To the Clown Community/Clown Fuckers/IT fandom
Looong post ahead!!
Ok… So I have been meaning to talk about it for some time…
Well, if anyone follows my Tumblr, they can see I very much post about anything I find interesting or funny, but lately I have been posting lots of IT related stuff… The thing is that I get obsessed over stuff really easily.
But that is not the point.
Now I wanna talk about Clowns.
First, a backstory:
I have always loved clowns! When I was young, like 4 yo, my school was visited by two clowns, Patati and Patatá, and I fell in love with them! I watched their show every morning after that, even when the TV channel didn’t work properly. I went to the circus all the time when it came around my city and, beside the magicians, the clowns were the stars for me!
But despite being a very personally open child, when I reached like 9 yo or something, I’ve became… Anxious… I couldn’t talk to people, being in crowded spaces scared me, taking photos was a torture and being the center of attention was like being sent to hell!!
I loved clowns because they were funny and silly, and made fun of themselves and others. But this was what messed me up… So many clowns ended up pulling the people who were watching to join the play and the jokes, and that terrified me. I still remember the day when a clown tried to pull me into the play. It was horrifying. I just cowered against my parents and held on tight to my dad’s shirt shaking my head as my parents tried to make me go join the play. It was horrifying, no matter how cute and lovely the clown girl was (yes, I remember it was a girl).
And… It marked me… And from this day on I had this kind of… Bittersweet relationship towards clowns.
I liked them. But I wanted them reeeally far away from me. Like a bug (but I dislike bugs, especially ants, but that’s not the point)…
This was the main reason why I decided to stay away from both the book IT and the original miniseries, as much as I loved Tim Curry…
But then, deciding to join my friend and the million of others into IT, I watched the movie. Then the series. And then started the book.
As expected, I fell in love with Pennywise right there! Not because of the handsome actor behind it, not because Penny was hot (I’m Ace, I don’t really get hot people), but because he was an amazing character!!!
And somehow… It made me remember the times I used to like clowns… Just adding the spice of liking evil/dark things in the middle, as a bonus…
And then I found the clown community on Tumblr. And I have to say…
You guys are a blessing to this world. I mean it.
I am shy and I don’t know how to talk with people, so I just prefer to like and reblog you guyses arts and writings, but I see the way you guys act towards each other, how you guys care about each other and how much love there is in this community! It’s just amazing!
I’m not a huge fan of clowns, but I hope I can be part of this community of so many nice people…
What I meant to say was… Thank you. For helping me leave my coulrophobia-but-not-really-coulrophobia-because-i-am-not-super-afraid-of-clowns behind and helping me appreciate clowns once again.
A really shy boy who doesn’t really know how to draw clowns because he is an idiot who can only draw in one style.
Now I’m out for good! Bu-bye!