so its obvious which we go with

Steven´s dreams

So in “Chille Tid” we fond out steven has dream powers and he can communicate with others. Now,this might be stretching it,but i decided to see if there´s any meanings behind Steven´s dreams. This isn´t like the cosmic owl from AT,in which we know 100% those dreams mean something,but i think its worth a try.

The first thing to mention is the fact that steven dreamed of going to a school dance with Connie. This proves that Steven does in fact have a crush on Connie (if it wasnt obvious enough). 

Notice how all the gems are human. This might symbolize the fact that Steven wants to be more human and less of a gem. In “We Need To Talk” the final scene foreshadowed this and we might get an episode of steven dealing with the fact that he´s both a gem and a human

The second dream might mean nothing but perhaps its symbolizing peridot and how she escaped? The fact that the dog meowed instead of barking might mean that peridot is not who we think she is.

Pearl´s giant face might capture the moment pearl went to sleep.Also,her eating steven and then spitting him giving him a boost might mean how pearl sometimes does bad stuff (like in Sworn to the Sword) but in the end,she really loves steven.

Now one weird thing that happened is that steven said “i can wish for anything i want,like smashed potato”  and a whale appears. This might symbolize steven isn´t as strong as the other gems.

This isnt the only time tough…

This might foreshadow a future encounter with a whale.The circumstances i dont know.

That´s all i have for now.Let me know if this theory makes any sense to you and if there´s anything to add

The birth of a child is supposed to be one of the happiest moments in a person’s life … but sometimes, things don’t go as planned. If a child is born prematurely or disabled, then instead of the loving arms of its mom and dad, it goes straight to the hospital’s neonatal intensive care unit (NICU), a.k.a. the saddest place on Earth. We decided to learn more about these anti-Disneylands, so we reached out to a registered NICU nurse. She wanted to remain anonymous, for reasons which will become obvious…

We Can Let Babies Die: 6 Realities Of Neonatal Nursing

Women in RPGs

I’m going to be honest. I have had a much easier time being a woman in the RPG culture than in any other genre of nerd fandom.  For obvious reasons, too.  First, I play with a primary group, which is deliberately constructed for the comfort of its members.  We are very selective, and there’s no room for misogyny at our table. I have had a much harder time with video games and online discussion boards, but I don’t blog about those so I’ll talk about Tabletop RPGs and let you find any of the countless blogs that discuss sexism online and in video game culture.

The issues I have seen have mostly been in public settings.  I’ve played at local game stores a few times, and that’s where most sexism pops up.  There’s the accidental background sexism, where most fighters are assumed to be men and what women exist in game tend to be in need of help, motherly, or manipulative spy women.  Those are easy enough to fix and when I’ve brought them up, the DM has worked to change it.  There’s also the more insidious sexism, though, where the issue tends not to be in character and game, but in the physical world outside the game.

I’ve had people talk to me like I have no clue what I am doing.  (I’m, uh, pretty damn mechanics fluent).  I’ve had people assume my character is female because I am female, and then go on to sexualize “her”.  (This once resulted in the line “Okay you successfully “accidentally” brush your hand against my chest.  Your pinky probably brushes against some chest hair.  I get an awkward erection”.)  And possibly even worse, I’ve had people assume my criticisms of a game were based on my gender.  (No, sir, it is not my ovaries that think a DM should not go “your character has a heart attack and dies”, it’s just, idunno, that I’m a better DM than you.)

And the result is not pretty.  I have run a handful of campaigns, now, each successful.  I’ve played regularly for the last three years, and sporadically for a couple of years before that.  I find myself researching various mechanics probably at least once a day.  There is no reason that I should ever feel like I’m not being taken seriously, and yet, games with strangers make me nervous.  I tend to avoid playing female characters with a new group.  I tend to avoid playing an emotional character with a new group.  

Sexism just makes a game… less fun.  For me AND for you, because if I’m not roleplaying up to par, you’re not getting the fully immersive experience you could be getting while participating in this roleplaying game.

Naturally, it’s hard to bring this up in a group because complaints are so often dismissed.  But it is something that’s been heavily on my mind now that I’m building a campaign for a local game store.  How will I DM people who do not inherently trust me because of my gender when so much of what makes a successful DM is that they are trustworthy?  Well, I’ll figure it out because it’s my job to figure it out.

I will end this little pondering on a positive note, though.  Paizo is an excellent company when it comes to gender in their games. I don’t really play many of their campaigns, but the handful I have played had an even distribution of male and female characters.  I play much more heavily with their mechanics, and it hasn’t escaped my attention that many class descriptions use the pronoun “she”.  I have an addiction to Pathfinder Pawns, and I love that some women are dressed sexy and some aren’t.  Some are old, some are young, some have boob windows, some are in full suits of armor, and there is even racial diversity amongst them.  I get that choice, as a player, and I love having that choice.

Because being comfortable in an RPG is incredibly important.  That’s why so many groups, mine included, are super exclusive. Pathfinder, Dungeons and Dragons, and all the others are group games.  The enjoyment of the game relies on the teamwork and friendship of the group.  Making one player uncomfortable (not in game, where of course there has to be tension, but around the table, where everything should run smooth) is a great way to destroy a campaign for every player.  But when everyone is comfortable and trusting and excited, Pathfinder (and other such games) is one of the most enjoyable, accessible experiences available in nerd culture.

i think a lot of the reason psmd is so successful as a game is how well it understands its audience.

like, i love the early pmd games with all my heart, and i always will, theyre incredibly important to me. and i still think theyre excellent games. but its pretty obvious from the way the dialogue and tutorials are set up that those games were written with pretty young children in mind. which is not a bad thing! most of us were young children when we played those games, i myself was only 10 when the first came out. but it can get kinda frustrating for older players who want to go back and relive the glory days after growing up. psmd, on the other hand, while still being undeniably a children’s game, has more complex characters and realistic writing, and it expects its audience to be able to understand those things.

other than that, psmd was practically tailor-made for adults who grew up with the series. its still accessible to children and newcomers, but theres no denying that appealing to nostalgia was a huge factor. even besides the zillions of references and missions based in the previous games, theres a lot of aspects of the story that seem like a direct nod to veterans of the series. right at the beginning, one of the hero’s lines implies that they either dont know their age or feel like an adult/teenager in a child’s body, almost like they expect the player to be much older. and right from there, how many of us have sat back and thought about where the partner’s family is, or why theyre allowed to go on all these dangerous missions being as young as they are? those are both addressed here. even the aspect of the partner having a much more important role in the story than the hero acknowledges that nowadays most of us are more interested in pre-existing characters than our own avatar. and i dont think we even need to talk about the end of the game, and why it was so shocking. 

as for the gameplay, the noticeable spike in difficulty and added complexities like emeras could also be explained by expecting older, more experienced players. and of course theres a ton of aspects carried over from the older games that are often not only preserved, but improved upon (ESCORT MISSIONS).

again, its not like this game would be impossible for kids who’ve never touched the series before to get into. like the others, its pretty standalone, at least in its main plot. but the way the tried-and-true story plays with expectations and in some cases goes even deeper and darker than we expected is like….. dang, they knew a lot of 20-year-olds were going to be buying this. and im one of them. and i loved it.
Do Away With Auto Dealers?

Did you know it’s illegal to buy a new car from the manufacturer? That’s right. In most states (48 states) so-called direct-buys are unlawful by statute.

It is a crime to not go through a dealership.

Or rather, it’s a crime for you – if you decided to [manufacture] a car – to try to sell it without going through a middleman. The National Automobile Dealers Association (NADA) has seen to it – for all the obvious [protectionist / corporatist] reasons. …

We’re assured by NADA that it’s all very benevolent. That dealers provide a critical support network for car buyers so that when they need a warranty claim handled, it can be done locally, etc. All of this is certainly true to some extent. The same extent that it’s true the DMV provides various its “services” to us  … services we have to pay for and which, of course, we’re not allowed to say no to.

The question arises – or ought to: If the services provided are so critically desirable, why is it necessary to strong-arm the “customers”? …

What Tesla is trying to do [by allowing customers to directly purchase a car through their website] does not eliminate the traditional dealership system. No bans have been proposed. No legislation introduced that would make it illegal to sell cars via a dealership.Tesla merely wishes to offer its cars for sale direct to buyer. Ford, et al, would be free to continue to sell cars however they wish.

That the NADA objects – violently – to allowing people this freedom to choose says a lot. (There’s a good news story about the contretemps here.) Anytime someone insists a given thing is so important that people simply have to be forced to buy it, you know you’re dealing with a con. Football fans pay $100 a pop for NFL tickets – and millions of people pony up $19.99 for Jiffy Lube oil changes – because it seems worth it to them. If it seems like a good deal to buy a car through a dealer – hey, he pulled all the plastic off the seats and gave it a thorough vacuuming before he tossed me the keys – then people will continue to patronize dealerships. No skin off anyone’s nose.

The threat posed by Tesla’s direct-buy model is competition.

Selling cars to customers sans the middleman gives customers an alternative – and this puts pressure on traditional dealers to lower the fees they charge and improve the services they provide.

And that, ultimately, is the crime Tesla stands accused of – and which the NADA is determined to see punished with all the inquisitorial fervor (and lobbying muscle) it can muster.

The way Shelby Alex & Morgan keep whining to the cameras saying “Americuhhhhh just please vote in our favor pls pls pls mom & dad pls tell everyone to vote for us to be safe blah blah blah” SHUT THE FUCK UP OH MY GOD it should be pretty obvious by now that we hate your side and aren’t going to vote to keep y'all safe GIVE IT UP SIS and by the way they’re so dumb saying that America will see how everyone else (like Danielle) is acting and we’ll be on their side but it’s like EXACTLY !!!!!! We ARE seeing how everyone is acting, YOU just can’t get it through your entitled & bigoted ass heads that YOU are the ones we have a problem with ???

Tonight's episode

I just realized that no matter what happens next week or for the rest of the season or show, I DONT WANT TO BE IN A WORLD WITHOUT STILES AND LYDIA MOMENTS. We are in a key point in which it’s obvious how much the both care for each other, they want to keep the other alive and its willing to go through hell and back for the other’s safety. That kind of connection never dies. We all knew Stiles always put Lydia’s life before his, that hasn’t changed. But it’s also now, Lydia who wants to keep him safe. She has been though so much pain lately, and here he is now, saving her but she is like no, you will die, go please. You know the old Lydia would have begged him to save her, now she is begging him to leave. He might have left the room, but he didn’t leave her for good.
And the. We have the promo in which Stiles wants to break the door so he can stop Lydia from suffering, it’s clear that her pain is also his pain (does she know that we bleed the same?). We will get to see him finally saving her (I still think Parrish is the one who carries her tbh). The rest, we can only wait.
What I mean is that, for me, Stiles and Lydia are so important in each other’s lives, I can’t imagine a Lydia without her partner in crime, and same goes to Stiles. It doesn’t matter if it’s friendship or romantically (fingers crossed) I need Stydia moments like I need air, the evolution of their story will always be one of the best written. And to everyone who still says we invent things, I think you are the one who is blind or is in denial to see such good chemistry and that emotional tether that it’s pretty much intact.


This day in Homeland - May 13, 2014 (+ bonus December 13, 2012)
“We read the [first] draft [of “The Choice,” in which Carrie originally goes on the run with Brody], and thought there was no way on earth she would be going with Brody, when the guy who’s responsible for killing all those people is still out there. She’s a career intelligence officer. Being with Brody paled in comparison to her duty as a CIA officer. So we sent her back to be with Saul, to live in the ruin and the failure of their operation together.” –Alex Gansa

I just realized:

In Keeping it Together we see the monstrous non-consensual fusion created by the Homeworld forcing gems to fuse:

Then I remembered we saw another large, multi-gem shard creature back in Giant Woman:

You can see in Big Bird that the gems are separate, in fact they seem bubbled which is more in common with a regular fusion where eahc gem is visible and distinct. But the principle seems the same, its a fusion of many shards and their monsters and they form smaller creatures around the separated shards:

We also know that the more harmonious the relationship between the fused parts the more humanoid the fusion is, Garnet and Stevonnie contrasted to Malachite being the obvious example.

So is Big Bird for all its mindless monstrosity actually the remnants of a consensual Crystal Gem fusion? Is it the gem shard equivalent of animals flocking together for mutual protection? What’s going? I’m sure someone has already asked these questions? Why I am writing about Steven Universe at three in the morning?

EXO’s LMR Football Concept Theory

Was the football concept random… or intended?

Let’s start with what we know.

1. In the LMR mvs there were two coinciding concepts: a “football” one and an “Alice in Wonderland” one. [click here for my “exo in wonderland” theory] I’ve already connected the Alice in Wonderland concept, which was kind of obvious, but I still haven’t seen any explanations for the football concept. Out of all sports… why football?

2. LMR is a re-packaged of the EXODUS album (or era in this instance).

3. In the EXODUS era the teasers were called “pathcodes.”

4. If you break down “pathcode” you get “path” and “code.”

“Path” could refer to the greek root word (pathos) for “feeling” or “disease.” For example, sympathy (relates to feelings), pathology (the science of the causes and effects of diseases… usually a branch of medicine // which we see Dr. Minseok make in Wonderland), pathogen (infectious agent that causes disease in a host), etc.

“Code”: “A system of words, letters, figures, or other symbols substituted for other words, letters, etc., especially for the purposes of secrecy.”

5. Now for the Exodus era teasers (for Call Me Baby), “pathcodes” were simply used for figuring out the path to the next teaser through hidden codes. However for the LMR era, I think “pathcode” connects more to #4, with the feelings/diseases. The feelings and code part were used for the Alice and Wonderland concept. Now, I believe the “disease” part comes in with the football concept, and I think the disease is Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy (CTE). I’ve actually been thinking the football concept connected to CTE ever since the topic was covered in my Spring Quarter Brain Dysfunction’s class (but I was too lazy to think about the football theory and did the Alice in Wonderland one while it was still fresh in my head).

“Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy (CTE) is a progressive degenerative disease of the brain found in athletes (and others) with a history of repetitive brain trauma, including symptomatic concussions as well as asymptomatic subconcussive hits to the head. CTE has been known to affect boxers since the 1920s. However, recent reports have been published of neuropathologically confirmed CTE in retired professional football players and other athletes who have a history of repetitive brain trauma. This trauma triggers progressive degeneration of the brain tissue, including the build-up of an abnormal protein called tau.  These changes in the brain can begin months, years, or even decades after the last brain trauma or end of active athletic involvement.  The brain degeneration is associated with memory loss, confusion, impaired judgment, impulse control problems, aggression, depression, and, eventually, progressive dementia.” (source)

I bolded all of the important parts for you guys. Anyways, I connected this disease to LMR once I heard the professor say football (lol). CTE is also not only common for football players but rugby players, boxers, hockey players, etc. too because of the repetitive brain damage. However, whoever came up with choosing the concepts/the sport most likely picked football because it would fit the exo members more than rugby, boxing, and hockey. (imagine if they had to wear the other costumes… lol)

Although, I don’t think that LMR is using CTE as a concept literally. I feel like they are using CTE, but twisting it in a clever way.

  1. The brain trauma does not have to be caused physically. It seems as if they twisted it to be caused mentally (as everything in the mvs are taking place mentally).
  2. The trauma triggers progressive degeneration of the brain tissue, including the build-up of an abnormal protein called tau.”  TAU?? TAUUU?? Well, Tao’s hiatus in exo/not being in this era aka possibly losing another member seems to be hinted in the LMR mvs for the reason why everyone’s feeling all negative, etc. So if we think of them as football players instead of idols, the changes in the brain are said to begin whenever even at the “end of active athletic involvement.” Except the changes are not at the end of the member’s active athletic involvement, but Tao’s.
  3. “The brain degeneration is associated with memory loss, confusion, impaired judgment, impulse control problems, aggression, depression, and, eventually, progressive dementia.” This is what the members go through in Wonderland. Well, not all of it but some of the symptoms. For instance, how Jongin as the Queen of Hearts has impulse control problems and aggression. Sehun as the Cheshire cat has some impaired judgment like lying on train tracks (very dangerous!!), Kyungsoo as Alice seems to have depression in those scenes where he doesn’t know what to do, etc. They’re all basically hallucinating/ wonderland is a dream (which connects to the progressive dementia part), which it all connects back to their minds.

In conclusion, I don’t really believe that the football concept was all too “random.” There should be a reason behind it and this is what I could come up with. I feel like whoever is coming up with the exo concepts is actually putting in some thought and connecting everything somehow… it’s just not in plain sight.

tbh what this all sums up is that SM likes to throw shade lol

you know im pretty fed up right now cause i have been seeing So Many fics about trans characters here and there & theres lots of things i have to say about it and the first thing is:

yall cis writers gotta CHILL like ok. i respect what ur doing and that its trying to be more “inclusive” but you gotta:

  1. stop pointing out the obvious. - like yes. if youve mentioned that a certain character is trans in the description or whatever we Will know that theyre trans from that point on you dont have to hamfist terminology associated with trans ppl in fact its so much better if you dont
  2. DO make use of subtlety - guys not everything about being trans has to do with distress, dysphoria, angst, GENITALS, acceptance, all that emo shit et al. somebody being trans aint a plot device. not, unless ur trans yourself and you wanna write out your own damn experience in which case go ahead. but honestly trans people are People they Have Lives outside of experiencing that shit. if ur cis write about people like us going about their lives normally but dont write about our experience.
  3. ask questions. do research. TALK 2 ACTUAL TRANS PEOPLE (emphasis on the ‘people’ cause nobody feels the same way about the same stuff) - yo this shit is IMPORTANT, not doing this is the equivalent of making the setting of a movie entirely in china based on chinese history but casting white ppl and asking an english literature major about the tang dynasty. plus u might even make friends and not piss people off with what you write
  4. remind yourself that a character Being trans does NOT make them more emotionally vulnerable - seriously theres this weird thing where a writer twists the personality of a character around in favour for another (cis) character to show sympathy and dependability toward the trans character. no, its not like that and it shouldnt be. trans people can hold their own and its not all about looking in the mirror and being sad. no. being trans is more like trying on shoes and saying that one pair of shoes fit better and look better on you than the other. being trans is just being yourself and none of that “im in the wrong body” bullshit (well at least for me it is, maybe for others it aint, but usually the “wrong body” stuff is a result of stigma which is a VERY long discourse-heavy topic)
  5. pay attention to what Actual Trans People™ write - youll find that cis people are more likely to write about the trans “experience”, something they have not gone through themselves whilst trans people just describe really what they do normally 

and ya thats basically what i have for now feel free to ask questions or add onto this if you wanna complain too. or. something

and i mean this goes for comics, scripts, w/e form of media so yea yehea