so many things i could have done

So of course I’m an army. This blog loves army’s and Exo-Ls can’t let one bad apple ruin it for the bunch. But BTS is my heart as if the name isn’t enough. So if you hate them or have any beef for any one member. Please politely show yourself the exit.

These boys are my hearts who I inspire to be like if I ever am privileged to see the fame I want. I was raped so personally I take all false accusations like that to heart, it’s not funny and it’s not cute. When I met them to be noticed and loved by all of them was something no one else could give to me. When Taehyung told me bye on V-live I was pretty sure I was the luckiest girl alive. That feeling and happiness its because of bts. This blog is because of them. They have done many amazing things that no other group has heard of and they deserve all the love and support in the world. Jimin is not fat, Jimin is in shape and beautiful.
EatJin is beautiful
Bareface and hard working Yoongi is beautiful
Dance master Jhope is sunshine and beautiful
Rap Monster is a Intellectual and Beautiful
Taehyung has his swag and he is beautiful
Jungkook is the fetus who had a better graduation photo than most seniors and he IS beautiful.
They are beautiful. They are Bangtan and we will overcome this.
#willstandupformyboys #ArmysWILLProtectJimin #ArmysWILLProtectBts

if you’re a woman who’s attracted to women but you can’t see yourself marrying one, know that that feeling is so common and very often temporary. this is not to say that i know you better than you know yourself; maybe you just don’t want to get married and that’s ok. but very few women have grown up with the idea that they could marry another woman, and it’s hard to picture something for yourself that you’ve so rarely seen!

i couldn’t see myself marrying a woman for a long time, but i did and it’s the best thing i’ve ever done and the many messages i get telling me my blog has helped people picture themselves marrying other women tell me i’m not alone. know that whatever you end up wanting is okay, but don’t stress if there’s some aspect of loving women that doesn’t come to you with perfect ease. in a way we’re forging new cultural territory here. it’s only natural to feel a little lost without a map.


Joyeux Noël à @abadmeanman! I was your @mlsecretsanta 💝🎅✨

It’s a mutual reveal scenario! In which its a direct mirror of the ever infamous umbrella scene (sans the umbrella and rain).

(Shocking, I know) 

So a for the longest ive been wracking my brain on what to get you. Honestly i considered many possibilities and i still am but those, i decided, were better off as separate projects ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) because i wanted to go for a sfw approach.

I know it’s not much (trust me i wish i could have done more bc ur a cool dude) but this is the best i could do atm. it was my first time working with animations and i came across a lot of technical difficulties (like finding the right size so the finalized thing fits under 1MB or tweaking with the settings so it doesnt look wonky) but im actually proud of the outcome :)

anyways, i hope u like this and that you have a neato x-mas and a happy new year!💛🎉🎅


“When I was a younger actor, I meditated and marinated over the effect on the long-term and the short-term, the this and the that. I thought myself out of so many things I could have done. Now, if a couple of things pop to me, if my internal speedometer is going in that direction, then I say yeah. Let’s rock ‘n’ roll.”

Message from Rebs 💛

Hello everyone! I just wanted to reiterate that I am Okay. I didn’t really delete because of the pressure or hate or anything, it was just that I felt like I was making things worse by being around only to be negative when I feel like people followed me to find some positivity to start with. For that reason, I’m really sorry that me leaving has upset people, I didn’t really realize it would, I kind of felt like everyone would be relieved to not have to see that side of me anymore and could just remember the happy stuff I had done in the past.

All of that said I definitely do feel relieved to not have so many eyes on me right now. This is allowing me to feel a lot more removed from the situation, so I think my channel is safe from being deleted for now because I can kind of pretend if it’s not there. If I change my mind on that I will try to give people some notice. I already saw that @artfulkindoforder​ is working on archiving them which I really appreciate.

Thank you for the support you’ve given me over the last few years and everything you’ve done for me. Please know that I am okay and I really want you all to be happy and have a good time here, and I hope that in the future we all get to see the kind of positive, landmark representation we were looking forward to. I wish you all the best!


PS: please don’t pester Liddy about where I am or messages for me, xe very kindly agreed to post this for me but xe is not my delivery person <3

So I, like the rest of the world, have a lot of feelings about Yuri on Ice!!! episode 7 and also a lot of thoughts, and I’ve been sitting here going, man, I sure wish I could share my thoughts with people. And then I sat here going, “Well…you do have an anime blog…this is a thing that could be done…” and then going, “oh, no, I can’t do that, that’s just crazy talk.”

You see, I have a slightly different interpretation of the whole, “Victor failed as a coach” aspect of that episode. And I kinda kept waiting for other people to offer up my interpretation for me, but so far I haven’t noticed that, so through great reluctance and many cowardly tears, I have decided to do the thing.

First of all, I’m not here to start a fight. I’m not arguing with anyone or saying anyone is wrong, I just had a different reading of how that went down, so I thought I would share that opinion. But if you don’t agree with me, that’s completely fine! I am incredibly respectful of the other interpretations, I want to stress that. My opinions are my own and I’m just sharing them in a collegial way. Picture, if you will, me ducking in, speaking, and ducking back out again to hide under my bed.

So here’s my reading:

I’ve seen the argument that Victor messed up and said the wrong thing, but the thing is? Victor didn’t mess up, he did exactly what he planned on doing.

He knew this was going to hurt Yuuri, he counted on it hurting Yuuri. He said what he did precisely because he knew it was going to be very upsetting for Yuuri. (He doesn’t mean it—he admits he didn’t mean it, and Yuuri knows he didn’t mean it, and I even sorta suspect he said it believing that Yuuri would know he didn’t mean it.)

This face and this realization:

This face is not the face of someone going, “Oh crap, I fucked up and said the wrong thing.”

This is the face of someone going, “Oh crap, I thought I could handle hurting you, and it turns out I can’t.

I even sorta feel like his whole, incredibly awkward attempts to comfort Yuuri is him panicking, “I can’t go through with my original plan!!! How do I fix this?!?!”

And the thing about Victor’s deliberate plan?

It works.

Here’s the thing: I’m a crier. I cry all the time, about everything. Any time I have a serious discussion with someone I care about, I will start crying. At this point in my life, I just start these discussions with, “I will cry, please ignore those tears when they occur and continue discussing things with me as a rational human being.” Emotional stress crying is the worst and I hate it.

But what I can say with this as my resume is that, when you’re an emotional stress crier? It actually helps. About 85% of the time you do actually feel better, calmer, and ready to Do The Thing.

Even other professional coaches who have presumably known Yuuri for awhile remark on the fact that it works:

So for Victor’s plan, was it a nice plan? No, no it was not. He pretty much went, “Well, I don’t know how to make Yuuri feel better, so let’s make Yuuri feel worse and see what happens.” Which is kind of a dick move.

Was it the best plan? No, it definitely was not. Yuuri flat out tells him what the best plan would have been: for Victor to be there and believe in him.

(And honestly, I hear a lot about Victor’s egotistic nature and how he’s brimming with confidence, but to me I think it’s incredibly telling that it never even occurred to him that all he had to do was be himself and be there for Yuuri. I feel like it sort of speaks volumes about his own insecurities that his reaction was, “You mean I didn’t have to do anything? I just had to be me?”)

But was it an effective plan? Well, arguably, yes. Victor had a plan, deliberately carried out the plan, and in the end, the plan worked.

I think this episode showed that Victor is inexperienced as a coach, but by no means did he fail as one, and I don’t even think he messed up, really. He didn’t try the best method, but his method still worked.

Anyway, that’s it! Those are my thoughts! Again, feel free to disagree. I’m going to duck away now and hide under the bed. And probably cry. ‘Cuz you know. That’s how I roll.


So besides flipping over the proposal (which I am!!!!!!!!!AAaaAAaAaHHAhHHh) Can we talk about these cuties and how much I’m shipping them?????? ps click for caption because I think I’m funny (spoiler alert: I’m not)

PSA: Do not buy people animals as Holiday Gifts...

This simply needs to be said. You cannot buy a person an animal unless you know absolutely for sure….that they want it, and they want that specific animal. You also need to know that they are ready.

It’s fine and dandy to know someone “wants a school of corydoras” but…they may not have them yet because the tank isn’t done cycling yet. They could also want something (like a red tail cat) but never actually following through because they know they cannot care for it long term.

There are many things I really want. I’m in love with this tiny red spot severum that has been at work for a while. I would never buy him because he can’t go with Tweak (too small) and he’d tear up my 80 gallon planted tank. So yeah, do I want him? Yes…but will I get him? No.

Plenty of people want things…but don’t get them because reasons. I want a ferret badly. I’m allergic to ferrets. Get the drift?

So before you go out and buy an animal for someone, consider if the money is better spent on a gift card.

YG Fucked Up Don’t Cover Him

As a YG family stan I get how many of us want to cover YG (the CEO’s) ass at a time like this. Especially with how media treats him, and how there are some aspects of his management that show or lead us to believe he was the best CEO. Papa YG right? But seriously what happened with 2NE1 and Taehyun is inexcusable. Don’t be delusional and act put the fault of this event on 2ne1 members or taehyun, because YG could have done so many things to prevent it. YG should have stuck by Park Bom’s side through the drug scandal, instead of follow netizen desires and hide her from the public. He should have given Minzy the opportunity to do solo work. He should have given Winner more comebacks and provide taehyun (and all his artists) with proper emotional support and therapy. And this isn’t YG’s first fuck up, he’s got a dungeon full of trainees who have been waiting years for a debut. He’s got a dungeon full of artists who have been waiting to do what they love. as fans of YG artists we need to call him out on his shit so he can actually do something about it. That means doing everything in our power to voice our opposition and take action against YG, not bashing any of the 2ne1 members by accusing them of being a bad band mate. Not hating on CL or dara for resigning. No attacking bom or minzy for their decision to leave. That means no hating on Blackpink, because those girls and the other YG trainees have to deal with this shit CEO too, and they’re not responsible for what happened. and For the love of God please only send love and support for taehyun, because the most important thing is health. I’m gonna be honest, I don’t know what to do to make our voices heard, but I do know pretending that YG CEO is still a loving father to all of his artists is pure delusional, that man is fucked up for what he’s done to young talents. He doesn’t deserve any of them. 

X-Files Fic: D'un Nouvel Oeil, Chapter One

Six months ago, when I was working on “Au Cafe Pequod,” I settled on writing it entirely from Mulder’s perspective without any real thought.  It just seemed to flow naturally; it was, after all, his character that would be undergoing the most significant changes.  Later, however, I realized that there are so many things that I really, really wanted to write from Scully’s point of view- not to mention lots of moments Mulder wouldn’t have been privy to that could really add to the overall story.  And on top of that, there were bits I’d skipped for pacing’s sake, and once the story was done, it was too late to go back and add them in.

So what’s a fic writer to do?

Well, the obvious answer is, of course, to go back and re-write the entire thing from Scully’s perspective.  So, that’s going to be my big project for the month of February.  I know AU isn’t everyone’s cup of tea, historical AU even less so, so if you’re rolling your eyes right now (which I completely understand), I promise I’ll still be posting lots of drabbles and prompt responses this month as I continue whittling down my inbox.

If you’ve never read the original Au Cafe Pequod, I would recommend starting with that before reading this.  Scully’s the one keeping all the secrets in this story (there’s a shocker), and whereas this version reveals most of them at the outset, the original keeps them hidden for a few chapters.  If you’re not sure that you’d like this, take a short trip over here and watch the amazing trailer that @mulderswaterbed created- I’ve had people tell me they had no interest in the story until they’d watched that video!

Many thanks to @a-january-girl for her help with the title; it means “with fresh eyes.”  Enjoy!


She has been on her feet since before five o'clock in the morning, and she is ready to collapse.

It’s not the early morning that’s the problem- Dana Scully is more than used to days that begin before dawn- but, rather, the near-total lack of sleep the night before.  Two hours after closing the cafe spent on preparing dough and slicing meats for the next day, an hour feeding herself for the first time since noon, a half hour to bathe… and finally, three hours trying to bring down the fever of a delirious British soldier brought to her back door in the dead of night for treatment.  

He had spent the entire time crying for his mother.

Byers and Langly had staggered away with the soldier propped up between them at three-thirty in the morning, and Scully had managed less than two hours’ rest before dragging herself out to her mother’s farm to help with the morning milking.  She’d napped for an hour, at her mother’s insistence, before returning to town, to her cafe, but since then, she’s been in constant motion.

She’s grateful, really, that the place is so busy, even if it does mean she’s being run off her feet most of the time.  Plenty of businesses in Oradour-sur-Glane have shut down in the years since the beginning of the German occupation, but the Cafe Pequod has been getting along just fine- thriving, even.

Of course, that’s mostly due to the German officers and enlisted men who fill her tables every night… but, she continually reminds herself, they’re serving a very specific purpose.  Even if they’re not aware of it.

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A tiny Irene Belserion for @devil-wen san!!

At first I wasn’t fond of this character due to some issues with the way Mashima has keep writing Erza. But after seeing the way the author just killed her off I was left flabbergasted because, ohboy you could have done so many things with such character with a backstory that showed promise for me. 

Not talking about how great it would be if instead Jellal fighting against August, it would be great to see Erza, Wendy and him make teamwork to take her down by combining their styles, adding their habilities to battle such powerfull foe and get some more developtment for the pairing, even a good parallel about the love between the two and how different and utterly cruel was for Irene plus being Wendy the one to take down dragon Irene because Dragonslayer girl there! (the enchanter side is great but I think it would be better applied in combination with her dragonslayer magic)

Oh well, this ended in a rant, SORRY!

Now that I’ve done the unthinkable and nerfed The Deck of Many Things for low leveled parties, let’s do something else weird. That’s right, I’m upgrading some uncommon items for higher leveled parties. These are a few wondrous items and their buffs (so that they can stay relevant later-game).

Of course, these magic items could be found; or the party could bring their weaker version of the item to an artificer for their upgrade. Just a thought. Anyways, have a nice day!

Part One (You are here) | Part Two | Part Three+ (Coming soon)

So…I’m not okay because Yuri On Ice episode seven has honestly brought me back to life and has made everything so much brighter. 



I also just love how their relationship progressed and how they naturally became close to each other. There was no rush or no need to speed things up for the sake of fan service or romance. They could have added the kiss in sooner because we’ve all seen how much chemistry those two have together but it wasn’t done like that. Their relationship was actually allowed to grow over the course of many months before they kissed which is just so REAL, I’M SO HAPPY. 

I mean, there are going to be some difficulties along the way because it’s almost never this easy but hey, it’s a wonderful step. They also care about each other SO FREAKING MUCH AND THERE’S SO MUCH AFFECTIONATE AND COMFORT, I’M CRYING. 


I honestly can’t stop smiling like dreams are made out of this show. 


i loved girl meets world as much as the next disney-channel-watching-teenager.

i know they didn’t get to show all they things could’ve done with gmw. i know they were restricted from many things they wanted to do. i know the show could’ve went much farther than it did. i know that. we all know that.

but what many gmw fans have been preaching is how they wanted more representation, more diversity, and now we have it with andi mack. we have a cast that’s predominantly poc, interracial marriage, a plot line about an issue that’s seldom spoken about on disney, and a boy who practically melts while talking to another boy (and will very likely end up being very gay/bi/pan/anything but straight really).

it’s about middle schoolers–and you can’t say it’s “too young a demographic,” because that’s how we started with gmw–just middle school kids who are represented as just that, and going through life one step at a time, tackling different conflicts that come up. the twist is needed. it’s refreshing, and can be very real for some kids who may feel out of place for being in a situation like that. it’s a nice way to show that there are people out there like them, and that these things can happen, and that they’re not alone, and that they are valid.

boycotting this show because it’s not a continuation of gmw makes me sick, and confused. when’s the last time you’ve seen a show on disney channel centered around an asian-american family? when was the last time you’ve seen on disney the story of a girl who was raised to believe her real mother was her sister? correct me if i’m wrong, but this is what disney needs, especially after losing a show like gmw that was unable to reach its full potential.

the acting is pretty good, the cast is goddamn adorable, it’s created by THE terri minsky, the amazing woman who was responsible for the awesome show lizzie mcguire. plus it’s got less restrictions, way less than gmw had.

this doesn’t mean this show will ever be gmw. no show will ever be gmw, and i don’t think it would be fair to even compare the two shows just yet, if at all. but i know for a fact that rowan and corey and sabrina and amir would want you guys to give this show a chance (dare i say especially sabrina, since she sings the damn theme song), because it’s change, but it’s a good change, and it deserves to be given a fighting chance.

we can’t do this if people don’t put the pettiness aside, and give this show a chance. this show is important.

History Has Its Eyes On You || Part One

lafayette x reader

prompt: you were tired of being set aside because you were a woman. you decide to disguise as a man so you could fight in the revolution.

a/n: being a korean american girl who believes that women are capable of so many things, i present the walmart, american revolution version of mulan. 

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Growing up as the youngest daughter in your household, you never had a voice that people paid attention to or stood out in general.

You were always known as little Y/N Y/L/N, the delicate and dainty youngest daughter of the Y/L/N Family.

Your only job in life was to marry rich and to social climb as much as possible. You were to clean and cook and tend to your children and never lay a finger on something so much considered dirty work. You never were able to comprehend the reasons as to why people assumed women weren’t capable of fighting or simply working a job that a man could, but as usual, you sat still and were never listened to.

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