so many things i could have done

Julie Andem giving me a lesson until the last minute of the show. I was too focus on the negative things and the things I didn’t like that I missed and couldn’t appreciate those positive things. I feel bad thinking I could have enjoyed more this season if I wasn’t too focus on those things but I’m glad til the last very minute of the show Julie gave us a last lesson: If you love something focus on that don’t give space to hatred or any negative views. Enjoy those things you love and just keep your focus on that, hate is always around but fortunately so is love. 

@jaxstronomy is to blame for getting me off my butt to do an effort piece getting me on board for a Cross tarot project! And given that Elysia is pretty much a living ray of sunshine, it was only natural that she get the Sun card!

I didn’t really think to document the process all that much, but @anryl was interested in seeing it, so I’m gonna put what I have of it under the cut.

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anitadutoit  asked:

What could selena have done to mess ipvthwir relationship thought? I mean, we all remember Justin's countless flings and hookups, which was supposedly during their relationship or in between their break ups. I'm sure she probably alsovhad a few flinfa to get back at hom but how could she has had a bigger contribution to their break up than him?

Idk man…. I think that we only know half the truth…all we know is neither was innocent…. she could’ve said things, done things that she knew she shouldn’t have and did just to hurt him for what he did to her…… Justin’s mistakes were aired out like dirty laundry for everyone….. he had so many opportunities to put her on blast for all her wrongs and refrained…. whether though music or comments….. Selena and her whole team didn’t hold back…. that’s ur difference, he said they did/said things to one another u don’t do to someone u love…. they did all those things out of immaturity…. FACTS

300+ Followers!!

We reached 300+ followers!!! wow!! I never thought we could do such a thing?!?!!? It’s so great to know that there are so many nice and supportive people out there ^^. I definitely couldn’t have done it without all my wonderful admins helping me out, and all of you with ur kind words and requests! I’ll try and clear out the inbox today so we can open it up again! <3

-Admin Kiki

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Joyeux Noël à @abadmeanman! I was your @mlsecretsanta 💝🎅✨

It’s a mutual reveal scenario! In which its a direct mirror of the ever infamous umbrella scene (sans the umbrella and rain).

(Shocking, I know) 

So a for the longest ive been wracking my brain on what to get you. Honestly i considered many possibilities and i still am but those, i decided, were better off as separate projects ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) because i wanted to go for a sfw approach.

I know it’s not much (trust me i wish i could have done more bc ur a cool dude) but this is the best i could do atm. it was my first time working with animations and i came across a lot of technical difficulties (like finding the right size so the finalized thing fits under 1MB or tweaking with the settings so it doesnt look wonky) but im actually proud of the outcome :)

anyways, i hope u like this and that you have a neato x-mas and a happy new year!💛🎉🎅

if you’re a woman who’s attracted to women but you can’t see yourself marrying one, know that that feeling is so common and very often temporary. this is not to say that i know you better than you know yourself; maybe you just don’t want to get married and that’s ok. but very few women have grown up with the idea that they could marry another woman, and it’s hard to picture something for yourself that you’ve so rarely seen!

i couldn’t see myself marrying a woman for a long time, but i did and it’s the best thing i’ve ever done and the many messages i get telling me my blog has helped people picture themselves marrying other women tell me i’m not alone. know that whatever you end up wanting is okay, but don’t stress if there’s some aspect of loving women that doesn’t come to you with perfect ease. in a way we’re forging new cultural territory here. it’s only natural to feel a little lost without a map.

It’s so unbelievably upsetting that no matter how many times you have to keep telling neurotypical people that the things you struggle with and how much you struggle can change daily, they don’t understand. They don’t, even if they claim to. 

I’ve been told “Don’t worry, I’m not going to judge or question your struggles” so many times, and each person who said this eventually found themselves in a situation where they just could not believe that I can sometimes struggle with the most ridiculous things, in the most ridiculous ways.

“You were given so much time to complete this assignment, HOW are you still not done?” “This is such a simple task, HOW are you not able to do it?” Oh, I don’t know, you ever heard of ADHD? How about executive dysfunction? Oh right, I believe I told you that I have it. Like a thousand times. 1001 now because apparently I’m not the only one with a bad memory here.

Message from Rebs 💛

Hello everyone! I just wanted to reiterate that I am Okay. I didn’t really delete because of the pressure or hate or anything, it was just that I felt like I was making things worse by being around only to be negative when I feel like people followed me to find some positivity to start with. For that reason, I’m really sorry that me leaving has upset people, I didn’t really realize it would, I kind of felt like everyone would be relieved to not have to see that side of me anymore and could just remember the happy stuff I had done in the past.

All of that said I definitely do feel relieved to not have so many eyes on me right now. This is allowing me to feel a lot more removed from the situation, so I think my channel is safe from being deleted for now because I can kind of pretend if it’s not there. If I change my mind on that I will try to give people some notice. I already saw that @artfulkindoforder​ is working on archiving them which I really appreciate.

Thank you for the support you’ve given me over the last few years and everything you’ve done for me. Please know that I am okay and I really want you all to be happy and have a good time here, and I hope that in the future we all get to see the kind of positive, landmark representation we were looking forward to. I wish you all the best!

-Rebs

PS: please don’t pester Liddy about where I am or messages for me, xe very kindly agreed to post this for me but xe is not my delivery person <3

Witchy things to do when you’re low on spoons

As a witch with a chronic illness that can leave me extremely low on energy for weeks at a time, I’m always looking for witchy things to do that won’t leave me exhausted. Even simple spells draw from your own energy pool so these are the things I do when my pool is running dry.


  • Cleansing -  Negative energy always builds up in my space during a bout of sickness, after a good cleansing of my outer I find my inner much more positive also. Here are some easy ways to cleanse

-Light some incense
-Fill a spray bottle with water (moon water would be handy for this), herbs of your choice (I usually use sage), and some salt. Then go around to each room and spray some into each corner
-Cleanse yourself by taking a bath or shower and using gorgeous smelling products
-Open a window and let the fresh air blow positive energy into your house

  • Sigils -  When I don’t have the energy for full-on spells/rituals I sit down and make some cute sigils. I try to make them specific to my situation, so when I am feeling especially down because of health issues I will make a sigil with the intent “My health does not affect my mental state” or something similar. You can also

 -Put a sigil on your pill bottles for a little boost (although magic is NOT a replacement for medicine and you should never completely rely on it for any health issues)
-Put a sigil on your heat bags/hot water bottle
-Draw them on your wrist
-Draw them at the bottom of your tea mugs with honey

  • Beauty Products -  Being stuck in bed feeling like death himself can make me feel, well, not awesome appearance wise. I found making myself feel nice on the outside can help my moral SO MUCH. I don’t mean you have to get up and put on a full face of make-up, but these little things can make a big difference

-Rosehip oil spray. It smells amazing, has many magical benefits including health and feeling calm and sensual, and is super refreshing with the added bonus of being rly good for your skin
-Scented lip balm for when your lips are feeling dry and sore eg I have pomegranate lip balm for when I want to make an offering to Persephone but have absolutely no energy. They come in sooo many flavors and scents, just pick which ones resonate with what you need!
-Perfume/essential oils. Just use a scent that corresponds with what you would like to do, like tea tree oil for health or lavender for relaxation. Also, smell pretty=feel pretty.

  • Prayers -  It can be hard keeping up appearances to the Gods when you have no energy so every night before bed, or generally whenever I feel like it, I say a little prayer. Of course if you are a secular witch you could just take some time to appreciate the things in nature/your life that makes it magical.
  • Tea -  It’s so nice having a soothing hot drink when your throat feels like a huge cluster of quartz has gotten stuck in there. There are so many posts out there about magical uses for tea but here is a couple 

-Adding herbs for intent
-Leaving a crystal in your mug overnight so your mug and tea is charged with intent
-Blowing away the steam and visualize blowing away negative energy

  • Get to know your crystals - Lets be honest, I have so many crystals I’ve forgotten what half of them are. I like taking them out and surrounding myself with them and then picking them up one by one and focusing on its energy to re-connect. This takes barely any of my energy as I can do it in bed, and makes me feel warm and fuzzy seeing all my pretties in front of me.
  • Read/Study - This is what I spend the majority of my time doing. There is ALWAYS more to learn about witchcraft and I can do it while lying down. There are so many free witchy book pdfs on tumblr as well, just remember not to believe everything you read.
  • Witchy Crafts - This one could take a little more spoons than the others, but it’s super gratifying. To find some things to do you can scroll through the tumblr tag “witch diy”. Some things I have done are 

-Sewed cute tarot bags to hold my cards
-Used thick cotton to make my own little necklace crystal holder
-Bought gemstone beads and made my own jewelry

  • Visualization - This is in my opinion the foundation of all spells and a lot of the time I don’t even use any other ingredients because that takes too much energy. I just focus on my intent and chant a little bit or sing and let the spell come to light all through visualizing it. I have charmed items, helped my plants grow and a lot more this way. I also like to visualize myself in a beautiful, flower-filled forest and feel the sun/moon pulling dark clouds of negative energy/illness out of my body to help when i’m feeling particularly unwell.

  • Meditation - My favorite spoonie witchy thing to do. It calms you, cleanses you, broadens your mind and senses and helps me personally deal with any pain caused by my illness. It can be done at any time and you really feel recharged afterwards. You can even light some candles, light some incense, sit outside under the moon, so many things.



So these are all I can think of right now, feel free to add on so we can all help each other out! Much love to every one of you 💕


-Auoria

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19th of April.

I’m no longer currently living in Venezuela, but my family is still there as well as my friends. Today another protest is happening against the dictator that is Maduro. Venezuela represses freedom of speech and this is one of the few ways I can feel that I can help by sharing word of what is happening.

It is a peaceful protest, however “colectivos” are throwing tear gases to the public (as always), the public is trying to get away from it by crossing Caracas’ river where human disposal is thrown. Today another student’s life is added to the countless victims of their actions.

I could honestly keep going on and on but in summary human rights are being violated in Venezuela. We have been under the same government for 19 years now. Caracas is the most dangerous city in the whole world. People are dying from lack of medicine and food, so they quit their jobs all together to get something out of garbage trucks (as minimum wage can barely get you some eggs). So many other things that I could keep listing but this is just a post I’ve done out of the moment but please take time out of your day to research what’s happening at my home country or at least share what you’ve found as Venezuelans sadly can’t.

UPDATE: Two students were killed on this day. Over 400 people detained by peacefully protesting in this date alone in the Capital.
Regarding Crowley

Obvious spoilers ahead…

There are many things that bothered me regarding Crowley’s death. For a character that has been on the show for as long as he has and for his death to be so glossed over… They wasted a great opportunity to lay on the feels.

His death wasn’t sad. Don’t get me wrong, I AM sad beyond belief that his character killed off, but the lack of emotion in the scene was startlingly pathetic.

I’ve long said that as soon as a character has their redemption arc, they will be killed. It’s so damn predictable at this point that it was obvious this was coming.

You want to make Crowley’s death sad? Build up to it. Make it final, but not the end!

In my opinion, so many little things could have been done to make this death THAT much more tragic, instead of relatively useless and unnecessary.

Have Crowley admit that he has nothing left… because he doesn’t. Sure he made some hasty comment about how he doesn’t like Hell or whatever… but again, so glossed over that it didn’t really MEAN that much. His mother, regardless of the fact that she was a thorn in his side, she was still his mother and it was obvious that he felt SOMETHING for her, otherwise he would have just rid himself of the hassle she caused long ago.

Lucifer is back, meaning all the work he put into Hell is gone, all his loyal subjects (as loyal as demons could be) would obviously defect for fear of their own lives, and BEST case scenario, he’d be Lucifer’s dog again, worst case, he’d be tortured and killed. Even if he managed to escape, you know Lucifer would do everything in his power to find him.

Even after fucking everything he’s done for Sam and Dean, INCLUDING FUCKING SACRIFICING HIMSELF, Dean and Sam both show no goddamn emotion when Crowley reveals his plan to kill himself to save them. 

Crowley is far from perfect, particularly in their eyes, but he saved them and Cas on multiple occasions. That should at least warrant a pained, “…wait!” or something from Dean at the very least. 

Have Crowley leave something behind. Have him slip a piece of paper into Sam’s hand before running off the stare down the Devil. Maybe the piece of paper with just a name of someone who can help put Lucifer back in his cage, or a phone number. Fucking SOMETHING. There is seemingly nothing left of Crowley on that show and it will be pretty much as if he didn’t exist. 

His death wasn’t sad. It was a waste. A tragic fucking waste.

I don’t know that I’ve ever really complained about this show… but I’ve watched the scene a number of times and it’s just so anti-climactic and bothersome. 

Anyone have other thoughts? I’m curious what everyone thinks of what happened.

13 Reasons Why Asks

13 reasons why - favourite book?

tapes - favourite song?

liberty high -  what was/is your school like?

basketball - play any sports?

hannah - ever been bullied before?

justin - how close are you and your best friend, how far would you go to protect them?

jessica - best party you’ve ever ben too?

alex - if you had one day to live, what would you do? what would you regret?

tyler - what are your hobbies? do you have any guilty pleasures?

courtney - sexual orientation?

marcus - if you could go on a date with a celebrant of your choice, who would you go with and why?

zach - what’s the nicest thing you’ve done for someone? what’s the nicest thing someone else has done for you?

ryan - dream career?

sheri - if you could bring anybody back from the dead, who would you bring?

clay - ever been in love?

bryce - if you were rich, what would you spend all your money on?

mr porter - do you want to get married? do you want to have kids? if so, how many? :)

jeff - ever been in an accident? ever broken any bones? (BTW, JEFF DESERVED BETTER)

tony - ever done something crazy and spontaneous? if you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go? 


I just thought these were cute :3

Too Far

Prompt: Something with hardcore hate sex /// Can you do a fic where it’s Pastel!Dan and Punk!Phil and they have hate sex or something? /// Can you do one where it’s Pastel!Dan and Punk!Phil and they can’t stand each other and they are partnered up for a school project (like college or high school) and they have hate sex /// Can you do Punk!Phil and Pastel!Dan and the have hate sex /// CAN YOU DO PUNK!PHIL AND PASTEL!DAN AND THEY HATE EACH OTHER BUT THEY ARE ASSIGNED AS PARTNERS IN A SCHOOL PROJECT AND END UP FIGHTING AND HAVING HATE SEX

Author’s Note: this fic is dedicated to what appears to be one anon that just really really wants some hate sex. the capital letters really put me in a writing mood! tbh i wanted so badly to rick roll you but i can’t find the malice…………  (You could stand to relax a little though lmao) (1.3k words)

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Cupcakes-5x22 fic

A/N: Y’all…I don’t even know where this came from. It’s total and complete ridiculous fluff!!!! Please enjoy!! 


Felicity rushed through the door of the bakery ten minutes before the sign said they closed, the smell of sugar and dough hitting her before she was even fully inside.

“I am definitely in the right place,” she muttered to herself as she headed straight to the counter even though her suddenly growling stomach threatened to derail her mission. Her idea to throw Oliver a surprise birthday party was a good one, of that she was certain, but actually having to plan and organize the event was something else entirely. Luckily Thea had agreed to do the heavy lifting when it came to decorations which left Felicity in charge of food.

“Hi, how can I help you?” the woman behind the counter only looked slightly perturbed at having a customer barge in so close to closing.

“I need cupcakes,” Felicity said enthusiastically, eyes scanning the display case but not seeing anything she liked.

“We can pretty much do whatever,” the woman assured her, catching on that she hadn’t spotted what she wanted.

“Like maybe something chocolate and fudgey with green frosting?” she asked with a hopeful lift of her eyebrows. “But not like grass green or mint green, more like…Green Arrow green.”

The woman laughed, pulling out a pad to write down the order, “Your little boy is into superheroes? How many dozen?”

“Oh no, I don’t…I don’t have a son, little or big.”

“Sorry! Daughter. No reason girls can’t like Green Arrow either.” she said with a grin, leaning in a little closer, “I mean…have you seen the way he fills out those leather pants?”

Felicity felt her face flush as her hands curled tight, lips pressed into a straight line, “I um…I have not noticed. Nope. Never noticed that. Is it a good fit? I mean…sorry, never mind, we were discussing cupcakes for my non existent children.” she trailed off under her breath.

The woman looked at her a little strangely but nodded, “Chocolate fudge with green frosting. Any sort of decoration?”

She was about to say no when a thought crossed her mind, “I don’t suppose you have little arrows or something do you?”

“I have just the thing.”

Felicity watched as she looked through a drawer behind her, before turning back holding a small arrow attached to a toothpick.

“It’s perfect!”

“This will be the first Green Arrow party we’ve done. I might have to take some pics and put it on our instagram. Maybe you could share your own and tag us?”

“That uh…that might not be so easy.” Felicity stammered.

“Yeah, some parents are weird about their kids pictures being put on the internet, but I figured it didn’t hurt to ask. Now how many dozen?”

“I’ll take two dozen,” she said quickly though she knew they’d never eat that many, but if there were leftovers that would not be a problem. Then a thought hit her and she sighed, “You know what, make half of those vanilla. Rene doesn’t like chocolate and Curtis will only eat the icing anyways and–”

“I thought you said you didn’t have kids.”

OITNB Season 5 spoilers !! Don't read if you haven't finished the season yet

Okay, I just have to make this post to get it all out of my system.

First thing, I wanna talk about Bailey going to visit Poussey’s father. This is after he’s cried for help from his parents, two of the old guards, and even attempting to turn himself in and kill himself. This guy is all kinds of fucked up from what he did. I cannot stress enough how upset I was while watching the episode that Poussey died in. She was great, but so is Bailey. The poor guy was 21 years old, under trained, in the midst of a protest going ary. He was just trying to hold her down cause that’s what he was supposed to do but he was also getting punched like crazy by Suzanne. So he unintentionally was putting more and more pressure on Poussey while trying to face Suzanne to block her fists. Should he have tried to stand up and deal with Suzanne full on? Yes, there are many things he could have done differently. But never the less, it WAS an accident and clearly from all the aforementioned things he feels H O R R I B L E about it. Now, back to my initial point of wanting to talk about him visiting Poussey’s father. I understand his reasoning behind going there AND I also understand the way the father reacted. I know that if I had a daughter and I was looking in the eyes of the man that looking in the eyes of the man that killed her, I wouldn’t wanna hear a single word he had to say. But my god.. the look of UTTER devastation on Bailey’s face as the door was being closed on him.. I wanted to hug him so god damn badly. Should he be charged in some way for what happened? Absolutely, fact of the matter is despite it being a total accident he DID kill someone.

Second thing, Piscatella. I know that he doesn’t like Red, she hasn’t exactly been polite to him. And I don’t agree with the homophobic slurs she used against him throughout his time of being a part of the show. But holy fuck, what he did to her in episode 10? That was some SERIOUSLY fucking twisted ass shit. I’m all about horror films, gore, and so on. I can take that. But maybe it’s cause I’ve had a long time to see Red as a person idfk but it got me feeling NAUSEOUS. That was so over the top I needed to take a breather to cuddle my cat and watch a little bit of Family Guy so I could calm down. Like I seriously don’t understand what exactly his problem was with Red that caused him to feel justified in doing anything remotely close to that. What I felt would have been reasonable was getting her sent to max. But Jesus… I can’t really say I’m GLAD he died. Cause the fact is after everything he did decide to peacefully walk out of that room. But he was a fucking monster.

And here I am scrolling a moment ago through the oitnb season 5 tag on here and NO ONE is talking about it. 90% of the posts are about fuckin Flaritza. Claiming how iconic they are and how heartbroken they feel that they got separated at the end. They’re two of the most vapid girls I’ve ever seen in my life. They give absolutely no fucks about anyone but themselves. Only getting upset about things when it directly affects them. Fuck that

This show got me feelin some kind of way, and idk where they’re going next with it. But damn, I’m gonna NEED this year till the next season to recover

{Special} College!AU Yugyeom
  • major: applied mathematics 
  • minor: dance 
  • sports: on-campus dance team along w/ jimin + jungkook, mens volleyball 
  • clubs: math club is boring so he dropped it for tango club and is trying to make everyone else come and try it. jackson agreed, jb was dragged there against his will
  • where do i even BEGIN,,,,,,,he’s the most adorable person and laughs sO loud at his one professor’s math puns that everyone else thinks is just straight up Corny but no yugyeom is c a c k l i n g with his hand on his stomach and smacking his hand down against his desk
  • and the professor even is like sheesh it wasn’t THAT funny but yugyeom is close to tears
  • so why math??? well yugyeom had initially planned on doing like finance for businesses when graduating or something and he’s always had a good knack for problem solving
  • even though sometimes the way he does it is kinda????? weird
  • like there might be a formula for something, but yugyeom will find a short-cut around it or come up with a whole new way of finding the answer
  • and a lot of his fellow majors are like ?????? how,,,,is it magic??? math is a solid concept????? but like,,,,,is it,,,,,yugyeom is always like “you guys need to think more like newton,,,,,,,like would he have found out all this stuff if he thought we already knew everything????? nO!!!!!!!”
  • and you look at him and see this tall, silly boy with a shining smile and kind of a childish nativity about him
  • but then he’s telling you about his combinatorial analysis homework and how fun enumeration problems are
  • and you’re just like???? what language is he speaking in????
  • he actually really likes doing his homework before dance practice because solving problems gets his adrenaline going and tbh people might not see it this way but dance has a lot of math in it too
  • you have to know the sequence of moves, what angle to bend toward to make it look pretty, how much time you have and what moves should fit in at what intervals
  • but when yugyeom was like “our routine is like a reaaaaalllllly cool equation guys!!!!!!” everyone on the team was like what in the world
  • is a good student, but if you open his notes up you’ll see doodles in the corners of pages of like jinyoung frowning with furrowed eyebrows and yugyeom is like “look, even on paper jinyoung is mad at me!!!!”
  • part of what people affectionately call the F4 of the math department,,,,,the other members are well,,,,,,,the most important thing is yugyeom is the youngest one of this group and people are always shocked because they’re like whAT he’s so tall,,,,,,,,tho,,,,,is he really that young????
  • his dance minor is purely for his own enjoyment,,,,even though the majors who take classes with him all agree that he’s really rEALLY good
  • “jinyoung can you get me that book over there.” “the one at the top?” “oh you know what nevermind ill get it since you’re too short!!! wait don’t hit me im sorry im sOR-”
  • jb: “don’t egg him on like that yugyeom, you know what’s coming if you do.”
  • yugyeom rubbing the bruise on his head: “buT,,,,,,”
  • joined volleyball team because the coach really wanted him on the rooster (plus it fulfills one the credits for his dancing minor so double win)
  • spiked a ball really hard by accident and it hit the floor and literally. deflated.
  • yugyeom with his cute face,,,,,,but hellish strength like honestly jinyoung should start being scared jkjkjk
  • and you’re actually,,,,,,well you’re dating yugyeom
  • it all started with you being at the dance team competition since you’re covering it for the uni journal and yugyeom,,,,,,,,whose usually one of the stars of all of the teams choreographs,,,,isn’t there????
  • like when the team comes out to perform you can hear the hushed whispers behind you and everyone’s like “where’s yugyeom??” “where’s the really pretty tall one??”
  • and you see how stressed the team captain looks and you’re like,,,,,something must have happened
  • and you know you should stay there and cover the competition,,,,but your curiosity gets the better of you
  • and you slip out of the dance hall and make way down the hallway that is packed with different college dance crews, bags of makeup and uniforms and props lay everywhere and you find the door that has your uni’s team on it and you knock on it,,,,,,,waiting until you hear a reply
  • and you’re like “can i come in?” and the person says sure and when you open the door,,,,,,,,there’s yugyeom
  • and he’s wearing the outfit, pretty makeup and everything but he’s sitting with his hand is on his ankle and he has this look between pain and confusion
  • and you’re like “i,,,,,im from the uni journal but i saw you weren’t going to be performing and i got worried?? i ,,,,,, know this is weird we’ve never spoken before but -”
  • and yugyeom’s confusion fades but he still has a bit of a grimace before he smiles and says that he’s fine, just a twisted ankle
  • but you’re like “does it hurt? maybe you should see a doctor?”
  • and he’s like “it should go away, im massaging it,,,,,,,,,,,”
  • and you kind of frown and are like “how long have you been massaging it?” and yugyeom kind of nervously laughs and shrugs and he’s like,,it’s been about 40 minutes since practice ended-
  • and you’re like bOY that’s not a twisted ankle that’s a sprain 
  • and you’re like “you need to go to the doctor. ill call an ambulance.”
  • but yugyeom suddenly tries to get up to stop you but wobbles forward and you’re like o h nO and you run forward so he can lean onto you before he topples over and you’re like “sit.”
  • and yugyeom opens his mouth but you’re like “no no. sit. stay. im calling an ambulance and im telling the captain.”
  • and you do all that, and the captain says he’ll drop out too to go with yugyeom but you tell him you’ll handle it
  • and you basically ride with yugyeom to the ER where the doctor confirms that it is in fact a sprain and yugyeom needs pain meds + a break from practice
  • and after he’s discharged, you have his arm around your shoulders as you’re helping him so you two can catch a cab back to campus
  • and he’s kinda getting red in the face and you’re like ????? are you ok and he’s like “im still,,,,,,,,in the dance costume and makeup so it’s,,,,,,,weird”
  • and you do notice people are looking at you two but you just roll your eyes and you’re like “you look good, they’re just staring because you’re handsome.”
  • and yugyeom gets even redder when you call him handsome and you kind of bite back your lip because WHAT are you saying,,,all of a sudden,,,,,,
  • but it doesn’t end there no way buddy you both are getting all shy in the cab and the driver thinks you’re a couple and this is litERALLY your first day ever having a conversation with him
  • but yugyeom,,,,,,,,,,,,,,is,,,,,,,,,,woah like his visuals,,,,,,,,wow,,,,,,and you can’t help but deny being attracted to him on a physically level
  • but then you see how he innocently plays with his earring in the car, smiles when you guys are at a red light and there’s a group of kindergartners crossing the road, and how he keeps leaning his long legs (obviously cramped in the back of the cab) as close as he can to the side so you have enough space to sit comfortably
  • and when you pay for the cab since yugyeom’s wallet is back in his bag at the performance hall he gives you the most upset, puppy dog look and is apologizing and bowing 10000 times because he shouldn’t make you pay like this for him!!!!!
  • and you’re just like “yugyeom,,,,it was fifteen bucks it wasn’t that bad now promise me you’ll go straight to your dorm and rest.”
  • and you pull the pain meds from your pocket and hand them to him and you’re like “you remember, two every 8 hours!!” and yugyeom nods and you see suddenly
  • the cute mole right beneath his eye,,,,,,the way his bangs fall straight over his eyes,,,,,,,cute bowlcut,,,,,,,,,,,pretty long limbs,,,,,,,,and you’re like ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh he’s cute. i think he’s cute. oh no
  • and yugyeom, you can’t tell, but he’s thinking the sAME DAMN THING about how cute you are like oh NO he’s getting mushy for you because out of everything you could have done today, you helped out a stranger you didn’t even know well and put so much genuine care into making sure he was ok
  • and you’re both standing there,,,,,,and yugyeom is like “iF ITs,,,,,,,,,ok,,,,,,,can i ,,,,,,,,,,,have your,,,,,,,,,number,,,,,youcansayno!!!!!!!” and you’re like djfkldsfl of course you can !!!!!!! 
  • and by the end of the week, with many texts, majority you being like: no yugyeom don’t go to dance practice taKE YOUR MEDS PLEASE AND REST
  • you both decide to meet at the library you know,,,,,,to study together,,,,hangout as friends
  • half an hour in though you’re like “yugyeom, if i can be very straightforward,,,,,” and yugyeom is already getting flustered but he’s like “yes?”
  • and you look at your book than up at him and you’re like “do you wanna maybe not study and,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,makeout?”
  • and yugyeom’s eyes widen at the word and you’re like ,,,,,,,,,,,,was i reading the signs wrong? but he shuts his math textbook and giggles into his palm before extending it to you and he’s like “im glad you asked, i was too nervous to.”
  • and yes. you makeout with yugyeom in that corner of the library no one ever bothers to go to and it’s,,,,,,,,,,so cute every time you break away yugyeom is like “what if we get caught???” and you’re like “it’s kind,,,,,,of thrilling though??” and he giggles and it’s sO FREAKING ADORABLE
  • you just lean back in and kiss him and he’s literally always smiling when you first start because he’s so giddy,,,,,, and he tastes kinda minty,,,,,,,like he chewed on gum before this,,,,,,,which he totally did because guess what kim yugyeom was daydreaming about kissing you before you guys met up so he prepared. Just in case
  • and when you’re done,,,,,walking out of the library and you’re jumping up to get yugyeom’s hair fixed and he’s leaning down to ask you to give him just one more peck
  • you run straight into,,,,,,,,,,,,jinyoung and jb
  • who both ask yugyeom where he’s been before looking at you in confusion because,,,,,,,,,they’ve never seen you before
  • and jb is like “is this your significant other yugyeom?” and you and yugyeom freeze up because,,,,,,,what,,,,,,um,,,,,,,,,,
  • but you come to first and you’re like “no,,,,,im his,,,,,,,,,,,tutor!!!!! for advanced linear algebra!!!!! well yugyeom - we’ll see each other next week for more studying!! bye!!!!”
  • and you zoom the heck out of there and yugyeom is left grinning at his friends who both shake it off and ask if he’s going to eat with them and mark
  • and as you’re walking back to your own dorm you let out a sigh and you’re like,,,,,,,,,i hope yugyeom isn’t feeling too awkward,,,,,,
  • and thankfully you get a text from him that’s like: they didn’t suspect anything ~~~ we’re in the clear
  • and that’s the story of how you end up,,,,,,,,secretly dating yugyeom
  • because you both agree when you meet up again, this time off campus and at a bookstore, that you totally wanna be a thing but,,,,,,,telling people right away might be hard?????
  • because people are noisy (cough literally the rest of got7 like damn mind ya business bambam) and you and yugyeom ,,,,,, want to just be together and get to know each other
  • which you do and it’s so much fun, yugyeom is an amazing person to date. he’s this perfect mix of romantic, but still a little novice to everything but he’s so willing to do anything for you
  • and you guys have fun, at the shopping mall together or at the arcade or even just walking side by side sharing a drink and snacks and talking about life
  • and yugyeom is so silly, playing small harmless pranks on you then laughing in the way that makes his nose scrunch up
  • and you’ll sit somewhere, holding hands and getting all cuddly and everyone thinks you’re both so cute,,,,,,,the way he’s got kinda bend down to be at eye sight with you / or if you’re tall how you both look so gracious like models,,,,,,,,
  • and yugyeom always thinks of you,,,,,it’s obvious with how he’ll send you photos of him next to a patch of flowers and be like “i saw these and was like ‘wow so beautiful!!’ i thought they were you, but they’re just flowers hehe’
  • and he’ll be up late doing math homework and send you like a thousand crying emojis even though you also love the way he gets super excited about these abstract,,,,,,,,crazy complicated concepts
  • but also as sweet and innocent as he comes off with all his giggling and playful pranks or puns or jokes
  • you can tell that sneaking around with you,,,,,,,like taking risks and bringing you over to the dorm when he knows any of his friends could walk in,,,,,,,,,or even on campus like the two of you out in the back of the gym with you up against the wall and yugyeom’s lips to your neck,,,,,,,like,,,,,,,,,
  • he really,,,,LIKES IT
  • and you kinda do too because it feels like you two have this secret that is so juicy,,,,,,,like you once had to press into this small corridor because you saw jackson coming around the corner and you were up against yugyeom’s chest
  • and he had his hand on the small of your back
  • and once jackson passed by you both realized how darn close you were and yugyeom got all red,,,,,,,,,but like,,,,,,,,,neither of you moved first because it’s s fun,,,,,,it’s so fun to have secrets!!!!! 
  • you wore his sweater once to class once and forgot that youngjae was in it with you and you were like wait,,,,,,,isn’t that one of yugyeoms fRIENDS O H SHIT so you had to take the sweater off and you forgot you’d thrown it over a pajama top of yours and so your friend was like “why are you wearing a huge teenage mutant ninja turtles shirt ????” and you’re like no reason. i just,,,,,,,this is Fashion
  • but at some point you kind of get a bit sad because,,,,,,,dating secretly is so hard. you wanna go to yugyeom’s volleyball games. his dance competitions. you wanna meet up before class and kiss him before he has to go. you wanna sit in the library while holding hands under the table
  • but yugyeom seems ok with not doing,,,,that so you don’t wanna ruin it
  • until,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,the secret is finally out,,,,,,,all thanks to bambam
  • who people don’t give enough credit to for being really observant because you and yugyeom just get back from a date and you run into bambam who is walking out of lab and you need an excuse since he sees you two together
  • and comes over and is like “you’re still tutoring yugyeom????? he told me he was a genius once i don’t get why he’s getting tutored”
  • and you’re like “OH ,,,,, well geniuses cough need some help sometimes too”
  • and yugyeom nods, giving his best smile and then bambam is like “i have a question, what’s that on your neck yugyeom?”
  • and yugyeom puts his hand on his skin and you look over and see the,,,,,,,,mark you left,,,,,,,,,and you’re like FRICK 
  • and bambam isn’t even looking at yugyeom when he asks, he’s looking at you and the shock on your face ,,,,,,,,,
  • well bambam is just clapping his hands together and he’s like “well i guess you’re right,,,,,,,,,geniuses do need help but,,,,,,,,maybe by that you mean helping yugyeom out with,,,,,,,,hickies???? making out?????? getting fre-”
  • and you’re like UM WHAT NO YUGYEOM THATS A BUG BITE TELL HIM
  • and yugyeom is like “yEAH it’s a mosquito bite-”
  • and bambam is cracking up he’s like “was the mosquito the size of a baseball?????? yugyeom pLEASE”
  • and yugyeom is getting red and his voice is getting slightly higher and he’s like “iT WAS,,,,,,,”
  • but it’s so freaking obvious that he’s lying and you’re like we’re caught oh shit
  • and you totally are because bambam is like “if i know, you know got7 is gonna know so you two should just tell them before i make a big deal of it”
  • and so,,,,,,,,,,,you and yugyeom sit on his bed as the six members all stand and look at you and jinyoung has his arms crossed like a concerned mother and jackson is just like !!!!!!!!!!! this is amazing!!!!!!!!!! and mark doesn’t really care 
  • and jb is just like “this,,,,,,,,,kid got into a relationship before me,,,,,,,” and ultimately it’s youngjae who goes
  • “what the hell has been going on?”
  • and you and yugyeom both explain,,,,,what happened and jinyoung is like whY DIDNT YOU TELL ME THE MINUTE YOU TWO BEGAN DATING!!!!!!!!!!!! and you’re like sORRy,,,,,,,,,,,he’s so scary
  • and yugyeom puts his hand around you and he’s like it’s ok,,, he’s always like this
  • but jinyoung is like excuse me - hello get your hands off each other no pda in this house -
  • and jackson is just like jINYounG can you Calm Down for like a minute anyway
  • and he turns to you two and he’s like “you’re both the cutest people ive ever seen. im so happy for you. please take care of our gyeomie, he’s sensitive.”
  • and yugyeom is like im nOT,,,,,,,but jackson is holding your hands and he’s like “please” and you’re like “of course???? ill cherish him with my life??????”
  • it’s a touching scene 
  • but afterwords,,,,,after got7 is gone and it’s just you and yugyeom he’s like “sorry they’re like that,,,,,,,,” and you’re like “no!! i like all of them, they’re nice.” and yugyeom is like “im gonna just say something if that’s ok?” 
  • and you’re dreading it,,,,,because now that the secrets out,,,,,,,will that make yugyeom want to stop seeing you?????? but instead, to your shock he’s smiling embarrassingly and is like
  • “it’s a relief they found out,,,,,,,ive been wanting to tell them but i wanted your consent first,,,,,,,,,im just thinking about how nice it would be to be able to hold you in front of everyone,,,,,,”
  • yugyeom kind of rolls his shoulders back and looks away adding “,,,,,,,to show you off as mine,,,,,,”
  • and it’s honeSTLY THE mOST adorable thing he’s so pink and he whispers the ‘as mine’ part and you can’t help it you throw your arms around his neck and you both topple over onto his bed and you’re like “im really happy because i wanna do that too!!!!!! kim yugyeom,,,,,,you’re mine!!!!”
  • and he’s laughing and wrapping his arms around you
  • and you nuzzle his neck,,,,he’s so warm and big it’s so safe in his arms
  • and just as you’re going to lean up to place a kiss against his jaw
  • the door flies open and jinyoung is like “WHAT IS GOING ON”
  • and you’re like ihbdljksfd and yugyeom sits up and you slide out of his lap and you’re like ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,and jinyoung is like “you two, we need to have a serious discussion about safety and-”
  • jackson comes in and literally just picks jinyoung up and is like “c’mon, let’s leave the kids alone” and you’re watching in shock and you’re like “yugyeom,,,,,,,,,,,,does this happen often?” and yugyeom shrugs like “yeah sorta,,,,,,,,,anyway you were kissing me and i’d like you to keep doing that ^^”
  • finally revealing your relationship makes you and yugyeom only get closer,,,,,like sure sneaking around was fun n hot but,,,,,being able to be together comfortably all the time is even better
  • eating lunch on the quad, being able to help yugyeom out at the gym before competitions (you’re always giving him shoulder massages and yugyeom’s friend jungkook asks once if you can do one for him and yugyeom is like “jungkook,,,,,,,,if you want me to go bowling with you net friday never ask that again” jokes jokes,,,,,,,,ok maybe not), and just like yugyeom being adorable and bragging to everyone in his classes that his significant other bought him this cute keychain look at it it’s the best thing in the WoRLD
  • yugyeom: “i love you more than i love math.”
  • bambam: “holy shit that’s a big statement coming from him. he must really love you, ive literally heard him sleep talk math equations before.”
  • you got super bored doing your homework for a class once and yugyeom was like ill come over!!!
  • you didn’t think that meant he’d bring his phone and put on some really lively music and make you get up and practice what he’s learning in tango club
  • which quickly turned to doing the tango, kissing, changing the music to something slower and somehow the two of you were dancing slowly to the music with yugyeoms forehead pressed against your own
  • like some kind of sappy romance film scene,,,,,,,,,,even though it was perfect and you literally felt like you were walking on stars in that moment
  • you have cute petnames for yugyeom and he loves them sm
  • except when his friends catch on and start calling him them in class and the professor is like “who are you calling,,,,,,,,,,angel of my life??? there’s no one in this class with that name?????”
  • yugyeom: “my love for you is like π  it’s irrational and can go on forever,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,was that corny?”
  • you now also get to wear yugyeom’s sweater in public without worrying and wow it’s so comfy and smells like him,,,,,,,,you love your boyfriend so much
  • volleyball yugyeom waving at you during practice and the ball heads straight for his head but misses and hits his shoulder instead because he’s so damn tall
  • you still run over and ask if he’s ok and he’s pouting like “it hurts ;w;” and you’re like “let me kiss it better!!!!” and everyone is like BLEGH LOVE IS CHEESY
  • it’s just so warm and loving with him, he can be so silly and childish and get overly excited about things ,,,,,,, jumping up and down and doing little cute dances 
  • but at the same time,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,he’s so gentle and considerate with you and your feelings and he’s always quietly asking for your reassurance and praise
  • like he just wants to hold you and hear you say his name and how much you love him because,,,,,,he wants to be treasured by the person he loves to infinity and beyond
  • and when you say something as simple as “you’re so amazing” yugyeom turns every shade of pink but also kisses you with such a passion you lose your breath,,,,,
  • jinyoung still sometimes is like this pda must stop- but honestly he’s so damn happy someone is treating yugyeom right,,,,,,,,and taking care of that big wobbly child

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mariaoswin  asked:

Hi Cassie! First of all, I want to say that I'm so grateful that you created the Shadow world. And I also hope you are not so sensitive to criticism and hate as I am. We really love you and you should never forget about this. So, I have a question. Tessa was the last Starkweather as we know from TID. How then could Hodge exist in TMI?

I think we all remain sensitive to criticism and hate, but we do grow thicker skins over time – we can’t not. But time and many years teaches you patterns; watches how misogynistic systems work to demonize and thus delegitimize women isn’t pleasant but does provide a way to frame your own experience. (Which means that even though there are comments literally on that post, which is about demonizing women and accusing them of things they have not done so as to make yourself feel more comfortable in separating Bad Ladies from the ownership of their work, that say “But you are a bad lady and thus should not be allowed to write any more Malec, don’t you understand YOU ARE BAD?” I barely note them as anything but ‘another one of those.’)

In short: hate sucks, but I have an amazing group of fans, friends and colleagues who provide incredible support. And I have my work, which I love. I have Magnus and Alec to talk to. :) And the other day I rode an elephant in Northern Thailand. I can’t complain too much.

As for the Starkweathers I actually don’t think Tessa was the last, we know some of her ancestors fled England because of the horror of what happened to Adele and what become of Tessa’s grandfather. But remember even if she had been, when a family dies out, an Ascendant can choose their name and start the family again.