so i'm posting it cause i feel sorry for it

LGBT representation in the media
  • My mother: (homophobically) Are there any shows these days that don't have gay people in it?
  • Me: Biting my tongue back because I could go into a whole rant about how underrepresented the LGBT community is in television and how when we ARE represented it's either stereotypical Gay Best Friends, or good looking, cis, gay white boys. I could tell her that all of it is usually blatant gross fan service and Hollywood throwing the dog a bone, and I could tell her that The Straights are freaking EVERYWHERE and since we've all been doomed to watch them fall into sappy repetitive overly dramatic cliched insta love over and over again in the least she could do is not be homophobic while the boyfriends in this show get their 30 seconds worth of allotted screen time (that was only given, in the first place, because Hollywood feel like they have no other choice but to be 'politically correct')
  • So I need backup here to show her.
  • Can you all PLEASE like and reblog the shit out of this post if you agree that the LGBT community on a whole is grossly mistreated and actually, contrary to what she may think, very underrepresented in the media.
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  • Edit:
  • It has been brought to my attention that I shouldn't use shipping tags on posts like these. I'm sorry for any inconvenience caused by that. It won't happen again! 😊
  • For an explination, though, the reason I tagged ships on this is because I figured you all would understand/relate to what I was trying to say.
A Good Brother

Since he was a little boy, Charles Weasley saw Voldemort as his personal boggeyman. Even if  he’d never met the man in person, little Charlie was terrified of that person who’s name shouldn’t be said that made his parents sad and angry. He would ask every night for his  parents to check under his bed if he wasn’t there. The idea of a mass murderer hiding in his son’s room always started an ugly laughter in Arthur Weasley’s throat. But every night, he complied and assured Charlie he was safe and had nothing to fear. It was a lie of course. They both knew it.

Charlie knew he was right to be scared when he was eight and he saw his mother cry for the first time. He entered the kitchen one morning and saw her curled on her chair, a piece of parchement resting on the table. Charlie sneaked in to try and read the paper. His first fear was that something happened to one of his brothers. Because that was what his dad and mum often talked about when they thought Bill and Charlie were asleep. The words were small and complicated, but Charlie could decypher two names, Fabian and Gideon. His parents hated lying to their children, so they told them that their uncles were fighting You-Know-Who and died.  They didn’t say they were killed, but Charlie kind of understood that. He wasn’t sure what death really was just yet, but Bill told him it meant he would never see his uncles again. When he saw the twin caskets, a couple days later and watched them disappear in the ground, Charlie cried. He didn’t make a noise, because no one was talking, and you’re not supposed to be loud if everyone else is quiet. He simply gripped Bill’s hand and followed him around. For years, Charlie would dream of twin caskets in which his siblings were resting.

At school, Charlie was gentle and popular enough that people didn’t make fun of him if he ever got surprised crying because he was missing his brothers and sister. They would simply go look  for Bill, and later Percy, and either would comfort him and help him write letters home. Charlie was terribly bad with words and never knew how to get his thoughts across. In return for his letters, he would get drawings and pictures. He kept them preciously in his bedside table.

When he was thirteen, Charlie kissed a girl. She was pretty and smelled nice but even he didn’t feel much. There was no butterfly or firework in his belly like he’d been told he’d feel. At sixteen, Charlie kissed a boy, and though it was nice enough too, it wasn’t special enough to have him wanting to do it often. He’d learned about dragons the previous year though, during a class of Care About Magical Creatures. That lit his eyes up and made him daydream far more than any kisses could.

Charlie left Hogwarts the summer before Ron entered it. He left home in August, and headed to Romania to study dragons. He’d already read every book from the Library and was ready to meet people who’d understand his passion. Charlie made friends, and was teased for chosing a hermit life  in forests with giant lizards over becoming a Quidditch star. He didn’t mind, because at the end of the day, he got to see dragon eggs and share hot cocoa with his colleagues. The highlight of his year was still when his parents and sister came to visit. He also managed to get Bill to drop by. They got drunk and Bill listened to him cry about how much he missed all of their siblings. Charlie kept the drawings and photographs in a tiny box in his trunk. When spring came around and he received Ron’s letter asking him to smuggle a baby dragon, all his friends exploded in laughter and were ready to go before he even finished his explanations. They already knew Charlie would do anything for his siblings.

Charlie wasn’t there when Ron got hurt saving the world at the end of his first year. He came back for summer and bought Ron as many candies as he could eat. Sometimes, being a good brother is in discreet celebrations.

Charlie wasn’t there when his baby sister got possessed and left for dead in a mythical chamber. When summer came and Ginny left school, paler and more silenced than ever, Charlie kept a vigilant  eye on her. He didn’t go back to Romania for months. And when Arthur won the Daily Prophet Grand Prise Galleon Draw, Charlie was the one to suggest they should all go visit Bill. Sometimes, being a good brother is knowing your presence and a change of scenary are the best medicine.

Charlie was there when the Death Eaters attacked supporters celebrating a victory - or drinking the bitter taste of loss away. He went to fight alongside the Ministry to protect his siblings and everyone who needed it. He also stayed the rest of the summer in the Burrow. Sometimes, being a good brother is making sure your siblings and their friends have an open ear if they need to talk their fears away.

Charlie wasn’t there when Harry, his adopted but estranged sibling, watched Voldemort come back from the dead. From Charlie’s childhood nightmares. He learned about it in one of Ginny’s letters and got his worst burns when her words resonnated in his head as he was tending a dragon. In his head, Ginny had that same terrified voice as when she was twelve and asking him if Tom would come back. Charlie felt like he’d been lying to her for years, telling her she was safe and had nothing to fear. That Tom would never come back. Sometimes, being a good brother is forgetting how life doesn’t always follow your hopes.

Charlie wasn’t there when his father got attacked by an evil snake. Charlie wasn’t there when Dumbledore’s tiny army raided the Ministry. He came back to see the greying hair on his father’s head and the scars on Ron’s arms. Ron laughed it off. Charlie cried it out. Sometimes, being a good brother is shading tears other people won’t cry.

Charlie lived in Romania. He loved it, loved the people, the country, and above all his job. But when Charlie came back to Bill’s comatose and broken face, he considered never leaving again. Bill had always been his best friend, his safety in the chaos that was their family. Charlie hugged Fleur and helped her chose her wedding dress. He was Bill’s best man and joked, more than once, that Bill was actually the best man he knew. The three of them got drunk at a pub a few miles from the Burrow and he recalled every embarassing moment of Bill’s childhood. Sometimes, being a good brother is making your sibling blush and hit you in the face as their fiancée is bending in laughter and coughing beer out of her nose.

Charlie wasn’t there when Fred died.

Charlie was there to see his mother cry and his brothers collapse.

Charlie was there to see Ginny stand, tall and proud and clutching Harry’s hand so she wouldn’t get lost.

Sometimes, being a good brother is knowing that there are days when you can’t be the good brother.

Charlie was there when Victoire was born.

Charlie was there to see Bill cry and his siblings scream.

Charlie was there to hold the tiny baby and let her grip his finger.

Charlie was there when Ginny wrote that she was pregnant and wanted to see him. Everytime.

Charlie was there when Fred II asked to learn how to fly and neither George nor Angelina had the heart to teach him.

Charlie was there when Lucy got in another fight with her parents and needed a place to let her anger out. He was also there to bring her back home and make sure she’d apologize to Percy.

Charlie was there when Hugo felt inadequate and lonely in their giant family.

Charlie was there to talk about kissing boys and girls, about how sometimes people liked it and sometimes they just didn’t care.

Charlie was there to give pets as presents, as siblings and in-laws pretended they didn’t know about it.

Charlie was there every step of the way in his nieces and nefews’ lifes.

He quickly needed a larger box to gather all the drawings and pictures he kept receiving. (Hermione gave him an enchanted one)

Sometimes, being a good brother is being a good uncle.

I should probably explain what I’m actually criticizing about Thomas here.

Someone replied to this post saying that the anon was passive aggressive, which is fair, and that I’m making it out to seem like Thomas is a terrible person.

Now, I don’t think Thomas is a terrible person. HOWEVER; starting an argument with a paragraph the way he did, claiming that he knows this person must be struggling with their identity and he hopes they find support, none of which was ever implied by the anon, is an emotionally manipulative tactic to set himself up as The Good Guy. I don’t care about the anon, but I expect better of someone like Thomas Sanders. He’s famous, and lots of people look up to him. Him using this tactic makes it seem acceptable.

The paragraph setting him up as The Good Guy makes it to where, if you disagree with him, you’re an asshole. He even implies that the person that disagrees with him in the first place has something wrong that causes him to disagree, that he’s struggling with his identity. That’s a dick thing to do because you’re implying that people can’t disagree with you without having something wrong with them.

His actual argument itself is flawed it that he uses the acronym as LGBTQIA+ and the anon uses LGBT. They have to establish a common ground in the already existing community to go further, which Thomas doesn’t do. Then he says the community isn’t about oppression, but… the LGBT community is made up of groups of people who joined together to fight the oppression against them and support each other. Then, he virtue signals about how accepting his is, which is another emotionally manipulative tactic.

If you want to argue that asexuals should be included in the LBGT community, sure, go ahead, have at it! But leave emotionally manipulative tactics out of it. Make good points instead of guilt tripping people into agreeing with you.

Hey everyone! I hate to be this person but I need to ask for your help.

My parents refuse to take my mental illness seriously even though I have been officially diagnosed by a therapist and given medication by a psychiatrist (though I can no longer afford it thanks to recent events). They are content to mark any of the things my mental illness causes as laziness or just being a ‘bad child’ so it causes constant fighting and they said they’ve had enough and plan on kicking me out by the end of the month.

I had quite a bit of money saved up (as they have threatened this before) but my aunt spent my money (her son put his money in my account to keep it away from her since she has stolen her own son’s money repeatedly) when he left my online bank account logged in by accident she got her hands on it and spent everything I had. This is a whole other issue and it has left me broke.

I hate to ask for money, but I am honest to G-d desperate. I already work two jobs, but the factory I work at currently is shut down for a week so there is no money coming in there.

If you can’t spare anything, I understand completely, but reblogs would be greatly appreciated. Thank you so much and sorry to ask so much of you.

If you do happen to be able to spare anything (even just a dollar would be appreciated) my paypal is

anonymous asked:

Random question but does Aizawa stay on campus with the students? Do the teachers get their own dorm building? Do all the teachers stay at the school or is it just him and all might? Idk I just never thought about it till now

DISCLAIMER! This is purely my opinion so feel free to build an argument against mine, cause I don’t know.
From what I take—and my good friend understands—since he’s the homeroom teacher he lives in a different dorm and not with Class 1-A. In the beginning of chapter 98 it show in the first panel different building with similar structure to the 1-A Class Dormitory inside the U.A. Campus.

In the following panel dormitory is clearly labeled 1-A Alliance, the dormitory name (Now Remember this. Remember that it has a title, I’m getting to the point lol. I swear!) 

So Aizawa continues to explain that Floor 1 is common room and other utilities while, all rooms are on located on floor 2 and above, in the Alliance Dormitories. He gives a map in chapter 98, but his name isn’t there. It’s clear to me that he doesn’t live there.

Though in the scene in chapter 118 when Midoriya and Bakugou get into a fight, in Ground Beta Aizawa is informed via speaker. It shows a UA building dorm building, though it doesn’t show the 1-A Alliance dormitory logo. It shows a general UA logo without a name, but has a similar structure to that of 1-A’s dormitory.

Now it would be illogical to build a building just for him so it’s highly probable that the other 1-A teacher live here as well—perhaps it’s a choice for them—to live on campus. (If that were true I would like to add the headcanon that every friday the 1-A instructors gather for hot-pot. ) 
So in my long winded (slightly pointless) explanation, our scruffy baby doesn’t live with the students. But, in a separate building that may be exclusively just for instructors.

Originally posted by desu

anonymous asked:

Hey, sorry to disturb you but i'm feeling kinda down at the moment and your posts never fail to lift my mood so if you want it would be super nice plz but just some maurauders stuff (especially sirius cause i love him too he's the best) ? Like headcannons, or whatever just something I don't mind :)

Yes!!! I’m sorry you feel down and I’m sorry I’m just getting to this; I was busy all day today D: How about some Sirius cuddling/affection headcanons because we could all use this in our lives??

  • Sirius loves to pretend he hates human contact and often groans when people try and hug him but when it comes to you he’s a huge softie
  • He’s comes across as a bit aloof and tough to others and yeah he’s a badass but this. boy. loves. affection. too.
  • He’s not always touching you because that would be weird and annoying but if he sees an opportunity he’ll take it
  • Like walking with his hand on your lower back
  • Or squeezing your shoulders as he comes up behind you in the library
  • And he gives lots of hugs from behind when you least expect it, like when you’re in the corridor and he just swoops in and is like hello :P
  • This makes other students laugh and point and Sirius just whirls around and snaps “the fuck are you laughing at?” with a straight face
  • tough teddy bear sirius black
  • He also initiates the cuddling the majority of the time, usually by making some big movement like flinging his arm around you and pulling you close
  • Or being an annoying motherf*cker and swinging his leg over your side while you’re lying in bed and basically clinging on like a koala and just saying “hi” in a cute mumbly voice to get attention
  • doesn’t really care if he’s butting into your reading or if he knocks you off-balance when he cuddles up to you because ya know, dog habits
  • speaking of which, cuddling with him as padfoot??? yes pls
  • He’d be lowkey so needy tbh
  • But god forbid you initiate the cuddles, he’d be like “oh my god Y/N you’re so fucking clingy get OFF” but he can’t hide his smile :’)
  • Lots of playful “geroff me!” exclamations that only make you hold him tighter while you both laugh
  • He’s usually the big spoon because he is v large and warm but he also really likes lying with his head on your chest especially if he’s had a rough day
  • Lots of little movements while you’re cuddling
  • Like he’d play with your hair or rest his hand on your hip and just softly rub his thumb on your skin
  • Or you’d absentmindedly run your hand up and down his chest as you feel it rise and fall with each breath he takes
  • He likes to cuddle shirtless because he loves the feeling of skin on skin, it makes him feel really content and loved???
  • This boy loves holding hands but will never hold your hand with his wand arm because “You never know when I might have to hex someone, Y/N!”
  • He likes minor PDA but would never do anything too intense in public if it made you uncomfortable
  • In conclusion sirius is boyfriend goals and I need me a man like that

Cait :)

anonymous asked:

Do u think dean is abusive towards Sam and cas cause I have run into a group of people who insists he is

Ok, this is a pretty sensitive topic. By offering my thoughts on this, I’m not trying to invalidate anyone else’s thoughts or feelings - particularly those of victims of abuse themselves that identify in some part with the stories of the Supernatural characters.

In short: actually yes, I do think that Dean exhibits some abusive behaviors.

I am going to attempt to qualify the above statement, but if someone that you know sees him this way in either of these relationships, you should shut up and LET THEM.

Explanation for everything below, since this gets kind of long and is, as I mentioned, quite sensitive. Dean’s relationship with Sam and Dean’s relationship with Cas are different, so I’m going to address them separately.

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Trying to get out of my worst art slump ever… I even needed more than a week just to finish this sketch and it’s still far from done yet. To be honest it’s still hard for me to get myself into drawing, I just don’t feel like it but I’ve got enough of this shit I think I’ll try it anyways. Maybe I just need to get back to my routine, after all I used to draw almost daily

Enough of my whining, I think this hairstyle looks great on Sera and I’ll most likely keep it (or just draw whatever hairstyle I feel like for her, you know I hate just picking one cause you can do soooo much with hair!)
Also debating on the lip piercing, not sure on that one yet, what do you guys think?

Edit: it looks more hella in purple. If I already can’t manage to bring full piece I can fancy up my sketches at least.


Hello, everyone! 

I’ve never done anything like this before, so it’s probably not very good. But anyway, here are some icons that I just made!

I may continue to do them, so please like this post if you think I have a little bit of aesthetic to share with the world.

And of course, feel free to use them if you like, cause that would make me very happy! Just make sure you reblog/like this post and credit me if you do ;)

(Update: I made some Phil icons too –> Phil )

I’m back!

I really took more time away from tumblr than I thought I would, but I’m happy to say that I’m back! Now that I’m feeling better and done with the stress from university (at least for this summer), I’m more than happy to come back here  ♥

I didn’t get to do it individually, but I want to thank you all for your kind words and you support from when my grandfather passed away, I may have not replied at the time but it really did make me feel better so thank you! 

I’ll hopefully resume posting the Bulles in the following week or so, but I hope to first try and catch up with what I’ve missed for those past two months!

lacey-lamb  asked:

Ooh I have a request! How about some Reinhardt angst cause he's out on a date with his s/o and sees how they interact with friends that he deems more attractive and younger than him, making him feel not good enough and jealous. With a fluffy ending please! ♡ (congrats on the blog success I'm so happy for you! Keep it up!)

Thank you for your support, I always see you liking and replying to my posts so I’m sorry this took forever! 


It was times like this that Reinhardt wished he would’ve just kept you locked up with him all the time. Yes, it was nice going out on an actual date with you but it wasn’t so nice that your friends insisted on tagging along because it’d ‘be more fun that way’. Why did everyone think an older man like himself would want to spend any time with this crowd, a group of people who could’ve looked like his children. 

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i changed my url a couple days ago; i used to be lovelyhans.

i hit 1k the other day, and i can’t even begin to explain how thankful i am. the last 4 months have been absolutely amazing, and the amount of wonderful people i’ve met is truly astounding.

in honor of this awesome milestone, i thought i would have a celebration to thank every single one of you!! <3

here’s what this celebration will include:

  • quick blogrates
  • detailed blogrates
  • aesthetic blogrates
  • blog compliments
  • url-based moodboard requests
  • character/fandom moodboard requests
  • make me choose moodboard requests

you’ll notice that i have a bit of a moodboard theme going on

formats/rules under the cut. please don’t let this flop! feel free to blacklist “gabby’s celebration” if you don’t want to see these!

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Karma’s Birthday Bash :)

Hey guys! Next Wednesday (June 14) is my birthday!

But why should I have all the fun? I’ve got the day off and I’ve finished up all my big projects, and I’ve got the urge to do some smaller pieces. So, on June 14th I will open up for 24 hours for fic prompts!

A few rules to keep in mind:

  1. Prompts do not open until June 14th at 12:01AM EST! If you send a prompt before then I cannot guarantee it will be written.
  2. Prompts will close June 15th at midnight, so if you’re interested, don’t wait!
  3. All prompts will be gen only. I don’t do ships, sorry! If you do send a ship name, the characters will be written platonically.
  4. No guarantee on length! The story will be exactly as long as I feel like writing
  5. I do reserve the right to not write a prompt. Sorry guys, some prompts just don’t speak to me. I’ll do my best to fill, but if I’m no feeling it, it’s not gonna happen.
  6. Although I’m taking prompts on Wednesday they will probably be posted over the course of the next week or so.

Spread the word and join me on Wednesday for some fun!

Thank you and sorry

I went through all your messages and I’m blown away by all the support you guys have shown me. You are the true blessing and the proof that there are amazing people in this community. Please never forget that!
I also wanted to apologize for my stupid depressing post I wrote last night. I was feeling down, wasn’t thinking straight and was talking in general, ‘cause I felt like I was disappointing everyone in my life. I needed to vent somehow but ended up writing a sad post that made you all worry for me and I’m so sorry about that. We need to keep that positivity a-going and I fucked it up!! I’m a doof.

So, thank you again for your amazing support. I don’t deserve such great people in my life. You guys rock! And the very least I can do is being there for you, just like you were there for me. This is still a safe blog and if you ever need to vent, talk or just flip me off (:P) then please do! We are here for each other :)

*creepily goes back to making stupid edits*

- Mariel


So guys. I don’t even want to know how much I currently weigh. But. I need to face the reality that I have gained a lot. 😭😭. And the only way to fix it is to start. Soooooo I will be weighing in tomorrow morning when I get up. And no more excuses cause I have got to get it together. Also sorry for all the recent drunk posts 😅😅😅😬😬😬.

anonymous asked:

Hella! so if Yuuki's seed of desire born from a twisted love was about her intense feelings for Zero that could either plunge the world around her into misery or cause her to restrain herself so she suffered endlessly, does that mean that she is calling her love for Zero twisted or she fears that it could become that way? Of course, this is only if you assume that her seed of desire was her intense feelings for Zero, I think I saw a spec post about that somewhere and that's why I'm asking

Hello, gentle anon! I’m so sorry I didn’t get back to you sooner; hopefully you’ll see this response at some point! I promise I never forgot you; I just ran out of VK steam for a bit. =)

And you’re absolutely right, I’m sure I have a spec post floating about somewhere that mentions this issue. =) My personal theory is that the “seed of terrible desire” is planted the moment a pureblood “settles” on a love interest. So I believe what Yuuki comes to realize is that not just the evil Ridos and Kanames of the world, but also the Juris, Harukas, and Yuukis of the world all have seeds of terrible desire within them.

Yuuki sees within herself a shade of Kaname and Rido, because her own love for Zero–while good and healthy in its own right–has just as much of a chance to become corrupted as Kaname’s (restraining herself endlessly) or Rido’s (plunging the world into darkness). The reason I believe the seed of desire in Yuuki’s case is related to Zero and not Kaname is because the seed of desire only “sprouts” when the love of the beloved is unrequited. This indicates Yuuki’s fear that her love for Zero might one day be unrequited, leaving her no choice but to become either a Kaname or a Rido.

The reason I feel that Yuuki fears Zero’s love for her isn’t real is multi-fold:

  • Yuuki specifically mentions in the seed of terrible desire chapter that Zero wouldn’t want to drink her blood if she became like Rido or Kaname. (This implies she fears Zero has the ability to fall “out” of love with her.)
  • In the same chapter, after Zero asks about the seed of desire, Yuuki muses that’s it’s a twisted way of loving, and then immediately flirts with Zero. If she was talking about Kaname or her love for Kaname, flirting with Zero and keeping the “rest” a secret is uncharacteristically callous of her. For all my recent criticisms of her behavior, she’s never treated the topic of Kaname around Zero with anything but the utmost gravity. 
  • Yuuki doesn’t know Zero’s answer to his question in Night 86 (about whether or not his feelings for her were manipulated). I suspect she fears his feelings are “false,” just as her feelings for Kaname were, and that one day (just as she did) he’ll “wake up” from his love and realize he was wrong. This is probably especially compounded by her blaming herself and Kaname for his family’s demise and for her own choice to sleep with Kaname (and ending up with his kid).

Long story short, the “seed of desire,” in my interpretation, is the potential all purebloods have within them to become twisted toward the object of their affections. Yuuki, through Juri’s memories, begins to understand this is a reality for all purebloods, and that her own feelings might very well one day descend to the same darkness. Not only that, but she has the power to obtain her desires should she choose so (because of the purebloods’ ability to compel their prey into submission). Yuuki has always been afraid (much like Ai) of losing Zero’s respect and good opinion. If she should ever become depraved like Rido or obsessive like Kaname, she’s likely afraid of what she might do to Zero should she give in to her desire.

As an aside, the reason I don’t think this business is about her desire to turn Kaname (although VKM 9 is weird enough to support the idea that maybe this is just about her oddball wish to become one with Kaname) is because:

  1. She seems to be “just” learning about this ability of hers (where as she’s known she could turn Kaname since long before, in the original series and from what we learned in VKM 7 and VKM 8, which canonically happen before VKM 3, where the seed of desire happens).
  2. She associates this power with Kaname and Rido specifically, which seems odd if it’s about what she wants to do with Kaname.
  3. She relates it to Zero and how Zero feels about her (not wanting to drink her blood, the rest being a secret, etc.).
  4. The Rido memory itself is about Rido’s destructive passion for Juri, that he loved her to the point of wanting to destroy everything she loved in order to make her look only at him. Yuuki doesn’t have this kind of love for Kaname (demonstrated by the original series). If she did, Kaname would never have gone on his rampage in the first place. 

Given VKM 9, I do have to make an allowance that maybe this really is just all about her realizing she has the ability to become “one” with Kaname (whatever that means), but considering the fact that all she really does is the Juri sacrifice + heart sharing, that doesn’t seem to fit what she learns from the Rido memory.

We also have never seen Yuuki go pureblood rage-mode for anyone but Zero. This implies that the person who makes her the most intense is Zero. She does this three times in the series: once in Night 43, when Rido taunts Zero; once in VKM 6, when she’s putting the complaining vampires in their places; and once in VKM 7, when she’s stopping Ai from prying into the reasons why Zero might be upset about Kaname. The common denominator in all of these rage incidents is Zero. This is directly reflected by Kaname’s and Rido’s rage incidents, implying that Zero is to Yuuki what Kaname’s and Rido’s love interests were to them. 

Yuuki’s shown the passion restraint for Zero before as well, implying she’d probably go down Kaname’s road if Zero ever didn’t return her feelings. The incident with Zero on the train in Night 87 and the scene where she jumps Zero in Night 88 point to this part of her character.

All in all, this is just my interpretation of the seed of terrible desire. =) At the end of the day, until it’s clarified, all theories are equally valid. I just prefer the one that aligns best with what I’ve seen in the story up to this point. 

Thanks for dropping by!

blitzdragonking  asked:

Thanks for the reply. By the way, the manga on the manga website have only until chapter 25.

Do you mean on batoto? ‘Cause I know crunchyroll has up through volume 4/chapter 35.5, but that requires a subscription account to read, I think.

I won’t be posting anything chrunchyroll already has, btw, and if/when they release future volumes I’ll probably take down the translations I’ve done for those chapters. I’m not a professional translator by any means, after all, and I want to encourage people to support the official release as much as possible. I hope that answers any questions you had. ^^


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“Sorry,” is the utterly unapologetic answer Stiles gets to his most recent inquiry.  Making this the fourth day in a row.

Stiles squints into her indifferent face.  “You know, Janet, I don’t think you are that sorry.”

She shrugs.  She’s not.  And she’s not even sorry about her lack of being sorry.  Stiles can officially say he does not like this girl.  In fact, he’s totally gonna fill out a comment card that sums up this whole conversation with a tried and true: ‘Damn it, Janet.’

“He really didn’t say anything?”  He’s maybe sounding a little desperate now and he drags his hand off the counter to look slightly less unstable.  “About a message to pass along for someone named ‘Stiles?’  Nothing, huh?”

“Oh you know what—” she starts thoughtfully, shuffling through a few papers on the desk below and Stiles lights up.  Her eyes dart up, hard, and she finishes blandly, “no.”

“That was mean,” Stiles says, deflating.  It’d been a week since he’d seen Derek.  They’d mentioned meeting up after Caffiend, Derek had told him to drop by Halesome Arts again, whenever, he’d be there, they could talk.  Everything had seemed fine, good even.  Only Stiles had come by, had even looked for him on the metro.  And Derek was always notably absent, in both places, and Janet was always notably unsympathetic, in one of them.

She sighs exasperatedly now, rolling her eyes.  Stands, puts her elbows up on the hutch above her receptionist’s desk and drops her chin into her open palm.  “You know, I felt bad for you the first time you came in here, Stiles, but there’s a reason people don’t go see the same play every night of the week, you get me?”

“Right.  Yeah.  I—”

“It doesn’t help that the play isn’t even that compelling to begin with,” she cuts him off, unnecessarily adding that little sac-punch in there.  Stiles can’t exactly deny it though.  It probably just gets sadder and sadder with each new mounting of it actually.

“Yeah, okay.  I’m being blown off,” he makes himself say it out loud, croaky and more broken down than he’s possibly ever been, “that’s what’s happening here.”

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sorry for disappearing

i feel like i owe people somewhat of an explanation?  there are a few things that contributed, but here are the main ones:

  1. social anxiety
  2. something that happened to me in the past on social media, and fear paranoia that it will happen again.  listen, i doubt anyone on here is actually like this, but just in case: if you’re a friend of mine on here or compliment my writing just because you want me to say nice things about your writing, you need to stop now.  honestly, just stop talking to me
  3. i got another part time job, and this one pays well but requires an hour long drive to the city every day i go in.  it’s usually two hours home thanks to rush hour.  i’m not a huge fan of driving to begin with, so this is very exhausting for me.  i also work 2 part time jobs now, which limits my time as it is
  4. in addition to the 2 part time jobs, i have been spending a lot of time helping my parents clean up the house, since they’re getting ready to sell
  5. a realization that i need to grow up and figure out a better way to put food on the table in the future.  money isn’t top priority to me, which is good because i love writing but am not good enough to make much off of it.  still, we all need to get by, ya know?  and so i need to start limiting myself more in terms of how much time i spend writing.  being on here makes me want to write more, so i needed to take a step back for a while
  6. just feeling generally un-energetic.  it’s a part of my personality that pops up sometimes, maybe caused by anxiety but also maybe just a part of me.  this hasn’t happened to me in a while, but it usually gets a really negative response from people who know me to be more bubbly, so i’ve been afraid of that happening on here
  7. some anon hate to my various accounts which i will not be publishing because there’s no point.  idk, this wasn’t really a main reason, i guess.  it didn’t really hurt me or anything, because the anon didn’t really say anything i hadn’t heard before, but since i was already kind of overwhelmed with everything else at this point, it just sucked more energy out of me and probably extended the time i needed to take away

unfortunately, all of this is just the tip of the ice berg, and if people have questions about anything, feel free to ask.  i’m not against expanding on anything, and in fact questions are more than welcome because it’s reassuring to know that people still follow me after all of this, but i wanted to make this post as quickly as possible so that i wouldn’t chicken out before posting it