so inspring

I’m so tired of feeling depressed. Tired of being tired. Tired of having crazy thoughts that have no truth behind them. I’m tired of pushing myself to smile. I am beyond blessed. I need to pick myself up and find what I need to do in my life. I wish the people around me understood what it feels like. To feel like a prisoner in my OWN mind! I didn’t ask for this; I don’t want sympathy. I just want to feel again. That happiness, the happiness I’ve felt during my childhood days. I feel like I’m drowning. Reality has me feeling though as if I’m drowning. Working dead end jobs. Barely paying the bills. Life is just one big cycle repeat in today’s society. To feel free of depression and anxiety is what I strive for. Everyday is a fucking battle. But what is my dream? I need to break through this fucked up illusion and find my dream. To find that silver lining. Everything happens for a reason. - I need to remember this. One day at a time. -Samantha