so is my sanity

It’s so unfair when my neighbors get pissed off at our dog when their motorcycles and scooters are making hella lots of noise but they have their speakers so loud that I can hear their music.

WTF is this. They can make lots of noise, disturb the evening but my dog can’t bark at them for their noise, which is just to alert me that there is something/someone outside the house.

But I can’t talk with them because they’re just really going to bully me :/ I doubt complaining to an actual officer of the homeowners association will help because I am pretty sure they can hear the noise too. People have given up on these rude ones.

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It’ll all work out in the end, I won’t leave your side

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I haven’t got to draw them for like 84 years…

Ravenclaw: Ugh, this old detention room is still as creepy as I remember.

Slytherin: I still can’t believe that you got a detention.

Ravenclaw: One time the maths and science club got into a heated debate.

Ravenclaw: And let’s just say Mickey Murphy’s pocket protector didn’t protect him very well.

Slytherin: ………

Slytherin: My respect for you has just increased.

Oh it seems we are allowed to post our @meowraculouschatnoirzine pieces now! This is titled how many tears did I shed over this boy’s hair haha I had a lot of fun drawing the dorky cat son and I’m grateful for the opportunity to have been able to participate in such a fun zine!

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French with Bing

….It’s a product of genuine interest, researching legit answers and ending up with a joke. Google’s going to snap a fuse someday with this man.

(…….’Le Sportsac’. I was going through some of our bags and I encountered this brand XD Always have wondered how to say it. Oh well. It’s stupid but I hope you all like it!)

Decided to learn how to draw proper chibis today, so I made a draw the squad thing. Hope I did ok. If you use it I’d love to be tagged in it so I can see your awesome work!~ 

3, 2, and 1 chibi versions under the cut! all are transparent! feel free to cut my sig out, just please don’t claim ownership of the drawing. reblogs > reposts, of the base alone I mean.

Go to town ^~^

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YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO THIS! In addition to “greening” your game with grass, trees, and some unobtrusive wilderness sounds, Regrowth Overhaul, by Spiffyskytrooper adds this tranquil opening, with waving grass and leaves, and an achingly beautiful acoustic guitar version of the Fallout theme. I’ve posted in-game videos with Regrowth installed before, but I’ve never shown you this part of it.

Regrowth is more than cosmetic. Yes, it is gorgeous, and yes, it adds a certain ambience to the game, and–again–this awesome opening, but it also does two other very important things that to my mind improve the game:

On a practical level, the addition of so much flora in some of the more forested areas (and there’s a good balance between thick forest and meadows and what have you), what would once have been a very one-sided matter of sniping enemies from as far away as possible turns into a lethal game of hide and seek amongst the trees.Oh, you can still snipe; it’s just that now, you’ll have to change up your tactics for different environments, which for me adds excitement.

And second, it adds to verisimilitude (aka “immersion”) by more accurately depicting the kind of environment one would expect 210 years after a nuclear war. (Google pictures of modern Hiroshima and the Bikini Atoll if you don’t believe me on that.)

If Regrowth is too hard on your computer (or if you just don’t like the grass so thick and tall), you can keep the trees while easing off on the thickness of the grass. Just edit Steam\steamapps\common\Fallout 4\data\Regrowth.ini

The default values are as follows:

[Grass]
iMaxGrassTypesPerTexure=20
iMinGrassSize=20

The lower the first value and the higher the second, the less grass you’ll have, and the better performance you’ll get. I’m running with iMaxGrassTypesPerTexure=10 and iMinGrassSize=60

Even turning it down to something like, say, 2 and 80 will still keep the trees and give the impression of a regrowing Commonwealth. (I’m running something like 280 mods–about 60 of which I merged into just a couple of ESPs using XEdit–so I had to tone the grass down for my rig’s sanity.)

Basically, Regrowth Overhaul is on my list of “must have” mods for any playthrough.

(Regrowth is not mine, but if you’d like to see my mods for PC, they’re here. For my mods on Bethesda’s site, just search for “drhamm.”)

anonymous asked:

Lutz loves you for you, everyone has there dark moments. You had a terrible childhood. Lutz, hug Luci please.

//R.I.P , here lies the cute moment that could have happened between the two.//

He had it coming.

What are you supposed to do when you are falling in love with someone, and your whole body is being drained. What are you supposed to do when you feel yourself losing your sanity because you feel so empty by the end of the day. How are you supposed to explain how you feel to someone who feels no where close to how you feel about them. I’m loosing myself trying to love him. I’m losing my sanity, because I’m so caught up with him. I wait by my phone, waiting for another text, and it’s never quite fast enough. I feel like I care more, I feel like I want this more, and I feel like he doesn’t give a fuck what happens to us. I feel like i bother him constantly, I feel like I annoy him every time I overreact. I feel like he’s soon going to get sick of my uncertainty of myself. Eventually he’s going to forget the reasons why he ever fell for me in the first place. I’m waiting for this heart break to come, just like our over due earth quake.

The latest chapter of Killing Stalking (31) has got me ShOoKeTh Af and all I needed was to get it out of my system by drawing Sangwoo in his fabu suit, because I luv dis boi, but he makes me want to rip my hair out ;_;. Also trying use some more brushes, trying to challenge myself :3 and thank you all for following my blog and liking and reblogging my shitty art lol, I appreciate the nice notes!

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I was ready to sleep early, and I notice this from Season 4.
Of course it had to exist a gif for this.
Castiel telling Chuck that he is an “admirer” of his work while he glances at Dean from top! to bottom! .
Ohhhh my sanity….
Since I been and active Destiel Shipper, I swear I can’t see anything if is not with subtext, Destiel has shown me new colors and special filters.
I’m done…

To the people who are upset about the Wanna One final line up and are calling the top 11 talentless,

How? How can you say that? None of the top 11 are talentless. All of them deserve to be there. The issue was that there were only 11 spots and 20 amazing, talented boys who deserved those spots. In fact, all 101 of the trainees are talented. I could go on and on about how talented each and every member of that show is, but I’ll just talk to you about the top 20. 

TR;DL: It wasn’t anyone’s fault but Mnet’s. DO NOT BLAME ANY OF THE FINAL WANNA ONE MEMBERS. IF you wanna be mad, BLAME MNET. 

Rank 20 - Choi Minki - Nu’EST’s Ren - Ahh Ren, he was very good at everything. Maybe not the best in any regard but definitely an all rounder. Singing. Dancing. Variety. Visuals. All check. The issue with him gettng this rank however was that Mnet’s edits didn’t give him much screen time (this is the case with many of the following on this list). 

Rank 19 - Joo Haknyeon - He is talented. Despite needing some help, this boy is talented. He just learns slower than the other trainees and was greedy for positions he wasn’t ready to take on. He got way too much uncalled for hate because of it. I want to see him make a comeback one day as a stronger, wiser person.

Rank 18 - Kim Samuel - I shouldn’t have to say this but Samuel choreographed a lot of the dances they did for P101- hell he choreographed the Super Hot stage (baby is only 15 TwT). He kicked ass as center in Showtime! He was also good in Get Ugly! But Mnet didn’t give him that many behind the scenes cuts so I think that might have hurt him. He truly deserved so much better and I am going to support his solo. Hopefully, one day, he’ll debut in a group. 

Rank 17 - Yoo Seonho - He’s got cute maknae charms and improved so much throughout the show. He’s only been a trainee for 6 months and despite that he grew a lot in a matter of months. I’m so proud of you, Seonho. Thank you for comforting all the people who needed it at the finale. You are an absolute angel who deserved to debut as well.

Rank 16 - Anh Hyungseob - Hyungseob is a good dancer and despite not being the best singer he tries very hard. He’s also hilarious XD (fondly remembers the times he ran into a door) He’s also got variety skills. *cough* His rank is probably low cause the Yuehua boys are planning to debut soon *cough*

Rank 15 - Im Youngmin - Great dancer. Great rapper. I don’t need to say anything. Just watch any of his performances and you’ll see. He got fucked over by his fake scandals and because knetz eat people alive without knowing if the rumor is true or not. 

Rank 14 - Kim Jonghyun - Nu’EST’s JR - Amazing leader, who is selfless and always a sweetheart. He could have asked for center. He could have been greedy and asked for more lines. He never once did. On top of that, he’s a great rapper and a great dancer. Plus he a cute shy Wartortle. I have no clue how someone who was hailed the Nation’s Leader didn’t make it into the Nation’s Boy Group. 

Rank 13 - Kang Dongho - Nu’EST’s Baekho - He had vocals for days and visuals for days. His charisma was like fire and his personality is so <3 He was the cute babysitter for all the kids of P101 and I’m honestly so sad Guanlin lost his fav sexy uncle. 

Rank 12 - Jung Sewoon - Okay, look I love Ponyo . I love him so damn much you don’t even know. I was depressed when I saw him not get in. I can’t put into words how much I wanted him to be in the top 11. I thought he wouldn’t be close to 11 because he was 19 last time, but damn I feel trolled about this. VOCALS. DANCING. CUTENESS. I want to see him again in the future so badly.

Rank 11- Ha Sungwoon - HOTSHOT’s Sungwoon - It’s probably not right for me to say I didn’t want him in the top 11 because he needs to return to HOTSHOT so they can finally have a comeback. But he was Rank A from the start. Even Boa was like how are such talented kids not popular. 

Rank 10 - Bae Jinyoung - A lot of you seem to have an issue with BaeJin. But he’s got stage presences. He might not have shown it off at the start but he improved so much since then. Plus he has a great personality which you can see in any of the back stage cams since the actual show cuts his and Jihoon’s screen time.

Rank 9 - Hwang Minhyun - Nu’EST Minhyun- Don’t fucking sit here and tell me Jonghyun deserves to debut but then go off and say the top 11 aren’t talented when Minhyun is fucking in the top 11. Emperor Hwang has everything. Visuals, vocals, dance skills, and the relationship with the rest of the top 11. He made half this top 11 happen. So much talent you can’t even. 

Rank 8 - Yoon Jisung-  Auntie Jisung was gonna give up if he didn’t debut. He has stable af vocals while dancing. Plus he’s hilarious. Like really fucking funny. That’s been evident since he made himself a meme in episode 1. He took care of whatever team he led. I’m so so glad he got to debut. 

Rank 7 - Lai Guanlin - I personally didn’t want him to debut because I think he’s too young and still has a lot of growing to do. He wasn’t the best rapper or dancer but he’s got stage presence not only that but he was also only a trainee for 6 months. He’s only been in Korea for 6 months. Plus he’s like 16 so chill. 

Rank 6 - Park Woojin - I will flip tables if you tell me Park Woojin didn’t deserve top 11. He had shingles and still gave a bomb performance. He’s a great dancer and always draws attention when he’s on stage. He’s a great rapper too. He’s been Rank A from the start (BNM kids are so talented guys).

Rank 5 - Ong Seongwoo - Talented. So fucking talented. I can’t. He’s funny af, he’s an amazing dancer, he’s a god singer, he’s got a great personality, AND he’s got actor like visuals. Seriously, how can you call him untalented? Again he was rank A from the start. 

Rank 4 - Kim Jaehwan - If you have hearing, you know Jaehwan is talented. He improved his dancing so much to be here. Plus he’s savage and hilarious. Kim Jaehwan was actually someone I was worried wouldn’t enter top 11 because he didn’t have a strong solo fanbase.

Rank 3 - Lee Daehwi - This child did not suffer to have you call him untalented. He’s an adorable baby who can do it all. He is only 16 and he writes songs for crying out loud! He can dance and sing and maybe rap (I think). He was also Rank A from the start! (All the BNM kids are talented af so never fucking say he’s talentless)

Rank 2 - Park Jihoon - Got here because he winked BUT that doesn’t mean he’s not talented. He’s a good dancer like a really good dancer, And he knows how to work a camera, clearly. He’s not the best singer but he tries. He’s an okay rapper but we never got to see much of that. Jihoon is adorable and cute and a whole lot of goot things but people kept bashing him for getting to the top because he winked. He’s still talented though (Rank B isn’t that bad cause Jaehwan was Rank B).

Rank 1 - Kang Daniel - I will not take anyone calling him untalented. Seriously there are too many people saying he didn’t deserve it. Have you watched ANY of his stages. He ALWAYS stole the show and he’s NEVER been center. Look, people forgot he was a rapper because he sang so much on this show. Like he gave all the rap parts to other rappers because he knew they couldn’t sing. He’s an angel who loves cats and people. He’s also awkwardly hilarious. He was bound to be in the top 11 from the moment he hugged small Woojin. Worked hard and moved from Rank B to Rank A. Watch any of his fancams and prepare to be shook. 

If you’ve made it this far, I applaud you. 

Wanna One is talented.

Everyone in the top 20 was talented. 

I wish they made a group with the top 20 because I loved so many of them. 

Vulcan Mind Link Analysis – Conclusion

Part 1| Part 2| Part 3| Part 4| Part 5

 After taking a closer look at the instances where the touch telepathic abilities of Vulcans are mentioned and or used during TOS and TMP I wanted to sum up the results in one last post on the subject.

The first time the Vulcan Mind Meld is used occurs in the first season episode “Dagger Of The Mind” (S1E11 in production order). Here Spock melds with Dr. Gelder to find out what happened to him. During the series there are a number of occasions when Spock has to meld with someone or something. It is always a last resort and only if there is no better way to solve the problem or handle miscommunication (remember the Horta?).

It took me by surprise to realize that the first Mind Meld with Jim only happens in season three. Episode 56 to be precisely. In “Spectre Of The Gun” Spock melds with the entire crew to convince their minds that what happens to them is not real, in order to save their lives. At first this doesn’t seem to be that much of an indicator for intimacy, but looking at the reactions of the other crew members it does prove interesting. While Scotty and McCoy freeze and seem terrified by having another mind in their head, Jim is comfortable and doesn’t display any signs of distress.

The second time Spock melds with Jim is in “The Paradise Syndrome” where he has to find Jim’s buried memories of his real self, due to a serious case of amnesia. It’s an intense scene and probably a much deeper meld than the first time, not only because of the duration of the contact, but also because Jim’s distress is visibly bleeding into Spock.

After everything is said and done Spock compliments the captain: “His mind. He is an extremely dynamic individual”. Which tells us that he delved deep enough to get a good look at Jim’s innermost thoughts, his mind, maybe even what constitutes as Katra in Vulcans. There is a reason for one of the five principles of Vulcan philosophy to be privacy. If you possess the ability to look that deeply into someone else’s mind, be the intentions as they may, you have to honor the privacy of each individual for society to work.

But I think it can be established that from this (admittedly otherwise whacky) episode that Spock knew Jim’s mind and, as we see a bit further down, is able to recognize it by a mere touch alone.

The third time happens in “Requiem for Methuselah”, which in itself is a very special episode and famous for McCoy’s often quoted dialogue with Spock. It’s one of my personal favourites for its portrayal of love and the different facets that make up this complex emotion. In Methuselah we see Flint’s obsession with his creation. Rayna, who never saw another living being before and develops an innocent crush for our charming captain. Jim himself is manipulated into caring for Rayna, but he still likes her. In the original post I called it infatuation on his side and I think that still makes sense, because I don’t think love can grow over one afternoon. And then, of course, there is Spock. Who is the only one to show love as a selfless want for the wellbeing of another person. Because when Jim is heartbroken over Rayna’s death, he makes him forget her. And that is a VERY IMPORTANT point here! Spock is Vulcan. He is INSANELY private and he still deletes Jim’s memory of the android, although every Vulcan principle tells him not to. He does it, because he is helpless otherwise, doesn’t know how to make Jim feel better.

Ironically, this is where he proves Bones wrong, only minutes after the doctor left Jim’s quarters.

The last instance in the Original Series concludes the third season in “Turnabout Intruder”. This episode is another personal favourite, because not only does Spock recognizes Jim’s mind IN AN INSTANT, when everything else tells him that this has to be a fraught, but he also holds Jim’s hand for almost two minutes, while he protects him. And we all know how casual Vulcans are when it comes to hand-holding *insert sarcasm here*.

What did I take from those reoccurring mind melds throughout the series?

I think by the time the 5-year mission ended those two had an unacknowledged mind link. A link that established itself without conscious decision, something that’s NEVER supposed to happen. However, since Spock is not only repeatedly exposed to Jim’s mind, but also progressively comfortable with this kind of intimacy I regard this as a possibility.

And Gene Roddenberry, ever the helpful cheerleading ghost that he is, practically hand-delivered me the arguments for this theory in the novelization of the Motion Picture Movie.

The very first thing the reader of the novel gets to see, before the author’s note, before anything, is the prologue, which happens to be Spock saying goodbye to Jim. Why is he saying goodbye? Because he is about to pass the trials of Kolinahr that will “purge all his remaining emotions”. Spock never intends to go back to earth at this point.

Now let’s take a step back here and ignore Spock calling Jim his T’hy’la for a moment (I know it’s hard), because I sure know that my favourite question of all time always resurfaces at this part: Why?

WHY?!? Why would Spock try to purge all emotion? Why did he come back to Vulcan after the five-year mission? Why would he return to a place that he left because he couldn’t stand how it made him feel? Why give up an extraordinary career? WHY WOULD HE EVER LEAVE THE SIDE OF NOT ONLY HIS TWO BEST FRIENDS, BUT ALSO OF THE PEOPLE THAT BECAME HIS FAMILY?

It will forever remain an enigma because Gene decided to be a horrible tease about it.

The fact is: We just don’t know and are left to speculate.

But there is this little something that doesn’t quite leave me alone and that I want to present. The only hint we are ever given regarding Spock’s decision is this tiny, seemingly unimportant remark:

Spock was in pain. Now the reader can either choose to interpret this as: “The raging war between his two halves finally takes its toll” or “Why does it hurt so much to be in the company of humans/one specific human”. In my understanding it’s a bit of both. Yes, of course Spock’s human half had to fight all its life to not be squashed by its overbearing Vulcan counterpart, but this is something Spock is actually used to. He even says so himself in “The Enemy Within”.

Which leaves us with option Nr. 2. Spock is canonically in possession of an extremely sensitive mind, which seems to be the nature of all Vulcans, hence the extensive mental shielding they are taught from an early age. When applying the afore-mentioned theory of an unacknowledged mind link the entire situation could not only drain, but actually be painful to Spock, if he is not aware of it. WHICH HE IS NOT.

The exact same moment: POV Jim on earth (above) and POV Spock on Vulcan (below).

As is shown in the book. The second Spock has to open his mind for master T’sai he is hit by Jim’s thoughts, and I mean HIT. It’s apparent form Spock’s reaction that this comes completely out of the blue. He isn’t even sure if they are Jim’s thoughts for a second, before he recognizes them and that’s the thing that trips me up. At this point Spock is more sursprised than the reader to realized the connection. I mean how can that even be possible? To be this close to someone without noticing?

It’s highly probable that Spock repressed his human half so completely, even before running away to Vulcan, that the link to Jim and all the emotions bleeding through were buried with it. Maybe he felt too close to him thanks to the link and it scared him or the bleed-through began to throw him off balance.

But in order to finally achieve the state of total logic he HAD TO open his mind entirely. So in this moment he had to let go and not even a heartbeat later he hears Jim thinking about him.

At this point the unacknowledged mind link theory can be addressed as canon, because when Jim wishes to speak to Spock and Spock can hear him 10.6 light years away, it can’t be anything BUT a mind link. Again, Vulcans are TOUCH telepaths, so reading minds while touching? Check. Reading the mood of a room? Check. Melding with someone over the distance of a few meters or through a wall? Check. Hearing someone entire systems away? Nope. It doesn’t usually happen, if we are not talking about something like hundreds of telepaths dying (The Immunity Syndrome) or the appearance of a powerful entity a.k.a Vger. And Jim is neither. This is a completely singular occurrence. As far as I know it never happens again between two regular(-ish) people.

I will be mad at the movie for not including this particular dialogue into the triumvirate-scene after Spock comes back on board as long as I live. Spock admits to being able to hear Jim’s thoughts and it’s a shame that we don’t get the captain’s thoughts on this revelation. BUT we get Bones, which is better still.

Bones is not surprised, not even the slightest, that those two have a connection between them. His medical knowledge throws me a bit though. Not because I don’t think it’s plausible, but because this is the only instance we ever hear of a connection like that.

But “telepathic rapport between Vulcan and human only in cases of EXTRAORDINARILY close friendship”? This line is gold. Those two are so close to each other that they know each other’s thoughts, they can sense the other one blind. They risked their lives time and time again to save each other. So yeah…extraordinarily close is how I would coin them too. Hence my undying love for the term T’hy’la, that Gene generously gifted us with. Friend. Brother. Lover. There is no “or” in between those words, it’s not “choose the correct meaning” it’s all three of them, together forming one untranslatable word and friend is only a third of the concept.

Also: Bones is still pissed about how Spock denies even the tiniest display of friendship towards Jim, which makes for an interesting discussion about what happened after the Five-Year-Mission to split the trio up.

So, to sum this up:

  1. During the Five-Year-Mission Spock has to meld with Jim more than once (at least four times are documented).
  2. The melds increase in intensity up to the point where Spock alters Jim’s memory.
  3. At the end Spock can tell Jim’s mind by a simple probe. He knows him “better than anyone in the universe” he “knows his thoughts” (Jim’s words)
  4. There is an established mind link between them that neither know about. 
  5. The link seems to be the root of the pain that drives Spock to Mt. Seleya to pursue Kolinahr.
  6. Spock can hear Jim’s thoughts from 10.6 LIGHTYEARS away, when he finally opens his mind for the first time after three years. (I like to stress this, because it’s absolutely unique.)
  7. Bones is not even fazed by this revelation, maybe because he suspected it ever since “Turnabout Intruder” when Spock was the only one to believe “Janice Lester’s” story.
  8. “It was common knowledge that telepathic rapport between Vulcan and human was possible only in cases of extraordinarily close friendship.”  - official medical assessment.

Your honor, I rest my case.

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so why not crack your skull when the mind swells