you know what? i think the best advice about mental illness recovery i can offer is this: accept the good times. let them happen. about 60% of recovery is figuring out who you are without your illness/symptoms/during happiness, and i know that’s hard and messy, but when youve struggled with mental illness for so long, you know who you are in bad times and in suffering.
let yourself figure out who you are when youre happy and at peace. you’re worth it.
Go out there, enjoy yourself, make the most of what you have because none of us know how long we have on this plane of existence, none of us know what lies beyond this; this state of being; a lot of us wish for things that are beyond this, a lot of us are waiting for that, but we dont know and because we dont know, i say that, that makes trying worth it right now. You can wait all you want for great things to happen, but why not to try to make them happen right now, because none of us know whats going to happen tomorrow. So, try your best right now and what you have in this situation that youre in at this moment in time, you dont have to do amazing things, but as long as youre trying your best to make the most of it then thats a success in my mind, so just dont take anything for granted.
Ive been doing Supernatural photo ops for a long time now. Five years actually and i usually dont ever get nervous
anymore but doing this jensen misha op made me so freaking nervous cause i
literally was going have to drop my pants in a room full of people
especially Jensen and misha and chris.
I told iamalive volunteer worker what i was doing and she helped keep me calm so thank you sorry i didnt catch her name.
I was so anticipating their reaction i had no idea what they do. I
dropped my pants and misha broke out with YEAH and kind of waggled his
eyebrows at me like he was impressed. Jensen immediately facepalmed and
omg i got same reaction out of him that i got out of Richard ears ago
doing the infamous unicorn op. A OMG what has my life become type
Hello! Ive listened to all of bmc but I'm a little confused because I can't really keep the girls straight and I also am not sure who Jake was? Could you explain who everyone is??
i could!! its my time to shine with all these photos i have saved eheheh ( but also to understand who’s saying everything you should really read the script bc im not to good at explaining things and this is more gonna be a visual guide so you can associate the faces with the voices and characters!!) (script)
this is jeremy heere ( the protagonist, left) and his best friend michael mell (right)
this is christine canigula ( the love interest, frickin loves theatre) and jer again
jer again and rich goranski ( described as “five feet five of teenage bully” which i think is fukin hilarious, he introduces the squip to jeremy)
( from left to right) here is the SQUIP( the supercomputer in jeremy’s head), jeremy, chloe valentine ( described in the script at crass and confident) and brooke lohst ( described as insecure my sweet ba b )
jake dillinger ( the typical cool highschool guy, dates christine and throws the halloween party) christine , and jeremy’s arm
jer and jenna rolan ( shes the girl who knows everyones business and gossip stuff)
mr. heere!! jeremy’s dad ( lacks a bit of dadly responsibly and never wears pants)
then theres also scary stockboy (that i dont have a photo for bc im lazy) but! he’s the one who sells the squip to jeremy
theN finally,jer and the SQUIP ( stands for super quantum unit intel processor, the supercomputer in jeremy’s head)
please if you’re looking to find out who says what during the songs and stuff check out the scriptand this kind of post has been done so many times with a way better way of explaining the characters and who they are so if this doesn’t suit ur needs then it doesn’t hurt to do research yourself!!!
THIS WOULD BE LONG BECAUSE I LOVE TO RAMBLE IM SORRY.
so i haven’t been able to really listen to All Night, like REALLY listen to it intently until this very moment so i’m going to be very camren-y delusional right now, forgive me. especially to lauren, i love you and you’ll hate me if in some magic world you’ll be able to see this, so forgive me.
at first i thought the song was all about tyren because it’s easier to like succumb into the thinking that everything lauren’s involved with right now (romantically) is about or with ty. so i’m ready to feel that pang in my chest hearing how, supposedly, drawn she is to ty even though i love her and support her and such.
ps. i think i’d finally enjoy In Your Phone in the future days wherein tyren doesn’t exist anymore. like, i’m all for lauren’s happiness and all, and if she ends up with ty, then so be it. i’ll still love her. i’m just saying, i’ll enjoy the music more if she find love with someone else, preferably a cuban-mexican with that signature butt. or already found it but whatever. 😁
back to the music, since i like listened really carefully to it, the lyrics is giving this vibe like the person that lauren’s (or steve’s) referring to is someone that they’re not really “dating” but someone that they have a strong pull towards. so tyren is not it, because as i’ve said, lauren’s romantic life is currently revolving around ty or atleast what she’s letting us on. and also, it shouldn’t be about laucy because she wasn’t really that private about it either. i mean, they even did a photoshoot. and the lyrics of the song implies that this love is kind of under the covers, secretive and sensitive. 😁
let’s strip the lyrics now shall we?
My heart beats a little faster, when our eyes meet in the middle of a crowded room. I’ve got a feeling, and I don’t know what to do with you
1. we’re seriously not strangers with camren’s secret looks and secretive stares. i mean, it’s one of the very reasons why this camren ship started, right?
2. all of us also knows that “camren” and their very relationship has been really rocky.
You got me paralyzed, and I think I like it. Caught me by surprise, I’m not usually like this, no. Got me paralyzed, don’t think I can help it. Why’s it feel so right?
1. we’re all not strangers to lauren getting distracted by camila. i don’t keep tabs but i don’t forget. lauren have her moments. we can all agree to that.
The crowd fades, tunnel vision. In a maze, and the only thing I feel is you. In perfect syncopation. Face to face, tell me do you feel it too?
1. i just recently saw this tumblr and lol i just want to include it
2. “in perfect syncopation.” — genius lyrics got it all covered. ; so again, we can rule out tyren because i don’t know, i think they started dating way past the day they met. not that they should fall in love easily. i’m just saying that we might know two people who instantly connected when they first met. 😉
< ALSO, don’t forget when they harmonize together >
BRIDGE: THE MOST CAMREN-Y PART
But maybe I should wait, let it fall into place, ‘cause I keep going over the things that can come from feeling this way. And I don’t wanna (I don’t wanna play), these emotional games (emotional games). Only you bring me closer, and I cannot deny that I want you to stay.
1. “but maybe i should wait, let it fall into place, ‘cause i keep going over the things that can come from feeling this way.” — if this is about ty, why would she wait, lol? let alone let it fall into place when they’re both so happy and all? with that being said, if camren, let’s say, was real or is real. it was suspected that they are keeping things on the low for years now because of the push and pull of their relationship. some even concluded that they were so problematic before because one wants to be on the out (lauren) and the other is not ready yet (camila). basing on their tumblr reblogs. SO IF I’M GOING TO LET MY DELUSIONAL THOUGHTS TAKE OVER; lauren outed herself on her trump later.
– next, is camila’s insinuation in her Havana Music Video, which is…
2. “'cause i keep going over the things that can come from feeling this way.” — lauren had a hard time accepting her sexuality #fact , and IF camren was or is ever real… do the math. she was finally proud of who she is, and she can’t fully show it to the world IF the supposed love of her life is not ready yet. (OR I’M BEING DELUSIONAL AGAIN) OR it simply implies that her attraction to the person is really THAT strong that it overwhelms her.
— SO I DONT KNOW IF I MADE SENSE OR IS JUST REALLY DELUSIONAL BUT TO ME I DO MAKE SENSE. AND IF I DIDNT AND JUST WASTED YOUR TIME WITH THIS LONG ASS POST THEN IM REALLY SORRY BUT IM JUST SAYING BECAUSE HEY AFTER ALL THIS TIME, IVE STILL NOT GIVEN UP ON CAMREN EVEN IF THEYRE SUN AND MOON APART AT THE MOMENT. JUST IMAGINE THE MAGIC WHEN THEY ARE FINALLY TOGETHER. OFFICIALLY. 🌚🌞🌈🦋
i know im a bit late hopping onto the back to school studyblr train, however its never too late for some homework help!! these are just some tips and tricks that i find useful when doing my homework. They work for me, and hopefully they’ll help you out too!!
Have a journal: Or any type of planner. I don’t know how these things work for other people, but my school gives out journals for us to use. If yours doesn’t, you should still buy one!! It can be a basic diary, or high end with gadgets coming out left right and centre, but regardless, you NEED one.
Write down the homework you get: The second the teacher hands out homework, write it down. Subject : page and question : due date. It’s so frickin handy to be able to go home, take out your journal, look at the day’s homework and be able to immediately say “this is due tmrw, I better do it now”. It’s just so helpful for prioritising, staying on top of things and, most importantly, not forgetting your homework!!
For long term projects/assignments: Write it in on the list of that day’s homework AND on the day its due!! Once the week is over you’re not going to be checking that page again so you need to have another reminder!!
Daily: Figure out how much time you have each day to do your homework. If you know you have basketball training on a thursday night, dont leave all the homework you have due on friday until then. Honestly, it couldn’t be more basic but the amount of people I know who do this on the daily.
Weekly: Try and get all assignments from that week done over the weekend. I always think its far less stressful to start the week with a clean slate. This doesn’t apply to projects and stuff like that, but just the odd question you were given. You know, tidying up loose ends.
Long term projects/assignments: We all know the age old saying “dont leave this til the night before” but, like, seriously don’t lmao. After doing your homework each night, try to do between 15m-1hr of work (depending on how much time you have til the deadline, how big the project is and how much you’ve already done that night).
Write a list: So i have my list of what i need to do from todays homework and the other assignments that have accumulated in my journal. What next?? Write them out in the order you’re going to do them. If you have any short things you can quickly work through, do them first. It shortens your to-do list, gives you feeling of accomplishment and gets you into the swing of things. Next, homework due for tmrw, then the next day, then the next. Last but not least, any projects or long term assignments. Feel free to customize this order to whatever suits you best, but the above works wonders for me.
Random thoughts and tips:
Eat beforehand: Homework is hungry work, make sure your not going in on an empty stomach because it makes you unproductive and more irritable. Have a glass of water, mug of tea or whatever other drink you like next to you to keep you hydrated. It also stops you procrastinating because you “need” a drink, or “need” a snack. Just start!!
Keep phone/laptop/whatever else ON and next to you: *gasp* i know, i know but honestly keep your device by you. Put it on silent, but have it so that you can do a bit of googling if needs be. Chances are you’ll get stuck on a question and want to look up the answer, or you’ll want some more in depth info on a topic or whatever else. Regardless, you’ll more than likely need it.
Two piles: One for unfinished homework, one for finished. Keeps you organised AND it feels amazing to see the “to do” pile decrease and the “done” pile increase.
Most importantly: TEACHERS UNDERSTAND. You left your book in school, you got hours of homework from every teacher, you forgot your bag on the bus, or you simply just didn’t remember. If you generally have your homework in on time and are a good student, they’ll understand, it happens to the best of us.
Hope these tips helped and maybe even gave you a bit of motivation!! Feel free to message me if there are any bits of this post that don’t make sense or if you have any thoughts/ideas :)))
okay so i procratinated this a lil (thanks adhd!) this is just what adhd is like for me, im more inattentive than hyperactive but i do have symptoms of both (also this is a really helpful test that might help)
impatience but like less like “i dont want to wait because i want the thing” and more like “i dont want to wait because i Hate waiting and it makes me want to die”
sitting still is not a thing, u fidget or die
~relaxation~ is not a thing like how are you gonna tell me to sit in one spot and not do anything and call it relaxing? i would rather die™
short term memory? i dont know her
someone is talking to you and youre nodding along and you are So sure youre listening and then they get to the end and ur like “wait what” because you completely blanked and starting thinking about something else but you??? werent even aware??? that you stopped listening 10 mins ago but u did
putting a video on on youtube and immediately switching to another tab or going on your phone because just watching a video on its own is painful, but now youve gotten distracted and missed the video completely
telling your friends a funny story but you keep remembering different details at different times so youre like going from point a to point g to point c and its all weird and jumbled
“WOW I JUST NOW REALISED IM SPEAKING VERY LOUDLY IM SORRY” everyone around me holding their ears: “pls sh”
sitting for long periods of time is physically painful so youre constantly shifting in your seat and changing positions because you can actually feel your body vibrating with restlessness
going to the bathroom/out for air when youre at public things (parties/shows whatever) just because you cant physically sit anymore/you need a change of scenery
“I’ll do that later” means i have already forgotten what you just asked me to do
constantly having to double check every detail, partly because of anxiety, mostly because you literally dont fucking remember
switching subjects mid sentence because you thought of something more interesting to say
procrastinating everything to the point where it would be easier to die rather than do it
sitting in one place nd doing something for a prolonged time??? who?? can do that (i literally got up and played with my dogs in the middle of writing this)
this is a long, heavy post, but ive wanted to make it for a while. i hope if you or someone you know has been in an abusive situation, it may help.
when you are abused, the true ramifications of this abuse do not manifest themselves until you are much older.
when you are abused (in any form) as a young person, your first gut instinct will be to turn down therapy/counselling. you might do this because you do not feel you need it, or you do not want to talk about what happened. you need to push past this.
when we experience abuse as young people, we may feel like it was ‘no big deal’. we may compare ourselves to other victims and feel that we are not as bad as them, so that means we are okay. you may feel okay. you may be a young person reading this right now, thinking ‘well, i feel okay.’
i know you do. we all feel like that we’re younger.
you will get older and your untreated abuse will manifest in your life, your body and your emotions. you may develop terrible habits. your body may start to react in strange ways. you may have to struggle with seemingly unexplained bouts of nausea and vomiting as a reaction to ‘normal’ events that have connections to your abuse. you may develop mental health issues and will not understand why. you may grow angry and withdrawn, or deeply depressed for seemingly no reason.
then on one terrible night, you will connect the dots and realise that although you felt invincible as a young person, your abuse affected you.
if therapy is offered to you or you can find it, go to it. abuse does not go away or magically resolve itself. no amount of pretending you are okay will take away what happened. it may hurt to revisit our old wounds, but it is the only way to heal.
it is never to late to heal. if you are an adult who refused therapy and you are struggling, get yourself there, find help, and heal. and if you are a young person reading this, please strongly consider therapy, even if you do not feel you need it.
even if you feel like your abuse did not affect you, let people in. give yourself the chance to heal. do not let your abuser take even more of your life than they already have.