is a man who taught himself a language that is very difficult and so different from his own. For those of you saying “that was English? I couldn’t understand a word of it,” if you didn’t like seeing them on your TV, you should have changed the channel and spared Twitter feeds from your simple-minded, petty, racist comments.

To touch on the fact that it’s “just a fan-voted award” – First, yes. It is a fan-voted award, and I hope that BTS felt every ounce of love and respect and appreciation from their fans that they deserve. Second, if you think this award has so little value, then you shouldn’t care who wins it, American or not. English-speaking or not.  

Lastly, to those within the K-Pop fandom who are being disrespectful: You know how much these artists go through just to debut, if they ever do debut. Even if you’re not a BTS fan, you should be able to sympathize with what they went through. Because chances are, your faves went through it too.

[Interview]B.A.P Brings Party Baby Tour Stateside, Talks 'Wake Me Up': 'We Are Part of the Current Generation'

From the first moment of “Hurricane” to the final note of their encore performance of “Bang X2,” Korean boy band B.A.P hyped up the crowd at New York City’s Terminal 5 on Saturday (April 8) night. The second stop during the US leg of their 2017 Party Baby world tour, the set list was built around the group’s most danceable songs to create a club-like environment where the band and their fans, known collectively as BABY, could party it up and revel in the group’s artistry.

Water guns, a costume contest, and a handful of solo sets – beginning with the two youngest, Jongup and Zelo, each of whom showed immense growth as singers since their last visit to New York – helped set a festive, intimate tone for the night, which saw B.A.P radiate with joy throughout as fans cheered and danced along with their high-energy performances. There was certainly a lot to celebrate on this latest tour, which was the group’s fourth throughout their time together: Five years into their career, B.A.P has seen multiple No. 1 albums on the World Albums Chart, including last year’s Noir. More recently, the group returned with their Rose EP and the profound single “Wake Me Up” in March, their first new music since rapper-songwriter Bang Yongguk returned after taking a break last year from B.A.P’s promotions due to mental health-related issues.

Billboard sat down with the K-pop act (Zelo, Bang Yong Guk, Him Chan, Dae Hyun, Young Jae and Jong Up) ahead of their New York show to discuss their latest releases and what makes the Party Baby tour a new experience for B.A.P and their fans.  

Welcome back to New York! How does it feel to be performing here once again?

Him Chan: It was hard getting over from Atlanta to New York as there were some [weather-related] difficulties. But the fact that we’re here in New York right now fills us with positive energy. We’re looking forward to putting on another amazing performance for our fans tonight.

You toured the United States multiple times in the past, but is there anything that you’re looking forward to particularly on this tour?

Young Jae: I’m looking forward to going to Washington D.C., just because I’ve always wanted to visit.
Him Chan: On our first US tour we went to Washington, but because a lot of things have changed since then we’ve wanted to visit again.

This is the Party Baby tour even though in the past you’ve always brought your Live on Earth tours to the US. How are the two different?  

Jong Up: Compared to previous concerts that we’ve put on in the past, we tried to orientate Party Baby more towards interaction between ourselves and fans so that we can have more of a party or a club atmosphere and just be able to have have a good time. I think that, compared to our previous performances, we want to focus on the whole collaborative effort of just all our fans and us working together to create one performance.

To get more involved you provided fans with a dress code, with a different style corresponding to each specific member. How did you come up with that idea?

Young Jae: This dress code idea for the tour was something that us as the artists – along with the tour directors – thought up since we thought it would be a good way to interact with our fans.

The tour’s set list seems to focus a lot on your newer songs and doesn’t really have a lot of your older music on it. What does that choice say about B.A.P’s musical growth as performers?

Him Chan: We’re really not holding back on this tour. We’re just unlocking all of our abilities and our skills, putting them together for this show. This time, we wanted to be able to show our fans everything that we have. There’s no significance of us not performing many older songs. We just want to be able to put on a good performance with all of our recent songs.

B.A.P has had multiple No. 1 albums on the World Albums Chart. How has that made you feel as a group?

Young Jae: We think it’s amazing, and we’re really fascinated that we can continue to find love from across the world from all of our fans. We’re always grateful and we’re always thankful towards our fans, and we want to continue to show them love for their support for us.

There are only three songs on your new EP Rose, but they each are distinct stylistically. How did that come about?

Young Jae: We’ve released happy songs and we’ve released songs with strong, positive messages, but it’s been a while since we released an album so we wanted to show a third side to B.A.P, one that we knew we were capable of doing and really wanted to show to our fans this time.

Him Chan: “Dystopia” was one of those songs where we just wanted to show B.A.P in all our attributes with rock, heavy metal, and just pay homage to that. For “Wake Me Up,” it was one of those songs for our generation, because we are part of the current generation, where we just wanted to show that we’re present and that we are with the fans and how they feel about current events. As for “Diamond 4 Ya,” we wanted to be melodic, we wanted to play with pitches and instrumentals, and that was something we were looking forward to showing as well.

How was approaching your return with the single “Wake Me Up” different from your past releases?

Him Chan: When we were approaching this album in comparison to previous albums we just wanted to have something that’s more lively, more one on one with our fans. We wanted something that would resonate with our fans, through the message that we’re trying to spread.

Dae Hyun: We feel that we’ve grown a lot individually and together as a group and we wanted to show that in our work this time.

The music video for “Wake Me Up” featured one of the most diverse casts that K-pop’s ever seen. How did that come about?  

Dae Hyun: Every time we shoot a music video we have meetings with the producers who help us create them and we put together all of our ideas. Everything from the individual shots of the video to the casting of everyone who will appear. We just come together and put together our ideas, and then we put it all into a final product. But the most important thing is that our ideas have changed, and that helped shape how we felt towards this music video and how we wanted it directed. Initially the plan was to use a Korean cast but after the members got together and we put together our thoughts, we wanted to go with a more diverse cast to show that we have an accurate representation of our society today. Not just of in Korea or America, but all over the world. We wanted to express that through our music video, which is why we decided to go with such a diverse cast.

Him Chan: It was never really something for us that we wanted to do, just stick to a Korean cast because we are Korean. We wanted to represent every part of the world and pay homage to the fans who’ve come out to support us.

The music video’s storyline, which features messages about self-care and mental health, was incredibly progressive, but while making it did you expect that it would resonate with so many fans from around the world?

Him Chan: When we were putting together the music video, we didn’t think that extensively into it, but we did intend to insert multiple meanings into certain aspects of it. We just wanted it to be interpreted by the fans.

B.A.P has been together for five years now, so how do you keep motivated during the rough times?

Dae Hyun: What’s kept us together as a group so strongly was our fans. We really feel that because of the support from our fans we’ve been able to continue stronger and better than ever each time we release a new album as a group. It’s really all thanks to the fans, and we want to pay respect to them.

Young Jae: Before I got on the stage in Atlanta, I really wasn’t feeling well. But as soon as I got on stage and saw the faces of all our fans I felt so much better and became energized and ready to perform.

You guys have shown a lot of different artistic sides over the years. Are there any other sounds or concepts you’d like to try, or musicians you’d like to work with?

Dae Hyun: What I’ve always admired, and what I’ve wanted to do a lot recently, is a duet. That’s something that I’m going to look forward to doing in the future.

Zelo: I don’t really have anything I want to focus on but I want to connect with the fans and show a more amazing, more awesome performance each time and that’ll be reflected in my music.

What’s next for B.A.P? Are you working on anything new?

Dae Hyun: The [Party Baby] concept of this tour is completely new for us and we think that the most important thing for us right now is to finish the rest of this tour successfully, then return to all our fans across the world and back home in Korea. So that’s our priority currently.

Do you have any final words for your American fans?

Zelo: [In English] I love you.

Him Chan: We want to tell our fans in the United States that we’ll continue to work tirelessly and continue to show them a new, better improved performance and better side to B.A.P every time we can visit and perform for them.

All answers have been translated from the original Korean.

source: Billboard
Louis Tomlinson pays tribute to mum a year after death
The 25-year-old popstar shared the touching post in honour of his late mum Johannah a year after she passed away from leukemia at the age of 43. Louis simply tweeted 'love you always'.

I haven’t seen this on my dash at all today, but maybe I missed it?

Only posting because for the second time in less than a month the Daily Mail have printed a positive headline about Louis, with no snide second meaning and no relegating him to second billing to someone else.

Also the text (below the cut so you don’t have to give the DM clicks) is positive and only mentions Louis, Jay and Lottie.

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Semiotics in Fandom Texts

A brief lesson on media decoding for the Check Please! Fandom

Semiotics is the study of signs/symbols and their use/interpretation. It’s basically how is meaning is created and expressed. Stuart Hall, notably, had a preferred reading theory. 

There’s encoding and decoding in all media. The content creator (an artist, journalist, etc) makes a piece with an intended meaning. They encode a message into their work. It’s the job of the audience to take that piece and decode its meaning.

 Now, it’s not often that straight forward. It’s not just like you have an audio jack straight from the brain of the creator into your mind so you can download their exact intended message. You have things like ethnic, racial, regional and religious backgrounds. You have how old you are, the generation you were raised in, and  the kind of education (formal or otherwise) that you’ve received. Whether you’re nuerotypical or allisitic sometimes comes into play. What privileges, or lack thereof,  and experiences you carry with you heavily impact how you interpret media. And even when a creator comes out and says “this is exactly the lens through which I want you to see this piece,” that can still be ignored or disregarded. 

Hall broke down how an audience decodes meaning into three major categories: 

Dominant reading- you’ve hit the nail on the head. This is exactly how the creator intended you to consume this media. You figured out the message and have accepted it as such. 

Negotiated reading - you’ve taken the message, and there are parts of it that you accept. You’re negotiating your bias with how much you believe that the intended message is indeed the message. Perhaps you see how it could be interpreted differently, but you’ve chosen to accept your interpretation as THE message. 

Oppositional reading - you’ve basically rejected the entire message in favor of something more aligned with your beliefs. This is like when global warning deniers refuse to look at facts and figures because they’ve been conditioned to believe that “the science is still inconclusive”. (just one example, more on this later)

Typically, the way people read media messages is more on a spectrum. So I’ll be using qualifying terms such as “more”, “less”, “closer to” and “further from” in order to describe placement on this spectrum. 

Case Study: In Universe Meta Meta 

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I am literally beyond myself that now we’ve had “fans” find Tyler and Jenna’s address that she had to take the picture of him washing the windows down. Now we have some “fans” who went and crashed the wedding the guys were at just to meet josh and they snapped the entire thing.

This is not the respectful clique, this is completely and utterly wrong. Talk about invasion of privacy! Stuff like this will legit make Tyler and Josh feel uncomfortable posting stuff without the fear of them being found. It’s much different if you’re out and about and see them maybe walking down the street. If they’re at home or at SOMEONE ELSE’S WEDDING in no way should you invade that space.

I am just feeling really upset that this is happening to them. Yes, celebrities don’t get much of a private life but come on! No one should be trying to find their location just to get a picture or whatever.

I am so sorry to @stillstreet, Jenna, Tyler, all those at the wedding and others who’ve had to deal with this. No one should have to wonder if one post could end up with people showing up.

As @dork-with-a-uke stated so well: respect their personal space and lives.

Please. This stuff can truly make artists not want to interact with their fans.

respect wins. invasion of privacy loses. |-/

PokeSpe Week - Day 8 : Free Day - Yamamoto Satoshi

Don’t get me wrong, I love Mato’s art, but a few recent interviews have given me a new level of respect for PokeSpe’s current artist. I never knew before those interviews how much he, when he first came on board, got constantly shat on by various editors and fans for replacing Mato. (holy f*ck razor blades?!) People kept telling him and Kusaka that it would be better to discontinue PokeSpe entirely rather than go on without the original artist.

But Kusaka believed in him and he kept soldiering on, and he’s still here over fifteen years later, doing things and going places he probably never dreamed of thanks to him working his butt off. So yes, thank you Yamamoto Satoshi, and happy 20th anniversary to PokeSpe!

a person i know, an Army, who’s been wheelchair-bound since she was 14 just saw Jungkook’s poster and send me a voice message, just crying happily, saying how happy she is after seeing it and how she loves it. She’s one of the many people who, thanks to Bangtan, found the strength and will to live again after being depressed and suicidal for a long time. Seeing her favorite artist who saved her including a disabled (still a question, we don’t know anything) character in their story of self-love, self-acceptance, story of hope and positivity, made her emotional. (just like the poster made me emotional too). Bangtan are truly so brave and strong, talking about such serious and sensitive subjects is not easy, but they always try to spread awareness about such things and never stay silent despite knowing perfectly well some people, who love to feel offended by anything and everything, will definitely find reasons to be mad instead of showing respect. Inspiring people, giving people hope, empowering and spreading positivity and love, calling out society’s injustice, it’s been their aim since the very beginning. They stay true to themselves always, despite everything. They are real artists, real role models, and I can’t express enough how much i love and respect them, how proud i am to be their fan, to call myself Army, how much they helped me and made my life better. I am so grateful to you, Bangtan, for everything you do. For yourself, for us, for this world.

We care about each other so much, and that’s a given, that’s kind of this unconditional thing. There’s so much love between us and so much respect. I’m her biggest fan as an artist. So for me, it’s been bliss to be able to watch her success and watch her bloom into the actress that she is. And it’s also been wonderful to have that kind of support for each other. It’s nothing but a beautiful thing.

Andrew gushing over (ex) Emma during awards season 2017.

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Okay, let’s take a step back here gang. 

I’ve seen so much coverage of BTS on social media such as Twitter and Facebook, which is amazing, and I’m so proud as an Army to see them grow and gain popularity and earn respect of new fans and artists across the world. 

But what I don’t like to see is wow, look at this k-pop band that’s popped out of no where. 

No. They haven’t “popped out of no where.”

They’ve spent years producing albums and music, gaining popularity in Korea through interviews and variety shows. They’ve been working their damn asses off since day one and they’ve worked themselves up to this level. 

BTS wasn’t given the silver spoon, they didn’t blow up over night, they’ve been working relentlessly since their debut in 2013. They have had their struggles, and they deserve every bit of this success. 

So when you see BTS taking over the world, don’t forget that they started somewhere. They didn’t just become relevant because the Western world has found them.

It may seem really stupid that I’m getting annoyed about this, but Western artists are credited for how hard they’ve worked “from the bottom” and BTS should too. 

I finally got around to watching SJ Returns on vlive at last! Though it was really funny at first, which was expected (because nobody beats SJ in terms of being absolute savages/trolls), once Ep 9-10 roll around, it started to get achingly real as they began to reflect on their 10-year+ career as idols. And then ripped the bandages open and inspect the still festering wounds and I just c-can’t…

I want to post the transcript of that conversation here, because it’s important. To me. To E.L.Fs. To kpop fans and SJ haters alike. I want others to know some of the struggles SJ has gone through, are still going through, to carve a space in this cutthroat and over-saturated industry that refuses to give them an inch, let alone enough room for all their shoes to fit, because it is no doubt an uphill battle faced by many other idols too.  [More thoughts at the end]

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thoughts on fanfic and creators (in this case youtubers)

I don’t think I’ve ever seen fanfiction acknowledged as a form of art or expression the way fanart has been. Very rarely have I seen youtubers treat fanfiction writers the way they do fan artists. Fanfic and fanart are essentially the same thing: a way to express your emotions about someone you idolize, someone who inspires you so much that you want to make something dedicated to them. One just uses words and the other uses drawing or painting or whatever.

It just feels like fanfiction is more acceptable to make fun of because “lol look at this teen girl writing about how much she loves this creator!1!!11 funny joke1!1!1” Like anytime I’ve seen a YouTuber acknowledge fanfiction in a video, they’re usually reading it as a joke, taking someone’s work and making it something to laugh at. Even if it’s not the best writing, the author still probably worked as hard as they could and still put it out there.

If the people I wrote fanfic about (Jack/Mark/Ethan) ever saw my work and took it as a joke, I’d feel so discouraged. I’m not saying that they would do that though, I’m just using that as an example. There’s plenty of vloggers who thank and respect the many fan artists who draw for them, but don’t even acknowledge the people who write for them, much less respect them.

Makes me kinda sad, but that’s how it is I guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I kinda feel like Tablo discredited a lot of Female artists.

Yea,Big Bang,PSY and BTS have and still are doing incredible things but what about the global impact of SNSD,Wonder Girls,2NE1 and so many more?

While I do have much respect for the artists mentioned,this tweet illustrates one if the main issues in kpop and the entertainment industry in general-Lack of female representation.Its not that much of a big deal because at the end of the day,you don’t need confirmation to prove your worth,its just frustrating to see female idols and musicians constantly belittled by male and female fans alike.

Happy Birthday BTS

Today, the boys are celebrating 4 years since they’ve debuted and I just want to say congratulations to them. I want to tell the story of how I became a BTS fan and how they have affected me. It might be quite long, so read at your own risk. I was relatively new to Kpop, so I became a fan of BTS in 2015, a little after HYYH pt.1. When I first got into Kpop, BTS was not my first group. I had only heard of EXO and I had learned so much about EXO and became familiar with them, that when my friend recommended that I listen to BTS, I was reluctant to do so. I didn’t think I would like BTS as much as I liked EXO at the time, but I thought, “why not?” and gave them a listen. The first music video and song I’ve ever watched of BTS was Dope. And this is gonna sound hella cheesy but that’s exactly what I thought of the video: it was DOPE! But even after deciding that I liked the video, my ignorance of Kpop still pulled me towards EXO. As I became more accustomed to the genre, I began to listen to different groups and songs outside of EXO. I remember watching an EXO vine that featured a song I have never heard before, but I was so intrigued by the song that I went and looked it up. The song ended up being Cypher pt.3 by BTS and that’s when a shifted happened. I am a huge fan of rap and hip-hop and this song had the type of beat the type of hype that I love and I was feeling it 100%. I had never heard anything like this from EXO and it made me want to listen to BTS a lot more. And so I did. Pretty soon I learned a lot about each member and I began to love them just as much as I loved EXO.
When BTS came back with Run, I was extremely excited because this was the first comeback that I was able to be a part of as a fan of BTS. It meant so much to me that I was able to experience the teasers, the promotion period, and the release of the album. As 2015 came to an end and 2016 emerged, my love for BTS had outgrown my love for EXO.
Fast forward to now, BTS is still my number one, even compared to the many Western Artist that I love.
BTS bring out so many emotions within me and there are no amount of words that could describe how I feel about them, or how they make me feel. I have never experienced such strong emotions for a group of people I have never even met or seen in person. BTS work so hard and I can’t help but admire them. I admire their music and their personalities and I have so much respect for them, not as a fan, but as a human being respecting other human beings. I am so glad that I was able to witness their success from when I became a fan, til now because they have accomplished so much. They truly came from nothing, and now they are one of the biggest artists in the world. And during it all, they never lost hope, and they never lost sight of who they are, and where they came from and to me, that is the most amazing thing about them. I love BTS and I pray that they reach an even bigger goal and accomplish more than they already have. I may not have been here from the beginning, but I will be here until the end. Happy 4 year anniversary Bangtan.

RFA + Saeran and V with a yandere MC

I had a problem with my internet last night and accidentally deleted this request, I’m so sorry, but here it is!

This isn’t as bad as RFA as yanderes, but it can still be pretty triggering so…



  • You always hold his hand in public. When his fans approach him, you always make sure to touch him somehow, just to remind them he’s already taken
  • Becoming his manager was a natural move for you, you would always know where he is.
  • Also, you can control his gigs. A musical with too much provocative scenes? You’ll refuse for him alleging It is for him to be taken seriously as an actor
  • In fact, you got obsessed about him becoming a respected artist, no more silly romantic stories for him, just meaningful and cult movies
  • He knows it’s good for his career, but he misses his old performances, he used to be so passionate… now everything feels so mechanical.
  • You have a strict and detailled cronograma for his daily routine, he never dares to get out of it or he knows you’ll threat telling the press how unprofessional he is
  • You barely see each other now. But the saddest part is you only smile to him when you’re sure there’s a paparazzi watching.


  • He’s adorable and unintentionally flirty to everybody, so you’re always around reminding people he’s not available
  • And when you’re alone, you scold him for being so innocent. If words aren’t enough, you make sure to let hickys in places he can’t hide
  • You don’t like when people try to take advantage of him or make fun of him. You will definitely do something to make that person pay, including physical threats, if necessary.
  • To you is just unacceptable that he lets people treat him like a child, so you always pressure him to act like a man. Is he afraid of spiders? You don’t care, you will lock him up in the same room with the animal and just release him when he kills it.
  • You start putting yourself in risky situations just so he can risk himself to save you, you know, like a real man should do. He did it once with the Mint Eye situation, why wouldn’t he do it again and again and again?
  • You also want him to succeed professionally, so you control his study hours and forbid him of playing LOLOL.
  • There’s no condition, he says he loves you, that he wants to build a life with you. For that to happen, he has to study and grow up, or else he’ll never keep up with you!
  • It doesn’t feel like a relationship anymore, it looks more like a young brother and a very angry and over protective older sister.
  • But, since he is very inexperienced in relationships, he doesn’t even acknowledge how unhealthy this is for both of you. And you definitely won’t let him know about that.


  • You are extremely jealous of any man or woman who comes to talk to her.
  • What pisses you off the most is that she’s too oblivious to notice if someone is hitting on her, so you always have to let people notice she’s yours.
  • You just hate how some people go to the cafe without giving a shit about coffee, they’re just there to see her and believe they have a chance, just because she’s being nice.
  • That makes you wonder, what if there is no cafe for people come to see her? Yes, she would be all yours.
  • So you start making a bad service on purpose. Messing people’s orders, forgetting to receive products of the distributors when she’s not around
  • You even dug up the trash in the alley to find some cockroaches and let them out around the kitchen,  this is something the sanitary surveillance can’t ignore!
  • She feels devastated when she has to shut down her place she loved so much. You comfort her saying as long as she has you, and only you, everything will be fine.


  • At first, everything felt perfect. He treated you like the only person that exists on earth.
  • Then, he got back to work, and you weren’t enjoying that his attention was not all over you anymore. But you knew if you asked him, he would take as many days off as you desired.
  • And he did, he was always around the penthouse giving all his attention to you! Oh… and to Elizabeth the 3rd…
  • Was this cat always so annoying and spoiled or you just noticed now? Everytime you look at her, you feel sick.
  • So it was no big deal for you to just… tell the securities you were taking her to the vet and… abandon her in the woods.
  • The boring part was pretending you felt devastated and guilty. What could you do? You opened her carrier bag just for a second and she ran away fastly, probably she always wanted to run away… again.
  • But you reassured him you would never run away, you were his for him to do whatever his complicated and tangled heart desired.


  • To be honest, you actually enjoyed those days in the cabin, chasing Saeran and Vanderwood, being trapped in Mint Eye…
  • You don’t know how to explain, you just… felt a good rush with those adventures.
  • And despite all the danger, he was always so caring and sweet, he had such a need  for you never forgetting him that he was always attentive and desperate for you.
  • And now that Saeyoung was settling down and trying to live a normal life, as normal as could be, you were feeling… bored?
  • You wanted that Saeyoung back. But all the danger was fading away now… was it really? What about his father?
  • You weren’t thinking straight when you sent that anonymous letter to his dad’s office about the Choi twins.
  • But that didn’t matter anymore as soon you, Saeran and that Saeyoung you fell in love hit the road trying to run away as far as possible.


  • He was always unpredictable. One day he could be quiet, shy and distant, then suddenly he would be violent and loud. You loved them both.
  • When he was violent, he would say the most horrible things to you. At first, you would be trembling in fear.
  • But as time passed, you started to enjoy this, now you were trembling in anticipation everytime he would be like this.
  • You would even provoke him just to make him go unstable. You started being as rude and violent as him.
  • He was mean to you? You would be meaner! It became a sick competition to see who could be more hurtful.
  • The most hurtful was the strong one in this relationship, and the game is still on!


  • He says he’s over her, you now he’s not
  • It’s just impossible, you could still feel Rika’s shadow, you could smell her,hear her, see her in his apartment. So he moved, because you wanted to
  • But it wasn’t enough, you made him throw it away all the pictures he took by the time he was with her, you could not live with traces of her all over him and his memories.
  • So… if you could not make him forget her, maybe you should be more like her?
  • You dyed your hair to blond, and started acting as he told you she used to act.
  • You were pretty good at imitating her good features, but you were even better imitating the bad ones