so if i take these pills

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I was going through all my vent art yesterday and I found this (on the bottom right)! so I thought I’d redraw him because he cool as heck and I like collecting sonas apparently

lol i went to the doctor on wednesday and told her ive been feeling like trash, and she was like, “let’s run a panel for a vitamin D defeciency,” and she just called back saying that a normal range is 30-100, and mine is 18.3, and now i have to take two of the highest otc dose of vitamin D supplements, daily, for two months, and then have to have my blood stolen and analyzed again. dumbbb

Oh man I had this crazy dream last night

I dreamed that scientists discovered a way to like disintegrate your lady/man parts. Like you’d take pills and your genitals would just disappear. And I got my hands on some of these pills except the packaging was so flimsy they kept popping out and rolling away. And I was just running after these pills and picking them up and brushing them off and putting them in my pocket. But I kept losing them. And I was like “GODDAMN IT STAY PUT YOU PILLS. I DONT WANT GENITALS.” And that’s my dream.

anonymous asked:

im glad im not the only uterus owner that thinks being pregnant would be one of the worst things ever // NOPE NOPE NOPE

honestly like, I know I could get rid of it but even that scares me because even tho I am 100% pro-choice I get guilty so easily and I just the idea of it would make me break down, as well as the process (even if it’s early on and you just take a pill) is painful and scary.

And oh my god the idea of being pregnant? No fucking way. I get very easily frsutarted when i feel even *slightly* ill and i don’t handle pain well. The idea of having all these possible symptoms- morning sickness, needing to pee all the time, back pain, as well as in the later stages not being able to tie my own shoes is just a no way for me. That’s not even getting into giving birth. 

It’s just not something I could ever picture myself being okay with, and I’m p sure if I wanted kids I’d either have a surrogate =or adopt. 

anonymous asked:

Bb......why do u have a cat if it allergic.... I mean I get that all cats r beautiful anf good and perfrct but w h y

Lmao it’s okay both me and my mom are allergic to cats but the thing is we’ve both had cats our whole lives and neither of us are willing to give them up so long story short we have four cats and don’t give a fuck. I take allergy pills so the dander doesn’t bother me too much but it does flare up if I’m an idiot and shove my whole face into my cats’ tummies. Just gotta be careful around new cats bc I’m not so used to their dander. I usually end up having to take my inhaler to places that have cats.
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- Tiki

And maybe love isn’t always a kiss on a forehead but rather a hug and a kiss that say’s “I’m sorry let’s not fight” than spilling words out to each other in the heat of the moment that you would regret later. Maybe it isn’t about buy her diamond ring’s and lace underwear excepting her to wear it for you later that night. Maybe it’s leaving her pill bottle next to her phone with a glass of water as a reminder that thing’s can get better with a little help. Maybe love isn’t about giving fifty fifty each way, maybe it’s about giving 100 when that person greatest demons come to visit for the day. Maybe love isn’t about writing about how beautiful her body was the first time you saw it and how you’d have never seen anything more raw and natural. Maybe it’s about writing how she makes your soul dance in the rain of sunshine and how it also makes your heart ache from time to time when both sides are being stubborn. Maybe it’s not about a vow that you both swear to keep but a understanding that sometimes things don’t work out and sometimes they do. Maybe it’s not about saying I love you every second of every day but showing that love in the simplest of ways like “call me when you get home so I know you’re safe.” Maybe, just maybe you’ve been looking for love in all the wrong places and maybe even the wrong people. Maybe the kind of love that you are so hell bound on searching for is taking your pills without no one reminding you or dying your hair the color of the sky because that’s the only time when you feel closest to your real self. Maybe the kind of love that you are searching for in another person is already right in front of you when you look in the mirror. Maybe that’s where you’ll find your one true love. Maybe it isn’t a her or him or someone but a you, maybe just maybe you can find the love that you long for in yourself and maybe just maybe if you’re lucky enough you’ll also meet a person who makes your heart dance in the rain. Maybe that’s what love is, loving yourself or maybe it’s not. I don’t know but when I do I’ll let you know.
—  Deeply Feeling Series
I first tried to kill myself when I had just turned 19 years old,
to this day I remember the feeling of the pills going down my throat,
swallowing them so effortlessly
as though it were my destiny.
As though I was built with this capacity 
to self destruct,
built with the capacity
to destroy this body that my mother pushed out into the world.
‘Ironic,’ I thought.
A month after my birthday, I try to take my life,
I end up in the psychiatric ward of the hospital I was born in.
I make a tally for every time I looked around the empty room
and wondered how I could make things final this time.
I make a tally for every time someone says I don’t look like
I’m supposed to be there.
I make a tally for every lie I’ve told:
Were you sexually abused? [x]
Did you have prior suicidal thoughts? [x]
Would you do it again? [x]
Do you use drugs or alcohol? [x]
I lie and deny it all, but how do you deny what’s in your blood?
I was built with an addictive personality,
my mother likes pretty little white lines and risky sex
and my father likes hard liquor and smoking cigarettes. 
I was built with this capacity to deceive,
built with a baby face and angel wings,
but I sink my claws and watch myself bleed whenever I can’t feel a thing.
And I’m decomposing,
hiding empty bottles in my closet, in the hamper, and under my bed.
I can’t flourish with the thoughts screaming,
‘USE ME, USE ME. DON’T HANDLE WITH CARE.’
So don’t ask me why I hate the beach,
because I can’t control anything around me
other than my food intake.
And don’t ask me why I can’t wear shorts anymore
or why I wear long sleeves in 80 degree weather.
Don’t ask why I stay in places I shouldn’t
when I’ve already accepted my fate.
To live as fire, consume all that I can, before I quickly burn out.

Let me just say that Luna’s bravery as an idol should be commended by everyone. Even non-fans. She has been ignored, torn down, and thrown away by her company, the public, and the majority of a fandom that should at the very least appreciate her, if not actively support her, almost entirely because people used to think she was ugly. Despite all that, she is one of the few idols I know of who on the regular puts herself out there on SNS and Youtube with no makeup. She KNOWS people think she’s ugly, but she loves and wants to share her passion for makeup so much that she is willing to put herself up for everyone to see and show herself from start to finish and she is a happy-pill every step of the way. It takes a lot of strength to show herself like that in the industry she’s in, especially when people take every chance they can get to tear her down, and it’s just one of the many reasons I respect her so much.

I think people who avoid medications because they “don’t want to change their body chemistry/depend on artificial drugs” are missing the obvious, especially in the case of chronic illnesses.
If you need medication, your body chemistry is already off. The medication brings it back to normal. It’s not like a perfectly healthy person decided to pop levothyroxine pills for kicks; it’s someone using the tools available to bring themselves just a bit closer to being healthy.
“Well I wouldn’t want to be dependent on so many drugs.”
Good for you, hypothetical health nut. But some of us don’t have that option, and taking medications isn’t choosing to be dependent anyway. Getting proper treatment makes us /more/ independent.
Point is, you’re not polluting yourself or whatever by taking your meds. You’re not taking the coward’s way out or giving yourself over to big pharma.

Mmmm I’m sorry to all the Be More Chill fans writing Hogwarts AU’s cause like excuse me??? There is. No way in HELL Jeremiah Heere is a Gryffindor. That boy is a Slytherin through and through!! Like Slytherin’s are known for doing whatever it takes to make it to the top n I’m sorry he swallowed a shady-ass $400 pill from Japan in the back of mall Payless just so he could bone the chick he’s been crushing on for years.. Gryffindor my ass

this part in ‘back to you’ that goes like 'I know you say you know me, know me well But these days I don’t even know myself, no I always thought I’d be with someone else I thought I would own the way I felt, yeah I call you but you never even answer I tell myself I’m done with wicked games But then I get so numb with all the laughter That I forget about the pain Whoah, you stress me out, you kill me You drag me down, you fuck me up We’re on the ground, we’re screaming I don’t know how to make it stop I love it, I hate it, and I can’t take it But I keep on coming back to you I know my friends they give me bad advice Like move on, get you out my mind But don’t you think I haven’t even tried? You got me cornered and my hands are tied You got me so addicted to the drama I tell myself I’m done with wicked games But then I get so numb with all the laughter That I forget about the pain Whoah, you stress me out, you kill me You drag me down, you fuck me up We’re on the ground, we’re screaming I don’t know how to make it stop I love it, I hate it, and I can’t take it But I keep on coming back to you (back to you) Oh, no, no, I just keep on coming back to you (back to you) Oh, no, no, I just keep on coming back to you And I guess you’ll never know All the bullshit that you put me through And I guess you’ll never know, no Yeah, so you can cut me up and kiss me harder You can be the pill to ease the pain 'Cause I know I’m addicted to your drama Baby, here we go again Whoah, you stress me out, you kill me You drag me down, you fuck me up We’re on the ground, we’re screaming I don’t know how to make it stop I love it, I hate it, and I can’t take it But I keep on coming back to you (back to you) Oh, no, no, I just keep on coming back to you (back to you) Oh, no, no, I just keep on coming back to you Back to you I just keep on coming back to you’ reblog if you agree

MC does successful suicide prank (Trigger Warning)

Geez, this is dark. You okay, Nonny? Sorry it took so long to do this request. I wasn’t feeling it and I didn’t want to half ass this. It was also very hard to think of this many ways to suicide… prank. So I made some accidental pranks. Maybe I overthought it. Anyways TRIGGA WARNING YALL.

I didn’t do the minor trio cause these were hard. But I did do Vanderwood cause I was able to think of something short and fun.

Yoosung

  • “MC, please, I need to study.”
  • Yoosung had ignored you so much the whole weekend.
  • The ONLY time you two had free time this whole month.
  • But what could you do, he was studying to get his Ph.D.
  • After dealing with this all day, you took some pills to soothe your head.
  • You left the bottle on the coffee table and took a nap on the couch.
  • You woke up to Yoosung shaking you, “MC, please wake up!”
  • You sat up and your gaze met Yoosung’s tears.
  • “I-I’m taking you to the ER, right now.”
  • He pulled you up from the couch.
  • “What? Why?”
  • His eyes darted over to the bottle of pills on the floor.
  • “Oh, I spilled the bottle!”
  • “Wait. You didn’t?”
  • “Didn’t what?”
  • In that moment, Yoosung’s knees buckled and he knelt on the floor.
  • “Yoosung, what’s wrong??”
  • He couldn’t even talk between his hiccups and cries.
  • After putting two and two together, you realized Yoosung thought you had overdosed.
  • “You thought I had…?”
  • You didn’t even need to finish that question cause all he could do was nod and sob.
  • You pulled him in for a kiss and serenaded him with loving words.
  • “I could never. I’m so happy with you. I love you.”
  • Yoosung didn’t leave your side that whole night.
  • He rather spend time with you right now than anything else.

Zen

  • “I’m not so sure, Mr. Director.”
  • “MC, it’s a little white lie! It’ll be the big money shot.”
  • “But isn’t this a bit much?”
  • “Look, it’s been weeks and he’s still having trouble emoting everything we need him too. We’re wasting so much time and resources on this.”
  • “I know, but I don’t want to scare him. We don’t even know how he’s going to react!”
  • Before you could get a response, the director spoke into his walkie talkie, “Zen is here, action.”
  • You looked over to Zen, who spotted you and waved at you.
  • You looked back up to the director who winked at you and said, “Break a leg!” And with that, he pushed you off the scaffolding.
  • “BABE?!”
  • You fell right up until 3 feet above the ground. The only support you had, a rope around your neck.
  • “MC! NO NO NO!”
  • He ran over to you and tried to push you back up. “HELP! SOMEONE, CUT THE WIRE!”
  • Stagehands rushed over and cut the wire around your neck.
  • Zen pulled you towards him and sat you down.
  • “WHAT WAS THAT?!”
  • “Zen,  I-.”
  • “No! Shut up! Do you know what you were trying to do! Do you know just how I would have felt if you succeeded?! A-are you not happy with me? I-I-I… What would I do without you?”
  • Zen collapsed to his knees in front of you. “What would even make you want to do this? Aren’t you happy with me? Did I do something wrong? I love you so much, my whole world almost ended with you.”
  • He reached his hand up to wipe the tears now on your cheek.
  • He pulled you into a hug, and you felt his chest heaving.
  • “CUT!” The director came out of his hiding spot.
  • “What?” Zen pulled back looking at the cameras around him.
  • “We did it! We finally have the shot!”
  • “What???” He turned back to you.
  • You unbuttoned your top to show a harness around your body, which is where the wire was really strung to.
  • “Zen, I- You were- I wasn’t on board with-”
  • “I told MC how you were having trouble portraying the right emotions and I thought it would be nice to do this stunt to help you along.”
  • Zen was angry, upset, crying, scared, but mostly relieved.
  • He took your hand and pulled you into his dressing room ignoring everyone else.
  • You spent the whole time apologizing, and Zen just held you lecturing in your ear and every now and then telling you how much he loved you.

Jaehee

  • You didn’t mean to prank Jaehee, it just came naturally.
  • You were in the tub trying out new bathbombs.
  • This one in particular had a nice red color with a sweet rose smell.
  • As the ball dissolved it left the water a deep red color.
  • “Looks like I am washing off someone’s blood. Kinda like my blood.”
  • As you dozed off, staring at the water you heard Jaehee come in.
  • Now’s good as time as any to play dead, right?
  • Nope.
  • Jaehee knocked on the bathroom door but since you gave no response, she opened it to make sure you were alright.
  • In a matter of seconds she was shaking your shoulders and yelling, “MC? Wake up! Can you hear me? MC!!!”
  • “Oh my god,” She turned around and grabbed her phone
  • But then she turned back to you who was now awake and you smiling.
  • “Gotchu!”
  • Your smile faded as you saw that her face was pale, eyes widened.
  • “Hey, Jaehee, it was a joke.”
  • No response from her.
  • All you feel is guilt now and all you think is, “Wow, dumb joke, me.”
  • “It’s okay, J–”
  • She cut you off and just screams at you, her grip tightening on your arms.
  • “It’s not okay!!! Do you know how scared I was?! Why would you even joke about this?!”
  • “Jaehee, your hands are hurting me.”
  • She realized how much of his composure she lost and let go.
  • “Please, don’t ever joke about this again. Never again.”
  • Tears forming in her eyes.
  • “Never. I promise.”
  • All you could do to reassure her was pull her into a hug.
  • You spent the rest of the night holding her, and telling her how happy you are to be with her.

Jumin

  • You were having a crappy day.
  • The cake topper would be spilling red wine over all over your blouse.
  • You didn’t even have the energy to clean up.
  • So you sat on the couch for a minute before proceeding with your day.
  • Only, you fell asleep.
  • It wasn’t long before you jolt awake from the sound of glass shattering.
  • Your eyes follow the sound to Jumin who was standing by the door.
  • He dropped his bags, but that wasn’t the issue.
  • His eyes were fixed on you, fear instilled in them.
  • “J-jumin?”
  • He finally let his breath go as he stumbled to you.
  • “MC, what would I have done if I had lost you?”
  • “Wh-what?”
  • He pulled you into the tightest hug.
  • “If this is a joke, I don’t understand it.”
  • You rubbed his back, clearly not understanding what he meant.
  • After a moment, he pulled back to ask, “Why are you even wearing that?”
  • You looked down and realized the wine formed what resembled a blood stain on your chest.
  • “Oh, oh!!!  It-I-I’m sorry! I meant to change and fell asleep!”
  • Jumin sighed before he started to unbutton your blouse.
  • “J-jumin?!?”
  • “I’m getting you cleaned up.”
  • You blushed after realized what you thought was wrong.
  • “But of course, that’s after I make you remember how much I would miss you if you did leave one day.”

Saeyoung

  • Saeyoung and you had driven to the top of a mountain.
  • You were both waiting for the sunset.
  • You peered the edge of a cliff to see how steep of a drop it was.
  • Finally you turned to Saeyoung and calmly asked, “Do you still love me?”
  • He looked at you a little confused but answered, “Yes.”
  • “How much?”
  • “Hum… This much!” He held his hands only a foot apart from each other.
  • “ONLY THAT MUCH?!”
  • He laughed right before telling you, “This much more than possible.”
  • Instead of hitting him like you would usually do, you smiled at him and whispered, “I love you too. And I’m so sorry…”
  • “Sorry for what?”
  • “This.” With that, you stepped over the edge.
  • “NO! MC!” He ran over to you faster than he ever moved.
  • He wasn’t even thinking and threw himself off the ledge after you
  • He was shocked that he landed two yards below the ledge… right in front of you
  • “SORRY FOR REVENGE!”
  • You finally got payback for the mean prank he pulled a while back.
  • You stuck out your tongue practically joyed that he believed it.
  • But you felt a drop of water on your face. Rain?
  • No… Saeyoung was crying.
  • You Fucked Up.
  • “W-wait. It was a joke! S-Saeyoung!?”
  • He pulled you into the tightest hug ever.
  • “Saeyoung?”
  • His entire body was trembling against you.
  • Just his silence alone was enough to make you regret everything.
  • “Saeyoung? I’m sorry. I wasn’t.. I didn’t think it through..”
  • “I love you so much so don’t ever take that away. Please, MC. Please…”
  • You hugged him back and only told him, “I’ll never take that from you.”
  • Now you two just had the new issue of getting back on top of the cliff.

Vanderwood

  • Vanderwood walks into the room to find you face down in a pool of blood.
  • “MC, get up. I don’t have time for your jokes. Luciel is already a handful.”
  • He walks away.
  • You sit up.
  • Drat, Maybe next time.
  • “And clean up the mess.”
  • notp: literally makes out, passionately
  • me: i don't understand why people ship it. i don't see it at all. i don't think they really like each other.
  • otp: briefly makes eye contact
  • me (clutching chest, sobbing): DID YOU JUST SEE THAT INCREDIBLE CONNECTION?! THEY'RE PERFECT. THEY'RE SOUL MATES. JUST LOOK AT THE SUBTEXT. THEY'RE THIRSTING FOR EACH OTHER'S BODIES. THIS IS HEAVEN.
Blame It On The Alcohol

Pairing/Characters: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Warnings:
angst, jealous!Bucky (lmao bitch u know what’s comin next), SMUT, unprotected sexy time (donut be silly, wrap that willy u kno)
Summary:
Bucky gives into his jealousy and confesses his love for you
Word Count:  
1.9k+
A/N:
Part 2 of Tequila Works Wonders!!!!! I’d like to thank the Steve to my Bucky, @sickplanets for giving me the idea for the smut! Thanks you homo, all the homoeroticas for you from me :*

<<< PART ONE

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Anon said: Ed trying to touch hallucination Oswald or the first time Ed took the pills and saw hallucination Os. (I have a headcanon: Ed tried to touch hallucination Oswald and just went through him).

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