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SnK Chapter 97 Poll Results

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This is the highest rated chapter since we started asking this question 6 months ago. Many were delighted to see Eren again and felt that the plot was moving forward.

This is the chapter I’ve been waiting months for. Flashbacks with meaning. Plot progression. New revelations. Great chapter.

Best Marley chapter yet.

This chapter was honestly amazing, easily one of my favorite chapters. Not only do we get to see my boy Kenny again, Annie is there kicking his ass. We got Bertholdt’s fortune telling sleeping positions(bless him). We got Reiner who is so fucking gone, I lost my shit for a second when I thought it was all gonna be over for him. Then we finally hear from the Tybur’s and learn that Amputee-kun was Eren(no surprise with that one). Honestly just a beautiful chapter!

Made me more happy than getting a buy one get one coupon for Chick Fil A

Honestly I was expecting this chapter to be another flashback and generally boring instead I was pleasurably surprised by seeing my boi eren and Kenny ~wipes tear~ I JUST HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS CHAPTER O

This is the chapter we all needed. Finally, the plot’s moving forward, and it’s doing so really quickly! Hyped!

We went from “another useless flashback chapter” to “omg Isayama let us catch our breath” and this is hilarious. Not that I disliked flashback chapters, they were great…but THIS was THE chapter.

It’s about time we had a chapter that pushed the plot forward and gave us some juicy reveals. The curtain has been down for far too long and it’s now time for some conflict. Gimme grim reminder in the next chapter as well as more Pieck and Porky.

This chapter is just amazing. We got Eren as Amputee-kun, Willy Tybur, and a hint of Zekerets. Plus, there’s also Eren’s letter to look forward to. I feel like we’ll be seeing the Paradis crew towards the end of Chapter 98. It serves as a great way to end the volume.

I was so happy to see the plot finally starting to move forwards again. I’ve loved getting the Marley perspective, but as I’ve said before, the pacing of these chapters has been abysmal. The plot’s been largely stalled for nearly a year at this point, and I’m very excited to see it finally seeming to pick up direction again. 

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anonymous asked:

Can I just say, I feel like I'm the only one that's extremely irritated with the whole moving theories? Like it's great if they are but in all seriousness, there's a lot to disprove them moving, specially right now with everything going on(vaca). And moving is something serious, not some secret project that doesn't have to be acknowledge right away like moving would. Why the fuck would they be so hush hush over moving? There's no need to?? And dan said he's redecorating his room SOO... no move.

fair enough. idg why it’s the foundation for so much discourse to be honest. if they move they move if they don’t they don’t. they inevitably will eventually bc they’ve said themselves that the house is too small for all of their things. so it’s rly more a matter of “when” and that seems v uninteresting to me overall to be frank

edit: since yesterday i’ve been thinking about the wholly inadequate answer i gave to this ask. not only was i a bit condescending in my response (and i want to say sorry about that bc i didn’t intend for my tone to be laced with so much judgment … of course it’s valid to be interested in if/when they’re moving and think about what it could mean for them,) but i also didn’t even really respond to the question that this anon posed and i feel really bad about it (which is also why i realized i should probs log off and not try to answer much else, since i was not in a great place to be thinking about this stuff.) 

i do want to try and respond better tho to the question of why dnp would “be so hush hush over moving” (though i apologize in advance since u said you’re feeling irritated by the moving theories. this is a full on explanation of all the evidence that supports that theory.) the first point i want to make is that i actually don’t think they’re really trying to keep it hush hush. they’re obviously not outright stating that they’re moving, but dan especially has made several allusions to that notion over the last few months, many of which seem to have been forgotten in the overall discussion happening in the fandom right now. there were all of the needing storage mentions of course, and then the explicit statement in that january live show that “getting more storage” was definitely on the agenda for 2017. that could obviously be an innocuous statement, but with dan’s extensive knowledge of phandom discourse, the chance seems slim that he didn’t know that “getting storage” was being used as a way to talk about moving. then there were all of those subtle mentions about how long they’ve lived in the flat–i think on 2 or 3 separate occasions dan brought up that he couldn’t believe they’d been there for 5 years now. there was also the mention that he wants a new piano, and that that was something he would do this year. again while it’s possible he meant getting a new piano in this flat, he’s also stated in the past that the piano has been in that apartment since it was constructed and it just seems more feasible to accomplish that goal in a new place? and he also stated in january that after filming a lot for dapg, the early part of 2017 would be dedicated to “life things.” and, finally, with respect to yesterday’s live show, if they’re really trying to keep this some enormous secret dan would’ve tried a lot harder imo to hide the absence of the wirrow painting and the shit on his bedside table. or he would’ve waited until after the tuesday live show to get the stuff moved. or he would’ve canceled the tuesday live show altogether, especially bc he had a pretty solid excuse in being swamped with pre-travel preparation (he even made it seem like a possibility that he wouldn’t stream today during the joint live show last week.)

generally, i do think there are a number of reasons they would want to keep it mostly secret (the pressure from millions of people openly speculating about it, drawing conclusions from it, expressing their heartbreak bc of their emotional attachment to their current flat, etc. seems like an incomprehensible stress on top of the already stressful process of moving.) but i also think it’s important to note that they’re not really trying very hard to eliminate speculation on it either. in my opinion, they seem more like they’re attempting to lowkey prepare people without outright stating it so that no one who is seriously invested in them and their personal matters (aka the ardent live show watchers) can truly claim to be shocked or surprised when it happens. i mean, just look at their tags here on tumblr rn–if they were aiming to keep it “hush hush” i would say they miserably failed. if, however, their goal was to tell people subtly without confirming it outright,, then they clearly succeeded.

overall, since dnp have always been people who seem to make every decision and statement with so much premeditated thought, the easiest explanation of all of the past statements i’ve listed (and yesterday’s very pointed “you could say i’m relocating it … one could say” …. like rly if he’s aesthetically rearranging his current bedroom why that sketchy “one could say” addendum? it makes literally no sense in that context) is that they’re moving. i also don’t understand why it seems like such a ‘reach’ to people. they’ve lived in that flat so long. they’ve talked about needing more space for so long. it just seems very logical to me on every level that two people with their level of intertwined living and their financial capacity would take this relatively chiller time in their professional lives to do something about their struggle w too limited space, the annoying loudness of their street, their leaky gas pipes, their overbearing landlord, etc. etc. and “see if there’s a better way to live” (also dan’s words from earlier this year, in case ppl forgot) 

in short, all of these things seem to make at least a reasonable case for them moving (and moving soon), and  all of dan’s talk about aesthetics and new backgrounds for his videos, plus asking viewers to send him “palettes,” are easier explained, imo, as just a bit of (adorable) excitement around the upcoming process of redecorating in a new place. he’ll still need to think about how to arrange his furniture and what sort of decorative pieces to add to his background in this hypothetical new place, obvi, and he never explicitly said the words “i’m redecorating this bedroom that i currently inhabit.” moreover, that they’re moving and some of their stuff has already been packed away explains all of the sketchier elements of the show in a much cleaner way. for example, why was dan’s excuse for using his phone that the mouse to his “laptop” was dead? do they not have batteries? do they not have other computer mouses in their house? (they do. like at least 2 if not more.) why would not having a mouse, if that was even true, necessitate him sitting on his bed with his phone? why not use his laptop? or if that’s broken too, why not use phil’s laptop as he has done before? using a phone seems like the most inconvenient solution, and sitting on the bed with that phone seems doubly inconvenient. like, let’s say all of the other tech is packed away for their trip or dead or broken and his only option really was his phone … why did he choose to sit on his bed? something he hasn’t done in a live show in literal years? something that is so clearly uncomfortable? wouldn’t it have been easier to sit at his desk with his phone leaned against something? and then obvi why the weirdness with the painting? why the empty bedside table? also, why will phil be unavailable to do a live show until the 25th if the aus convention ends the 15th and, by dan’s own words, they’re coming home before going to florida? 

i really think the simplest explanation to all of these things is that his room is being emptied and he didn’t want to show us, they’re in the process of moving some stuff out, maybe all of it, so that they’ll be totally relocated in the coming weeks. i think the notion that he was talking about rearranging his room makes much less sense bc then he would’ve just directly said “lol i’m rearranging my room right now and i need ideas and also that’s why the painting is gone.” there was literally no reason for him to be so weird and unclear about it. that they’ve been house-hunting and packing shit up would also account in large part for their apparent busy schedules and stress over the last few weeks. it would account for why dan has made so many allusions to being tired (rmmbr “i’m so tired … i don’t know why … actually i do know why”?? rmmbr him clarifying at one point that he was “physically” tired??? hmmm.) 

obvi everything is speculation at the end of the day, i could be totally wrong on all of this and dan might just be a crazy person who says random misleading shit for kicks, but i guess overall i’m just a bit confused why the idea that they’re moving is being treated like some sort of outrageous tinhat theory when: 1. there have been so many signs pointing to it 2. it just makes sense for them at this stage of their lives, and 3. they’ve seemingly not tried super hard to hide it either. 

Portal portal meets camp camp

Ava/blue: Sudden thought. What if the crossover between camp camp and portal portal went the other way around?? Pp!max who is in the middle of trying to fight daniel. Daniel causes a major malfunction with the portals. Next thing Pp!max knows he is finally outside. But just, pp!max being mistaken for cc!max trying to run away?? But the other campers are like,
“Your clothes?? What is that strange device you’re holding? You look like max but you havent yelled at us yet?? wHO ARE YOU?? Cc!gwen finds pp!max and drags him to camp (he appeared a little bit away from it).
Ollie: Poor pp!max has no clue what the hell is going on.
Onyx: Being forcefully grabbed and dragged away seems awfully familiar….
Ava/blue: Pp!max is just internally screaming.
Onyx: oooohh no! He isnt even sure about cc!gwen since she hasnt casted herself in a very positive light.
Ava/blue: poor pp!max is AMAZED and SHOCKED that he is outside. Be he is also freaking terrified.
Onyx: of course kinda predispositioned to behave around david. But gwen is a new factor entirely!
Ava/blue: its so many people at once. Plus the unwanted touch and OTHER HUMANS?????? Plus the emotional mess that is having to fight A GIANT ROBOT THAT WANTS TO KILL YOU.
Pp!max is on the verge of a emotional and mental breakdown. Someone save him pls.
Onyx: oh god if he hasn’t broken down already he definitely is right now. Of course since this is cc!david’s first interaction he’ll probably try to physically comfort pp!max but it makes it 100X worse.
Ava/blue: ABSOLUTELY. //IMMEDIATELY FLASHBACKS TO ALL THE TIMES PP!DAVID HAS TRIED TO ‘HELP’ MAX
Onyx: of course there is no moonrock floor to use the portal gun on so, and they are probably in a cabin. So there is no immediate escape.
Ava/blue: pp!max would probably kick all their asses if he wasn’t a mess rn.
Onyx: like a caged animal tbh.
Ava/blue: id imagine that the cc!crew would realize that what their doing isn’t working.
Ollie: AWWWWWWW
Onyx: since he’s been fighting for survival since day one
Ava/blue: so they give him space.
Onyx: gwen would probably notice first tbh, psychology major?
Ava/blue:^^^ YEP
Ollie: YES
Onyx: manhandles cc!david to back off and everyone else is just kinda standing there dumbfounded.
Ava/blue: everyone wont stop staring at pp!max and its starting to make him uncomfortable.
Onyx: probably cant stop looking at him because he shouldn’t be there
Ava/blue: how much you wanna bet pp!max is covered in scars?
Ollie: watch pp!max not even talk, but make small noises instead.
Onyx: probably even snarls.
Ollie: HAHA ohmygod he goes to base animalistic instincts and growls. They’d DEFINITELY know its not their max by then. They’d sooner think he and nikki traded bodies.
Onyx: anything to look threatening to these people he has no idea how to interact with.
Ollie: what if like. Nikki is the one to calm him down?
Ava/blue: OH MY GOD YES.
Ollie: because she has the whole interspecies communication thing. And can probably communicate beyond words.
Onyx: use submissive gestures to get her point across that she means no harm.
Ollie: HAHA she gets on the ground and rolls over
Onyx: no teeth baring
Ava: Nikki is just like, step aside. I GOT THIS.
Ollie: D'AWWWWW
Onyx: since our poor bean hasn’t really seen smiles save for those that literally brought them pain. He just doesn’t understand human facial expression that well.
Ollie: Nikki keeps her mouth closed when she smiles and after max warms up to her she goes to gently touch his arm. He pulls away uncertain..
Onyx: because teeth baring in literally any other species means a threat gesture.
Ollie: and she just nods and does it again and he sits there, taking in the she’s touching him, and he slowly calms down.
Ava/blue: nikki eventually softly hugs him.
Ollie: Y E S
Onyx: and it isn’t hurting and he can get away
Ollie: YEAH she totally demonstrates that he can break away first.
Onyx: lotta failed attempts before this of him shying away and putting distance between them, nikki lets him.
Ollie: and she yells at the campers who start to circle
Ava/blue: cc!nikki and pp!max is a brotp i didn’t know i needed until now
Onyx: they give him a separate tent to retreat to. Its empty, no one allowed in without permission since god knows this kid wasn’t allowed boundaries before.
Ollie: He’s comforted by nature because you know, too much technology. So he takes walks into the forest with nikki
Onyx: brings back all sorts of leaves and stuff back to his tent.
Ollie:!!!!!!!! So he and nikki have a need for nature that’s so cute
Onyx: he might even obsess over texture since he’s used to smooth white walls.
Ava/blue: tbh i highkey headcannon that pp!max tends to cradle his right arm, because he’s so used to carrying a portal gun.
Ollie: ^^^^^ BOTH OF THESE THINGS
Onyx: different leaves, pieces of bark and stones all litter the inside of his tent.
Ollie:… guys
Onyx: he likes to pick them up randomly to just examine and feel them.
Ollie:…………guys
Onyx: yeah?
Ava/blue: yes?
Ollie: when he finally decides to let nikki on she’s COMPLETELY HONORED.
Onyx: oh yes!!
Ollie: like her eyes get all wide and starry.
Onyx: she probably makes an effort not to touch anything tho. Wants to establish that it is his stuff and he doesn’t have to share it.
Ollie: BUT HE DOES GIVER HER THINGS. HE DROPPS THINGS INTO HER HANDS
Onyx: that it wont be taken away from him….. like mr.honeynuts.
Ava/blue: awww because he never really got to have things of his own!! Personal belongings are nonexistent in aperture science.
Onyx: David might try to get him nice blankets and stuff. Nikki might actually tell him or he might notice that he likes different textures.
Ollie: AWWWWW! Im a sucker for hurt/comfort so like. Cc!David hurting for pp!max and trying to keep his distance so he doesn’t make him uncomfortable. And just being sad and asking nikki about him all the time.
Onyx: i’d imagine pp!max would favor really fluffy stuff like fleece.
Ava/blue: HE LOVES SOFT THINGS.
Ollie: YEAH SOFT AAA, he’s never felt a soft! What is a soft?
Ava/blue: EVERYTHING AT APERTURE IS EITHER SMOOTH OR ROUGH (debris)
Onyx: FLEECE PJS, also they might try to get pp!max new clothes. No more nasty jumpsuit.
Ollie: the first thing they try to do is get him a camper outfit
Onyx: he might even view it similarly to a jumpsuit
Ava/blue: his jumpsuit must be so dirty. IT HAS BEEN QUITE SOME TIME SINCE THIS BOY WAS CLEANED
Onyx: because it has a logo, and its practically mandatory to wear it. Over half the campers wear it. So he might wear it at first, but starts to piece it together as being a uniform.
Ava/blue: ok but, nikki and gwen slowly helping pp!max talk. And gwen figuring out what happened to pp!max through what little he speaks about it. And, what’s mentally and emotionally wrong with him.
Onyx: and scars
Ava/blue: they notice the scars early on.
Onyx: this bean needs a full on fleece pj set tho. He is wearing cloths. They might notice worser ones underneath.
Ava/blue: some scars are too clean looking (lazers) some are from bullets a few from being nearly killed.
Onyx: burns
Ava/blue: He’s definitely covered on bruises and cuts as well.
Onyx: acid is a hazard, he might have almost fallen a few times.
Ava/blue: absolutely!! There is no way to get through many tests without trial and error
Daisy: omg i love this….. what is cc!david’s first reaction to the scars?
Ava/blue: OH GOD HE WOULD BE HORRIFIED
Onyx: maybe whimper
Ava/blue: so many scars on such a small child
Onyx: probably paralyzed by so many past wounds.
Daisy: AWWWWWWMAXX
Ava/blue: I feel like they would be wondering what would cause a child to act so feral and wild towards others and when they see the scars its just…….. ‘Oh’
Onyx: how do you think pp!max would react to the actual lake? The only large bodies of liquid he’s seen literally melt skin and bones.
Daisy: i wonder if max would super freaked out by people seeing his scars or just he’s so used to them.
Ava/blue: second option. He’s a lab rat essentially so he is definitely used to it.
Ollie: OH! He’s not used to others not being used to the scars. So they all gasp and step back a little and he tilts his head in confusion.
Onyx: he thinks there is something else wrong with him, i’d figure. Did he not do a good job? Did he break a rule?
Daisy: He sees them and he’s like ”……where’s your scars?“
Onyx: when he gets somewhat past being touched he might check nikki closer for scars.
Ollie: and she has none and he starts to sense something is up.
Onyx: Pushing up her sleeves, closely examining sections of skin for lasting damage.
Ollie: AWWW thought lets be honest, its NIKKI, she has SOME scars.
Onyx: but nothing like his. No too clean ones no acid burns. And most are relatively small and faded.
Ava/blue: pp!max’s scars are so much more fresh.
Onyx: do you think the labs were sterile?
Ava/blue: i would think so.
Onyx: hell he might be getting infections when he meets the cc!crew
Ava/blue: OH LIKE THE OLD LABS AND STUFF? BECAUSE HE WOULD DEFINITELY GET INFECTIONS DOWN THERE.
Onyx: cuts without access to medical supplies?
Ollie: OH NO
Onyx: the laser wounds might not be as bad since they were cauterized.
Ava/blue: no access to medical supplies and no one to help him.
Onyx: he’d suddenly just feel so sick and not understand whats going on.
Ollie: and it’s like a time urgent thing so nikki has a lot of pressure to get his trust because they have to treat the wounds.
Onyx: god. Imagine how he’d react to his body fighting the infection! Pus in wounds is something he hasn’t seen before and doesn’t know it’s a natural reaction. Redness that gets worse and swelling that doesn’t go down.
Ava/blue: he would be so terrified
Onyx: dizziness, he literally thinks he is dying and could honestly be on the path to it.
Ollie: and then right when he trusts Nikki, she has to start treating him. And what is this liquid she is putting on his arm?? WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH??? WHY IS NIKKI HURTING HIM??
Onyx: he’d probably collapse due to dehydration because of his fever. Fever fucks with your system, makes you really dehydrated.
Ollie: ok but what if he and nikki have a COMPLETELY non-verbal argument. Like, he’s angry with her and shoving her away and she acts super submissive but then she gets angry too. And eventually she grabs him roughly by the arm and gestures to it. And he looks at it and realizes that he is healing.
Onyx: he isn’t as sick he feels better.
Daisy: AND HES SO SURPRISED “they…. they dont look the same.”
Onyx: heck he probably has crap immune system being in a mostly sterile lab.
Ollie: and he slowly looks back at her and she softly touches his arm just like the beginning.
Daisy: And she smiles “Their getting better max. We’re going to help you feel better!”
Ollie: oh fuck i just got a REALLY longwinded storyline.
Ava/blue: TELL US OLLIE
Daisy: OHOHOHOHO
Ollie: my brain just fucking completed a plot. Ok so like…

After a while he gets to know all the campers, they all understand how to gesture and understand him, david being the last of all. He slowly learns to separate GLaDOS david from cc!david. They get an understanding and he learns about all their personalities and they become close with him, but we’ve been forgetting about the other max. He’s in a lot of trouble at the facility. PP!max reveals more and more about the facility and everyone at camp becomes more worried then ever, guessing that is where CC!max is. They’re eventually able to put the facts together and nikki IMMEDIATELY starts a rescue mission to save cc!max. She’s about to go without pp!max, but in the last moment he grabs her arm, like she did for him and nods. She gives him a pointed look like “Are you sure?” He sighs reluctantly and squeezes her arm and she smiles.
Ava/blue: (does pp!max still have his portal gun?)
Ollie: (he could! It wouldn’t change the story i have in mind!)

When they get there, pp!max is their only navigator. He knows exactly where cc!max is being tested. The campers are there, using those crazy talents of theirs to pass through. But things get tough and eventually pp!max has to take the lead. He starts using what he has learned about the campers’ personalities against their respective turrets. He’s able to defeat their counterparts. Because he knows them.
Onyx:(god how horrified the others would feel when they meet their doubles.)
ollie: (HAHAH RIGHT.)

And he eventually gets to where cc!max is. He’s screaming at pp!david, as pp!daid is trying to talk to him and break his spirit.
“But Max, this is good for you! For us! For all of us? R i gHt??!!” /zaps/
Pp!max drops down to the floor in front of pp!david and cc!max.
Pp!david: “You’re back!! Oh wonderful!” Pp!max glares at him, and then boss battle ensues. The campers try to help but it is ultimately pp!max vs pp!david.
Daisy: (AND EVERYONE IS CONCERNED FOR BOTH OF THE MAX)
Ollie: though cc!David ends up in the fight.
Onyx: (cc!david would feel like absolute shit.)
Ollie: cc!David and everyone go and comfort cc!max while the portal portal two fight.
Ava/blue: (EVERYONE FEEL SHIT SINCE THEIR ROBOT COUNTERPARTS HAD A HAND IN THIS)
Onyx: (BUT DAVID WOULD FEEL THE WORST)
Ava/blue: (HE WOULD)
Daisy: (OMG DAVID WOULD FEEL SO B A D)
Ollie: eventually pp!max is able to defeat pp!david through something he learned about cc!david only when he was able to open up to him. Which in a way is unnerving to Cc!david but he’s also touched that pp!max?? Actually listened to him?? But in the last second as the facility is falling to pieces pp!max gets stuck under debris as the others are escaping. And as if it were a final act to solidify the trust, cc!david frees him and carries him to safety. The first time he’s actually made contact.
And then towards the end of it all, pp!max is now back at the camp with the others and cc!max is now traumatized much like the other max was, all the other campers go to help him and offer comforting words. But pp!max just waves them all off, he gestures to cc!max in a sort of “come on lets take a walk in the woods” way.
The end.


EXTRA!!!!!!

Ollie: imagine like- cc!david able to give lectures to his portal self. OHMYGOD WHAT ABOUT CC!DAVID WORRYING HE MIGHT BECOME HIS PORTAL SELF.
Ava/blue: OH M Y G OD
Ollie: “kids… im not… ignoring your needs am I?? Am-am I overworking you with activities?? Y-You know what?! Break time… no activities today” //hugs arms and walks into the counselor cabin.
Ava/blue: OOOOHHHHH GWEN WOULD TOTALLY COMFORT HIM!!
Ollie: AWWWWWW
Ava/blue: pp!max would definitely talk to david eventually as well.
“becaUSE FIRST OF ALL. YOU’RE ALREADY BETTER THEN HIM BY WORRYING. second of all YOU’RE HUMAN. SO YOU ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT HUMANS NEED TO LIVE. third of all, NONE OF THESE ACTIVITIES ARE INTENTIONALLY LIFE THREATENING. Fourth of all, YOU’RE HUMAN. mistakes are meant to be made!!” Even pp!max understands this.
Ollie: AWWWWWWWWW
Ava/blue: THIS IS LIKE THE OPPOSITE OF THE SEASON 1 FINALE. MAX MAKES DAVID FEEL BETTER.
INSTEAD OF MAKING DAVID FEEL BAD AND SEE REALITY.
IN THIS CASE. PP!MAX IS TRYING TO MAKE DAVID TO FEEL BETTER AND SEE REALITY. /OH THAT PARALLELS ARE BEAUTIFUL/
Ollie:OWNXOWMXAOXKDNOXNWOXNAOZ AWWWWW.

AFTER TWO DAYS. I FINALLY. GOT THAT WHOLE DAMN CONVERSATION WRITTEN DOWN. @portalportalau HERE YOU GO EVERYONE WHO WAS CURIOUS ABOUT WHAT WE CAME UP WITH!!
THIS WAS FOR ALL YOU LOVELY PEOPLE ❤

obviousprocrastination  asked:

Hello there! :D I was wondering if you have a collection of evidence that Pearl is coded as autistic, because I really want to see all of it in one place. If you can't thats okay, but I was just recently thinking about Pearl and all of her behavior. :P

People have made masterposts of this I KNOW I’m just not sure where they are??? If anyone knows please reblog with a link!!

I mean just off the top of my head,

  • She has a very narrow range of passionate interests, it seems like her thoughts are pretty much totally devoted to like 3 or 4 things
  • The way she talks is, in my experience, really typical of autistic folks who have relatively good social function/are highly verbal (myself included)–formal, rigidly grammatical, a steady speaking cadence almost like she’s reading from something
  • Her physical mannerisms definitely look like those of, again, a relatively social autistic person, and a lot of the stuff she does (like twirling around mid sentence when she’s excited) seem, tbh, more like stimming than anything else. Also I just want to comment that I can’t explain it (like…my expertise of autism comes mainly from…being autistic…I couldn’t tell you the technical/neurological/cognitive stuff behind these things) but the way she sits down in the part with her name in the old opening just makes my brain prick up, it just looks???? so aspie???? and I don’t know what it is it’s probably like the way she holds her upper body perfectly still and arranges everything and puts her hands on her leg like she’s kind of absentmindedly pressure-stimming idk?
  • She’s neat but she’s not just *neat*, she genuinely enjoys doing chores for the method behind them (says so in “Keeping it Together”, probably similar to what Matt Burnett said about her liking “the process of pie”) and Steven says in “Steven the Swordfighter” that what she actually *enjoys* is sorting and organizing things into specific categories, which is like. One of the most indisputably autistic traits we’ve heard about her in canon
  • DEFINITELY has sensory issues with texture and touch, she always reacts with alarm and rigidness initially if someone touches her without warning and she’s so freaked out by food textures that even if she’s trying super, super hard to suck it up and deal with them (i.e. “Fusion Cuisine”) she just can’t, it’s too awful. Also in “Together Breakfast” and “Frybo” she actually stops fighting when food touches her–PEARL, whose probably #1 trait (going by her most positive moments in the series and “Guide to the Crystal Gems”) is never giving up–and like, so early in the series when things weren’t all that developed that might’ve been supposed to be solely a comedic moment about her being prissy (which, I mean, she is on top of everything) but looking back w/ more info on her I kind of think that was on some level intended to read as a sensory-overload shutdown. Like bad textures are the one thing she just CAN NOT deal with.
  • Infodumping like woah
  • Struggles with social awareness and understanding how others are feeling, even with other gems. Like, Amethyst was upset with her in “On The Run” because she thought she didn’t care how bad she’d made her feel, but Pearl tells her she literally had no idea she felt that way. That’s the most major time, but there are lots of other times she’s struggling to get a read on the emotional situation, and also times she misreads others’ tone or takes them literally when they were speaking figuratively.
  • She seems to really like to augment her verbal communication with visual, I’m certain that she’s a very visual thinker
  • She’s very logical-minded but she also has next to no control over her emotions/emotional expressions, and she gets overwhelmed with emotion to the point where her functioning is inhibited pretty easily (which I love, love, LOVE because that’s super accurate to a ton of autistic people but it doesn’t fit most people’s stereotypes of autistic people)
  • May be a moot point since we know now she was made and trained to have basically no autonomy, but she seems to have some executive dysfunction and time management issues. She freezes up if the next step isn’t immediately obvious.
  • hyperfocus like woah
  • Just…really likes things a certain way, concerned with following rules (even fairly arbitrary rules), doesn’t understand that some rules only apply in some situations (”which of these is my turn signal?”), tends to be a fairly black-and-white thinker
  • I just…like to think that she regenerated with that waist ribbon b/c this is kind of a stressful time in her life and waist pressure is comforting
  • Super worked up all the time specifically about everyone else’s safety and feelings (most of the time, times when she’s in a personal crisis obviously no) which is like…such a female-socialized autistic person thing. Like “I’m supposed to nurture and please and take care of everyone but I have no idea what the shit is going on with them”
  • Just seems to have trouble communicating in general I mean there’s so many times when you as the viewer outside the situation are like “pearl this literally could’ve been so easy if you’d just explained yourself” but like as a spectrum person watching you kinda know why she can’t
  • Tiptoe-walking. 
  • Scenes where she definitely looks like she’s having issues with eye contact.
  • There’s probably a ton more even but that’s what I could think of rn
WTF happened with The 100?!

I just couldn’t hold it in anymore, I expect nothing and I’m still let down by this show every week since S3 started. Read it or don’t( I’m not expecting anyone to read it tbh) but this is me just trying to figure out what happened with The 100 and it’s characters? I don’t even know anymore with all the basic writing and rushed decisions I just can’t.

It has some sort of evidence & I tried to put some gifs to light out my anger lmao but yeah so here I go. It’s long but i’m trying to make a point here okay. Bear with me.

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tfa thoughts, finally

I HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS and im finally writing them down, and this is really incoherent and i meant to finish this ages ago but whoops, the point is: here goes

I’m deliberately sticking with all of the GOOD, because I’ve seen so many criticisms and while criticisms can be and are valid, they’re all grinding my gears because they completely seem to dismiss the revolutionary nature of this film and

Just

This is really incoherent, kind of unstructured, and full of loud yelling, but

Let’s roll

(NOTE: THIS IS FULL OF TFA SPOILERS. MAJOR SPOILERS. DON’T READ IF YOU’VE NOT SEEN THE FILM. Tagging @cogito-ergo-dumb  and @mlder bc i explicitly remember them yelling at me to let them know when I post this, and rn I’m in a lot of pain and don’t have the energy to scour through my inbox to find everyone else who requested they be tagged. I’m so, so sorry. I’ll come back and add u to this later, peeps. anyway, here goes:)

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anonymous asked:

As the whole shyness topic is up here rn, I also have a question: I am extremely introverted and also shy, but at times I can be quite outgoing and spontaneous and stuff and sometimes I feel bad about it. Like I feel like I'm a fake or I feel that I give people the wrong impression or I think that people will find it really weird that I am so ambivalent sometimes?? I'm afraid that if I am outgoing around people at times they will expect me to be this way most of the time. Do I even make sense?

Here’s my take on things…

We can categorise ourselves all day long - a pisces, a Ravenclaw, an introvert, INFP, dog lover, child of the moon, straight, whatever it may be. At the end of the day, these labels are limiting. Sure, they help categorise and represent an element of our identity, help to connect with others who similarly identify, but the differences within us are far greater than that. Heck, the differences between us and our past selves are greater than that! We are constantly evolving, changing, to define is simply to limit and prohibit that growth.

Humans are so much more complex than we give ourselves credit for. I often think to myself that I must be the most neurotic person on the planet with the amount of over-thinking, analysing and unnecessary dedication I give to every single idea that arises. I’m not, our brains and our souls are just deeply 

You aren’t being fake, not even to yourself. I also once thought this, but one day realised it was simply that different people bring out different sides in us. Each person is so incredibly unique that of course their personality will trigger a different response in us than someone else will. Personalities are dynamic and filled with so many colours, we can’t expect ourselves to remain rigid. I particularly love the quote “I am made entirely out of flaws, stitched together with good intentions”. We aren’t perfect, or whole. We’re messy and inconsistent and we screw up, but all any of us can ever do at a given moment, is our best.

Some situations will give you anxiety, some won’t. One person might make you intimidated, while you feel completely at ease around everyone else. There are times you’ll feel like listening, but others when you can’t keep your mouth shut. Maybe you’ll be attracted to girls your whole life until the day you fall in love with a boy. My point is, don’t fall into the trap of thinking your character is set in stone. You are allowed to be shy in some settings, outgoing in others, and anything else in between. Our friends spend enough time around us to know that we possess a full spectrum of emotion, and different settings will evoke/elicit those different sides. Your energy might be higher in the morning than at night, or more when you’re outside than inside. All of these things are okay. It’s okay not to define yourself, or think that you can only be one way. You can feel shy sometimes and outgoing at others. If anything, your friends will remark in celebration of  the times you seem to be feeling comfortable, not the ones where you don’t.

Be yourself. Feel things. Express your thoughts. All of it is okay. 

okay so I know I said I wouldn’t do a follow forever, but
I just felt the need to confess my undying love express to
my gratitude for all of you ‘cause it’s late at night and I’m
hella emotional rn about hitting a year on Mal. This blog
means the world to me, and I wouldn’t be where I am
without my amazing followers and partners and I love
you all so much.

I know I’ve forgotten people and that’s the main reason
why I don’t do FFs a lot, so please don’t feel bad if you’re
not here – it just means that it’s fucking late at night and
I’m tired of shit and can’t remember everybody plz don’t
feel bad.


☓ – THE ROYAL COURT

ur the hella ultimate baes that are stuck with me until
the end of time. you guys put up with my insane ideas
and caps lock screaming and you will will never ever
know how much that means to me. i love you guys so
much.

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